Drawing: Telluria’s Denizens

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…Getting spirited away to Telluria would be a terrifying experience. 😄

075: Standing Still Is Hard

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75th blog entry ! *victory fanfare* In honor of this, I want to try this
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☆彡 = Personal life and rants

★彡 = Hobbies and interests

Let’s see how long it lasts. Okay. Let’s go!

★彡 Complicated shit first.

In regards to the Lightning Returns controversy, my opinion is this: the fact that Toriyama decided to increase Lightning’s breast size to, and I quote, “defeat Skyrim” is pathetic. It’s even more pathetic when you put into consideration that Skyrim and western RPGs in general don’t rely on breasts to sell their products. They are successful because they market innovative gameplay and interesting stories. In short, my qualm is not the fact they’re pitching Lightning as a sexy character (because she was a sexy and flawless heroine from the jump amirite). My qualm is that Square, a company once renowned for their memorable stories and characters, has to stoop to the selling tactics of hentai games and dating sims to be successful. So, I’m not mad. I’m just really disappointed. Then again, this is Toriyama…the same guy behind Final Fantasy X-2. Let me act surprised. Really, all of this only makes me want to play Skyrim even more. So, I’ll likely invest in Skyrim DLCs and add-ons before I even touch Lightning Returns. Sorry, Lightning. I still love you.

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☆彡  I recently rolled my eyes so hard that they pained me for a few minutes afterwards. Time for me to stay away from aggravating things. 

★彡 I am back to spending 80% of my free time writing Mythos chapters, and I officially passed 100 pages as a result. *confetti* I also did some major updating on charahub. It’s a neat little site. There is even a survey to take that asks things like the character’s favorite color, favorite place, etc. Progress with Mythos is actually what I wanted for a very long time, so I’m incredibly pleased.

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☆彡 I have a theory that everything in this apartment conspires to break on us at the same time. Rude.

★彡 Boys Over Flowers was such a rollercoaster. I was so sure I would despise Gu Jun Pyo for the entire series. Then I was sure that I adored him. Then I despised him again. Then I adored him again. He is just such a pain but he’s also so adorable. Poor Geum Jan Di. I understand her frustration. I even found myself saying: “Ugh, stupid Gu Jun Pyo and his stupid curls” too. Well, I still believe that Geum Jan Di deserves the absolute best. She is such a sweetheart. I don’t know why, but the leading girl in Korean dramas are always so likeable. My favorite is still Eun-chan from The 1st Shop of Coffee Prince though. The cutest of cuties! Anywho, time to find a new Korean drama to get into. I’m going to miss the characters of Boys Over Flowers though. 

☆彡 Seriously, there is no tragic backstory for why I am not on facebook, twitter, instagram, or whatever newfangled websites people are on. I am just bored of them or not interested enough to sign up. That is all there is to it. The same goes for my phone. I got it to try out a smartphone, but once I wore out my apps I just got bored and gave it to Mark. Why bother holding on to it and spending $50 a month if I’m not even interested in it, you know? I just don’t see why some people need to have an aneurysm when I respond with “I don’t use that” or “I don’t own one”. It’s not a big deal. 

★彡 Nintendo is close to giving news on the new Zelda Wii U game. I have to make sure my schedule is cleared on that day so I can slip in and out on consciousness freely. If they announce that Zelda will be the protagonist in the new game, I will likely die though. 

☆彡 The pervert life is hard. Only the strong can endure. It is known.

★彡 Some of my villagers are already asking to leave. NOT ALLOWED. Well…there are 2-3 of them that I won’t miss, but everyone else is not allowed to leave. It’s in the contract. Whomp-whomp.

☆彡 Clutter puts me in such a bad mood. I really should just buy like five bookshelves and call it a day. No more piles. No more packing things in totes only to end up with a pile of totes. Just thinking about it gives me a headache.

★彡 I miss Space Ghost: Coast to Coast so much. I would love Netflix for the rest of my life if they would just add it on instant. Speaking of Netflix, I don’t know who added Digimon, new Breaking Bad episodes, and re-added all of the 007 movies but they just tossed all of my plans for this weekend. I hope they’re happy. 

☆彡  When I compare my present-day drawings to the ones I did back in elementary school, I actually prefer my elementary school ones. Back then, I didn’t worry about perfect anatomy or perfect folds or perfect shading. So all of my drawings were fun. I actually did a goofy Sailor Moon and Final Fantasy VII crossover in the 6 or 7th grade, and until this day I still die of laughter because of it. My drawings now…they can’t even get a smile out of me. I forgot how to enjoy myself, you know? That is the worst part. I want to get to that point again. More than becoming like the artists I admire, I want to be that girl who used to draw in her composition notebooks and not care if it was imperfect. It’s all really cheesy. I know. I really do want to improve, but at the same time I don’t want to get so focused on perfection that I forget that art is supposed to be imperfect. Take abstract art. It is often a bunch of random lines and shapes, yet it is still so perfect. I want that feeling when I look at my own art. I am not going to say someday. Very soon. *in Geum Jan Di’s voice* FIGHTING!

★彡 I have come to terms with the possibility that Dany, Drogon, Rhaeghal, and/or Viserion will die. I can deal with Rhaegal or Viserion if given an hour or two to collect myself. Drogon…a day. Dany…several months. Actually, I will definitely cry if Dany dies. For a long time. At this point, I am REALLY sure that Dany is going to die. I have a feeling that GRRM monitors who the most liked characters are, and starts picking them off based on that. Dany is fairly popular with ASOIAF fans, so…yeah…she’s dead. *mourns in advance*

☆彡 Link is really letting me down right now. I had to kill three centipedes in the past two days. Not acceptable. Killing bugs is his job. The only reason he can’t do it is because he picked up a new hobby: sitting on top of the living room TV and yelling at us whenever we leave to go to the bathroom. Thanks a lot, cat. >:|

★彡 I miss WWE, but I don’t have cable so it’s no use crying about it. I’ll just have to jump back into it ever other year like I always do. -.-

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With that said, I’m really into my games, writings, and drawings right now, so updates may become scarce…save for those “This Is A ______ Post” entries. Which is a good thing, right? When I look back, I am more interested in those types of entries then these topic-hopping entries. Anyway, I may not do one of these for a while. Just a little insignificant heads up.

That’s about it. Off to finish up Breaking Bad and eat curry. After that, some quality time with Geralt, Commander Shepard, and Kaim.

Later. 

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Nabooru

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This was drawn on the 3DS (Colors! 3D). It’s not a bad app, but drawing with that stylus is taking some time getting used to. Anywho, she looks like she’s cosplaying Crimson Viper in this drawing. Just add some amber shades…aw yeah~

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Used a red pen for this one. It’s always stressful drawing in pens, but I love how bold it turns out in the end.  Also, I’m slowly but surely mastering the art of blending my mistakes into the drawing and making it look like it was meant to be. Fufufufu~

Nabooru is so fun to draw. Gotta do more of that. One thing I love about the gerudos is that they wear vivid makeup colors that you don’t see on a daily basis, so I’d love to draw Nabooru with neon green, silver, turquoise, and so on.

In time….

Profiles: Odin and Elda

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068: Starting Somewhere

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I’m not sure if I’ll finish this or not, but I do know one thing: I must get a new drawing tablet.

It will make web comics so much easier.

Speaking of web comics, I have some Marvel comics to read. *disappears*

Dryads: Women I

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Crayons look so nice on paper, but so rough when scanned. Back to pencil and ink drawings it is.

Fan Art: Link (Alternate Costume)

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I really love making alternate outfits for different characters I like. Consider it a sub-hobby to my drawing hobby. This is an alternate outfit for Link. I’ve been wanting to turn Link’s shield into a buckler for a while…even though it will not do him much good during his quest. Maybe if he had a shield AND buckler…hmm, that sounds pretty neat.

Anyway, here it is.

My next project is to do an element-based outfit for Link.

And to stop drawing my characters with the same feet-and-arms-apart pose. D:

Yeah, I’ll see what I can do.

P.S. After drawing on a display tablet recently (and basically running away with embarrassment when I was informed that I was being watched /)__(\ ), I am confident that getting a tablet like that will help me do magic in terms of coloring my art. So, I guess my days of pursing a Wacom tablet are over. I’d rather just draw now and color later once I can afford something like that.

Anyway, this is officially on the top of my wishlist: Samsung 10.1″ Galaxy Note 32 GB Tablet

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…Now to find a way to save up $500. D:

 

 

Fan Art: Quelaag

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Coloring is hard. ;  – ;

Otherwise, I had fun drawing this!

065: The Starlight’s Flower

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★彡 GEEEENNOOOO !  Geno gives me life (and Vivi too…BUT GENO THO)! I adore him so much, and I am so heated with Nintendo right now because they did not put him in Super Smash Brothers Brawl and I do not appreciate that shit one bit. Speaking of Super Mario RPG, I was working on another replay last week when I ran into that boss battle with Valentina. In all my years playing this game, last week was the first time I noticed that attacking her makes her chest jiggle. Trust Square to slip inappropriate things in a children’s game and hope that no one notices. 😄

☆彡 Added some new pages whilst possibly abusing my privilege to add new pages. Fufufu~ Anyway, if a page suddenly becomes password protected it is because I am working on it. The draft section definitely needs a lot of work, but hopefully it will be done soon.

★彡 One does not simply listen to “L.E.S” by Childish Gambino once.

☆彡 I finally bought a new scanner! *dansu* I am going to do mostly lineart from now on. I’ll color it later when I (a)have a working tablet and (b)study up on digital coloring. This is an opportunity in disguise, really. I do need the practice, and lots of it!

★彡 Link’s favorite thing to do now: follow Mark and me into the bathroom, and attack us when we try to remove him. One we decide to leave him alone, he just sits there and watches us while we use the toilet…thus living up to his new title of hentai cat.

☆彡 Jamieson Price is the voice of Duke in Tales of Vesperia, and I almost forgot how amazing his voice was until he spoke. He could read me the dictionary. That would not bother me at all.

★彡 If all goes correctly, Mark and I will return to Joelanta this weekend. I really can’t wait to go! Last year, I passed up on some really great toys and action figures because I was strapped for cash. This year…still strapped for cash (LOL), but it’s nowhere near as bad last year. Then again, this will probably be the time when my tires go flat or something. I really should stop jinxing myself. Okay, let’s start again. We are going to Joelanta again, we are going to get some cool things again, we are going to smile until our face hurts again, Mark is going to fanboy over Larry Hama again, and I’m just going to continue laughing at him about it again…as if I wouldn’t fangirl if I met someone who I admired. Yes, that sounds better.

☆彡 All of this reading seems counterproductive at first, but then I always remember what constant reading did for me in the past. I had a terrible speech impediment (still kind of do) and I struggled with basic writing as a kid until I started reading a lot. I’m talking like one book every two days. My librarians knew me on a first name basis. Let’s just put it that way! Anyway, I quickly realized that reading helped me more than tutoring sessions or intense scolding because it made learning fun. It was through books that I realized that learning can be fun, and not another method of torture for adults to inflict on children. So…there is no such thing as too much reading. With each book I complete, I see improvement in my writing, speech, and comprehension. I also pick up valuable lessons that make me wish I read half of these books ten years ago. *sigh* C’est la vie.

★彡 I am slowly but surely getting over the idea that realistic art = “good art”. What is “good art” anyway? Some of my favorite art pieces had no people, no buildings, and no landscapes. Yet, it was enough to fill me with happiness. Even character and fashion designs fill me with happiness. In the end, it is not about meeting a certain standard. Art is not a math test. There is not a wrong or right answer. That is something I have to accept. I also have to accept that art is not a movie. It is not there to entertain others. It does not matter who likes it or who dislikes it. What matters most is that I like it. Who in this entire world has the right to take my happiness away from me?  Perhaps I am still that girl stuck in art class, getting told by my art teacher that my style is “too commercial” and “difficult to relate to”. Meanwhile, my classmate does an artwork about 9/11, and receives a round of applause. Isn’t this just like every other field of art? Playing on popular emotions like love and hate get the round of applause, but eclectic things are often regarded as too “out there” for “normal” people. Why should my entire life revolve around what other people think and what other people feel and what other people want? I am ranting, I know. It is just one of those things that I bottled up for years. Looking back, I passed up on so many opportunities because I didn’t believe my art would wow a crowd, yet I never questioned why wowing a crowd is important in the first place. This isn’t about money for me. It isn’t about popularity either. I am just a woman who likes to draw, and that should be good enough. So, to hell with the “it’s not realistic enough” and “it’s not touching enough” bullshit. It’s a damn picture of a damn elf with some damn pretty clothes on, and you can just fucking deal with it. *AGGRESSIVELY OPENS SKETCHBOOK*

☆彡 I promise that I am not faded or drunk when I ask this, but am I the only one who looks at the things around me and feels overwhelmed by how amazing it is? For example, look at a shower. I am turning rain and off while adjusting its temperature. I cannot believe how awesome that is! Don’t even get me started on the internet. I don’t even know where to start. I bet if we brought someone from the 1800s to our century they would just fall on the floor and cry or something. Like…I don’t even know how I sit here sometimes, and tell myself that I am bored. How the fuck is this life even remotely boring? The fact that I can get in a big metal wagon and go to a place where thousands of inventors from all around the world display their things is…damn. My mind is being blown by shit I see on a daily basis. I don’t even know what I’m feeling right now.

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★彡 The saddest part about you believing that Star Trek is “for white people” is the fact that Star Trek opened more doors in the entertainment industry for black people than all of your favorite shows combined. Gene Roddenberry created Lt. Uhura — an African woman — during a time when the idea of both blacks and women in a leadership position was unheard of. Even more, when Nichelle Nichols (the actress who played Uhura) wanted to leave Star Trek it was Martin Luther King Jr. himself who begged her to stay because her role was important to blacks. I could continue to go down the list of doors Star Trek opened and point out the fact that its fanbase is very diverse, but I forgot that people like you are stuck in this white versus black mentality as opposed to the more sensible tolerant people versus intolerant people mentality. Exit my life, please.

☆彡 I want to give a shoutout to Otaku Cam for not only being really addictive, but also for being so awesome that Mark allowed me to take his picture just to use it…and now his face is on the background of my phone and I have been begging for this ever since I got my phone even though he called me treacherous for using it (LMAO). So, thanks Otaku Cam. Also, the Hentai Kamen frames are great.

★彡 I do have a long list of problems and imperfections, but they are my responsibility. I do not blame anyone for them. Even if someone came up to me right now and pushed me into the dirt, cleaning myself off is my responsibility. Dealing with the anger of being attacked is my responsibility. And while I would call the police to protect others from being pushed too, it is my responsibility to accept that sometimes my efforts to see justice done and to protect others is not enough. On this very day, at this very moment, I have two simple choices: progress or regress. And every solution I have to every problem I own falls into two categories: progression or regression. It is like this every second of my life until I am out of time. Planning is comforting, yes, but even I can admit that planning is no guarantee of my future. I just have to live in the moment, constantly choosing to go forward or stay behind. That is the type of black-and-white mentality I have towards my own life.

☆彡 If you like someone in Drakengard there is a 90% chance that (s)he is a sick fuck. If you like someone in Nier there is a 90% chance that (s)he will die. Yay! (Please remind me why I keep playing your games, Cavia?)

★彡 Note to self: Do not listen to “Gravelord Nito” when I am alone or in the dark. That shit is scary as fuck under those circumstances. Additional note, Nito is metal as fuck.

☆彡 *plans to watch a few episodes of The Misadventures of Awkward Black Girl* *watches the entire show in one sitting* Whoops. Also, I really need to stop responding to everything I do with “bitches be _____” because it’s getting on Mark’s nerves and children might hear me if I say it in public. Bitches be forgetting.

★彡 Wow, if I ever win the lottery I am just going to disappear. The response I often get is: “Me too! I’m going to travel around the world!” Yes, but you plan to eventually come home and return to your identity. I am not doing that. I am paying off everything I owe, changing my name, and becoming an IRL Waldo. It is not a motherfucking game. Of course, I’ll let like five people know my new name and location, but after that I am pretty much a ghost. Bitches be vanishing. (Okay, I’m stopping!)

Alright. I’m going to get some stuff done, and attempt to put this scanner to use. I know that printer works! …Since I’ve been printing shit nonstop. 😐

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I FORGOT TO POST THIS SONG IT’S AN ALTERNATE VERSION OF HISTORIA CRUX.

Still prefer the Origa version though.

061: Dragon God

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☆彡 Damn, Stein.

★彡 I began playing Radical Dreamers yesterday. It is definitely an interesting game, and I was more than happy to run into some Chrono Cross characters. Everyone was pretty much the same except for Serge. Then again, Chrono Cross never really delved into what Serge’s personality and thoughts were like. For all I know he could be just like the Serge in Radical Dreamers. Probably not as clumsy though. Nonetheless, I am really liking this game. Thanks again, SNESbox.com!

☆彡 Pet Peeve #902: Sycophancy/brown-nosing/flattery.

★彡 I did some updates to both my domain and the Mythos website yesterday. Actually, I updated them a few days prior but freehostia was going through some technical issues and those updates I made just vanished. So, I had to do them all over again yesterday. LOL. Anyway, I’m kind of working on other website plans including a website for my anachronism story (now under the working title of “Temporal”) and then another website dedicated to time travelers. Right now, these are the time travelers that I want to include in the shrine: Link, The Doctor, Captain Kirk, Captain Picard, Captain Sisko, Captain Janeway, Spock, Chrono, Serge, Donnie Darko, Akemi Homura, Serah Farron, Mokoto Konno, Trunks, Bill & Ted (yes), Philip J. Fry, Dr. Emmett Brown, Ash (Army of Darkness not Pokemon…unless Pokemon!Ash time traveled then sure), the Mirai Sentai Timeranger team, Sailor Pluto, Dr. Sam Beckett,  and a few more.

☆彡 Yay, thunderstorm! (I’m not being sarcastic. I love thunderstorms. Even if it screws up my internet connection.)

★彡 I’ve been drawing with pens and markers a lot lately. I am getting tired of pencils, I guess. If my tablet worked, I definitely would work on some digital art right now. *sigh* So is the way of things. When I am interested, they are not there. When I am not interested, I can’t get them out of my sight.

☆彡 This is a week of meetings. I hate meetings, but if it leads to more income and an easier life for us then I can’t say no.  One major thing I am hoping to get out of this meeting is a chance to work second shift. It will be 3 p.m. to midnight. Do you know how awesome that is? I will only have to wake up early on Saturday to do a typical 9-5 shit, but I would get Sunday and Monday off. I don’t care too much for Sunday, but Monday off would be great. I always wanted a job that (a)didn’t involve waking up early, and (b)allowed me to have at least one weekday off so I can shop when everyone is at work or school. In short, if I say the right things to the right people then things will be much better for me.

★彡 In honor of this year being the year of snake, I am watching Conan the Barbarian. It’s the best I can do because I don’t fuck with snakes (the reptiles, not the people born under that year). Also, let’s not forget Thulsa Doom’s luxurious hair and “Gurl bye” look.

Ugh. Fierce as hale.

☆彡 Geralt going through a The Hangover type situation was hilarious. Spoiler: He got wasted, had a naked lady with a sword tattooed on the side of his neck (as a means of joining a guild he didn’t want to join when he was sober), hired some prostitutes with members of said guild, and tried to turn them into rafts so they could cross a river on them. It was hilarious. Especially when Triss couldn’t even make it through an explanation of the herbs needed to remove the tattoo because she was laughing so hard at him.

★彡 I don’t get the appeal of naked infants in costumes. Seriously, walking into a room and seeing a giant poster of a naked baby in a cowboy hat makes me uncomfortable.

☆彡 You dislike me. The sky splits open, and sucks up everything that is dear to me. “Why?” I weep as I fall to my knees. “Why must you take away my only purpose of living–being liked by you and others? Now I am nothing.” Slowly, I begin to evaporate. Once I disappear, millions of puppies and kittens rain from the sky. Everyone rejoices. A stranger pats you on the back and says, “Way to go. You saved the world because you disliked her. Good job.” You smile triumphantly. You are going places.

★彡 I found a way to work on a comic book without starting a new project or straying away from current projects. I am going to (1)write a side story about each character in Mythos–from the point of view of that character–before (2)turning those side stories into comic. I am teaching myself to stop jumping into comics without finishing the plot because I always end up working on a comic for days, running out of ideas, and then trashing all of that hard work. It sucks.

☆彡 I’d like to master at least one instrument in my lifetime…preferably the oboe, violin, piano, or ocarina.

★彡 Random Conversation:

Mark: “Oh, shit. Tomorrow’s Valentine’s Day.”
Me: “Yeah, you’re right. Oh, well. I didn’t get you shit.”
Mark: “I didn’t get you shit either.”
Me: “Awesome.”

If it isn’t obvious enough, Mark and I don’t care about Valentine’s Day. It’s not Halloween, so it’s not important.

☆彡 I am indifferent to the announcement of new XBox and PlayStation consoles. My sentiments may change when E3 rolls around, but all I’m hearing right now are rumors and seeing badly photoshopped pictures. I can’t do anything with that. Also, I don’t become interested in consoles for their features. Not too much anyway. I gravitate towards a console based on their game selection. What’s the point in paying almost $500 for a console that I can’t do anything with. Furthermore, consoles are always riddled with bugs when they come out. I’d rather wait until they fix them and start shipping them in neat bundles. Patience, patience, patience.

Kind of blah today. My stomach hurts. *sigh* I’ll get some tea and see how that goes.

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