The 27th Birthday

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Well, this is going to be a boring birthday rundown post, so feel free to skip. >_>

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087: Schemata

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Protect Drakengard protagonists at all costs!

✪ Personal Life ✪

Let me begin with this: I fucking hate mosquitos and learning that there is one in my home from all the itchy welts that popped up out of fucking nowhere is irritating as fuck. It’s fine. Link will kill it soon enough. Bye, Felicia.

Outside of mosquit0-loathing, life has been…hot. Every year I tell myself I will not cut my hair in the summer, and every summer I find myself standing outside of barber shops and contemplating it. This year, though, I will hold off. It’s a pain to become dependent on bands, clips, and pins for the next 2-3 months but…anything beats a sweaty neck. I mean, sweating in general grosses me out but when the back of my neck is sweaty it makes me want to scream. Another fine example of me being overemotional about silly things, but completely unemotional about the things I am supposed to express some feeling towards. *shrug* Oh well.

Ah, what else? Debating about getting another cat. Our only concern is Link. He is very territorial. There are many times when he’ll claim something of ours as his own and he’ll bite us if we try to take it. Yep…big ol’ adorable douchelord. LOL.

My microwave and stove decided to die at the same time. Yay!

The final thing. This probably belongs in the art section, but fuck it. My new obsession has become decoden. It started when I was looking for some cute covers for my 3DS, and it ended with me realizing that I could make my own covers for 1/4 of the average price. All you really need is a clear plastic cover for like $2 on Amazon and some decoden with glue. Websites like Sophie & Toffee offer a huge variety of inexpensive decoden. I love all the pearls, rhinestones, diamonds, and bows. Anything pink with leopard-print is cute too. It’s all really fun. I would recommend it to anyone who wants to decorate their phones, handheld consoles, laptops, etc. Of course, practice is necessary. I am a colossal newbie so I am still working hard and refusing to show anything in public until I am happy with it. When I am through, though, I would love to possess the skills to make something like this or this. Ah! Cutesy things will be the death of me! *_*

That is all for now. If I find any other weird hobbies to get into I’ll post about it. 😄

 

✪ Art & Writing ✪

Art has been…technical. A lot of maps. A lot of poorly sketched cities/towns. Things like that. The more I work on Mythos, the more I realize that a world that massive needs a bit of planning before I start delving into the story.

Speaking of story, I somehow went from a set title and a set amount of books to pretty much tossing it all in the air. At this point Mythos is just a working title because Odin is no longer the main character. In fact, he does not even exist until the second book. The biggest premise of Mythos now is Elda’s life over her 1,000 years. I would like one book for every 100 years that she lives. Naturally, Telluria changes a great deal over the course of the story. It starts off Westeros-ish, turns Ivalice-ish, and then becomes heyday Zanarkand-ish before it all goes to shit–much like Zanarkand. LOL

Still…I am worried that I am biting off more than I can chew. Writing and reading about immortals or anyone else who lives for a very long time is enjoyable. That is all that matters, right? Enjoy it and write the type of story I would want to read.

✪ Anime & Manga ✪

In terms of anime, It’s been 1990s Sailor Moon, Sailor Moon Crystal, Knights of Sidonia, Sword Art Online II, and season 2 of Free. Oh, and Dirty Pair. I haven’t seen that anime in years, so it is nice to rewatch Kei and Yuri being the adorable failures that they are. LOL. Manga-wise, I am still waiting for another Berserk update. I am trying to find another manga to get into but nothing has really piqued my interest. Oyasumi Punpun kind of wore me out emotionally by the time I was done. This time around I want to read something more upbeat like a shoujo manga. I’ll do my hunting later. -.-

 

✪ Video Games ✪

I downloaded FFVII on Steam for five bucks, and that has pretty much been my video game life ever since. I also managed to get Sonic 2 for $3-4 but that Chemical Plant Zone level pisses me off like nothing else. It has been this way since time immemorial. The first time I played Sonic 2 like 5,000 years ago I zipped through Emerald Hill Zone, got stuck on Chemical Plant Zone for like five days, and zipped through the rest of the game once I managed to beat it. WHY. What messes me up are those blocks that disappear and return, and those moving platforms that I always miss. So my dumbass always end up falling in the ocean and drowning. Fun. *sigh* Oh, well. At least I am still a somewhat natural at FFVII. Really, it is just an RPG at the end of the day. Unless you just suck at forming strategies then RPGs are usually child’s play compared to other types of video games. At least to me.

Um, what else? Portal 2 is on sale too! $6! Of course, it’s great to see that GLaDOS is still a raging asshole.

Yep… Summertime is the best time for poor/cheap gamers. So many price reductions! ♥

The cheapest way to enjoy games though? Youtube. I live on Youtube because of all the game walkthroughs on there. The first one I buckled down and watched was Drakengard 3. Yeah, I couldn’t wait anymore. I am not getting a PS4 any time soon. Anyway, I loved it! Zero is my queen! Every time she said something I just had to sigh and say: “You’re amazing, Zero.” LOL. In type Drakengard-Nier fashion there were different branches to the story. I want to say branch A is the “true” branch because it pretty much explains the start of The Cult of the Watchers in Drakengard, but branch D seems like the best one to me. Besides, the novella pretty much confirms –SPOILER: the existence of One’s brother— so the fact that he does not show up in branch D does not mean that he does not exist. Also, I like any branch where — SPOILER: Zero and Mikhail survives.  Overall, not bad at all. I haven’t watched any of the DLCs yet but I will.

Beyond, DOD3 I watched Burial at Sea and Deadpool as well. I want to watch Lightning Returns but the playlist has like 90 40-minute videos. Fuck it. I’ll watch it then move on to Assassin’s Creed 4 and Tomb Raider. Once I get the funds I’ll actually play some of these games. They look so fun! BTW: I recommend GameOXO. (S)he plays well and there is no annoying commentaries to deal with. I know some people like commentaries but…eh. Only a few people are actually funny. Other ones are just meh. It depends, I guess. I hear a lot about pewdiepie but I haven’t watched any of his videos yet. I’ll try.

Okay, that wraps up gaming. Lots of good games to play/watch, so I’m happy in this department! ^_^

 

✪ Music ✪

I’ve been listening to the same stuff on repeat. As usual. I do like Lana Del Rey’s “Ultraviolence” album a lot, but that’s pretty much been it.

 

✪ TV & Movies ✪

AJ Lee is back. Y2J is back. Roman Reigns is still the fierce king of my soul. Yep, all is good WWE-wise.

As for Game of Thrones, that season was…meh. If it is true that they’re going to wrap up the show without waiting for GRRM to release the last two books then I am really worried. The liberties they took so far have been pretty disappointing. It is not even a stay-true-to-the-book thing because some shows and movies can better then the books they are based on. It is more of a “Okay, so you’re really going to do that?” thing. Maybe it will all piece together. We’ll see.

I’m still into the 2011 Journey to the West TV show from China. The same goes for the JttW movie from Stephen Chow. Yes, this has been a very JttW year though some of it has been disappointing. Oh well. Can never get enough Sun Wukong.

Saw the new Transformers movie. Let’s just say that if anyone ever wants to torture information out of me feel free to play that movie on a neverending loop. 😐

Yeah…that’s about it. Tonight I plan to watch “Extant” because (a) Halle Berry plays the main character, and (b) it’s a sci-fi TV show with an interesting premise. Let’s see how that goes.

 

✪ Whatever Else/Closing ✪

My birthday arrives in nine days. *shudders* Yeah, once I hit 25 birthdays stopped becoming fun. I mean, Mark is 30 next year. My bb is getting old, and I’m always two years behind him. Blah. What can I do, right? All I want is to improve as a human being every single day. I’ve learned that it is pointless to say things like “I want to ____ when I’m 27!” or “I better have _____ when I’m 30!” Life is one of those things you can never plan for. Looking back, I had books upon books of plans that ended up in the trash because life pretty much said “nope” and curb stomped every plan I had without mercy. I am done with destinations and deadlines. I have dreams, I have goals, and I have infinite means of becoming a better person. That is the best I can do.

…By the way, I am already receiving the dreaded: “Oh, you’re turning 27 this year? When are you going to have a baby?” questions, and it makes me want to break my face on a brick wall. Please stop. ;_;

All of that said, I am off! Lame entry–or at least lamer than the usual lameness. I know.

Take care~

074: I Thought I Could Organize Freedom

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☆彡 First thing first, the 26th birthday. It was a blast. Despite having to spend the start of it dealing with emission and car tags, Mark and I managed to make it enjoyable. Afterwards, we saw Pacific Rim. I really liked it. It was like a 2-hour live action anime about mechs and giant monsters. If that is right up your alley then you should definitely see it . Um…where was I? Ah, yes. After the movie we had lunch. After lunch we did some browsing in various stores. After browsing we had tres leche cake, watched movies, and made Japanese-style curry for dinner. Overall, it was exactly how I like my birthdays: peaceful, fun, private, and filled with my favorite things. I hope all of my birthdays are like this. As Mark said, my birthday is technically the start of the year for me, so I hope to see more good things until this time around in 2014.

★彡 I am loving the free Assassin’s Creed 2 DL from XBL along with all the recent updates from Animal Crossing: New Leaf. Nookling Junction upgraded to a bigger 24-hour store, Sabel (such a cutie ;.;) gave me permission to use QR codes–I am now dressed as Bioshock Infinite‘s Elizabeth thanks to that, and a new shoe store opened. Let’s just say that I’m glad I’m not even half the fashionista IRL that I am in ACNL. I spent roughly $1,000 bells on shoes alone. That does not translate well in reality.

☆彡 Speaking of Bioshock Infinite, I finally finished the game. That ending was insane! At least to me. I was not expecting that at all. Veeeeeery good ending. And also a very, very, very good game. This game is worthy of all the praise it receives. It is amazing! /fangirling I can’t wait to get my own copy so I can avoid the headache of rushing and returning it promptly. 1999 mode without any Dollar Bill vending machines is most likely my next step in BI. Let’s see how that goes.

★彡 Interracial relationships are not for thin-skinned people. I cannot press that enough. You have to accept early on that racist comments will come, and they will not stop coming. Furthermore, these comments will come from people of all races, ages, genders, backgrounds, etc. They will even come from your family and friends. These individuals may even be multiracial themselves (this has happened to us), or in their own interracial relationship (this has also happened to us). That is why it is so important for both parties in an interracial relationship to be tough. More than tough, you have to train yourself to not become angry about it. You’ll only damage your sanity on behalf of some ignorant lowlife. It’s an awful trade to make. One thing Mark and I learned over the years is to just laugh at people like that. They’re clowns if they honestly believe their 1913 mentality will translate well in 2013.

Spoiler alert: it doesn’t.

☆彡 I am entirely obsessed with the Dangan Ronpa series right now. I found the LP archive for both DR1 and DR2, and I pretty much went on a nonstop reading spree soon after. Of course, I am following the anime as well. Even though I know what’s going to happen, it’s neat to see it in animation. I heard the games were getting localized, too, but I’ll have to see if that’s true. I’m excited either way. On a side note, I really want Monobear’s ability to push a button and punish people. Where can I buy that? Home Depot?

★彡 That Superman/Batman movie announcement. *falls down* But also that lack of Wonder Woman announcements. *stands up and walks away*

☆彡 If you didn’t know, Adobe is giving out free copies of Photoshop and other programs. It’s straight from the company as opposed to some seedy background website. So, get it while you can! Also, the ASOIAF boxset is on sale on Amazon. Get that too! (I promise I’m not a saleswoman for Adobe or GRRM or something)

★彡 Being held back by own skill level makes me want to ram my head into a brick wall until there is nothing left for my neck to hold. Yeah, yeah, I know. Practice makes perfect. I’m working on it…

☆彡 I am beginning to hate sleep. On some days, I welcome a little nap here and there, but on most days I feel like sleep is just wasting time. Being tired feels like being nagged. I only go to bed when I find that my mind can’t do anything else but think about going to bed. My better days are the days when I don’t sleep at all. I am trying to train myself to live off of naps scattered throughout the day. A little four hours at nights. An hour around lunchtime (since I never seem to be hungry around lunch hour). An hour or two around evening. Before I know it, I’d have accumulated 6-8 hours of sleep. It’s a tricky experiment…but an experiment I’ll try nonetheless.

★彡 After reading Equus, I am 100% sure that I have to see the play now. Another thing to add on my “I Should Do This But I Probably Won’t Because My Day-To-Day Habits Are More Comfortable” list. I will say this though. If the message of Equus is what Dr. Dysart spoke about when he said he envied Alan (basically, he believes it is better to have psychotic levels of passion over monotony), I will have to politely disagree with that message. Perhaps it is the fact that “moderation, modesty, and mercy” is my most important mantra for life, but I strongly believe that everything needs a balance. You can be religious without being a zealot. You can like horses without sexualizing them. Conversely, in the case of Dysart, you can be a part of a marriage that isn’t infuriatingly dull. This is why I do not like extremes in the first place. In some cases, yes, extremes are necessary, but choosing a harmful choice when the middleground is harmless seems…unnecessary.  Then again, it is possible that I’m completely overlooking something obvious due to my bad habit of over-analyzing the littlest things. For example, it is likely that Dysart is insane himself; therefore, questioning his logic would be illogical. His dream may be an indicator of that. It is not the violent aspect of it that hints at his possible insanity, but the obvious connection it has to his profession as a child psychologist. He feels (and clearly stated this) as if every time he cures patients like Alan of their madness, he is ridding them of their passion–that same passion he yearns for in his marriage and life in general. Eh…once more, I’m probably over-analyzing. So, I will just end this by saying that I enjoyed the book/play, and I look forward to other interpretations of it. Yes…let’s end this. It’s dragging on. LOL

☆彡 I am annoyed by individuals who know that a relationship is either never going to happen or is already over, yet continue to force it. Even if I am not a part of an ordeal like that, I still want to scream: “Move on already!” Maybe this is why my pity towards Jorah Mormont went from existent to non-existent so quickly. It is clear that he has strong feelings for Dany, but the fact that he just won’t leave her alone is starting to get on my nerves.  I suppose the main reason why this is a pet peeve of mine is the arrogance. It does take a lot of nerve to listen to someone say “This relationship isn’t going to happen” or “This relationship is done”, and reply with: “Yes, it is! You’ll see! I’ll show you! You just don’t know any better! You’ll change your mind because I’m good for you and you know it!” It just completely disrespects someone who has the right to say “no”. I have a strong feeling that Jorah is going to drive himself over the edge in the end (because sleeping with prostitutes that look like Dany and kidnapping Tyrion to “please” Dany isn’t over-the-edge enough?). I hope GRRM doesn’t end up romanticizing this type of behavior the way romance stories do. The whole following-someone-across-the-globe-to-publicly-declare-your-love bullshit really needs to stop. It just gives men, especially, the horrible idea of stalking women who aren’t interested in them because they believe women always say the opposite of what they really want. Some women may meet that description, but most of them do not. When a woman is done with you, she is done. Stalking isn’t cute. It’ll just end up getting you tossed in jail. Or, since Jorah is a part of the ASOIAF series, he’ll likely end up dead for it.

Death by dragon.

Drogon (and/or Viserion and/or Rhaegal): “Stay away from my mom, nerd.” *barbeques*

….Something like that…

★彡 Oh, yeah. I found out today that some commenter complained to Neil Gaiman that GRRM won’t write his book faster, and Neil Gaiman told that commenter that GRRM isn’t his bitch. Yes, Mr. Gaiman. Yes. Seriously, though. If you want quality stories/art, you need to give creators all the time they need. Otherwise, you end up with trite crap that you’ll surely end up nagging about later. Which is essentially what Neil Gaiman pointed out. I just think some fans have a hard time accepting that they do not own the creator or the fandom itself. That world was created by someone else, it belongs to someone else, and the opportunity to share it is just that…an opportunity. It is not a right. Then again, commenters like that remind me of those kids who came to your house and threw a tantrum because they couldn’t control your toys. Brats. They’re just brats.

☆彡 As much as I hate throwing my drawings away, I really have nowhere else to put them. I know that the greatest benefit of digital drawings is not having to deal with that crap. However, I love traditional drawing. It’s like…comparing reading a physical book to reading it on kindle or something. There is nothing wrong with kindle. I am just the type of person who likes to use every sense possible when it comes to my hobbies. I absolutely love to feel different tools and blend with my fingers and smell certain art supplies (the ones that give off pleasant smells anyway). I don’t hate making digital art at all. It just feels…incomplete. That’s the same reason why I prefer physical books over digital ones. They do take up a lot of room, and thank everything good in this world that I am living with someone who doesn’t mind that, but books are something I need to feel. The smell, the texture of the cover, the page-flipping sound–those things can’t really be replicated with digital versions. Anyway, I am just “old school” when it comes to things like drawing and reading. Maybe even video games. The idea of playing games without controllers bothers me a little. Don’t get me wrong. I enjoy things like kinect for certain games, but all games being motion and/or voice controlled? Nah, son.

★彡 You ever had a meal so delicious that you envied the chef because (s)he can make it every night without paying $8 for one plate? Yeah, that’s how I feel every time I have Japanese food. I could easily grab a Japanese cookbook, but I don’t know if I’ll like the foods made by the chefs who write them. Risky, risky. Despite this, though, I still want Christine Ha’s cookbook. I am confident that her food will be delicious AND I’m incredibly curious. *sigh* Food is great. Food will be the end of me. Actually…that’s not a bad end. I can just eat until I fall into a food coma, sleep, and die.

☆彡 VERONICA MARS MOVIE IS REALLY HAPPENING. NOTHING ELSE TO SAY.

Yes…I have volumes.

With that said, I am bringing an extra set of headphones with me this week because it is “royal baby” week, and the only thing worse than listening to pointless chatter is listening to everyone chatting about the same pointless topic.

Later.

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Paradise Exists. And It Is Pink.

It looks like my birthday came a month early.

Meet my currently unnamed 3DS XL. It is gorgeous!

My beautiful picture

PH!Link is approximately 1-2 inches tall, so that can be used to put the size of the 3DS XL into perspective. It is definitely a beast.

My beautiful picture

I still haven’t figured out that timestamp thing on Mark’s camera (*tosses shit*), but no fear. I’m only using his camera because I can’t use the 3DS to take a picture of the 3DS because science. But from here on out I’ll be using the 3DS to take photos.

BTW: I owe Ashley 1,000,000 thank you’s for giving me Ocarina of Time at no price at all! I’ve been reliving the best part of my childhood in 3D, and I cannot put into words how amazing that is. Colossal thanks to Ashley for that! TT__TT

 

My beautiful picture

Look at Mark’s Mii mean-muggin.

My beautiful picture

I’ve been laughing at my Mii for a very long time. It’s not inaccurate at all. I just forgot that I always look faded. Anyway, the converting IRL photo into a Mii feature is awesome. Good, 3DS. Good.

My beautiful picture

And one last shot. Sorry for the horrible quality.

That’s it! Join me next time when I ignore everyone’s advice and I get Animal Crossing: New Leaf and I end up obsessed and then I kick myself for not listening to everyone who told me to stay away sorry guys. ;_;

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☆彡 My birthday began early this year. I’m still speechless, man. o_o

  • The Witcher: Last Wish
  • The Witcher: Blood of Elves
  • The Witcher (PC Game)
  • Dhammapada (Friedrich Max Muller’s edit)
  • Six new R.A. Salvatore books…all Drizzt-related: Homeland, Exile, Soujorn, The Legacy, Starless Night, and Siege of Darkness
  • The Smashing Pumpkins: Mellon Collie and the Infinite Sadness
  • Brave New World (novel)

Gigantic thank you to Mark. I’m super grateful. Or, as I told him: “Argh! Right in the obsessions!” LOL. We’re weird. As always. Don’t mind us. Either way, I was not wanting or expecting anything for my birthday, but I am still really happy about the things that he got me. Of course, I did ask him why he didn’t wait until my birthday but he said that he was too excited to see me get excited.

…I must not get excited often if people are genuinely shocked when I get excited. >_>

Um. Back on point. Thanks again, Mark. It goes beyond gifts. I am also thankful for you putting up with my Witcher obsession and my recent tendency to shut myself away to deal with the stress of these new changes we’ve been dealing with. I rarely get the chance to fully express this IRL because you always stop me by saying: “Blah. It’s alright. Don’t worry about it. Shh. It’s okay,” (XDD) but I am very thankful for you putting up with so many things when it comes to me. I really am. You’re awesome! I love you. ♥

☆彡 I can’t believe that they are bringing Sailor Moon back in 2012. How do I even handle? I don’t know! ;_;

☆彡 My biggest complaint about my new job are the 10% of customers who need to just…take a fucking nap or something. I swear the same handful of people call and/or e-mail us everyday just to be annoying. Like, what makes you think I have fifteen minutes to waste listening to you bitch about a piece of thread? People are suffering all around the world, and you want to play pitiful victim over a piece of thread? Hang up please. You know? Then we get the ones that are just so damn savage. I am not even exaggerating when I say that people literally call us looking for a fight. They will wig out over nonexistent issues just to hear themselves yell and throw a tantrum. It’s sickening that people twice my age actually behave this way. You don’t know how bad I want to answer customers like these and say: “Well, ma’am/sir, the quickest solution to this problem is to eat a dick. Have a wonderful weekend!” LOL! But…that’s work. And that’s really the only thing that pisses me off about that place. So far, I really like my co-workers and I really like the job itself though. ^_^

☆彡 Fucking. Fleas. I swear, everything has a shadow that is equal to the size of its light. Take Link. Love that cat so much it makes me curl into a ball and sigh. But every damn summer I have to deal with fleas and he’s an indoor cat and none of this makes sense and fleas are the worst creatures to ever come into existence on his planet. THE WORST.

☆彡 I am working on a side story about a huntress because I am motivated by all these hunters and huntresses that I’ve been reading about. But motivation can be a dangerous thing. One, the “high” of motivation tends to put me in a frenzy, and I immediately want to work on something…even if it is poorly planned. Two, once that high of motivation wears off, it is easy to just throw away all the progress made simply because I don’t feel like it anymore. But those are the moments when you get the best results, you know? That moment is the change from motivation to habit. Habit isn’t supposed to be fun and energizing, but it is necessary for progress. You only lose that momentum from motivation when you lose track of what got you motivated in the first place. And this type of realization could be applied to pretty much every aspect of my life. I tend to get really motivated about things and then allow simple distractions to get in my way. I am not too worried about keeping momentum with this story because it is just for fun, but I would like to continue going with the other things in my life that I abandoned. When I feel like doing those things the least, I will do them the most!

☆彡 Starting tomorrow, I have to begin this complicated face routine because I am breaking out like crazy over here. So, that’s a blast. I hope it works.

☆彡 Aloe Vera is too amazing to not be sacred in some way. 😮

…I don’t know what else to say. I planned to stay up later, but I’m really tired. So that definitely means no The Witcher. It is impossible to just play that game for a few minutes. It’s that marvelous. LOL. So, I’m just going to work on my story a bit, read a bit, and then sleep a lot. Then tomorrow it is off to handle repetitive errands until I feel like running into a brick wall. I really should get back to those weekly challenges, but I’m not online as much as I used to be. The most I spend online is 30-45 minutes a day these days, so writing my progress on a blog is pretty low on my priority list. Still, it is not an excuse to not set up goals.

Even if I have to write my goals on a piece of paper and post a picture later then that will do. With that said, week one of July is already gone but I will start on new goals on the 8th. Even if I have to take a picture of it. >_<

Alright. That’s it. I hope everyone stays cool. It’s ridiculous out there, especially if you’re in the south. So keep yourselves hydrated. Please! Remember that if you’re thirsty then you’re already dehydrated. So don’t bother putting it off. Drink something. Okay, I’m done sounding like everyone’s mother. Sorry for virtually scolding. LOL! Take care guys. 🙂

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