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    Ayyy~ My name is Kerri. I am a 31-year-old dweeb who lives in Atlanta with my 32-year old dork husband Mark, our small lady Luna, and our blue tabby Link.

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102: Oathkeeper




hearts_lace - Copy Feeling: Excited
music_spots - Copy Listening: Goldfrapp – Jo
tv_pink - Copy Watching: Killing Eve
tv - Copy Playing: Dragon Age: Inquisition


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uppercorner_bow - Copy Opening: Happy 2019 everyone! Does this layout inspire anyone else to cry about Kingdom Hearts and, more specifically, Aqua? Cool! Me too! Well, outside of layout changes, my domain URL is back to its WP URL (premium was okay but not worth extending) and I am once again changing the format of my blog posts. WP has been harassing me about a new editor that’s coming, so… the layout might change again once I try that out. Okay. That’s about it. It’s been a long while since I made an actual update so… bear with me.  lowercorner_bow - Copy


pin_purple - Copy *casually strolls in with a Starbucks cup like I didn’t semi-abandon this blog* What’s good?

pin_pink - Copy Yikes~ I have six months worth of updates about Luna plus the whole pregnancy plot in the motherhood arc, so I’m just going to tackle this in the form of frequent and interesting questions about the whole thing. It seems easier. K, let’s do this! ><

  • [Insert question about Luna’s birth stats]
    • Luna was born on June 27th, 2018 at 1:18 pm.
      • Took her 40 weeks + 6 days.
    • She was 7 pounds and 13 ounces.
    • She was 20 inches tall.
    • Labor + delivery was about ten hours.
    • Everything was normal. Normal pregnancy, normal labor, normal birth, and normal recovery. Can’t complain! ^^
  • What is her race/ethnicity?
    • Jamaican (Me) + Filipino and German (Mark)
  • What is her eye color?
    • It’s weird how often we get asked this.
    • Anyway, brown.
  • Do you think she looks more like you or Mark?
    • *sigh* Mark.
    • Just about everyone says Mark.
  • Why did you name her Luna Freya?
    • I chose the name Luna because
      • Mark and I met in Latin class so I wanted a name with Latin origins
      • Luna is Latin for “moon”
      • I chose “moon” because I love the things it represents: space, astronomy, astrology, a light in the dark/hope, mystery, magic, beauty, inspiration, and so many other things. The moon is the best. *_*
      • Luna is a Cancer like her mother, grandmother, great-grandmother, and great-great grandmother, and Cancers are ruled by the moon.
      • Many of my favorite works, songs, and fictional characters have some variation of “moon” or “luna” or “lunar” in their names.
      • Mark and I love mythology. Luna is the Roman goddess of the moon.
    • Mark chose the name Freya because
      • He really loves mythology and wanted another goddess’s name.
      • Settled on the Norse goddess Freya (she’s pretty cool).
      • He knows about Lunafreya Nox Fleuret but he doesn’t care about Final Fantasy.
      • I like Final Fantasy and I don’t mind the association with Lunafreya. I also don’t mind her being associated with Freya Crescent and Lulu, too.
    • Her name means “moon lady”. *_*
  • Does she have a nickname?
    • Lu, Lulu, Bubbie, Bub, Bub-Bub, Lu Bu, Small Lady, Little Lady, Princess. 
  • What can Luna do now?
    • Smile
    • Laugh
    • Say “mama” and “dada” but not to us
      • She called Link “mama” the other day and I was like… wow. The audacity.
    • Blow raspberries
    • Eat baby food
    • Chew on everything
    • Roll on her stomach
    • Sit up
    • Rock side to side (we call it dancing)
    • Grab her feet
    • Recognize (un)familiar faces and react accordingly
    • Sleep through the night (unless she’s sick or something)
    • Watch TV
    • Teething/Has one little bottom tooth breaking through her gums
    • … Grow too fast ( T _ T )
  • How are Link and Luna getting along?
    • Adorably well~ Link is a people person, so he’ll talk to anyone. Luna, on the other hand, took a few months to figure out what to make of him. Then one day she just started staring at him and smiling at him all the time, and that’s pretty much been their relationship: she stares, he yells, she smiles.
    • Here they are napping together:


  • Are you going to pierce Luna’s ears?
    • No. If she wants them pierced when she grows up I’ll take her. Her choice.
  • Are you going to vaccinate Luna?
    • Yes. Already did a few rounds and we intend to do them all.
    • Also, it’s depressing that this is even a question we get
  • Are you going to teach Luna to draw?
    • Yes. That talent runs in our family on both sides, so I’d like to at least attempt to teach her. Of course, if she hates it then we will move to something else. No pressure.
  • When is Luna getting a little sister/brother?
    • Go away. 

TL;DR Luna exists. We get random questions. I give rough answers.

Okay, those are all the interesting questions that I can remember right now!

pin_blue - Copy All of that aside, things have been going well with Bubbie. Or mostly well. She caught a cold a while back, so she’s still a little icky here and there. The doctor assured us (twice) that she’ll be okay (and that we need to calm down). Otherwise, she’s been kicking ass and taking names per usual. *Maes Hughes voice* Wanna see pictures of my daughter? She’s so cute!



pin_yellow - Copy As for me, I’m doing aight.

  • Currently, I am living the temporary stay-at-home mom life. 
  • My job is basically caring for Luna and doing chores. I can’t complain. Get to watch TV while I work. Drink coffee nonstop. My coworker is a cat. Not bad. The major downside is being on call to work 24/7 with no days off. Also, my boss poops her pants regularly. But she’s good people. 8/10
  • Anyhoo, Mark and I are gradually overcoming our fear of leaving Luna alone with others. SUPER GRADUALLY. So the whole “temporary” thing means I’m in the process of getting back into the work and college field.
  • Allat aside I do the usual: draw, write, play video games, read, etc. The holidays had us all over the place but now it’s over. And we can unwind a little. Yes~
  • TL;DR Boring shit.

pin_purple - Copy Okay. Now on to hobbies and such starting with drawing

  • … I’ve just been drawing fanart.
  • And not even consistent fanart. Like, every time I start a new show/movie/book I just draw a bunch of shit from that. Project Runway binge? Fanart! Xena rewatch? Fanart! Ant-man and the Wasp (primarily Ghost because she’s so badass)? Fanart! A Knight of the Seven Kingdoms? Fanart! Even our guilty pleasure reality shows that we watch are like… dangerously close to ending up in a sketchbook. D:
  • I think I’m just so happy to be drawing that even when I don’t have inspiration I just want to draw whatever my attention is on at that moment.
  • Anyway, the only reason why I haven’t drawn everything I’ve come across is because I’m building a sketchbook solely for Luna to have, so filters are necessary.
  • I’ll always remember how my brother’s sketchbooks used to be my favorite things growing up, so I want Luna to always have at least one completed sketchbook of mine that she can just flip through to feel better, you know? That’s my hope.
  • That being said, I’ll probably get back to my usual OCs drawings soon because I have some new ideas and outfits for them. 

pin_pink - Copy Writing! 

  • Let me begin by saying that the Brightburn trailer inspired me a lot.
  • I seriously had no desire to write anything until I saw that trailer, and then after Mark and I talked about how badly we wanted to see it he helped me to pinpoint what it was that drew me to projects like Drakengard and NieR and A Song of Ice and Fire and Berserk so strongly. Fantasy + horror! That’s what it is!
  • I love stories that seem like a run-of-the-mill fantasy story until odd things start to happen and then the more mysteries you solve, the more you realize that things are actually a lot more sinister and horrifying than they seem. The best~
  • Anyway, I want to try a new approach. I’ve been writing basically all high fantasy or sci-fi stories, but now I’d like to explore this genre. 
  • … We’ll see how that goes. Channeling my inner Yoko Taro. *deep breath* 

pin_blue - Copy Now on to gaming.

  • Where do I begin?
  • I don’t remember the specifics of E3 2018 (pregnancy brain was terrible) but I do remember soul-crushing disappointment. Can’t forget that!
  • I also remember that Square-Enix really had the nerves to show up at E3 and not even discuss the FFVII Remake. That’s like Marvel going to a convention and not discussing Avengers. The fuck are you doing here then? Go home. LMAO
    • Then they cancelled all the FFXV DLCs except the DLC about the character who already explained his whole damn life story in the original game. And Tabata resigned. Yeah… Square is a fucking mess. I’ll sooner buy a game from Ubisoft than Square these days.
    • Let’s face it. They lost millions in 2018 and they’ll lose millions more if KH3 is not gaming perfection. Even the most loyal SE fans are tired of the bullshit.
    • Anyway, someone send Tetsuya Nomura and Yoko Taro back braces because they’re carrying the whole damn company.
  • I don’t get what these gaming companies are smoking these days b/c most of them have consistently dropped decent to awesome game throughout pretty much my whole life as a gamer and now they can’t even drop a title without the entire internet rightfully tearing them a new asshole. I can’t.
  • Anyway, most of the shit at E3 is already out now so I’m super late. D:
  • I was more impressed with TGA 2018. That Dragon Age 4 announcement alone was better than entire conferences at E3.
  • The biggest blip on my radar, of course, is Kingdom Hearts 3. I hope Aqua, Terra, and Ventus get happy endings this time around. And that Master Eraqus gets avenged. Really, I was more emotionally invested in BBS than any other KH game, so I just want the wayfinder trio to reunite again. T_T
  • My gaming life these days is mostly Dragon Age: Inquisition and Skyrim. I never played the DLCs for those games, so now I’m replaying from start to finish with all the DLCs, extras, special items, etc. I think I’m just itching for a sandbox type RPG to play these days. And since I spend 90% of the time grinding, farming, and doing sidequests I don’t feel too nervous when Lu starts beating my controller like a drum. 
  • My next mission after DA:I and Skyrim is to play all the RPG classics I downloaded on my Vita and never replayed. Just to cleanse me of the filth that has come from the likes of EA, Bethesda, Square-Enix, Bioware, and other companies I used to trust.

pin_yellow - Copy What’s next? TV shows? Movies?

  • I finally watched The Good Place after everyone and their mom was like “WATCH THE GOOD PLACE” and then I watched The Good Place and now I’m telling everyone and their mom tO WATCH THE GOOD PLACE.
  • Mark and I found a few “guilty pleasure” shows: The Real Housewives of New Jersey, The Real Housewives of Atlanta, Project Runway, 90 Day Fiance, Paternity Court, and Little Women of Atlanta. We’ve also been looking for a good source to start Love and Hip Hop with no luck so… Yep… 
  • I’m rewatching Xena because the last time I watched the entire series was when I was in elementary school. Long, long, long overdue!
  • Honestly, between the last entry and this one I watched a lot of shows and movies. I don’t even know where to start or end.
  • I saw everything Marvel related, of course. All good. 
  • Like most people, I consider Black Panther and Infinity Wars to be the best movies to come from Marvel last year.
  • Daredevil was amazing. And then Netflix cancelled it, so fuck Netflix.
    • It is so hard when Daredevil is your fave comic book character because you have to scrape the barrel to find anything good about him. Now this. 😦
  • Was The Punisher last year? IDK. I liked The Punisher. Glad it’s not cancelled.
  • The Defenders was disappointingly meh.
  • I know Iron Fist and Luke Cage got cancelled, too, but I was mostly bored with the new seasons and their cancellations were not as shocking to me as Daredevil.
  • I can’t recall the fate of Jessica Jones off the top of my head but I wasn’t super into that recent season though. Still hope they didn’t can it. Overall, it’s a good series. It just desperately needs a Kilgrave-level of vile villain because every other threat they introduce to Jessica seems to pale in comparison.
  • Star Wars: The Last Jedi was not enjoyable for me. I even told myself that maybe I was being a tough critic because we had a group of people behind us who would not shut the fuck up for anything and it could have left a bitter taste but… nope. Even in the comfort of our home it was still a chore to complete. Which makes me sad. 
  • I watched The Dragon Prince. I liked it! Even though it contains like 50% of my story ideas.
    •  Ha ha ha ha ha *throws stories in trash* Ha ha ha ha 
  • Sorry To Bother You was great! Also, I can’t remember the last time I yelled “what the fuck?!” at a screen before. I usually just think it internally but… that twist/reveal/whatever was extremely what the fuck.
  • The second season of Atlanta had some WTF moments, too. I legit lost sleep over that Teddy Perkins episode and there was like… complete silence when that episode ended. LOL. How Donald Glover didn’t win an Emmy for that is beyond me.
  • Westworld was incredible. As usual.
  • Barry surprised me because I thought it would be trash but it’s not bad.
  • Deadpool 2 was hilarious.
  • I literally fell asleep watching Ready Player One. It was just… that whole movie was the film equivalent of that annoying nerd everyone encounters who thinks they’re the first and last person to ever enjoy something nerdy and will not stop trying to educate you about things you already know. *sigh* I hate that movie. I couldn’t stomach the book either. Maybe it’s just not meant to be my cup of tea.
  • House of Cards was a dumpster fire. The most frustrating part was that they managed to get rid of Francis in a way that was not bad tbh. I don’t mind the “murder mystery explanation of why the main character died in between seasons because the character’s actor is a piece of shit IRL and had to be fired” approach. When done correctly, of course. But I do mind when the new main character was once a secondary character and you do a complete 180 with her personality and everything the moment she steps foot in the main character role. Just… annoying. I liked Claire a lot. Now she’s a joke. They even made Doug a joke too. *Kevin Sorbo yell* DISAPPOINTED.
  • I think that’s it. IDK. I feel like I’m missing some huge movies and shows. T_T

pin_purple - Copy Anime and Manga time. Don’t expect much.

  • CASCA IS BACK ♥♥♥.


  • Honestly, I just check Berserk updates to see if Casca and Guts are okay.
    • I’m mainly here for Casca though.
    • And we all know if she dies it’ll just be 10 more years of Guts screaming and being angry and killing shit. Yawning already.
    • I love this too-old-for-this-shit/grumpy-dad Guts. I also love Schierke. Farnese, Serpico, and Isidro aren’t bad either.
  • I started and dropped a lot of anime within minutes of watching because, ultimately, Hayao Miyazaki is right. Otakus have completely invaded the anime production industry and it shows because a disturbing portion of shows feel more like fanservice-infested borderline hentai than something that was created to tell a story. Of course, not all anime is like this. Some are really good. But finding quality anime among all the trash is a chore. So much so that I’ve mostly lost interest in anime unless I’m rewatching an old series that I already like. TL;DR that Hayao Miyazaki meme was right. Anime was a mistake.
  • But at least JoJo Fridays are back amirite~
  • I’m not super into Vento Aureo but I’m always fond of stand battles.
  • I liked Golden Kamuy. The humor was so off that I laughed hysterically a lot of times and then the story itself was really interesting. I love the way they combined lessons about the Ainu culture with lessons about cooking with a mystery with a story about war with… so many other aspects. It’s refreshing. I liked it a lot.

    P.S. Protect Asirpa, please! She’s my anime daughter and she makes adorable faces:


  • I finally finished Yona of the Dawn a few months ago. I… am shocked at how sad this series is because it looks so upbeat in artworks. Anyway, now I have to read the manga because the show ended on a cliffhanger and hasn’t continued on it for years, so… thanks~
  • Skull-face Bookseller Honda-san reminds me so much of what life was like as a retail worker. I feel so bad for him. :’)
  • Mark and my nephews have been pushing me to watch Boku no Hero Academia and I really do want to watch it. I mean it, ya’ll. That is number one on my list! ><
  • That’s about it. I’m more interested in manga than anime these days but maybe newer seasons will bring along better things.

pin_pink - Copy Uh… let’s just toss everything else into this last bullet because I want to do other stuff. LOL

  • What can I say about current events that isn’t being said literally everywhere else? Every. Where. At all times. Nonstop. ^^
  • Maybe I can say this and some people might agree that it applies to them too:


  • Anyhoo. I’m not sticking my head in the sand or anything when it comes to the happenings on this planet, but I desperately need a break from it all sometimes.
  • A lot of times.
  • *sigh* What else is new?
  • I finally remembered my log in for my old photobucket! Shitty edits galore! Right now I’m trying to download all the images and save them on a USB drive because PB is putting ugly banners on images that use their links and they’re trying to sell packages to un-ugly linked images. No thanks! ^^

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  • … I don’t know where I’m going with any of this. LMAO
  • Honestly, I was going to tackle all the miscellaneous things like the Ray Route in Mystic Messenger (T_T) and specific acts of buffoonery happening in the gaming industry and fandom-related shit I’m excited about and random hilarious things that happened me in the time I was gone but… meh.
  • There are too many things. :’)
  • Let’s just end it here~


uppercorner_bow - Copy Closing: *Phew* That’s a lot! Maybe I shouldn’t put off like… a year and change worth of updates next time. Then again, I don’t know how long my WP days will last with WP putting huge ads all over my page and other obnoxious shit that’s been getting under my skin. I might as well put every update I do in my domain since I’m paying for it. I guess I just get so worn out by all the coding that I just prefer something premade. *sigh* Honestly, I wouldn’t mind reducing my online presence to my domain. Less stuff to update. I don’t know. Maybe I will~ Maybe I will not~

Well, I’ll definitely be on hiatus when Kingdom Hearts 3 rolls around. The leaks are a mess by themselves, but it’ll be even worse when the game actually drops. Better safe than sorry. Also, I think a lot of people I know will be gone for KH3 so it’s going to be a deserted wasteland in a few weeks. 

Hope everyone has fun! I’ll try to update before Luna graduates high school! lowercorner_bow - Copy


That’s about it! Sending good vibrations~~~


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I Love You To The Moon & Back


shootingstar_purple - Copy Name: Luna Freya O.

shootingstar_purple - Copy Nicknames: Lulu, Lu, Small Lady, Little Lady, Princess, Bubbie

shootingstar_purple - Copy Birthdate: June 27th 2018 @ 1:18 pm

shootingstar_purple - Copy Birth Weight: 7 lbs & 13 oz

shootingstar_purple - Copy Birth Height: 20″ tall

shootingstar_purple - Copy Note: Lulu will be three weeks on my birthday (7/18) and then a month old after that. Wow… time flies @_@. Then again, time kinda just mushes together when you’re up every 1-3 hours to change, feed, and play with a baby. Life is completely different–like night and day–but I don’t mind. It’s an honor to be a mother to this little girl. We really do fall in love with her just a little bit more each day. Bah, I’m being sappy. Whatever. That’s allowed. We’re new parents, so we’re allowed to be overly emotional newbs. LOL. Well, all will get better in time. Even my impatience with wanting to talk to Lu and walk with her and take her to museums will all come along with time. We can’t wait. So many memory cards to burn through when we take 1000s of pictures. 😀

Anyway, thanks for all the love and support. Everyone has been treating her like a princess since she got here, and it makes me so happy. It makes Mark happy, too. Seriously, thank you x 1000!

Alright, I’m going to squeeze in some other tasks before Lulu wakes up from her nap. Once she starts sleeping longer and I have time and I don’t feel like a zombie… a legit entry about everything from labor to birth to motherhood thus far to the few hobbies I managed to upkeep for like five minutes a day. LOL.

Take care, everyone~

BTW: To whoever is praying for Luna to be strong… We appreciate it but she is too powerful now. Please pause. LMAO. How is this girl like 20 days old and she’s throwing pacifiers across the room and lifting her head while we’re trying to burp her and rolling over on the changing table? *sigh* I worry that by year’s end she’s going to throwing us out the window when we don’t feed her fast enough. She’s such an adorable, scary warrior princess. Love her. ( T w T )

Grand Summon

baby shower

I feel like the anxiety of taking apart these diaper cakes will be 10x worse than the anxiety of using good stickers. LOL

It’s almost time. Permission to freak the fuck out. ◉‿◉

Although the due date on paper is June 21st, I’ve been told multiple times by doctors and experienced parents alike that when she is ready then she is ready. So, realistically, Luna could be here today or tomorrow or next week. She may not even get here until after the 21st—though not too long after the 21st for her own sake. It’s all just a waiting game… and all I can do at this point is try to squeeze in as much preparation as possible. The things I can handle physically have been folded, packed, unfolded, unpacked, re-folded and re-packed because… pregnancy makes you weird. LOL. Other things, though, are beyond my physical capabilities this month, and that is where I have to rely on Mark. *sigh* Poor Mark. I know growing a baby is tough at times, and I appreciate all the support from everyone, but Mark is the one picking up my slack until I’m completely able-bodied again. So, at the very least, please give him a pat on the back when you see him. I couldn’t do this without his help. ♥

That being said, I’ll likely be on a long hiatus once Luna gets here. And that goes beyond this blog. I probably won’t update social media accounts or answer back calls/texts immediately or accept every invitation to hang out. It all depends on how well we adjust to this parenthood thing. At the moment, it looks like I’ll be spending at least a few weeks taking care of Luna full-time while Mark works. Of course, we’ll both be full-time photographers when she gets here, too, so… LOL. We’ll try to share pictures. Keyword: try.

Well, I think that’s about it. Wish us luck! More importantly, wish Luna luck. She’s about to enter a new world where everything is weird and confusing. I hope we can guide her through it all with our house motto: courage, wisdom, and power. 😛

Alright, that’s about it. Take care!



pin_pink - Copy Mark and I are expecting a baby girl. 

pin_pink - Copy The due date is June 21st, 2018, so we’re pretty much at the halfway point. After the anatomy scan we had on 2/2/18, the due date has been updated to June 13th.

pin_pink - Copy Her heartbeat is strong, blood tests came back with low risk results, and ultrasounds show no abnormality so far. This is a major relief, especially after the loss we experienced last year. Please send positive wishes to our small lady~! hearts_lace - Copy

pin_pink - Copy Our close relatives and friends know about the pregnancy; however, we will not make any “official” announcements until we get the 20-week anatomy scan (along with a crapload of pictures).

Edit: Anatomy scan went great! She’s so energetic! And cute! Even when she’s stomping on my bladder ( T u T )! Waiting for pics though…

pin_pink - Copy We have seen her via ultrasound multiple times, and… yeah…  she is energetic. Aside from the strong heartbeat, the first time we saw her moving she was bouncing all over the place. Then when we had another scan after I had a nightmarish bout with the flu, the midwife told us there was A LOT of activity in there and we were going to have our hands full. LOL. I heard many tales about what a handful I was as a baby, so this is probably karma. ghost_laughing - Copy

pin_pink - Copy Yes, we have thought about possible first names and middle names: Alexandria, Luna, Zelda, Penelope, Vivienne, Francesca, Beatrix, Charlotte… It honestly goes on forever, but we’re trying to shorten the list. -_-

pin_pink - Copy Oh yeah. Baby shower is currently planned for April. We’ll worry about that later though. Not that we’ll have to do much worrying. It’s pretty much being planned for us which is a huge relief. (We suck at parties ghost_crying2 )

pin_pink - Copy All of that aside, Mark and I are wishing for the best. It’s hard not to dwell on the worst once you’ve experienced it, but we’re maintaining hope and thanking our lucky stars each time our hopes are confirmed in little ways. Even the unpleasant symptoms of pregnancy confirm that our daughter is growing stronger, and that makes all of the discomfort worthwhile. Is everything perfect? No. As expecting parents, our home could always be bigger, our income could always be larger, and we could always be better as human beings. Nothing is ever good enough for your child. Period. That, I think, is one of the first habits that parents pick up. Still, that is not an excuse for us to loathe ourselves or become so dejected that we don’t even try. Just the fact that she will have two parents who love and adore her is a luxury some will never know. We want to keep adding to those luxuries that she will have. We don’t want to spoil her, of course, but we also don’t want her to suffer needlessly if we can do anything about it. That is our goal as parents: do our absolute, genuine, and honest best for our daughter. We haven’t even had the blessing of holding her hand yet, but we love her immensely. I hope she never forgets that.

*sigh* Well, I’m off! I’ll update as updates come along, including the usual nerd shit like hobbies and interests. LOL. As always, fight, fight, fight!

Especially you, small lady! 

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Sleep Now The Untroubled Sleep of the Angels

I am aware that I am late for this Tom Petty tribute post, but it is not unintentional. Death is a difficult topic to discuss right now. On a national level, the tragedy in Las Vegas serves a grim reminder that something is seriously wrong with this country I call home. On a personal level, my mother told me that the aunt who was like a second mother to my siblings and I growing up is losing her battle with cancer. So, it is a lot right now, but I will try to share my fondest memory of Tom Petty.

When I was young, I used to find my mother’s taste in music to be strange at times. I grew up in Brooklyn, so it was cool to listen to hip and R&B and pop and little else. My mother, on the other hand, listened to anything that made her happy. I guess I can credit my love of music to her when I think about it. Those music clubs that sent you all the CDs you wanted for a monthly charge had something to do with that too. Some of ya’ll are too young to remember that (LOL) but my mother introduced us to A LOT of different music because of those clubs.

One day I was watching MTV with my sisters and, as usual, we changed the channel the moment anything that wasn’t “good music” came on. Tom Petty’s “You Don’t Know How It Feels” came on, and since it wasn’t our taste we considered it bad and tried to change the channel. That’s when my mom told us to stop. Apparently, she loved the song, and because of that we had no choice but to listen and stare at her sideways while she singed along. It is seriously one of my favorite childhood memories because it dawned on me for the first time that music can reveal so much about a person to you. To me, that song gave my mother some comfort as a single mother of four children who felt no one understood the things she endured.

Anyway, it changed the way I viewed music forever. I came to love “You Don’t Know How It Feels”, and I came to love his other songs as I grew older, too. I loved “Mary Jane’s Last Dance”. I loved “Free Fallin”. I loved “I Won’t Back Down”. Most of all, I loved “Don’t Come Around Here No More”. That take on Alice in Wonderland in the music video was just the coolest thing to me in my youth, and it remains one of my favorite music videos to this date. Tom Petty really served as my bridge into not only rock music, but all the other genres of music that I used to skip on MTV or the radio. It’s a story that I tell Mark every time we hear a Tom Petty song. I’m sure he’s tired of it at this point. LOL…

… It really hurts to lose a part of my childhood like this. The last celebrity death that made me cry was Robin Williams, so I am not someone who suffers immense heartbreak each time a celebrity dies. I feel sympathy for their loved ones, but I do not pretend to be overwrought with grief. This loss was just too personal, though. As Robin Williams cheered me up during my childhood, Tom Petty opened my eyes to different music, and I cannot imagine how much pain his family must feel after losing such an incredible person. I am just a lowly fan telling a stupid story. They are the ones suffering the most right now, so I offer them absolute sympathy.

Rest in peace, Tom Petty. Thank you, thank you, thank you for everything.

To the people who were enjoying the magic that is music when some terrorist sensely murdered them, please rest in peace.

To my aunt… she is not lost yet, but if there is a heaven she deserves to be there, laughing her funny laugh with the angels.

I think this all that I have the heart to express right now. If I keep going on like this, I’m just going to end up crying and typing like an idiot, and I’ve been enough of an idiot for one lifetime. LOL…

Anyway, please take care everyone. We cannot control how we leave this world, but let’s all strive to be so incredibly generous and kind that we inspire others to be better.  Good vibrations and keep fighting, as always.


Radiohead + Hans Zimmer: Ocean Bloom

I’m so happy about Hans Zimmer and Radiohead working together for the Blue Planet II OST. My favorite band AND one of my favorite composers…*sigh* So, so, so, so happy. ghost_crying2

I already know whatever they make will be amazing because this version of “Bloom” sounds incredible when compared to the original version, and the original version is already incredible enough to me. I like that they found a way to take the chaotic sound of “Bloom” and organize it into this symphony. It’s so amazing! ghost_crying2ghost_crying2ghost_crying2

*sigh* I’m just going to post the original version of “Bloom” then bounce. I drained myself with all the fangirling I did at AWA yesterday (LOL), so I’m going to chill… until I have the energy to fangirl again. 😀

101: Oyasumi

hearts_lace - Copy Feeling: ghost_tongue - Copy
music_hearts - Copy Listening: Radiohead – Lotus Flower


cute_uppercorner - Copy Introduction: I wonder how long I can keep up this cute format until I get lazy and move on to something easier emoji_excited - Copy. Well, it’s not so bad. The hardest part is finding all of the pixels and getting WP to stop descending into alignment hell when I try to move them around. Ugh. Suffer for cuteness. That is usually how it goes. Anyway, it should not be a problem as long as I keep copying the format each time. No need to repeat the same setup each time. Yadda, yadda, not important, etc. cute_lowercorner - Copy


cute_uppercorner - Copy Breath of the Wild: Shall I begin with my most recent obsession? Well, re-obsession? My overwhelming hatred for the weapon system is gone, and I can now enjoy BOTW completely. I have one more divine beast to go and I managed to get the master sword, so this is huge progress for me. I am now balls deep into a Zelda game again. Thank you, VG gods ghost_heart - Copy. Honestly, I think that a lot of it has to do with the change of consoles. I traded in my Wii U, Wii U games, and a few other games I don’t really play in order to get the Nintendo Switch for pretty cheap. I have to say… the game is *much* more enjoyable on the Switch. On top of the portability, the controller is also less bulky. I mean, I always thought the little mini-screen on the Wii U gamepad was nifty and all, but I didn’t like it so much that I missed it on the Switch. The Switch controller is far more comfortable. Smaller, for sure, and much easier to manage. So… yeah… maybe it was the Wii U’s setup that was turning me off from BOTW all along. I don’t know. Anyway, I uploaded a crap load of screenshots from the game of FB, but I’ll just post my favorites here. I’ll leave out the ones that too spoiler-ish.  cute_lowercorner - Copy





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cute_uppercorner - Copy Are Ya’ll Really Trying to Fuck Pennywise the Clown?: Natural selection is not coming for some people fast enough. *sigh* I saw several articles about people making sexual confessions about Pennywise–yes, the child-killing clown from IT–and I am just so tired. What is wrong with the human race? Seriously? What makes you look at a clown with a giant forehead who eats children and go: “Yep, I wouldn’t mind sleeping with him.” Please stop . Labelling the Babadook as an LGBT icon was confusing enough, but now apparently Pennywise is also being considered an LGBT icon on top of people writing gross confessions and smut fan fiction about him. You need to love yourselves. I know it’s hard to find decent people out there, but getting turned on by a creepy ass clown is really scraping the bottom of the barrel.   cute_lowercorner - Copy


cute_uppercorner - Copy All Together Now: Repeat after me: “Kerri is not a doll or a piggy bank. You cannot just pick her up when you are bored or shake her for coins when you are broke. She is a person. She has her own life. She was not made for you.” Repeat it until you die. Thanks. ghost_spinning - Copy cute_lowercorner - Copy


cute_uppercorner - Copy Mystic Messenger: Uh… I didn’t really fuck with V. I just pitied him the entire time, even when I got the normal ending where he took back some control of his life. It was still fun to play, nonetheless. I loved the idea of bringing Rika back to the RFA so that everyone could come to terms with the person she became. And, I know it is not a popular opinion in the MM fandom, but I also liked Rika. She is evil. Don’t get me wrong. But I also understand why she was able to form a cult so easily. She is very charismatic and her ideals are not… so terrible? There aren’t many places in the world where a person can be completely themselves. It would have been an ideal place for people like Ray, especially, who struggles with split personalities, but then there is the whole drugging members to manipulate them thing, and that is where I completely agree with the rest of the RFA (except for Yoosung’s dumb ass). In short, she’s a good villain. Her methods are evil but her intentions are good. That is a good villain to me. Uh, as for everyone else, they are still enjoyable in their own way. I think Yoosung is the only person who changed for the absolute worst because even when Rika told everyone what she did thus far he still tried to make excuses and blame it on V. Anyway, I hated that Ray got fucked over regardless of which route you took because he was the sweetest. Also… I spent most of the time wishing there was more Seven. Sorry, he’s the best. When he posted that picture of him on the Iron Throne I was done. 707 = best boyghost_heart - Copy  cute_lowercorner - Copy


cute_uppercorner - Copy “It’s From My Days in Milan, Boys!”: The level of excitement I witnessed from the FFXV fandom because of Iggy’s messy hair in the Episode Ignis clip… *sigh*… Glorious. My first reaction was pretty much, “Damn, son, what happened?!” followed by, “He is 50% more attractive now” followed by, “Oh shit, it’s Ravus!” Yeah, Iggy’s messy hair is actually kind of cute. He is always really prim and proper, so something fucked up must be going on. Prayer circle for Ignis~ I mean… We know it’s going to end with him going blind… but let’s still do a prayer circle still. ALSO—also—I noticed that image of Ifrit in the “additional story content” slideshow and I was really happy. I think his role in the plot might finally get fleshed out! I hope Tabata read all those theories about the Pitioss Ruins, went “damn, that was deep as fuck,” and then made it canon. Do it, Tabata-san. Fucking do it.  cute_lowercorner - Copy


cute_uppercorner - Copy Final Fantasy IX: As happy as I am about FFIX being released on the PS4 I already did a playthrough last year, so everything is still kind of fresh in my mind and I am not entirely motivated to do another playthrough again. That theme is nice, though. You can never have enough Vivis, and yet the theme has like five of them WITH Freya. #blessed   cute_lowercorner - Copy


cute_uppercorner - Copy Okay, That’s Enough Forests For One Lifetime: My story is beginning to feel a lot like a Zelda game because I am trying to get my characters out of the forests and into the mainlands but it is taking forever. I know it will end in exile for Odin and Elda. I just don’t want the forests to come off as a backwater place where everything is mystical and their system of law is just some ancient being making all the rules. I don’t necessarily hate that trope but I did not want it for the Forested Domains. It’s supposed to be a nation like any other nation where anyone can go there and live, but if you’re an outsider it still feels like a foreign place. Those details take work and time since I try to avoid lengthy expositions. I just can’t wait to move the story to the mainlands because I have so many ideas for the cities and towns there. I like the idea of exploring places that are already ruined but are slowly rebuilt—kind of like Hyrule in Breath of the Wild or Spira from FFX. Inspiration is great until it makes you impatient… that is the hard part. Ugh, and the rest of the cast is in the mainlands, too! I need to write faster! ghost_crying2 cute_lowercorner - Copy


cute_uppercorner - Copy Home Apartment Improvement: I am usually ashamed of my splurges, but my recent splurge is actually pretty good! I got cookbooks, new pots, new pans, new cooking utensils, new knives, and a much needed apron. I’m also trying to decorate our kitchen and bathroom because at the moment it is… the bare minimum. It has been bugging me for years, so I’m glad that we’re in a financial place where I can start to do that. Once again, I am usually ashamed of splurges, but this is home. I spend most of my time here. I should make it as comfortable and pleasant as possible, you know? That is my main project right now: make home better.   cute_lowercorner - Copy


cute_uppercorner - Copy …Again?: Speaking of home, I am beginning to loathe this new management that we have. Ever since they came along there have been unit inspections pretty much every month. I feel like the new managers are just nosy and trying to find excuses to parade around everyone’s apartment. Actually, the first manager used to get with her friends who didn’t even work here and enter people’s apartments without warning. This was years ago, but one day I had just gotten out of the shower and I was in the middle of getting dressed when they just fucking barged in, giggling and chit-chatting like they belonged there. I had to run to the room to get dressed, and by the time I left the room they were giggling about the washer running because… doing laundry is funny? As soon as I came out of the room I was pissed, and they probably sensed that I was pissed because they quickly left. *sigh* Yeah, we had a long rant with our old neighbors about that. Mark and I still rant about that. It’s just rude as fuck. I know the apartment technically belongs to the company that owns this place, but if we pay you money every month then at least give us some fucking rights and privacy. Fuck. Why do people insist on being annoying and inviting themselves into the lives of others without permission? Just fuck off and find something better to do with your time. Shit. -_- cute_lowercorner - Copy


cute_uppercorner - Copy Closing: There is actually a lot going on right now, but if I got into every little thing then I would be here forever. Let’s just say that I am doing my best, I am making improvements, and I am being patient. Also, I am finding my ways to have fun along the way. That’s all that I can really do, right? There are a few games, movies, and shows that I am looking forward to, so I might discuss those in the future… if I am up to it. I know I tend to go months between these entries. As always I want to start uploading artwork but I’m so damn lazy. Just thinking about it makes me want to take a nap. I’ll see what I can do. *sigh* Gotta update my website too… maybe share some of my story… finish some books… finish some games… I’m just busy, busy, busy. Oh! And Halloween is around the corner! Yes! As far as I am concerned, all of October is Halloween. It’s just spooky month. November is food month. December is presents month. I am twelve, apparently.  ghost_tongue - Copy cute_lowercorner - Copy


That’s about it! Sending good vibrations~~~

Edit: Check the URL! I’m trying premium for a year. Let’s see how it goes. >>

Björk: The Gate







* On a serious note, I am really looking forward to her new album. The acceptance and joy that comes after the heartbreak of Vulnicura. My body, spirit, mind, etc, is ready. ( T u T )

YISA 005: A Place To Call Home

Feeling… Thankful
While Listening To“Riding (Day)” – Breath of the Wild



The past three days have been… adventurous. Let’s start with the first day. I was not awake when it happened, but Mark told me when I woke up Monday morning  that the power was gone. This is not really abnormal where I live. I would say every other month the power goes off for about 30 minutes to 2 hours, and it’s usually preceded by a scary explosion sound in the distance. Um… anyway… not a big deal. It was my assumption that with this whole hurricane ordeal we would just have to deal with the inconveniences for a few hours. That was before noon on Monday. Then came night time on Monday. I would say a good 8-10 hours passed, and we did not hear shit from the electric company besides “we’re working on it”. At that point we just had to make do. We went to Kroger, stocked up on canned foods, got our candles ready, got our flashlights ready, and just tried to have fun with it. “Fun” being Halli Galli and Scrabble and naps, basically. Lol. Oh, yeah. And everything within a five mile radius of our place was a dead zone, so I had no service on my phone either. Needless to say, it was an interesting day. I even found my Vita and played a shitload of games. FF Tactics, Xenogears, Chrono Cross, Final Fantasy VI–all the good shit I downloaded eons ago. All of that aside, Mark and I went to bed around midnight and told ourselves that we should definitely have power by Tuesday because we couldn’t go 24 hours without power… right? 



 … And this is the part in a sitcom where they cut to the next 24 hours, and the person who spoke too soon is in the exact same situation but 200% angrier. Lmao. Actually, I can’t say I was angry. I was just… disappointed. We get up Tuesday morning with no power and decide, “Fuck it. Let’s just go deposit this check (basically, Mark’s check from Publix for stocks).” We leave around 9am. …The fucking bank wasn’t opening until noon ^^. Go back home for FF Tactics and naps. Go back to the credit union three hours later. Ta da! Check deposited! With no issues! *victory fanfare* With the extra money, we stock up on the supplies we couldn’t get due to our limited funds beforehand, and we head back home for another day in the dark. But, honestly, that depressed the shit out of us. Mark suggested we go on an impromptu date, and I’m glad that he did. We had pho, we got another board game to play (Arkham Horror), we got some things to read (Saga 44-46), and then we headed back home to prepare for the night. Honestly, the moment I stepped foot in the house I was in a crummy mood. (1) I had this cloud hanging over me because I knew the remaining hot water that was in the water heater would run out soon, and (2) everything remotely electronic was about to die including our phones. After ranting with Mark about how annoyed I was by the whole thing we decided to check into a hotel. BEST DECISION EVER . Keep in mind that I have not stayed in a hotel room for years, so this was exciting for me. We checked in (after getting hounded with promotional bullshit that neither of us had the patience to deal with), went in our room, and we instantly felt better. First of all, this place (still here >>) has a mini-kitchen, a living room, a bathroom, and a room, so it feels like home. Secondly, we both went 24+ hours without a long, hot shower or TV or the internet or all the things we take for granted, so we were losing out shit. Lmao! Anyway, after settling in and having dinner that wasn’t in a can and eaten in the dark (*sobs*) we went to bed, intending to check out Wednesday morning whether or not the power was back to save money.



 Yeah… We didn’t go anywhere. Lol. That’s actually my fault. The change in environment made it really hard for me to sleep last night, so I probably got… two hours of sleep? We were about two hours from checking out and Mark was in the shower, so I decided to squeeze in a quick nap before packing everything thing. I wake up hours later, freaking out because it was way past noon, and Mark was like, “It’s okay. I added another day for us”. Thank you, mochi ! Naturally, I went back to sleep (lmao), and Mark got us breakfast/lunch/brunch/whatever while I was sleeping so… I cannot thank Mark enough. Seriously. Anyway, I eventually got my lazy ass up and joined Mark in doing the run around while we continued waiting out this lack-of-power ordeal. We checked up on baby cat (he pretty much ignored us lol), grabbed some more clothes, bought some things at Wal-Mart, walked around Best Buy, and then came back to the hotel to add another day since it didn’t seem like the power would return until the weekend. Or at least that’s what GA Power was saying. BUT–but–we got our power back! Of course, this happened like an hour after we added an extra day, but it is no biggie. We cancelled the extra day, so we’ll be checking out tomorrow afternoon and heading back home. Finally. I’m so homesick right now that it doesn’t make any sense. I can’t wait to go back home! 



 Well, that should cover my entire experience with Hurricane Irma. The TL;DR version is that I was mildly inconvenienced. Seriously. Three days without power is nothing compared to the people who died or lost loved ones or lost their homes or are still going without power right now. So, it goes without saying that I am extremely lucky. Whatever it is I bitch about here is tiny, trivial shit. I am fully aware of that. Just wanted to let that be known before I continue with some minor, pointless bitching I am about to do. So, time for the minor, pointless bitching that in no way compares to what others are enduring. Tomorrow when I go home I have to dump everything in my fridge. This is the part of the power outage that we were not looking forward to at all, but there is really nothing that we can do about it. The fridge will be cleaned out completely and then refilled with the essentials. Actually, there may be more than the essentials since Mark and I had this grand idea to have a tiny feast to celebrate several things. Coming through this hurricane unharmed, Mark getting a new job, our financial situation taking a major turn–these are all things that we wish to celebrate once we are back home and settled in. I already yelled “HAM” the moment we had this idea, so everything else is pretty much up to Mark. If there is a feast I will always have two questions: “Where is your ham? And where is your macaroni and cheese?” Lmao. Anyway, I look forward to it. I plan to spend all day cooking, and having plenty of leftovers for the next few days! It will be a good homecoming celebration–amongst the other things we want to celebrate. ^^



…Uh…I think that is it.

Sorry about the weird-ass format. I mentioned wanting to change it in the past, so I’m considering this image-friendly, colorful format with paragraphs instead of bullets. Of course, that all depends on how I feel. If I feel lazy then I will probably end up doing the same shit. What else…?

I think that’s it.

I hope everyone is doing okay. I’m very, very, very, very glad that my Florida and Georgia family and friends came through these hurricanes in one piece. I hope everyone else is doing okay, too.

Please, mother nature, no more hurricanes! 


WOW. So everything is shutting down in metro Atlanta because of Hurricane Irma… I should be worried, right? *sweats nervously* J/K. I’m still convinced it’s just going to be a bunch of rain, but if I die… real talk… someone find Link and treat him like the prince-cat that he is. If we both don’t make it then bury me with him like a pharaoh or something. Obviously, I want to be next to Mark if we go. Or just scatter our dust in the same place. We’re pretty lax people. Everyone knows that. We just like to be attached to each other like a gross mutant all the time, but it makes us happy. Do it. Don’t make us haunt you. LOL. Uh… I’m taking my PS4 to my grave because I’m petty and I don’t want anyone else to have it (LOL) but everything else that survives is fair game. Uh… Love ya’ll. It’s been mostly shitty when I’m not with my loved ones, but otherwise I had an okay time with all the people I’m cool with. If you have the audacity to come to my grave and not tell me about all the games and movies I’m missing… man… Gonna be so pissed. Ugh. I’m so dumb. I’m 95% joking but the 5% that is considering the possibility of shit being terrible is not even concerned. I don’t care if I’m in danger or if I die, but please please please take care of Mark and my family and my friends and my cat. That’s all I hope. *sigh* Let’s just hope it’s a bunch of rain and wind and everyone is making the water industry richer for no reason. Everyone stay safe. Once again, love ya’ll. Sending good vibrations until it’s all over~~~~

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