All posts tagged dark souls
Posted by Kato on October 13, 2013
Posted by Kato on March 15, 2013
Posted by Kato on March 6, 2013
★彡 I SAW AND HEARD DARK SOULS II THINGS AND WTF I AM SHAKING AND CRYING TEARS OF HAPPINESS AND MY BODY WASN’T READY FOR THIS YET FUUUUUUUCK.
☆彡 Tomorrow, I see Silent Hill: Revelations and The Man With The Iron Fists. Yet another thing to be excited about. 😀
★彡 Somehow, one sick day turned into a four-day weekend. I’m not happy about that at all. Thursday was understandable. I had a 100 degree fever, back-to-back migraines, and nausea so bad that I don’t know how in the world I didn’t throw up that day. Friday though…Okay, I’ll admit, I wasn’t 100%. I still had a fever, but it was only 99. I was fine enough to do work. I resent being sent home to just sit in bed, and wallow over the money I’m not making. I’m not angry at my boss at all. She was only looking out for me and everyone else (which is what I like about her) but I’m just…frustrated. Christmas is right around the corner. I can’t afford to have two days off like that. I don’t know what I’m rambling about. I should be grateful. I did have a great day with Mark since he was off on Friday. Hell, he’s even going to be off on Sunday too. So, I can smile about that, right? 🙂
☆彡 Thanks to the two days off mentioned, I finally finished Deep Space Nine. The last moment of the show where Jake is watching the wormhole with Kira beside him–UGH RIGHT IN THE FEELS. I’ve already moved on to Voyager, and I must say that I really like Captain Kathryn Janeway. Actually, there isn’t a ST captain that I don’t adore. They’re all so wonderful. ❤
★彡 Getting this Dark Knight trilogy was a flawless choice. I’ve been watching the movies on loop since I got them. It’s so much better watching the entire thing from start to finish in one sitting. It leaves the details nice and crisp.
☆彡 I thought my obsession with Morning Glory stationery ended in my adolescence. It didn’t.
★彡 Netflix has all these Disney movies now thanks to a deal they made. I’m starting with The Fox and The Hound (which I’ve never seen) before I move on to The Aristocats (never finished it, but saw most of it), Alice in Wonderland, and then Pocahontas. The Nightmare Before Christmas is another possibility too. It’s all going to be very nostalgic indeed.
☆彡 If everyone has a purpose in life, I believe mine is storytelling. Whether it’s drawing or writing stories, I enjoy telling them. There is a feeling I can’t quite explain when I create a story, and someone tells me: “What happens next? Please work on it! I need to know the rest!” It’s not really pride. It’s…I don’t know. The closest feeling to it is when someone gives you an important task to complete, and you not only complete it, you go beyond their expectations. It’s that happiness with yourself and your abilities. There really is nothing like it.
★彡 I don’t have a New Year’s resolution list to share this year. Instead, I have a “Shit You Should Have Done Like Five Years Ago and It’s Really Pathetic That It’s Taking This Long” list. I don’t feel like posting it.
☆彡 Random Conversation:
Mark: “Doesn’t my character look like Geralt?”
Me: “Yes. Now I want to touch his butt.”
(On a serious note, Geralt has a nice butt and everything else. Permission to post Geralt? For me? Why, you shouldn’t have! )
★彡 Tina Turner singing “Goldeneye”. Perfection.
*sigh* Six hours away from Mark getting home, enjoying dinner, and watching Sword Art Online. I’m so impatient right now. -__-
Posted by Kato on December 8, 2012
☆彡 He’s lying. He wants to kill you. He has a neat theme song though.
☆彡 There is actually an alternate version of “Historia Crux” called “Interval of Time”, and it is just as amazing. I rather enjoy the Final Fantasy XIII-2 OST. I’ve yet to play the game…and I didn’t really plan to…but I’ll probably look into it. Once I repair my XBox of course. *sigh*
☆彡 I’ve come to learn that some people are genuinely terrified of introspection. I can’t really imagine what that is like. How does one go through life never making the effort to change themselves before constantly trying to change others?
☆彡 Kerry Washington is perfect. Everyone else can go home.
☆彡 Going to see The Avengers again today. I’ m so excited! Mark and I weren’t supposed to watch it until today, but we couldn’t hold it any longer. We had to go. We could not control our nerd impulses, comrades. We are sorry. D:
Speaking of Avengers, my quiz result from that Avengers quiz going around:
☆彡 The only hairstyle I would pay $50 a week for is FFX!Yuna’s. By the way, this is my first time noticing that Yuna pierced the upper part of her earlobe. That is awesome! I’ve been wanting to do that forever! I’ll probably do that for my birthday. I’m looking at three piercings at the upper part of each lobe. Maybe I’ll get Yuna’s earrings and hairstyle. *mind blown* In the complete opposite fashion of what Lightning said, best birthday ever.
☆彡 I am slowly but surely separating the things I want from thinking mechanisms that were instilled in me throughout my life. For example, parties. I hate parties. I especially hate parties when they are done in my honor. So, why should I force myself to plan one each time I do something “exceptional” in my life? That was my number one fear when I agreed to marry Mark–going through the whole white gown surrounded by family and friends thing. I don’t like that. I also don’t like the idea of possibly having to go through a baby shower for our possible future daughter/son. I dreaded graduation celebrations. I dread every suggestion of a birthday party. I just…hate those things. Gatherings are not so bad though. I can do 5-10 people showing up for a modest celebration. I mean, I know Mark wanted us to have wedding pictures to show our future children (although he hates the idea of a ceremony too), so we will have a little gathering someday. I just want it to be very, very, very, very small. I’m sure most of my close friends will thank me since they tend to be anti-humongous parties as well. 😄
☆彡 Vacations are important. They help you to clear your mind, get away from the situations that frustrate you, and refocus on the things that matter. If you can help it, do not allow yourself to go more than six months without at least one week to yourself.
☆彡 I am back into story writing, full swing! I may post something on luminifer, but I’ll have to see. I know for a fact that I’ll have to rewrite a lot of things on the Mythos subdomain since so much has changed. But what else is new? Things are always changing in Mythos. LOL
☆彡 Why is the concept of human rights so complicated? It’s called human rights. Not random race-only rights. Not men-only rights. Not women-only rights. Not random religion-only rights. Not random sexual orientation-only rights. Human rights.
☆彡 I have never actually finished the Neon Genesis Evangelion series. I started on both the manga and anime at some point, but I never really finished them. It’s kind of a shameful thing for an anime fan to admit. LOL. It’s like calling yourself a Batman fan, but never seeing The Dark Knight. Or something like that. NGE is really a big deal in the anime-verse. So, I will get on top of that. I promise. I prefer to work on the manga and then move on to the anime, though.
That’s it. Take care. ♥
Posted by Kato on May 10, 2012
☆彡 When it’s dark outside and I’m walking alone, everyone is a murderer and a rapist. No exception. What is that? A stray dog? No. It’s a quadruped murdering rapist. Otherwise, everything is okay, I guess.
☆彡 I dislike commitment. It is a strange thing to say as a woman who is married, but it is true. Relationships, platonic and otherwise, are not appealing to me. Of course, there are moments in life where I meet someone who I don’t mind building a relationship with, and they feel the same, but those are exceptionally rare moments.
☆彡 I still don’t have the Dark Souls art book yet. For shame.
☆彡 I’ve been writing a lot lately. I’m pretty happy about that. I’ve noticed, though, that I am becoming less and less interested in happy outcomes. I do too many cruel things to my characters. -_-
☆彡 Whoever said game is not art obviously didn’t play Chrono Cross. Obviously. The Dimensional Breach alone looked like something Vincent Van Gogh would paint. Don’t even get me started on the Lizard Grotto and Opassa Beach. Don’t. Even. The only complaint I have against Chrono Cross is that the battle scenery gets extremely distracting. Seriously, how am I supposed to focus on this monster when everything in the background is so beautiful.
☆彡 When someone asks me what I am thinking, I instantly become paranoid. I start asking: “Why? Who wants to know? Who sent you? SWEAR TO ME.” Honestly, you don’t want to know what is on my mind. Three-quarters of it belongs to my fictional worlds with imaginary people, species, plants, deities, planets, countries, cities, towns, holidays, memorials, past times, sports, and events that you’d never understand unless I explained them to you for hours. It is that complex and detailed. The other quarter is like the mall on the weekends. It’s just a cacophony of different voices saying different things that have no obvious connection to one another…unless you dig into my subconscious. And you don’t want to go there. Have you ever played Silent Hill when the alarm rings? You know, when everything deteriorates and limbless creatures start mewing and dragging themselves towards you? That is basically my subconscious. I don’t even want to go there without a professional…so no one else should. LOL. Just stay out of my mind. It’s better that way.
☆彡 I can’t describe how I feel when I step out of my laziness, and do something productive. I guess…relief is the term. I feel relieved. Last weekend, I finally started on spring cleaning and I felt very relieved in the end. Everything is clean. Hell, I mopped that kitchen floor so hard that the mop broke. And that didn’t even stop me. I got a rag, got on the floor, and scrubbed that shit. Felt good, man. It looks so clean now. In the end, I tried to think of a reward…which is usually food…because I am dog or something. LOL. But this time it wasn’t. I actually turned my desk into an art studio. I’m very proud, and I’m very happy! I’m using it a lot rather than using the living room couch. So, I’m glad. As strange as it is, being un-lazy feels good sometimes. Uncomfortable at first…but better later on.
☆彡 I REALLY hate driving. I don’t know if I expressed that here or not. I’m sure I bitch about it to the people who have to suffer my bitchings from time-to-time. But I really hate driving. The only vehicle I’d ever drive and be extremely happy to drive it is a Vespa. Everything else can suck it. 😐
☆彡(I’m not using a translator or reference tool, so please bare with me if I translate something wrong ) E secc oui. Cusaruf, hud ahuikr du zicd damm oui, pid ahuikr du secc ouin maddanc yht fuhtan ev ouina ugyo. E lyhd cryga dra vaamehk dryd E cyet cusadrehk faeht ykyeh. Drah ykyeh, E ghuf oui femm myikr yht tasyht dryd E crub cbaygehk cu mufmo uv socamv. Oui nacduna su vyedr eh risyhc cu silr. Tuht mad sa tufh. Bmayca, bmayca, bmayca, bmayca.
☆彡 Naoto-motherfucking-Shirogane. Wow.
That’s it. >_<
Posted by Kato on April 24, 2012
☆彡 Bucket List: Part One
- Own a motorcycle (and ride it daily)
- Watch the entire Sailor Moon series from beginning to end in one sitting
- Have $5,000 in my savings account
- Finish a sketchbook
- Meet the Dalai Lama
- Meet Nobuo Uematsu
- Travel to Canada
- More cats
- Not live in Georgia anymore (fuck I hate this place)
- Learn Japanese or Esperanto
- Attend E3 or Comic-Con at some point in my life
- Go to bed before midnight every night (yeah right…)
- Road trip to Seattle
- Get a black belt in some form of martial arts
- Buy a house
- Get paid to draw
- Finish a Pathfinder or D&D campaign
- Write a book
☆彡 I promised not to speak lowly of myself or say untrue things to make others feel better. The way I see it, any person that expects me to bash myself so they can feel better is not a good person to be around. A good person to be around would support me. So…no thanks. Exchanging my confidence for a person I don’t really care about is a terrible trade.
☆彡 It is already April, yet Mark and I haven’t started a ‘The Matrix’ or ‘The Lord of the Rings’ marathon yet. I don’t know. I guess I’m more focused on The Legend of Korra, Game of Thrones, The Walking Dead, and a bunch of other shows I am missing because I lack cable. No excuses, right? I just need to lurk moar.
☆彡 Metric. Black Sheep. Help, I’m Alive. That is all.
☆彡 Finished Catching Fire today. I can’t believe the book just ended right there. *falls in a slow circle and dies* Oh well. I’m going to visit the library tomorrow and cross my fingers for a copy of Mockingjay.
☆彡 My sleep schedule is so stupid right now. I’d do just about anything to get to bed and wake up at decent hours. -.-
☆彡 I like speaking to people who succeed at losing a lot of weight (50 pounds or more) because they’re real. They’re not celebrities who secretly hire trainers or hire chefs to cook for them. They’re everyday men and women on limited budgets and time. I’ve picked up a lot of tips over the years, but in the end it really comes down to motivation…or, in my case, finding out why I am so intimidated by weight loss. I guess I already know the answer. I just don’t know how to face it properly. Long story short, I dealt with a lot of stalking, sexual harassment, and unpleasant things like that when I was thin. I didn’t intentionally put on weight to protect myself from that, but I did find that food was comforting and that being fat stopped a lot of harassment I faced. But, as someone told me, food is not my friend. It is not therapy. It is not filling any voids I have. It is just fuel. And she is extremely right. Eating junk is not going to make me happy in the end. I just have to take advantage of the thick skin I obtained over the years, and do what I have to do against people like that. I can keep practicing karate, and not only use that to get fit, but to also protect myself. I am not trying to come out of this as thin as I used to be. Being skinny is not a priority to me. More than anything, I want to be strong. That is why I am so obsessed with weight lifting, I guess. If I can train myself to bench press 150+ lbs. then I can probably grab someone by the neck and toss them aside. That’s more of an inspiration to me than bikinis and skinny jeans. I guess that’s weird, but what else is new, right? ^u^
☆彡 All of the unexpected bills Mark and I have been dealing with lately have been both a blessing and a curse. A curse because having more bills than money is never a good thing. But it’s a blessing because it forces us to lead a more humble life. The truth is that Mark and I do not enjoy indulgence. We’re always talking about moving to an isolated village, growing our own food, and living off our land. That’s the type of thing we consider paradise. But we fall into the same trap that a lot of people fall into. The I-need-it-now-or-never trap. It really makes us spoiled. Sometimes I think back to how we used to be when we were first going out, and what little we had between each other, and it makes me realize how much we’ve changed. I don’t want to become a slave to money, trinkets, and first-world luxuries, you know? Even if I win the lottery, I want to pursue that life we dream about where I work hard for the things I have.
☆彡 Spectrum Nexus had a prank for April Fools’ Day. They released a Berserk manga update, but when you go to read the manga the image won’t load. It’s just blurry and it says: “Loading error. Please try again later.” Of course, my first instinct on April Fools’ Day is to trust no one and nothing. So, I already went into the Berserk manga thinking: “Let’s see how this turns out,” but a lot of people were FURIOUS about it. The site owner even had to apologize for it. This only reaffirms what I already know: Do not fuck with Berserk fans. They are not playing around. If you say you have something Berserk related and you’re lying about it…prepare yourself. LOL. Seriously, I can imagine ‘Sign’ playing in the background the moment someone lies about a Berserk update. Then I can imagine the furious Berserk fan pulling out Guts’ sword out of nowhere and cleaving people in half. Yep. That may actually happen someday. Once more, do not fuck with Berserk fans. 😄
☆彡 Going through Dark Souls withdrawal. *weeps phantom tears* Why do I love you, Dark Souls, when you’re such a dick? ;-;
☆彡 For some reason, my eyebrows are growing very thick after I shaped them up last time. I was going to shape them up again, but I realized that I am better off with thick eyebrows. Neat eyebrows are great for people who are very meticulous about how they dress…but I’m fairly tomboyish. I don’t think a tomboy with neat eyebrows is a great combination. At least not for me. LOL. Besides, I’ve been introduced to the whole ‘ulzzang’ culture and most of those girls do nothing to their eyebrows. And they still look incredibly pretty! Here’s an example:
Of course, I’ll have to pluck stray eyebrow hairs that like to grow in random locations. Like, seriously, right above my eyelids? What are you smoking, eyebrows -_-? Otherwise, I’ll leave it as is.
☆彡 Since I’m on the topic of beauty, I would really like to learn makeup one day. No time soon, but in the future. If I am going to attempt makeup then it has to be subtle. No neon green eye shadow with purple lipstick and bright red blush. I…I can’t do things like that. It has to look as natural as possible. The only thing I’ll use generously is maybe mascara and eyeliner. Even then it won’t be like…raccoon generous. Just enough to know it’s there. Once more, in the future. Far future. When I am confident with doing things like that. Right now, though, I have to focus on one thing at a time. Beauty will get my time when I’m ready.
☆彡 I keep thinking about how great it will be to finally attend art school. It’ll be expensive, yes, but leaving art school with the ability to do things like 3D renditions, animation, and character design…it’s really exciting! It’s one of those things that will help me career wise, and hobby wise. I guess the only thing to do now is wait. Have patience. See how things turn out. Then, once it all begins, put my best effort and do not slack off. Not even for a second. I’m sure that if I keep this mentality from start to finish I will graduate with impressive skills. Maybe impressive enough to work for big companies like Blizzard, Bioware, Square-Enix, Nintendo, Gearbox, LucasArts and Bungie. Who knows? I may be able to branch off into movie, cartoon, and comic books. An artist is an artist is an artist. Well, I’m not going to wait around until I graduate to make an impression. I’m going to draw everyday — all day — until my fingers fall off. Then I have to reattach them, of course, because I need them. But in the end I’ll be better! *pose*
Okay. That’s it. I’m going to go to bed. Not even remotely tired but…I’ll attempt to straighten this sleep schedule of mine out the best I can.
Posted by Kato on April 4, 2012
☆彡 This whole running around getting transcripts, recommendation letters, applications, and other admission-related tasks gives me a headache. It’s so tedious. *sighs* Well, nothing worth having is easy to acquire, right? It will pay off in the end. Yep…more paperwork it is.
☆彡 As much as I love RPG Maker, it agitates me at times that my ideas come much faster than my ability to make maps and events. I usually spend more time typing up my ideas in Word than I do putting those ideas into RPG format. So, I’ll end up with 20 pages of storyline, and about two minutes of RPG content. It’s my own fault. I should always work on the plot before I work on project. It makes me less impatient.
☆彡 Mark and I stopped by a gun shop. I have never been in a gun shop before until today. I felt…safe…as strange as that is to say. Well, maybe it isn’t so strange. The moment we walked in, the gun shop owner was speaking to another customer who is dealing with break-ins in his neighborhood. Like him, I hope to never have to use a gun on someone, but I’d feel better having one. Eventually, we had a long talk with the gun shop owner about the upcoming elections, the A-Team, doomsday, and the importance of the second amendment. It was an interesting discussion. Mark and I have a tendency to draw out these conversations out of people. I stopped wondering why. I just enjoy it. Either way, we’re going to start investing time in visiting shooting ranges and beginning our own gun collection. He wants to start with a pistol, and I want to start with a pistol. Sounds like a plan.
☆彡I know what I’m doing this weekend: reading, reading, and reading some more. I have four books of my own to finish, and then two books I borrowed from the library today. My brain will hate me, but it can deal with it. I still have those mp3 speakers that I haven’t used yet, so I’m going to play something relaxing while I read. I’m thinking either the Beatles or the Chrono Cross OST. Vielan Dank is also an excellent choice. Piano collections are always relaxing, and they just seem to “go with” reading…if that makes any sense.
☆彡 I want to learn Esperanto so badly…but I’m already busy language learning wise. I am brushing up on Latin as well as teaching myself Japanese. So, I guess I will have to put Esperanto aside for now. I must say, though, that the entire concept around it is very neat!
☆彡 Watching Mark get slapped around by the Capra Demon was…painful to watch. LOL. I’m not even close to the Capra Demon. I’m actually on my way to the Bell Gargoyles, so it’s a bit far from where I am. Honestly, I don’t even want to go that direction. I want to just go straight to Blight Town. I have so many things I want to do there. Speaking of Dark Souls, I can’t wait for the art book to come out at the end of the month. It’s going to be awesome!
Later (and happy weekend! ^^) ♥
Posted by Kato on March 16, 2012
I BEAT THE TAURUS DEMON.
AND I GOT THE DRAKE SWORD.
[ Caps lock necessary.]
Posted by Kato on March 12, 2012