1. Favorite band or artist?
— Favorite band? Daft Punk. Favorite artist? Hmm…can I pick a composer? Because I love Nobuo Uematsu and everything that he chooses to be.
2. Did you enjoy high school?
— I hated high school. I would honestly rather get body slammed for hours by some random athlete than return to high school.
3. Phrases you say a lot?
— “What in the actual fuck”, “Wow, seriously?”, “No, seriously, what?”, “I can’t”, “This blows dick for (random candy)”, “I don’t have time for this shit”, “Dude, stop”,”Oh, wooooooooow~!”, “That’s coooooool~!”, “I am legit (emotion),”
4. How do you handle stress?
— Headphones, soundtrack of choice at full volume, book to read or to draw in or to write in. Zone out and go on autopilot.
5. Do you have a lot of friends?
— Nope. I believe the less, the merrier. I think most recluses do. LOL
6. If you could live in a different city, where would you live?
— I’d like to live in any place where it snows or rains most of the time. So, basically, Seattle, England, or Canada.
7. Where do you see yourself in 10 years?
— I don’t know. Better off, I hope.
8. Believe in love at first sight?
9. Favorite genre of movie?
10. Have you ever been in love?
— I am in love.
11. Do you move on quickly?
— Yes. Probably because I don’t get attached in the first place.
12. Do you create art?
13. Problem with today’s girls?
— Boys and girls have the same issue: they sell themselves short for the sake of love, attention, and acceptance. You were the fastest and strong sperm. As far as I am concerned, you are worthy because of it. Don’t bother seeking verification of your worth in others.
14. Problems with today’s boys?
— Answered in question #13
15. Do you day dream?
— A lot.
16. Do you miss anyone?
17. Are you close to your siblings?
— Not as close as I should be with them, but that’s not their faults at all. I just went full-on antisocial as I entered adulthood.
18. Pet peeves?
— Oh shit. Where do I begin? LOL. Invasion of personal space is probably my biggest pet peeve. Actually, no. Victim blaming is my biggest pet peeve. I actually yelled at someone for saying that a woman deserved to get raped because of something she was wearing. I don’t care if a woman is walking down the street with nothing on, don’t rape her! Don’t rape anyone! …I’m going to stop before I rant any further -_-. What else? I hate the notion that a person’s hobby determines their level of maturity. Reality stars are the perfect example of how “adult things” doesn’t make a person mature or intelligent. I hate people who tell someone suffering from a mental illness to just “get over it”. Maybe I should tell you to stop yourself from having periods or having erections because that’s what you’re doing when you tell someone with some type of mental imbalance to magically alter their own body. What else? What else? Overall, I guess I just hate anything or anyone who uses harmful behavior or says harmful things to force a person to become something they’re not. There has to be a point in your adulthood where you tell yourself: “It’s okay to have opinions or judgments to call my own, but it’s never okay to force someone to be something they’re not,” You know? If someone is happy and their happiness isn’t harming anyone else, just leave them alone. Life is hard enough without constant degradation.
19. Most attractive features of the opposite sex?
— Hmm, I don’t know. I tend to become attracted to a guy after I see him smile, so maybe smiles or lips are my thing. *shrug*
20. Do you think you’re attractive?
— I don’t think I am attractive or unattractive. I believe that I can always improve myself physically, but I don’t believe that I am beyond hope or that I need to surgically modify myself in any way to be pretty. It’s kind of hard to explain. If someone asked me if I am pretty, I would say yes. If someone asked me if I am ugly, I would say yes. I just feel confident about certain aspects of my appearance while feeling “blah” about other aspects. I don’t know. Thinking about how I look really bores me in the end. I’m content with my genetics, so I might as well move on to the things I’m not content with…like my drawing abilities, and financial crap. -_-
21. How old do you want to be when you get married?
— I’m already married. I honestly thought I’d get married when I was much older, but life happens.
22. How old do you want to be if you have kids?
— Actually, 25 was my “perfect age” in the past, but now that I am approaching 25, I am going to say that 27 is the “perfect age”. Don’t be surprised if I’m like 80, and I say “90 is the perfect age”. LOL! In the end, I will put aside parenthood so long as I feel emotionally and financially inadequate.
23. Have you ever gotten down dancing with someone you didn’t know?
— …Down dancing? I don’t even dance, so I’m just going to say no.
24. How do you clear your head?
— Video games. I don’t have time to think about myself when I’m worrying about strategy and plots. The moment that menu screen comes up, I instantly go in “Oh shit!” mode, and I just pay attention to whatever is shooting at me or attacking me or whatever.
25. Were you a good child?
— Hmm…I don’t know. I was quiet, and I lived in my imagination, but I was still a very sensitive child. The slightest hint of aggression made me want to hide and run away. I set myself up for a rebellious stage in my adolescence because I built an intolerance for negativity in my childhood. So, if I was “good” or “bad”, it was because I hated trouble, and I did just about anything to avoid it.
26. I love….
— Wow. Where do I begin? I love my husband. I love my cat. I love my family and friends. Yet, at the same time, I love to be alone. I love to draw, write, and read. I love to learn. I love when someone imagines an exciting world, and expresses it through beautiful writings, songs, and artworks. I love cats, dogs, fishes (especially jellyfishes), and turtles. Actually, I love all animals, even the ones that scare me since I believe that I can learn to love them. I love the sound of children laughing. I love watching the elements at work: fire burning, water undulating, forests growing, and wind blowing. That type of stuff. I love rain and thunderstorms. I love food…obviously. LOL. I also love to cook. I love anything that I can put work into, and see positive results later. I love pleasant memories. I love looking forward to things. I love counting down to exciting events. I love good jokes because I love to laugh. As phlegmatic and sometimes grumpy as I seem, I actually love a lot of things. Maybe too much. Maybe I am afraid that I have all the love in the world, and it will destroy me in the end. Even opening up about this is something I love, but I hate the negative things that may come from it. *sigh* I guess I’ll just end this answer here.
27. Do you smoke?
— When I’m at a point in my life where I feel stressed and powerless, smoking a cigarette seems like the only thing I can really do. It’s one of those things you won’t understand unless you do it. Outside of those moments, though, I don’t smoke.
28. Do you like to party?
— Absolutely not. Parties come with hundreds of anxiety attack triggers that I don’t need.
29. Do you get embarrassed easily?
— No. Then again, I am pretty much oblivious to things people do and say most of the time.
30. How are you feeling right now?
— Bored. It’s hot as hell, so I’m uncomfortable too.
31. What are you interested in?
— If it’s considered nerdy or geeky, I’m probably interested in it. I’m also interested in things considered “girly” or “boyish”. I don’t know. I just like whatever looks interesting.
32. Has it been a good year so far?
— Hell no. Fuck this year. LOL
33. What are you looking forward to?
–I look forward to the day when I am debt free. I don’t know what it’s like to say: “Oh, I have $500. What should I spend it on?” It just doesn’t happen. 😄
34. Are you a hopeful person?
— Definitely a hopeful person. Hope keeps me excited about life. It’s only when I lose hope that I start to feel that life is pointless or that I am here for no reason.
35. Are you really flirty?
— Not even close. I don’t flirt, and I tend to respond to flirtation with annoyance.
36. What do you do before you fall asleep?
— Drink tea, write about whatever is on my mind so I’ll stop thinking about it, and then try to sleep.
37. Are you religious?
— Well, I’ve been told that Buddhism is more of a philosophy than a religion, and I agree with that. There is no worship or rituals in Buddhism (or at least the type of Buddhism I am being taught). You mainly focus on not harming others, and improving yourself. So, no, I wouldn’t call myself religious. But I am extremely fond of Buddhism.
38. What is your “type?”
— Introverted, intelligent, nerdy/geeky, funny, witty/sarcastic. Yeah…that’s basically my type.
40. Have you gone through any weird phases?
— My entire life is a never-ending weird phase. LMAO
41. Are you worried about anything?
— Yes. Mainly people and money. That’s about it.
42. Band or DJ at your wedding?
— Can I just take everyone involved in “Distant Worlds”, and make them play stuff for like…eight hours?
43. What you’re listening to right now
— Final Fantasy XIII-2/Mitsuto Suzuki & Origa: “Interval of Time”
45. Do you have any secrets?
— Why would I tell them?
46. Is it easy for you to open up to people?
— No. But, for some reason, opening up to blank word document or notebook is okay with me.
47. Are you a hopeless romantic?
48. Would you move in with your bf/gf before marriage?
— I did, and I’m glad that I did. You don’t know how well you get along with a person until you’re around them 24/7.
49. Do you think sex is a key part of a relationship?
— More of a supplement than a key. You should eventually get to a point in your relationship where you are okay with not having sex since things “stop working” as you get older. Still, there is nothing wrong with appreciating it while it is there. Eh…talking about sex is uncomfortable, so I’m going to stop. LOL
50. What do you sleep in?
— These days, as little as possible. It’s hot as balls. In the winter, though, I pretty much wear anything I can find to keep warm.