097: Stand By Me

Just Frank Castle things.

✪ Personal Life ✪

  • Geez… Where the fuck do I begin?
  • Everything is Lunafreya right now and you’re damn right I’m going to fangirl about FFXV in a minute.
  • February was definitely a great month. I got to meet my new nephew Jaden, hang out with Ash, Tiffa, and Mark, and finally get my hands on a Wii U!
    • Jaden – He’s such a cutie pie ♥♥♥! Why are my nephews and niece so precious? I don’t deserve them. 😥
    • Hangout – So, Ash came down from NC to visit a bunch of her ATL friends, including me, Tiffa, and Mark, and we had a blast with her. I can’t remember the last time I laughed as much as I did that day. We were just being a bunch of goofs together. LOL. All in all, it was great–great friends, great conversations, great places, great food. I can’t wait to do it again. This time we will actually put some effort into planning because Mark almost led us to our deaths. Bad Mark.
    • Wii U – This belongs in the gaming section. Still, it is probably the best Valentine’s Day gifts I ever received.
  • Mark and I found a new hobby that is guaranteed to concern the people we know. There is a shooting range right down the street from our place, and we’ve become obsessed with… well… shooting shit. My only complaint is that it’s loud as hell. And the kickback will knock your fucking teeth out if you don’t keep control. Otherwise, it’s a blast (no pun intended). The great thing is that I’m surprisingly decent at it. I mean, my eyesight is garbage so I was sure I would miss my target, but I ended up getting mostly headshots at 50 feet distance. According to Mark that is good. At least I know I’ll survive somewhat in the zombie apocalypse, right? LOL. I don’t know. He’s the military kid, so he’s been my mentor on all things gun related. Anyway, it’s fun. GREAT stress relief. That is a definite!
  • I got a chance to work remote and it was like winning the lottery for a day. LOL. I don’t even care about raises or promotions anymore. I just want to eventually get permission to work from home everyday. That is my dream job right there. And since I love the work I do my career will be 100% enjoyable for me. No more waking up at 3am, no more driving in traffic, no more spending my lunch playing taxi–none of that shit there. Just me, my music, my laptop, and my pajamas. Fuck. Yes. I want it now. ლ(╹◡╹ლ)
  • I’m ashamed of some of the things I find hysterical. For example, every time I hear/read, “Swiggity swooty, I’m coming for that booty,” I giggle like an idiot. Then the other day Mark and I were trying to decide on dinner and he googled “good food”. Dude, I was crying. Like… what was he hoping to accomplish with that vague-ass search? I’m done (╥ □ ╥)! Now I’m giggling because while watching Daredevil Mark said that since Matt is blind he probably hits on girls by saying, “Hey, girl, let me hear them titties,” and… *siiiigh* My sense of humor is in ruins. Don’t look at me.
  • I got new glasses after seven years or so, and it is so fucking weird. I didn’t know real life was this crisp.
  • Link is temporarily annoyed with me because a cat outside was following Mark and me and climbing our shoulders, and he watched all of this from the window with a pissed expression. So… Yeah… We feel like two-timing whores now. Sorry, Link. 😦
  • I don’t know what else to add in this section. I’m feeling OK. I’m working on improving certain areas of my life. I guess that is it then. Moving onwards~

 

✪ Art & Writing ✪

  • I can always tell when I’m in a good place art-wise because my art supplies will move from my desk to everywhere else. It also doesn’t help at all that every time I get a little extra cash I just add to that shit like I have all the space in the world. In my defense, I always said as a child that when I become an adult and have money I would buy all the art supplies I want. So, I’m sure the young Kerri in me is cartwheeling around in excitement. Anyway, I’m not complaining. I do need to be more organized, yes, but I’m as happy as pig in shit over here. I want to draw forever. ♥
  • Writing is now working out smoothly because I decided to put all my writing-related things in one book. Brainstorm? One book. Drabbles? One book. Charts? One book. At times I’ll think, “Yadda-yadda would be a good idea”, and then I’ll just write in my book “Yadda-yadda is a good idea”. Often times right in the middle of doing something else, like shopping. LOL. I’m pretty much inseparable from that book. It’s like my brainstorm encyclopedia, and it makes things infinitely better. If you’re a writer you have to get a brainstorm book. It’s extremely awesome. Stick it in your purse with some pen(cil)s and never worry about forgetting a good idea again. 😀
  • By the way, if you order a sketchbook online and it says “MASSIVE, HUGE” then believe it… because I ordered one thinking, “please no sketchbook is too big for me” and this one is ridiculous. In terms of length  and width it’s not bad. Maybe 11 x 12-ish. But it has like 600 pages, its the size of an encyclopedia, and there is no way I’m carrying that almost 20 lb. tome of a sketchbook outside of this place. So. Yeah. I have so many pages that at this point I’m just sketching any random shit that comes to mind. LOL

✪ Anime & Manga ✪

  • It only took me an eternity, but I finally managed to watch all of Fushigi Yuugi including that horrible sequel. Yay! At first I was disappointed that Miaka was gravitating towards Tamahome instead of Hotohori, but eventually I stopped fighting it and accepted the obvious reality that they are one of the most adorable couples ever created. I also wanted nothing but the best for Yui too because even though she was so pigheaded at times she was never a bad person. Ah… I love it. I’ll always have a soft spot for shoujo anything. They make me feel so warm and fluffy inside. (。´ ‿`♡)
  • Completely in love with Kabaneri of the Iron Fortress and JoJo’s Bizarre Adventure: Diamond is Unbreakable.
  • Of course I caught the FFXV: Brotherhood anime. It’s decent so far. I just wonder how long it’s going to take to release all of the episodes. ARGH IMPATIENCE.
  • I am completely in love with Hunter x Hunter. I’m so glad that I finally finished it. Now I feel kinda hollow because I was immersed in this world for weeks and now it’s just… done. I hate when that happens. LOL. I’m already looking into collecting the mangas so maybe that will help.
  • New Berserk anime! *backflips through a wall* Yaaas, I need more! I’m already hyped as shit because they finally made it to Elfheim, so… yeah. Let’s get this series done in my lifetime please. >_<
  • The new Sailor Moon Crystal looks so much better. Also, Michiru! My queen!
  • Broke down and purchased the Oyasumi Punpun and Gunslinger Girl omnibuses. Totally worth it. Now my heart can break all over again. Yay!
  • What the hell is even Sekkou Boys? (╥ □ ╥)
  • I guess Turn-A-Gundam is no longer in copyright jail because they’re actually selling the DVDs in stores now. I damn near screamed when I saw the first part of the set at MovieStop. Silly gundam moustache and all, I absolutely love this series. Loran is definitely my favorite Gundam pilot of all times. He is so adorable. I can’t stand it. Also, Yoko Kanno doing the music is just… *deep breath*… Get away from me if you hate this series. I don’t need that negativity in my life.
  • Geez, what else? The Lost Village is creepy as fuck and I have no idea what is going on. Finished Ace of Diamond and I really want Chris Yuu’s eyebrows. Slam Dunk is my shit now. Sakamoto is funny as hell. My Hero Academia is so nice! Ah, so much anime to talk about. Maybe another time.

I know I’m forgetting something but it’s been a few months. I’m trying. -_-

✪ Video Games ✪

  • Ah, yes. The Wii U. It kind of came to me unexpectedly. Sure, I was planning to get it eventually, but one day Mark was just like “surprise,” and then I had a Wii U. He already got me Hyrule Warriors before I got it, so I had that to play (ADDICTIVE). It came with Mario Kart 8 (FUN). The moment Twilight Princess came out I got that (GLORIOUS). Eventually, I did get Xenoblade Chronicles, even after the whole Amazon crap I had to deal with to get it (LONG STORY BUT WHATEVER THIS GAME IS RPG ROYALTY), and that was well worth all the headache. I have zero complaints. I love it. The gamepad is ridiculously nifty and feels more like another handheld console at times. I don’t know what else to say. I’m completely in love with it. I am beyond fortunate. Thank you, life, for not always shitting on me! \(^O^)/
  • GET READY FOR SOME FFXV FANGIRLING.
  • First of all, I watched that FFXV Uncovered video from start to finish, and even though it was cheesy at times I was hyped as fuck. I’ve accepted my badge as a Square-Enix bitch ages ago. I can’t help it anymore. Needless to say, they are going above and beyond with this one. And they better. They’ve been working on this game for over a decade now. I was still in high school when they announced it, and back then it was FF Versus XIII or whatever. The wait is finally over, guys. I can’t believe it. Come September 30th FFXV will actually be here! Well… it might come a little later for me. I preordered the deluxe edition (the ultimate edition practically vanished) with overnight shipping, so if I’m lucky I’ll get on the first of October. If not, then it will probably show up the following Monday. Tuesday the absolute latest before I lose my shit. LOL. Either way, I’m ecstatic. I love the idea of an anime, a movie, another demo, and even all the other ridiculous things like an actual car that no one can buy. I’m indifferent to the mobile game, but I’ll try it out once I get a phone that doesn’t give me an insufficient storage warning every time I try to download something. I mean… Fuck. I don’t know what else to say. The moment I heard Florence and the Machine singing her version of “Stand By Me” (Yes!) FOR this game my eyes started to water. I couldn’t help it. It’s like someone just took all of my favorite things, put them in a box, dumped it in front of me, and said, “Enjoy it in six months, bitch”. It’s like… that feeling you get as a kid when someone told you that you were going to Disneyworld. When I realize this thing I’ve been waiting over ten years to experience is only months away I just want to celebrate, regardless of the possibility that it might be straight up dick. I don’t even know what I’m saying. I’m just excited and sappy and relieved and hopeful. That’s about it. I can’t wait!!!  ʘ‿ʘ
  • Oh, and you can bet your ass that I played that demo. The gameplay felt a lot like Kingdom Hearts tbh. Which is not a complaint at all. It’s so enjoyable that I’m already thinking of playing it again. Plus Carbuncle and bb Noctis are so adorable! I want an esper/eidolon/GF/summon/etc. to talk to me via text messages. 😮 And of course I’m so uncreative that when I was asked to name Carbuncle I just named him Carbuncle. LOL. I don’t start giving people and things dumb names until the second playthrough at least. Dems the rules.
  • Can I talk about Sakaguchi showing up to the conference? I miss him. ;_;
  • New updates for Nier Automata too! Yes, I need moar!
  • Finally tackling that Hearts of Stone DLC for The Witcher 3. I’m loving it. I never get tired of Geralt. There could be an entire DLC with him watching paint dry and I’ll probably write a review saying, “A work of art. Fantastic gameplay. 10/10.”
  • I can’t sign on Steam anymore because the instant I login this person keeps IMing me to talk about Sailor Moon and its connection to the occult and I don’t know how to say “go away” without hurting his/her feelings. Why did I end up in this situation? Why is it the more antisocial I become, the more people keep talking me? Why? Why?

✪ Books ✪

  • Do comic books count? Because I’ve been reading through a lot of omnibuses lately, mostly Daredevil.
  • I did get the first eight books of The Wheel of Time series for like $10 and was set on reading it… but then I got distracted… and then Mark took that honor for me. LOL. He got through three books in like a week, so I have to hear nonstop about how awesome it is while simultaneously loathing myself for not getting past the second chapter of the first book. I just need one good week to focus 100% on my hobbies. (◞‸◟;)

✪ Music ✪

  • The Legend of Legacy OST is everything. Pianoschlacht Live is also pretty important to me. Bless Masashi Hamauzu. Kinda OT, but I found out recently that Masashi Hamauzu got his daughter to sing the vocals in “The Vestige” from the FFXIII OST. I just had to mention that because it is really neat and adorable at the same time.
  • BEYONCE DID IT AGAIN! >:U
  • My music life has been mostly Pandora. I really need to do something about my stations because I swear I have like twenty of them. It’s not really my fault though. How do you put instrumentals, trip hop, classic rock, alternative rock, hip hop, r&b, and several other genres in one station? Then there are some artists/bands that need their own station because I have a lot of moments where I only want to hear their music or music that sounds similar to theirs. I did put my movie, game, and anime soundtrack stations into one station called “writing & drawing*, but even now I’m thinking of breaking them into separate stations again because video game music is not like movie music, you know? *sigh* I’m hopeless.

✪ TV & Movies ✪

  • THIS NEW SEASON OF GAME OF THRONES IS REALLY GOOD SO FAR. WOW.
  • I don’t think I discussed The Force Awakens yet. I loved it! My biggest complaint is that there was not enough Captain Phasma, but I heard she was supposed to get more screen time in later episodes. GOOD. You can’t hire fierce queen Gwendoline Christie aka Brienne of Tarth to play a stormtrooper and not make her kick ass. Not allowed, JJ Abrams. e_e
  • Season two of Daredevil… Wow. Just wow. I loved every second of it. Sure, it has its flaws, but none were so troubling that I couldn’t enjoy it. Frank/The Punisher is amazing. Elektra is amazing. I still love Matt/Daredevil, Karen, and Foggy. I love that some of the characters from season one came back. It’s just so good. I can’t wait for Luke Cage and Iron First and The Defenders!
  • I think I mentioned watching The Sopranos before. That is all done, so now I just have to start The Wire. I know it is considered quite possibly the best show ever made, but every time I get the chance to watch it I end up falling asleep. Not because it’s boring but because I’m almost always tired. Then I spend my weekends playing games or watching weeb shit, so… yeah. It’s at the top of my watchlist. Finish The Wire before 2017 or kick myself in the chest. >_<
  • Spotlight is such a good movie, but it is so fucked up. So, so, so, so fucked up. It is disgusting how many suspected pedophiles are amongst priests alone. When you think about the population as a whole… It’s like this whole shit with Jared. It makes me legit irate. I’m just going to stop because this is going to turn into a long rant. I already feel it. Anyway, Spotlight it is wonderfully done in terms of acting and production, but the subject matter is definitely unsettling. There is my review.
  • The same kind of goes for Room. It is such a good movie, but the subject matter is saddening. I really love characters like Brie Larson’s “Ma” because she is the epitome of what a hero(ine) is. I cannot imagine the amount of courage and strength it takes to endure a situation like that, and still keep your child completely oblivious to how screwed up things actually are. It is definitely a tearjerker. I highly recommend it.
  • Saw Deadpool. Funny as hell, as expected. Not a perfect movie, but it is the perfect Deadpool movie. That is all that matters, right?
  • Saw Batman v Superman… and I don’t even know what to say. Outside of Ben Affleck playing a good Batman and Gal Gadot slaying as Wonder Woman the movie was balls. It was just plot holes galore, Jesse Eisenberg doing who knows what drug to play Lex Luthor (or supposedly Lex Luthor Jr. which is even dumber), disappointing character development, flop villains all around… I don’t even know. And they didn’t even have the decency to reward the audience for sitting through that with some after credits scenes. The disrespect. LOL. I mean, it wasn’t the worst movie ever made. It was just tolerable at best.

✪ Whatever Else/Closing ✪

I have so much to cover that I just kinda typed without worrying about typos or curbing my potty mouth… fingers. Anyway, sorry about all of that. I think it’s been like five months since my last entry. D:

Take care, ya’ll, especially with the ridiculous amount of pollen out there these days. If you’re going through the whole itchy eyes, stuffy nose, coughing mess I’m there with you. Be strong, sistrens and brethrens.

Sending everyone good vibrations. (っ- ‸ -)っ ~♥

 

090: Nornir

FFXV looks amazing.

Trying to reorganize my blog entries again. Bear with me.

✪ Personal Life ✪

  • Whenever I get sick I sometimes remember that the purpose of the “bug” is to kill me, not to inconvenience me, and it brings home that death is always right around the corner. Also, I am fun at parties.
  • I kind of want to give myself a high five right now because I had this long list of shit I wanted to clean and organize (as I try to do every change of season), and I tackled it today. While I am still semi-sick. But at the same time I kind of want to kick myself in the face because when I’m healthy I never do shit, yet when I’m sick I suddenly find a bunch of energy and invest 4-5 hours into chores. I am too backwards for my own good. D:
  • Halloween is almost here~ That’s the day that I dump a bunch of candy into my pumpkin bowl, turn off all the lights so trick-or-treaters won’t ask me for any, and watch scary movies until I pass out. It’s gonna be NICE. Hopefully. But I never know.
  • 99% of the time when I refer to someone as “my baby” or “my boo” IRL I am talking about either Link or Levi(athan). The cat and the car respectively.

✪ Art & Writing ✪

  • Titles are a headache. I know that “Mythos” is not good enough anymore, yet nothing else seems to be good enough either. Mark suggested having a name for the series (ex: GRRM’s “A Song of Fire and Ice”) and then naming each book based individually (ex: “A Game of Thrones”, “A Feast for Crows”, “A Storm of Swords”, etc.). That’s not a bad idea. In fact, his advice led me to a series name (“The Millennium Sorceress”). The issue though is that I am not even set on the idea of books. I’ll bring that to the next bullet.
  • The more I work on “Mythos” (let’s just stick with the usual title until I am set on “TMS” or anything else), the more it feels like an RPG. And it makes sense. I began this project because I was inspired by RPGs like Final Fantasy and Chrono Cross. I like the whole travelling around the world, meeting party members, and telling stories through dialog and battles. Actually, I’m waiting for RPG Maker VX Ace to go back on sale again so I can start working with it. It’s about $60 on Steam right now, but it was $15 once. So I’ll wait. Until then I’ll try “Mythos” as an RPG instead. Let’s see if that helps this horrible writer’s block I am dealing with.
  • Nanowrimo is around the corner, but I don’t think I will participate this year. My creative juices are flowing more towards the technical side (drawing, creating maps, making skill trees, etc.) than the writing side. I really am a shit writer. I can’t explain things as beautifully and poetically as the writers I admire. *pouts* Oh well…
  • Drawing comics about the things that are bothering me can be really therapeutic. Oddly enough, it is not revisiting unpleasant things and making them comical that makes me feel relaxed. It is more the freedom to be meticulous. Whipping that ruler out, drawing perfect lines, being uber-cautious with inking–that is the part that makes me feel…in control. I just like the feeling of taking something as chaotic as something I cannot avoid, like misfortune, and making it all neat. Manageable, even. It’s comforting.

✪ Anime & Manga ✪

I tried out the Funimation and Crunchyroll apps for two weeks, and I managed to catch up on a bunch of animes.

  • Monthly Girls’ Nozaki-Kun – I really love this anime. It’s lighthearted. It’s funny. The main character is really easy to relate to while the supporting characters remind me of so many people I know. It’s just a feel-good anime that I can see myself rewatching the moment the series is done. Also, that ending song. It’s so cute and it’s stuck in my head. D:
  • Gintama – I will get the Crunchyroll app just to finish this anime. Seriously. Within the first minute or so I was dying of laughter.
  • Tonari no Seki-kun – Another funny anime. Seki reminds me so much of Mark. He just has an endless supply of tiny toys that he does distracting stuff with. Seriously, we have been living in this apartment for a while and I am still discovering random toys in random places doing random things, and whenever I ask him to explain it he has some elaborate story for why they are there. So, it’s no surprise that he loved the hell out of this anime. It is a pretty cute anime. I just wish it was longer. 😦
  • Naruto Shippuden – Dude, I have not watched this anime in years. I came back to it to see what happened and found out Team 7/Team Kakashi is back together. What the fuck? Wasn’t Sasuke evil? Yeah… hella behind. I found out that Naruto is coming to an end really soon too, so that’s kind of bittersweet. I know Naruto gets shit on a lot (as anything remotely popular does), but…that’s fucking Naruto man. It’s going to be sad to see it go. I never got into One Piece, but I might start checking that anime out so I’m not without a staple shounen series to fall back on. Well…I have Toriko. That counts as shounen, right? Sometimes I forget because Toriko is an adult who is very, extremely manly. But so is Goku and DBZ is shonen anime/manga legend. It’s all good.
  • Dramatical Murder – Eh… Compared to the game it was very tame. I like the music though. I never skipped the opening and closing because I liked the songs a lot. The animation was also nice. I didn’t get to see much of my bb Mink, but it was still OK.
  • Sword Art Online II – Didn’t like it as much as I liked the first. Mark was really into it though.
  • Akame ga Kill! – Started off interesting. Got bored around episode 3 or 4. I might try again another time.
  • High School DxD – …What the fuck did I watch…? Pretty sure it was hentai.
  • The Idol Master – a.k.a. the anime based on the game that made Kentaro Miura stop working on Berserk. LOL. I saw the first episode, and it seemed adorable. I would not mind seeing how the rest goes.

Speaking of Berserk, that manga update. YES. I have been waiting for someone to slap the shit out of Griffith ever since the Eclipse, and I am so glad it was Rickert.  That blatant disrespect at the graveyard of swords too was just… Yeah. He needed the taste slapped out of his mouth. Well, I think he deserves much more than that–MUCH MUCH MORE–but to get pimp slapped at his own tea party by a kid in front of all of his friends was pretty nice. 10/10. Not okay with that ‘Til’ Next Time’ though.

✪ Video Games ✪

  • I doomed my FFVII replay by going to that fucking Northern Cave. Now that I completed the game I just have no motivation to do anything else. It kind of sucks. There are still weapons to beat and special items to get, but I have this sense of closure from completing the game. Maybe I’ll play tomorrow or something. IDK.
  • Alien: Isolation was amazing. Please don’t listen to IGN’s review. The person who reviewed it was bitter about constantly dying and tried to blame the game for it. The thing is… he started the game on hard mode. Of course you will die a lot if you choose to play a game in hard mode. What were you expecting? Additionally, he mentioned his tactic of hiding in the vents to avoid confronting a xenomorph, but xenomorphs travel through the vents. That’s like trying to avoid getting hit by a car by standing in the middle of the street. I’m sorry, but it irks the hell out of me when companies give poor reviews to games because they suck at it. A lot of people who worked hard to make a superior game can lose money and their jobs because of shit reviews like that. It’s just really irresponsible journalism. No one should never blame the quality of a product on their inability to handle it. I hate seeing reviews like that on sites like Amazon (“This product clearly says to do this but I’m going to do the opposite and bitch about it online.”), and I especially hate seeing reviews like that when it comes to games. /rant
  • My gaming life is still being consumed by Borderlands 2. This weekend was free gold weekend, so I took the opportunity to input a fuckton of shift codes. I have 100+ keys, new skins, new heads. It’s really nice. Lately, I’ve been grinding/farming with Maya in hopes of catching her up to Gaige, and I’m getting kind of close. Maya is level 13. Gaige is level 19. I just have to take my time around Tundra Express, and hope that I don’t run into any badass anythings. If I stick with the varkids and a few basic bandits I can level up pretty fast. It’s not a big deal though. Gaige is still my main character. I’m just curious about Maya’s phaselocking potential. 😛
  • Don’t talk to me about Hyrule Warriors, Super Smash Bros Wii U or Bayonetta 2 because I don’t have a Wii U and I don’t know when I’ll get one tbh (Yes, I know SSB is on the 3DS but I can’t afford that one either).
  • I played the Theatrhythm: Curtain Call demo, and it was so fun! I really want to play the full version. 200 Final Fantasy songs? Are you kidding me? I need that right now. ;_;
  • LET’S TALK ABOUT DRAGON AGE: INQUISITION THO.
  • Praying to the video game gods rn so I save up $400 and get a PlayStation 4.  I don’t want to imagine my life without Final Fantasy XV, Final Fantasy Type-0, The Witcher 3, Kingdom Hearts 3. What else am I missing? A bunch of games, I am sure. PLUS all the PSX classics. Just thinking about playing Xenogears in the immediate future makes me want to dance around. *sigh* Just gotta work hard. Keep tackling bills, taking care of home, and saving. I’ll get there soon enough.

✪ Books ✪

Nothing to really add here. I haven’t ventured beyond the same books I piled at my bedside last time. I’ve just been caught up in other hobbies. I am really looking forward to The World of Ice and Fire though. Like, REALLY looking forward to it. I’ve been annoying Mark with my excitement for it. Whoops. LOL. The same goes for the Chrono Cross Ultimania. I have my eyes on that too. It’s been out forever, but I’m deciding now to say “fuck it” and add it to my collection. Soon.

✪ Music ✪

  •  Is it safe to say that the Super Smash Bros. soundtracks are like the Lollapaloozas for game composers? Seriously, Nobuo Uematsu, Masashi Hamauzu, Yoko Shimomura, Yasunori Mitsuda,  Koji Kondo, Motoi Sakuraba, Keiichi Okabe, Mahito Yokota–LEGENDS. So, it’s safe to say that I am listening to a lot of SSB songs lately. The greatest thing is hearing my favorite composers revamp songs I have been listening to since I was a kid. I never get tired of it. I can hear 1,000 renditions of the Super Mario theme and still get an overwhelming urge to whip out my old school consoles.
  •  Kingdom Hearts 2.5 OST. EVERYTHING HAS BEEN REMADE WITH MORE VIOLINS. If this is a sample of what Yoko Shimomura is going to do with Final Fantasy XV then I am hyped as fuck. There are so many game soundtracks that I need in my life right now. It’s not even funny anymore. -_-

✪ TV & Movies ✪

Man, I don’t even know where to start.

  • South Park – The biggest premiere for me. Of course, SP is as funny and controversial as ever. The thing I am loving most, though, is the continuity. It’s neat that they’re carrying clues from episode to episode until the inevitable conclusion at the season finale. This is SP though. They might string the audience along just to come to an anticlimactic conclusion. Yeah, I can definitely see that happening. LOL
  • The Legend of Korra – Hilarious as always until something destroys my soul.
  • Grey’s Anatomy – …Why am I still watching this show? Seriously, Yang is gone. There is no point for me anymore.
  • Sons of Anarchy – JAAAAX!!! *kicks table over* GEMMAAAA!!! *kicks over all of the chairs* CHARMING IN GENERAL!!!! *flying kick to the window*
  • Gotham –  Not a bad show at all. I hate that I keep missing episodes though. I would be so far behind in everything were it not for Hulu.
  • American Horror Story – Never fails to creep me out. I love it.
  • SNL – Can we just have an entire hour about the nightclubs that Stefon goes to?
  • ANTM – Two words: beard weave. Please stop, Tyra. XDD
  • Forever – Interesting.
  • Agents of Shield – So far so good. If anything happens to Simmons and/or Fitz I am going to…do nothing. Just be really sad. :/
  • The Flash – !!!
  • Gracepoint– I LOVE THIS SHOW. Mark makes fun of me for taking it so seriously, but it is not a joke to me, and he knows there will be trouble if he changes the channel while Gracepoint in on. So much trouble.
  • Total Divas – Never really sat down and watched this show until recently. It’s…eye-opening, I guess? I honestly don’t feel like I’m learning anything about the wrestlers because everything feels scripted. It’s nice to see more of Naomi though. She needs that Divas championship like yesterday. I adore AJ, yes, but Naomi is more athletic to me. I need her to own it at some point.
  • Drunk History – I never get tired of this show. I think I watched a few episodes like three times already because they’re so funny and insightful. Watch it. Even if you’re like me and you rarely drink (or don’t drink at all) just watch it. It’s hilarious.
  • WWE – Last but not least this trash (LOL). Okay, I’ll admit. I was marking the fuck out when The Rock showed up. And he was in Brooklyn?! Yeah, I was happy about that. I’m bummed about Roman Reigns STILL being gone though. Dean Ambrose is filling the void he left, but with John Cena being forced into the Dean and Seth feud it just makes everything kind of…ugh. I don’t hate John Cena. I’m just tired of him. Yes, we get it. Hustle, you can’t see me, never give up. Whatever. Then again, I know he is mainly there for the little kids who never get tired of him, and not so much the adult fans who want  more interesting characters. That is where Dean comes in. He pretty much doesn’t give a shit and does whatever he wants, so I think that is why older fans adore him. Anyway, what’s next? Hell in the Cell? I’m rooting for Dean Ambrose to win. Still, I kind of want Brock Lesnar to show up and chew through the cell or something just to fuck everything up. That would be great.

I haven’t seen any new movies lately. I REALLY want to see Gone Girl.

✪ Whatever Else/Closing ✪

*phew* That was a lot!

Well, this week is going to be a long one for me. There is so much to get done. I only hope that with the spare time I find in between all of the annoying stuff that I can work on an RPG. If not “Mythos” then at least a brand new idea. I’d rather not start a new one though. Yeah…I have nothing else to add. Gonna tackle some crap and then start working on some stuff. I *might* upload some drawings soon too. At last, I have some sketches that I consider decent enough to share. So I will share them soon. Hopefully.

Take care, everyone. ♥

076: Light It Up

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★彡 Things are progressing quickly in The Witcher 2. I went from struggling to defeat the kayran to joining King Felselt’s camp. Whoo~ Geralt made it so easy by being strong and adorable~ I was hoping Triss could stick around to be strong and adorable with him, but she’s MIA right now. *weeps* Honestly, the battle with the kayran wasn’t bad at all. I just ran into it without ostmurk the first time and got my ass kicked…and that happened because I abandoned the game for so long before that I forgot that mongoose=ostmurk. As much as I love alchemy in this game, it is a headache memorizing all of these ingredients, components, and whatnot. It’s a small flaw on an otherwise flawless game. I love this series. Everything from the books to the games are just…wow. I don’t want to see it end at all.

☆彡 New DIY project:

  1. Buy a shitload of composition notebooks (and they’re all on sale thanks to back-to-school specials).
  2. Buy different types of fabrics.
  3. Wrap the notebooks in those fabrics.
  4. Tada! Tons of new beautiful books to write in instead of spending $10 each for them at some random store.

★彡 AJ called Dolph “pudding”. I’m pretty sure she is channeling Harley Quinn now. You’re the coolest, AJ *_*! Speaking of WWE, I am conflicted about the SummerSlam results. I should have known Randy Orton would have done that, but I didn’t expect HHH to help him out. As for AJ Lee and Big E losing…it is good for the storyline to have them punished for what happened to Kaitlyn, but I am always going to be disappointed when AJ loses. I don’t even know what to say about CM Punk, Heyman, and Lesner. I’m so done with Heyman though. I can’t wait to see CM Punk puts him to sleep. It’s going to happen. I’m just waiting patiently. Until then, we will just have to see how this McMahon-HHH dictatorship thing goes. Raw was definitely intense this week. I cannot wait for Smackdown.

☆彡 I like ramune because it makes you work hard for that drink. I spend a good 3-5 minutes trying to pop that damn top, but that wave of euphoria when the marble makes that “plunk” noise is uncomparable.

★彡 I have four choices of Zelda games to download to my 3DS: Link’s Awakening, The Adventure of Link, Oracle of Ages, and Oracle of Seasons. I can also say neither, and download that programming application. *sigh* I will likely end up with Oracle of Seasons. I’ll see…

☆彡 I don’t trust anyone who hates pizza.

★彡 I give The Devil Is A Part-Timer credit for having fanservice for both genders. You don’t see that much in animes.

☆彡 If it can go in your mouth, don’t take it out in public…because literally 0.05 seconds after you take it out, someone is going to start begging. Like, Mark and I were in an empty parking lot and the moment he opened his box of cigarettes this dude came out of fucking nowhere begging to bum one. There wasn’t even any cars around but ours in the parking lot! What type of X-Men bullshit…? I bet if we got stabbed or something and started shouting for help, that guy would be nowhere to be found. Damn shame.

★彡 My goal in life is to be like Toriko. I just want to be strong, eat well, and chase ridiculous goals. Seriously, the man wants to cook god and eat him. Compared to him, my goals are attainable. Slightly OT: I was telling Mark that I would literally scream if Guts ever made a cameo in the series. It is very unlikely…but I will still hope for it.

☆彡 Autumn is almost here! I’m so excited for Halloween, and pumpkin everything. I’m more excited about the cool weather though. This summer has been absolute torment. Also, I miss my hoodies. D:

★彡 It is so difficult to re-read Nana because the mangas makes me cry everytime I read them. I am still saddened by the fact that Ai Yazawa pretty much abandoned the series. It’s been about four years without a single update…which means I should really just give up on waiting. Then again, I am a Berserk fan, and we Berserk fans know all about waiting ridiculous amounts of time for manga updates (LOL). So, I’ll just wait. See how it goes~

☆彡 Culinary challenge: master green tea latte and green tea cake recipes.

★彡 I currently own two copies of A Game of Thrones. One I bought when I first wanted to read the series, and the second that came with the boxset I acquired afterwards. Mark told me to sell it…but I think I will wait for someone to say: “Man, I need a new series to get into. I’m thinking ASOIAF…” Then I’ll just yell “READ THIS NOW” and slam dunk the book on whatever surface is nearby. Then I will have someone to fangirl with IRL. I mean…Mark is kind of into the series, but he hasn’t really gone beyond the TV shows. So I can’t talk to him about the shitload of things the TV show left out or changed because of limitations. Yep…waiting, waiting. Yo, if I give someone the book and they tell me that they love Daenerys, I will skip into the sunset. Soon.

Obviously, nothing new or interesting to add this time. I have been abusing this two months of free Hulu thing like nobody’s business. I am so glad it works this time around. My first experience with Hulu was terrible. It probably goes without saying that I will end up subscribing beyond the two months. This means that I will have to subscribe to Gold for the long-term too. I must. They give away two free games every month so long as you are a gold member. If that is not a good deal, I don’t know what is!

Of course, I still have my games to play. ACNL takes up a great deal of my time because I am a perfectionist…a horrible thing to be in this game. LOL. The same goes with The Witcher 2. I react to every quest offered with: “This is such a waste of time. Of course I will.” Put into consideration the character development tree, alchemy, crafting, and upgrading shit constantly and…yeah…I can see myself putting a lot of time into this game. And this is just with Roche’s branch. Once I join Iorveth in my second playthrough, it will be more quests and resources and updating. …Possibly more gambling and prostitutes too. Just another day in Geralt’s life.

Ah well. That’s pretty much it. Same ol’, same ol’.

Take care everyone.

072: I Go Humble

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☆彡 It’s always fun being told by others what I prioritize in my own life. You know, because someone who wears the same $20 beat up sneakers for years is really bothered by the idea of not having $500 high-fashion shoes. I think what I’m going to do with people like that is find some random thing they’re not even interested in, and shame them for not being interested in it. Just to show them how moronic their mentality is. Then when they look really confused and point out that they’re not even interested in the thing I’m shaming them for not being interested in, I’ll hand them a card that says: “Congrats! You finally get it! It only took 500 years!”

★彡 Quick reviews of movies I saw recently: Mama was a disappointment, Cloud Atlas was as interesting as it was complex, Teddy Bear is everything I hope to find in an independent film, and Dancer in the Dark was depressing. I’m also getting into Welcome to the NHK and Revolutionary Girl Utena. Not movies, I know, but I still love them both. I will start on Steins;Gate soon. I saw the last Berserk movie and I am officially done with the eclipse and even everything pre-eclipse. So…yeah…if it’s Berserk and it’s not related to the Millennium Falcon arc and beyond then I don’t want to watch or read it. Now if you’ll excuse me, I’m going to think about that third film and weep.

☆彡 Shoutout to Daniel for letting me know that Fable 3 was free with XBox Live Gold. I know for a fact that I would have missed out on that because I always do.

★彡 I burned water today. I should get a sticker or something for that.

☆彡 I wish I had a dollar for everytime someone played on the fact that I don’t speak much by telling me that I talk too much. 

★彡 So, my 3DS is now a portable game system, camera, sketchbook, diary, pedometer, and mp3 player. It’s basically my life. Oh, and I watch Netflix on it if I’m stuck somewhere lame that happens to have wifi. So…it’s safe to say that I’m attached to it. Still deciding what to name it though. I’m slightly set on Utena.

☆彡 The same people who pressure me to “come out of my shell” are the same ones who judge me relentlessly when I do. It really sickens me that some individuals are so eager to be hateful that they will drag individuals out of whatever environment they enjoy just to hurt them. I will never understand why some humans are so amazing that it fills me with happiness for days, and others are such absolute shit that it makes me wish I didn’t have to live on this planet with them. There never seems to be an in-between.

★彡 I really have nothing to say about the Paula Deen ordeal. Racists are foolish and they’re never saying shit.

☆彡 *casually puts “Giant”, “Black Ocean”, and “Leave Me Alone” by Imeruat on repeat until the end of time*

★彡 Thursday, before Mark left for his trip, I cried nonstop. It was a mess. Seriously, we were eating dinner and then out of the blue I started sobbing and eating at the same time. Not cute. I promise. Then when he was actually gone, I had a meltdown–just crying and crying and crying all of Friday. Then around Friday night, I stopped crying and I’ve been pretty calm since then. Actually, on Saturday he kept sending me messages to see if I was okay and I had to tell him: “YES. I’M FINE. PLEASE GO ENJOY YOUR TRIP AND LET ME WATCH ANIME.” LOL

…But I really miss him. I’m sure I shut off my emotions because I didn’t want to spend this entire time crying, but the moment I see him again, I’ll probably cry again. He’s the Guts to my Caska. We are just…nauseatingly inseparable. Even on the phone, we both talked about how strange it feels. It’s that feeling I get when I leave the house and I left something important behind. I’m likely to spend the entire day dwelling on it not being there with me. It just feels really unsettling…and it kind of makes everything less enjoyable as a result. Bah, getting teary eyed. I’m going to move on to something else…

☆彡 I can watch this video for hours. It’s so perfect:

★彡 On one hand, I believe everyone has the right to be angry and frustrated sometimes. On the other hand, I don’t believe I have the right to be angry and frustrated at all.

☆彡 It disturbs me that bullying a person can become such a cultural norm that those who don’t bully them are encouraged to. After I told someone that I don’t think it’s right to body shame Kim Kardashian (not that she needs a reason to gain weight but…you imbeciles making fun of her do understand how pregnancy works, right?), she told me: “Kim Kardashian is a piece of shit. You shouldn’t feel bad about making fun of her.” …Really? And what are you for making fun of a pregnant woman? Not a piece of shit?

★彡 The Sonic The Hedgehog 2 OST gives me life.

☆彡 Bjork’s best album, for me, was definitely Homogenic…actually…Debut. No. Vespertine. FUCK.

★彡 The following video game characters are ruining my life:

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In other news, Emilia Clarke is still ruining my life. Every time I see a picture of her, my reaction is pretty much: “Can you not?”

☆彡 Don’t embarrass yourself by threatening to terminate your relationship with me if I don’t do what you want. If you’re the type of person who constantly tries to control me, there is a 100% chance that I’ve been waiting for you to get lost long before you considered the thought.

★彡 I like having clean hair, but I hate washing my hair and conditioning my hair and letting it sit for so many minutes and then washing it again and then drying it and then straightening it. It’s like…two damn hours just to get my hair clean and manageable. That shit gets me heated. Don’t even tell me to go to the salon because I cannot put into words how much I hate other people touching me. So, I don’t do salons and massage parlors or wherever else I have to pay someone to make me uncomfortable. *sigh*

☆彡 “Santi-U” scares me, yet I listen to it constantly. Why?

Well, I can bitch and moan all I want but I have to wash my hair. Stat. So, I’m going to go do that. Perhaps two hours is enough time to come to a decision about getting Nights: Into Dreams on XBox Live. Because I’ve been thinking about it for such a long time. Perhaps I’ll spend my other 400 points on Fable 3 shit like new hairstyles and dog breeds. OR I can get another game. Hmm…okay, sure. Why not.

064: A Return, Indeed

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☆彡 Note to self: Regardless of how unsure I am about the direction of a story or artwork I am working on, keep going! I improve and find ideas so long as I am working on something.

★彡 I am watching Sailor Moon Super with the dubs rather than subs, and I noticed something kind of disturbing for the first time. In the subs when the sailors are scolding villains, they usually say something along the lines of “How dare you disturb someone trying to accomplish a beautiful dream!” or “I won’t let you get in the way of this couple’s pure love!”. But in the English version, it’s primarily name calling and insulting someone’s appearance. Did the translator just sit there one night and go: “There is no way American girls will relate to Sailor Moon unless we make her really superficial. Let’s have her call villains ugly, poorly dressed, and witches. Yeah, that will do it!” That is just kind of sad to me. Almost as sad as hiding the fact that some sailors are homosexuals and transsexuals/cross-dressers. Basically, it’s as if they’re saying that little girls elsewhere are mature enough to handle these concepts yet American girls cannot. That’s not even kind of sad. That’s really sad.

☆彡 While I am on the topic of Sailor Moon, one of my favorite scenes in the anime is the scene when Sailor Moon fights Sailor Uranus and Sailor Neptune. It perfectly embodies why I adore Usagi so much. By the way, it starts at 13m and 47s.

★彡 I did something I haven’t done in 13-14 years. I bought some compositions notebooks, and started drawing and writing in them. One book is dedicated to drawing without the stress of ruining a good sketchbook, another book is dedicated to making manga, and the last one is a database of useful information that will help me with my creations–things like mythological names, drawing/writing tips, weapons, maps, etc. I am very close to buying a new scanner too. I just need to double check some things to make sure that I’m not ruining my budget. The last object I need in my “studio” is a working tablet, but that’s not terribly important. I can still make art with good ol’ pencils and colored pencils and markers…though I definitely need some new ones. Overall, I am pretty excited! I doubt I can ever scan anything in these books, so I will have to rely on some type of photo app or something to share it. I’ll see.

☆彡 Wow, I haven’t played Final Fantasy XIII-2 in a long time. Right now I am all out of wild artefacts, and I basically have to do busy work to find another one. Mark keeps telling me to just google their locations but…I don’t like to do that. It reminds me of using notes during a test. Even if it gets the job done, I feel like I don’t deserve to celebrate any victories that come afterwards. Weird. I know. So, I’ll just have to find patience and continue combing various locations and timelines for wild artefacts. Blah. Just thinking about it makes me want to play something else.

★彡 My favorite thing about Ming (of Lost Odyssey) is that she is a scantily clad woman who is wise. It is so hard to find this type of combination. More than often, a woman who shows a lot of skin in a television show or game behaves like an airhead. It’s only a few works like Final Fantasy and Ghost in the Shell that do not use the “amount of skin a woman shows is inversely related to the amount of things a woman knows” formula. Don’t get me wrong. I know that some people do fall into stereotypes, but it’s pretty bad when all of the women in a show or game who wears revealing clothing is automatically written off as uneducated. How does that type of universe work? “Oh, wow, let me put on this tube top–” PROMPT: YOU JUST LOST 80 IQ POINTS. “Okay, I’ll just get this turtleneck then.”

☆彡 I’m debating with myself about cutting my hair because it is past my shoulders again. A part of me is slightly curious to see how far it can go, but I know that the longer it gets the more frustrated I will become with it. Maybe I should put this decision off until it does become frustrating. Yeah, that makes more sense.

★彡 Damn, The Witcher 3 is going to be awesome. You know what else is going to be awesome? Man of Steel. If I am wrong about it in a few months then I will accept my wrongness, but I am really confident about this movie. It will be to the Superman movie series what Batman Begins became to the Batman movie series. And how did this go from The Witcher 3 to Superman and Batman? D:

☆彡 What I wouldn’t give to own the entire collection of the Berserk mangas. Well…I wouldn’t give my limbs or anything like that, but I’d trade in a good amount of my possessions.

★彡 March is going to be ridiculous in terms of gaming. Just a little preview of upcoming games: Bioshock Infinite, Tomb Raider, Gears of War: Judgment, and God of War: Ascension. Yeah…I’m going to listen to the little voice in my head telling me to avoid temptation. Adding another game to my list is not going to bode well for me. -_-

☆彡 When I think about all the things I don’t know or fully understand, it makes me feel…small. Worse than accumulating careless mistakes over the years, I hate looking back and realizing that I haven’t learned a satisfactory amount of things. As funny as it is, the thing that always makes me come to this conclusion is watching Jeopardy. Yeah…I know…LOL

★彡 Pet Peeve #81: Being called “honey”, “sweetie”, etc. I feel bad about this pet peeve because Mark likes to call people “dear”, and I know a lot of decent people who use terms like that to address others, but it just gets under my skin. And, no, Mark has no pet name for me. I told him from day one that if he called me “baby” or anything like that I would vomit. He still trolls me by calling me “boobie” but that’s as far as it goes. 😄

☆彡 Dolsot Bibimbap:

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★彡 I really love operas. It is literally a group of people singing a story. Think about how amazing that is for a second.

☆彡I like Tyrion’s philosophy to his flaws: wear it like armor. I like it a lot.

★彡 Adult Swim is supposed to release a shitload of awesome shows on Netflix this month. Cannot handle. D:

☆彡 Mass Effect borrowed a lot from the Star Trek universe. For example, there is a race of blue people called the ‘nasari‘ and they are fighting a race of primarily females called the taresian. The taresians are known for mating with other races in order to supplement their gene pool with new traits. Interesting, huh? That’s just a small percentage of the many things Mark and I found. I’m not even remotely mad at Mass Effect for that. I think it’s awesome that the Mass Effect team are (a)fans of the Star Trek series, and (b)capable of turning that inspiration into something amazing. Even if the asari is based on some Star Trek races, they are still neat. Hell, they’re better than the nasari and taresian combined! Besides, I can’t think of any great piece of work that didn’t borrow from another piece of work. TL;DR one cool project borrows from another cool project and everything becomes infinitely cooler!

I am on a drawing, gaming, and reading spree at the moment! As much as I would like to update on a daily basis and keep a better log of my life, I kind of buried myself in too many hobbies…and they are too fun to stop. LOL. I’m not complaining. I just have to find a way to squeeze other hobbies like writing and finishing random series in there. I’ll find a way.

The Borgs are finally showing up in Voyager, so I am getting into that immediately. o_o

Energize. *dematerializes* (….still gotta work on a good outro, I see…)

062: Hyperballad

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☆彡 I found out today that Bjork and RZA are huge fans of one another, and even did some tracks together. I almost died.

★彡 Speaking of near death experiences, Hyrule Historia is almost here! I don’t even know how to handle its arrival. I’m just going to stand there and let myself spontaneously explode. Sounds like a plan. By the way, thanks to my wonderful husband for ordering the Hyrule Historia in the first place and making us New York strip steaks for dinner last night.  Thanks, my precious.  ♥w♥

☆彡 I was introduced to Hentai Kamen today. I can’t even contribute anything to that.

★彡 No Berkserk manga or Berserk movie updates yet. I am still not entirely sure how I should react to that…or the Berserk fanbase’s speculation that Miura may die before Berserk is ever done. Yeah…let’s not right now.

☆彡 I wonder if our recent brush with an asteroid will encourage people to put more focus on science. One can only hope.

★彡 It is my dream to write like Ayn Rand. Not in subject but in composition. Of course, it is always best to develop one’s own sense of literary “style”, so I should stop striving to write like other authors. I just have to find my own style. Still, no harm in using someone so talented as inspiration, right? I love Atlas Shrugged. It is one of those long books where I don’t have to worry about being dragged along for days. Every sentence is enjoyable to me.

☆彡 The “wildest” thing I have done in my life is play hooky…a lot. Even then, I spent most of my time in bookstores, walking around parks, or sight-seeing. I am really a boring person. I don’t know why so many believe that I go home and turn into some type of party animal.

★彡 It depresses me how many people see TV shows as a legitimate source of research. Documentaries and educational programs are one thing, but the news is usually biased and other TV shows are fictional. So, yeah…please don’t quote things like Seinfeld or Fox News in a debate. I will just gather my things and leave.

☆彡 This week has been watching-movies-that-I-saw-in-my-childhood-but-it-didn’t-make-sense-so-now-I-am-watching-them-as-an-adult-and-they-make-sense week. It is mighty fascinating.

★彡 I am happy to say that I am doing well with my pile of shame.  I even did progress in Bioshock and Tales of Vesperia…the two 360 games that I haven’t touched in almost two years. That makes me incredibly happy.

☆彡 By the way, Rita Mordio is seriously my spirit animal. If I was an RPG character, I would probably be her…mixed with some Kaine. Yes, that is definitely me. Wow.

★彡 Mark asked me how I would react if our future child wanted to pose nude or have sex for a movie/TV/magazine. Honestly, I would be disturbed by it, but all I can really do in the end is say: “I support you and I respect you, just don’t ask me to look at it.” The same mentality goes for anyone I know. Please allow me to have the illusion that you are always in clothes and you never have sex.

☆彡 If it’s my day off and I don’t stay up the night prior until the sun rises, I feel like I wasted my day off.

★彡 You know, calling me stuck up and fat didn’t change me the last 5,000 times you said it, why do you think saying those things 5,000 more times will do anything? I almost get a sadistic joy out of being myself and watching you get so wound up over it. I literally have to do nothing but wake up, and you get pissed at me. LOL. It’s amazing. It really is.

☆彡 “Should I watch Grave of the Firefl–” “NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.” DO NOT. IT WILL RUIN YOUR LIFE.

★彡 Final Fantasy Versus XIII is going to be great. I can just feel it. And if it’s not then…I don’t know…I’ll ram my head into a brick and curse Square-Enix for the rest of my life.

I am so incoherent right now but I’m hardly awake and I can’t sleep, so that’s my excuse. Yay~ *flies away*

060: Mice on Venus

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☆彡 Wait… Geralt is on the cover of Game Informer? And he has a beard?

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Geralt, you’re ruining my life. Stahp.

★彡 Speaking of The Witcher, I am slowly but surely sucking less in The Witcher 2: Assassins of Kings. My problem is that I have fallen in that trap of constantly rushing through things out of some false notion that I am busy. I am not busy. Constantly occupied, maybe, but not busy. There is no reason why I can’t sit through a game like The Witcher 2, and thoroughly enjoy it. I just started to take advantage of alchemy and traps after all this time that I’ve been playing. I really need to chill when it comes to this game. You know, take my time and not try to rush through it. The approach I take in other RPGs will not fly in this game. That’s for sure. I’ve had my ass handed to me so many times, I can’t even bother to count.

☆彡 I haven’t played Final Fantasy XIII-2 lately. I want to, but…those damn gravitons cores. I hate searching missions. It feels like busy work.

★彡 I did finally manage to get Javik to join my party in Mass Effect 3. He’s…interesting. By the way, he doesn’t sound Jamaican to me. His accent actually sounds very similar to Nigerians that I have spoken to. Either way, it’s cool. He made me laugh really hard when Liara said that she wrote about Protheans in several journals and he responded with something along the lines of, “Asaris can write now?”. Then there is the scene when he called Salerians lizards and she corrected him with the term ‘amphibians’ before he told her in the calmest tone, “They used to eat flies”. Then she just stares at him for a long time and exits the rooms. LOL. Poor bb. I know she was so excited to meet him, but Javik is having exactly none of anyone’s shit today. Not even mine. We’ll just have to see how he settles in as the game progresses.

☆彡 Please don’t look at or poke or mention my cheekbones.

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★彡 I can’t watch The Jerk just once. As soon as the movie is over, I have to play it again. My record is four times. Yes, I watched this movie for almost eight hours. Think about that, and think about how great it is to not live with me. Also, I do the same thing with Garden State…and Amadeus…and Donnie Darko.

☆彡 Speaking of Amadeus, Mozart wrote his first opera when he was twelve–TWELVE. I am 25, and I can’t even finish one comic book. Like…how do I even? I don’t know anymore. *evaporates* I guess it is just like a quote I saw: perfectionist = procrastinator. What is the point in making an effort with anything if I can’t do it perfectly or even almost perfectly? That is my mentality sometimes…too many times.

★彡 Link does not get along with his tail. It’s both strange and funny. The thing that usually causes a fight to break out is his tail slapping him in the face while he’s sleeping. He likes to sleep in a ‘C’ shape sometimes, and that is when the tail-slapping session almost always starts. Then he bites his tail. Then he chases it. Then he falls off the bed while chasing it–which pisses him off. Then he jumps around in this sideways motion trying to grab it. Once more, strange and funny. Definitely amusing.

☆彡 I only want three things this month: Hyrule Historia, the complete box set of Kaizoku Sentai Gokaiger, and strawberry cheesecake. Please.

★彡 The main character of a story I am writing is basically a serial killer. Well…not basically. He is a serial killer by definition, yet he is not the villain in the story. Therefore, I have to do a lot to make him likable and even relatable. It’s not easy. Of course, Dexter is pretty likable and relatable, but that’s Dexter. He’s not so much an assassin, but a vigilante gone wrong. *sigh* Definitely tough…

☆彡 I hate break-ups. I think one of the worst moments I’ve had in the past few months was when I found out Danny DeVito and Rhea Perlman broke up. It just left a bad feeling at the pit of my stomach. All break-ups do that.

★彡 I wonder if character developers ever think about how crazy it is to create a person. It’s a person! No, (s)he may not be there right in front of you, but you gave someone a name, a purpose, friends, family, enemies, and even a collection of personal issues to solve. It’s amazing! Someone once said to me: “I don’t get how authors like J.K. Rowling get emotional over characters she created and decided to kill,” and my first response was:

stahp

Is this a serious question or…? Really, if you kill a character of yours and you don’t feel anything at all, even some type of sadistic satisfaction, then you are doing it wrong.

☆彡 I don’t get people who call me and ask: “Who is this?” Shouldn’t I be asking you that? LOL

★彡 Pet Peeve #22:  “Can I sit with you?” …Why? There’s like 100 other seats. I’d understand if the seat next to me was one of the last seats left, but I don’t understand wanting to sit next to a complete stranger when you have countless other places to sit.

☆彡 I still haven’t seen Go-Busters yet. It’s not some anti-Go-Busters thing…which seems to be happening a lot…I just never never really got around to it.

★彡 I’m dreading that last Berserk movie because most of the reviews I’ve read said that it was great but extremely brutal and disturbing. I believe it. The movies compared to the anime are…wow. If a child ever walked in during one of those movies, I would freak the hell out and ban them from whatever room the movie is playing it. It can get that bad at times. The scene with Griffith and Charlotte alone was more like a porn than an actual “love scene” in a movie. It was pretty graphic. I can’t imagine watching the Eclipse knowing just how far this movie can go in terms of details and content. It even received the Japanese equivalent of the NC-17 rating. I…just wow. I definitely can’t watch this movie with Mark now. I know for a fact I will cry, and he makes a big deal every time I do. So, I’d rather not. I will be watching that shit alone…then handling the definite depression that will follow alone. The things I do for my fandoms. *sigh*

I have nothing witty to add, so I’m just going to fly away. *flys away*

056: A Stranger

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☆彡 With the recent Berserk manga updates and my finally being able to watch the movies, I’m pretty happy right now. *_*

★彡 “Breath of Life” came on during Return of the King, and the subtitles read, “[Angelic Vocalizing]”. I detect no lies in that statement.

☆彡 I believe the iron throne belongs to Daenerys, and no one can change my mind. I may change on my own, mind you, but others cannot change it.

★彡 After I wash my hair and blow dry it, I usually go from Vegeta to Temari or Vegeta to Shikamaru. Today, I’m Shikamaru until I have the energy to style it.  Mark believes my personality is almost identical to Shikamaru and he seems to like his hairstyle better, so I’ll stick to it for a while longer. For those who don’t speak Naruto, here you are: Temari to the left, and Shikamaru to the right.

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☆彡 Gamestop took our broken XBox 360 for $87 in-store credit. I was expecting like $10 credit for it. Good stuff. I got The Witcher 2 and Final Fantasy XIII-2. Mark got Crackdown 2, three Mass Effect DLCs, and one Mass Effect theme. We still have like $7 left, so we may put that towards a reservation or something. It all depends.

★彡 Speaking of games:

  • The Witcher 2: It is more challenging than the first. Fun, but challenging. Perhaps I am out of practice.
  • Final Fantasy XIII-2: Caius is pissing me off. I hate regen (unless I’m using it…then it’s awesome). *sigh* It doesn’t help that no one in my party learned Cura yet, so it’s time to go work on that. Then it’s on!
  • Lair of the Shadow Broker: It’s always good to see Liara again. We just left Azure Hotel. Yeah…I’m still shaking my head the level of fetishization the asaris get. I sometimes feel bad for them. It must be annoying to have these creepy men and women constantly letting you know that they want to have sex with you.

I plan to play more Lair of the Shadow Broker after this and then some The Witcher 2. I’m not looking forward to grinding in FFXIII-2 (lazy), but…I’ll work on it. *sigh*

☆彡 Distant Worlds is coming around again, and I have to save up at least $200 to get there. I’m not giving up. Regardless of how far I must travel, I am attending a video game symphony this year. That is my promise to myself!

★彡 Random (more like typical) Conversation:

  • Person: “Are you okay?”
  • Me: “Yes.”
  • P: “Are you sure?”
  • M: “Yes.”
  • P: “You don’t look okay.”
  • M: “I’m fine.”
  • P: “Alright.”
  • M: “…”
  • P: “You know, you can always talk to me if you have a problem.”
  • M: “Thank you. I will.”
  • P: “…”
  • M: “…”
  • P: “I know how it feels to want to be alone. Ten years ago, I got divorced–
  • M: “OH MY FUCKING GOD.”

☆彡 Rocky road ice cream will be the death of me. That and cream soda…red cream soda to be more specific. *sigh* Sweet death.

★彡 I don’t know what else to post, so I’m going to post this song “A Stranger” from A Perfect Circle. I’ve become incredibly addicted to it. A Perfect Circle has this strange way of perfectly verbalizing the things I cannot explain eloquently.

 

Cast the calming apple
Up and over satellites
To draw out the timid wild one,
To convince you it’s alright.
And I listen for the whisper
Of your sweet insanity ,
While I formulate

Denials of your affect on me.

You’re a stranger,
So what do I care?
You vanished today.
Not the first time, I hear,
Or the last.

What am I to do with all this silence?
Shy away, shy away, phantom.
Run away, terrified child.
Won’t you move away you, fucking tornado.
I’m better off without you
Tearing my world down.

Lovely~ I’m also in love with their website right now. Going to pretend I’m underwater and read their lyrics. *vanishes*

055: Pure Heart

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★彡  Yuna is such an eye-opening character. There is not a single playthrough of Final Fantasy X where Yuna does not remind me that it takes a lot to make sacrifices and even more to smile through them. When it comes to everything in life, from love to loss, I hope to approach it with the same elegance and purity that she possesses.

☆彡 I’m listening to “Dayvd” from Pogo, and the entire song is incredible, but everything after 2:20 is just…*brain explodes*

★彡 New Berserk! I’m trying not to be sad about the ‘Until Next Time’ thing though. I know that more than likely means that I won’t see another update until the summertime or something.

☆彡 It’s tough writing stories in chronological order these days. As long as I’ve been working on Mythos, I’ve just gotten around to writing the first part of the story. It’s only been a few days, and I already want to return to some other section of the story that doesn’t feel like it’s dragging to some type of purpose.

★彡 The one cosplay I’ve been wanting to do for ages is Link in his Zora armor.

☆彡 I really want to play Tales of Symphonia again, but I can’t find the second disc. *sigh* This sucks. I miss Zelos…and Regal…and thinking about what a great couple the two would be even though very few do. Okay, after this I am going on a hunt for it. I really want to play. And, no, I’m not driven by my shipping Zelos and Regal. I just can’t stop thinking about how much I love the plot, and how great the music is. It’s been too long.

★彡 Mori fashion is right up my alley. I don’t know why, but I love clothing that is really loose and has pastel colors. I’m not saying I never like tight clothing or bold colors. Actually, I’m more drawn to black clothing than anything. But fashion styles like mori and boho always fascinate me. At the risk of sounding cliche, it reflects who I am. Most of the time. Anyway, discussing fashion is pointless…at the moment. One, cannot afford all the clothes I want. Two, unless I lose a few pounds I will never feel “okay” in the clothes I want. So, it’s back to jeans and superhero shirts for me. No complaints there…but I’d like to venture outside of that at some point in my life. Even for a few days.

☆彡 I have days when I don’t want to eat anything, but I’m perfectly fine with drinking the drink of my choice all day. Actually, I remember when I was younger I had this sprite obsession and I told myself that when I was an adult, I would fill my entire refrigerator with nothing but sprite cans and put some hot pockets in the freezer just in case I do get hungry. It’s funny when I think about it at first, but it gradually becomes sad. Not having a fridge of sprite. That’s not sad at all. It’s just sad how many outrageous things I said I would do as an adult that I haven’t done at all. Maybe I’ll do some of those things, you know? I’ll build my fort and spend the entire day drawing inside of it, or I’ll make a throne of books where I will sit to read more books.

★彡 Tumblr always makes me realize that when no one gets me, there are 80,000 people around the world who do. That’s comforting in a strange way. Yet, at the same time, it’s sad to know that the last person who understood me lived in England and the other lives in some random city in North Dakota. It’s a double-edged sword I guess.

☆彡 At the risk of sounding like a complete pervert, I always feel like I am being rewarded for sitting patiently through a movie when I see a guy’s butt on screen. But it has to be a certain kind of butt. Some butts do nothing for me, and it feels like getting socks for Christmas. It’s a thanks-but-that’s-not-what-I-wanted type of thing.

★彡 While I was eating yesterday, I left my character standing somewhere in Whiterun and just enjoyed the music. Then, out of nowhere, this guy showed up and kept saying: “Spare a coin for a beggar? Spare a coin for a beggar?” It then dawned on me that even in a fictional world where there is tons of space and tons of adventures, there are still people who will stand six inches from you and annoy the crap out of you while you’re trying to enjoy yourself. There is no escape.

☆彡 I’d love to have a marathon of a series, but I have no idea which one I’d love to have a marathon of. *sigh* Decisions

…Nothing more to add. For now anyway.

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★彡 I wish I could update this thing on a daily basis, but I’ll just try to updates as frequently as possible.

★彡 I am starting my yearly Sailor Moon marathon…by completely skipping the other seasons, and going straight to Sailor Stars. I’m dangerous, guys. Watch out. Skipping seasons over here. On a semi-serious note, this marathon is long overdue. Sailor Moon always erases all the feels I don’t want to feel…except for the times when Usagi starts crying. The Japanese VA for Usagi makes the saddest weeping sounds ever. Then they add that sad violin version of the Sailor Stars theme, and then my heart shatters into a million pieces. Otherwise, this anime continuously purifies my soul every time I watch it. It’s true.

★彡 Then there is Berserk…which tends to do the complete opposite of purifying my soul…but not this week! The gang is finally getting close to Elfhelm! They even saw branches! Branches, son! *throws confetti around* I probably shouldn’t get too excited though. Once more, The Skull Knight’s warning to Guts that Casca may not want what he wants has popped up. It’s definitely foreshadowing…and anyone who thinks for a second that Casca will become herself again and have this big romantic reunion with Guts is immediately pimp slapped by that premonition. It’s the truth. I don’t know why we Berserk fans do this to ourselves. *sigh* Oh, well. October 28th is the next release date, and that’s something to be excited about. Anything is better than seeing ‘Until Next Time’ on the final page of a chapter. The worst feeling in the world.

★彡 Mark and I finally finished season 2 of The Walking Dead. One word: Michonne. Well, yes, there are many other words I have about this series…but mostly Michonne…and “I can’t believe I’m missing the third season”…and more things along those lines.

★彡 There is something that I am really excited about, but I am also super nervous about it. If everything does not go right on Monday, when said event will occur, I will…probably cry. There is a good chance I will cry. I will definitely, 100%, cry. As Mark said, though, I just have to do my best. As long I put my best foot forward, I have the right to be proud of myself. So, I’m going to start preparing now. Even though it’s Friday, I am going to get everything ready. Nothing will go wrong unless some force of nature works against me. I can do this! >_<

★彡 Hulu, please stop being a dick. I want to watch Serial Experiments Lain. Thanks.

★彡 I have to learn to make Moo Goo Gai Pan.

★彡 “Zelda is overrated.” — Peasants

★彡 Halloween is right around the corner. Aw yeaaaah~ Do I know what I want to be? Nope. I don’t know if I’ll even be anything this year. If I had to be something, though, it would be the Cat in the Hat. Actually, I’ve been wanting to be the Cat in the Hat for a long time. And not the disturbing sexy versions of the Cat in the Hat. Just the regular kind. That would be fun.

★彡 As much as I adore Link, he drives me crazy sometimes. He is basically a two year old that never grows up. On one hand, he can be really adorable when he’s off in his own world being curious and clumsy. On the other hand, he has so much energy that he wants to just…attack everything. And, no, you can’t tell a cat to stop. Cats will pause, but they don’t stop. Link will often pause, meow at us, and then continue. It can be tough. Taking care of anything or anyone can be tough.

★彡 As funny as these Big Bird jokes are at times, I am far from laughing at the idea of PBS being gone. It is a very valuable channel. It has raised generations of children and enlightened millions of adults. It’s the type of thing I would like to pass on to my children someday. In many ways, PBS has become a part of our society. I can’t imagine why, of all the of issues in this country, PBS is even in the top 100 things to handle for Mitt Romney. I understand you need to save money…but PBS? *sigh*

★彡 How did I become obsessed with coffee? I used to be completely nonchalant about, and would have a cup every now and again, but now I can’t imagine a day without it. Especially the coffees they sell at the Asian farmer’s markets. It’s so delicious. Fuck…

★彡RANT ALERT. I should do that more often…warn people about that shit. I digress. I am already reluctant to make new friends, but nothing makes me want to say “oh hell no” like being used as some type of token in a person’s weird friend-collecting hobby. In other words, I don’t want to be anyone’s “this is my nerd friend” or “this is my friend who can draw” or “this is my black friend from my collection of black friends”. I’m just Kerri. Take the good in me and the bad in me, or don’t take anything at all. I really don’t want to stand around trying to fit anyone’s stereotype of me. That has to be the most aggravating thing, you know? I never said that because I was shy that I was desperate for friends. I never said that because I preferred not to talk that I had nothing to do but listen to others talk. I definitely didn’t tell anyone that I was pure, innocent, or immune to emotions like anger and sadness. I don’t want to be dragged into anyone’s bullshit. I just want to have a pleasant time wherever I am. That is pretty much my rant.

★彡 I have come to see bad situations as steps rather than walls. I can never ascend this metaphorical staircase called life unless I am willing to trip on a few steps along the way. It happens. What is the point in stopping, or going back to the bottom again? Really, when I look at everything in a staircase mentality, I visualize the importance of the saying ‘keep going’. Whether you’re a logical or emotional person, the only thing that will satisfy you in life is to keep rising.  No matter what.

★彡 I haven’t done a weekly challenge in a LONG time. Wow. I should definitely fix that this weekend…especially considering the fact that I’ve yet to completely pass any challenge. Then again, I set really high goals that I know I will not be able to reach. I should do things more attainable next time — even if they seem to lack challenge at first.

…I really don’t know what else to add…because I’m lazy…and it’s the weekend.

Maybe I will add something tomorrow. For now, I’m just going to do some tumblr then some gaming and then some writing and then I’ll probably end up sleeping when the sun is coming up and hating myself. Yay~

That is it. Good night.

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