093: The Beast Is Back

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If we don’t greet each other like this then what’s the point.

I’m going to start using ‘Read More’ cuts on these entries because they can get pretty long at times. Like now.

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063: Paradise Circus

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★彡 THE HYRULE HISTORIA IS PERFECT.

It’s as if someone handpicked every pleasant memory I shared with this series, and placed it into a 300-paged  hardcover book. Going through the Hyrule Historia for the first time was definitely a moving experience for me. To this day when I am faced with something that is too painful for me to handle, I play a game from The Legend of Zelda series and I find my center again. It is a fairy tale that grows with me, reminding me that the most unexpected people–even an orphan who constantly oversleeps–can change the world if he finds the courage to. Moreover, each version of Link and Zelda is a reminder that no matter how intimidating the villain or the sadness you face, you can best it with intelligence and bravery. I love that message. I love this series. I love the Hyrule Historia for putting everything amazing about The Legend of Zelda into this nifty textbook, and allowing fans to carry it wherever they go. It goes without saying that I am inseparable from my book. I plan to re-read it several more times. I swear, each time I read it I come across something new that I didn’t notice before. It’s incredible! If you’re a fan of the series, I cannot recommend this book enough. It is just as important as any The Legend of Zelda game you have in your collection. The moment you can get it, GET IT AND DON’T LOOK BACK. I promise you will have no reason to look back. It is flawless! Okay, I’m done with my effusive adoration for the Hyrule Historia…for now.

☆彡 Tuvok.  ‾ w ‾ 

★彡 I sometimes get an overwhelming urge to drop hundreds of dollars on random hobbies of mine, but I don’t. Anything over $20 is always carefully planned. Perhaps that makes me a penny-pincher. Then again, cheap is really my only option. I am practically penniless. If I spend even $50 carelessly, I will pay for it in the weeks to come. It doesn’t bother me to live this way. I believe this type of life trains a person to handle money better, and I’d rather learn this lesson while I am young.

☆彡 Jansen (about Kaim): “He probably wasn’t breastfed.” LOL. He is such an ass sometimes….most of the time. I love the cast of this game. I love this game even more. Mistwalker did a fantastic job with it! If only Square-Enix would take a page from their book, and let go of this self-indulgent “let’s try to be hip” path they are taking Final Fantasy down. I am doing my best to remain a loyal fan, but it’s sad that I am beginning to like Square-Enix games for a few characters and songs rather than the stories and worlds like I used to. It really is heartbreaking. I would do anything to go back to those Squaresoft days when Final Fantasy was just as major to me as say Zelda. I’m just not feeling it these days…

★彡 It still fucks my mind that there is a new Sailor Moon anime coming this summer. My mind is equally fucked by the re-release of Wind Waker too. This is too much. TT__TT

☆彡 I am so drawn to mori (forest) fashion.

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As odd as it is to say, this type of fashion reminds me of the person I truly am. Yeah, that is definitely odd to say…

★彡 Of all the logical fallacies out there, argumentum ad populum has to be the most irritating. You cannot speak for an entire group of people without speaking to every individual within that group. Majority opinion is not synonymous with unanimous opinion. Most does not mean all. Why is this so difficult to understand?

☆彡 Weight loss is more about need than want. I don’t want to lose weight, but I need to lose weight. I need to be self-sufficient when I am older. I need to avoid as many illnesses and setbacks as possible. So, if it is true that being overweight is setting me on a one-way trip towards dependency then I need to change. It’s the only logical path to take at this point.

★彡 My old TV is completely shot. Instead of images, I just see a black screen. The audio works fine though. At this point I should just get rid of it but I really want to break it open and start exploring the insides. I might as well. It’s not like the TV can get any worse.

☆彡 If and when I do return to school, I am going to study either science, programming, or art. It’s what I should have done in the first place, but I was so caught up in the illusion of “career” to realize that it’s better to work towards a position in a limited field than to work in a field with plenty of positions that you have zero interest in. Ah, the joys of being young and reckless then paying for it in the future.

★彡 When people ask me why I am quiet, I am tempted to give them a long drawn out story that involves fantasy creatures because it really is a stupid question. Do I ask you why you talk? No. Because you have the right to talk, the same way I have the right not to. It’s as simple as that.

☆彡 I’m usually passive about layout changes on websites (especially since I change mine every millisecond), but live/hotmail changing to outlook has just been a nightmare for me. I don’t like it at all. I’ve been doing my best to show patience with the format and technicalities, but it has just been one headache after another. *sigh* Gmail it is.

★彡 Pet Peeve #220: Finding a crack or tear in something, and having no idea where the hell it came from. It’s one thing if I drop a cup and it chips because I know why the chip is there, but if I am pouring tea into a cup and then I notice a chip there, I’ll become very annoyed. I don’t mind if things are imperfect so long as I understand why.

Honestly, outside of the Hyrule Historia, I really don’t have much to talk about. Hopefully, more interesting things will happen in the near future. By interesting, of course, I mean interesting enough to talk about. My gaming and movie marathons are extremely interesting to me, but that doesn’t translate well in a blog.

Yep…

052: Wet Hands

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[ I will go down with this ship. ]

☆彡 This is the first post of 2013…because that matters.

★彡 Mark and I celebrated New Year’s Eve with pasta, keg-style root beer, and an It’s Always Sunny in Philadelphia marathon. Then we counted down before playing Minecraft until stupid hours. Good start!

☆彡 In 2013, the only thing I want to do is enjoy myself. After all, every resolution I worked hard for in the past ended up stolen, destroyed, broken, or ruined in 2012. So, I am done with building happiness on temporary foundations like money, careers, materials, etc. From now on, I will be entirely opportunistic when it comes to my happiness. Even if I must watch paint dry for ten hours, I will use that as an opportunity to let my imagination run wild and really enjoy myself. Another good start! *high fives self*

★彡 I’m currently in a competition with Mark to get to 10,000 gamer points. Never mind the fact that he has an almost 2,000 point lead. I have more games to play. We’ll see how this goes. XD

☆彡 How I survived today on one hour of sleep is beyond me, but I’m not even tired right now and I’m doing things better than usual. Someone explain this to me in scientifics. I need to completely grasp this phenomenon.

★彡 This kitten followed Mark today, and we were THIS close to keeping it. He was so cute, small, friendly, and warm. We ended up not keeping him because (a)there is a chip in him that says he belongs to someone else (his name is Yoda BTW), and (b)Link is a dick. He kept hissing at him…as he does at anything that is remotely feline. Humans? No problem. Dogs? No problem. Other cats? Never. He’s such an ass sometimes.

☆彡 Debt sucks. I don’t like debt. I need debt to be completely removed from my life so my money is actually my money…and not “oh wait can’t touch that it belongs to debt” money. Curse the choices made during my reckless youth as well as the choices that weren’t careless but terribly expensive! Gotta get that worked out, son!

★彡 “Kiss From A Rose” is a perfect song though.

☆彡 Two animes I need to complete: Neon Genesis Evangelion and Nadia: Secret of Blue Water.

★彡 I am not against people having their own opinions, but why do you have to express at me or near me? I really don’t care how much you disagree with this thing I agree with or how much you dislike this thing that I like. Go bitch about it to your blog, diary, or people who give a shit. You’re not going to change my mind. I’m not going to change yours. So, why the fuck are you bitching about it? Shit, people get on fucking nerves sometimes. Most of the time. All of the damn time.

☆彡 In the past, I was pretty indifferent to XBox Live, but after this free trial ends I’m not entirely sure how I’ll feel. Mostly sad.

…That went from upbeat to crappy really fast. I’m probably just tired. I should sleep. 😐

P.S. Edited that script I wrote for Nanowrimo. It still needs more work. Less rambling in the dialogue, more plot-relative things.

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☆彡 Bucket List: Part One

  • Own a motorcycle (and ride it daily)
  • Watch the entire Sailor Moon series from beginning to end in one sitting
  • Have $5,000 in my savings account
  • Finish a sketchbook
  • Meet the Dalai Lama
  • Meet Nobuo Uematsu
  • Travel to Canada
  • More cats
  • Not live in Georgia anymore (fuck I hate this place)
  • Learn Japanese or Esperanto
  • Attend E3 or Comic-Con at some point in my life
  • Go to bed before midnight every night (yeah right…)
  • Road trip to Seattle
  • Get a black belt in some form of martial arts
  • Buy a house
  • Get paid to draw
  • Finish a Pathfinder or D&D campaign
  • Write a book

☆彡 I promised not to speak lowly of myself or say untrue things to make others feel better. The way I see it, any person that expects me to bash myself so they can feel better is not a good person to be around. A good person to be around would support me. So…no thanks. Exchanging my confidence for a person I don’t really care about is a terrible trade.

☆彡 It is already April, yet Mark and I haven’t started a ‘The Matrix’ or ‘The Lord of the Rings’ marathon yet. I don’t know. I guess I’m more focused on The Legend of Korra, Game of Thrones, The Walking Dead, and a bunch of other shows I am missing because I lack cable. No excuses, right? I just need to lurk moar.

☆彡 Metric. Black Sheep. Help, I’m Alive. That is all.

☆彡 Finished Catching Fire today. I can’t believe the book just ended right there. *falls in a slow circle and dies* Oh well. I’m going to visit the library tomorrow and cross my fingers for a copy of Mockingjay.

☆彡 My sleep schedule is so stupid right now. I’d do just about anything to get to bed and wake up at decent hours. -.-

☆彡 I like speaking to people who succeed at losing a lot of weight (50 pounds or more) because they’re real. They’re not celebrities who secretly hire trainers or hire chefs to cook for them. They’re everyday men and women on limited budgets and time. I’ve picked up a lot of tips over the years, but in the end it really comes down to motivation…or, in my case, finding out why I am so intimidated by weight loss. I guess I already know the answer. I just don’t know how to face it properly. Long story short, I dealt with a lot of stalking, sexual harassment, and unpleasant things like that when I was thin. I didn’t intentionally put on weight to protect myself from that, but I did find that food was comforting and that being fat stopped a lot of harassment I faced. But, as someone told me, food is not my friend. It is not therapy. It is not filling any voids I have. It is just fuel. And she is extremely right. Eating junk is not going to make me happy in the end. I just have to take advantage of the thick skin I obtained over the years, and do what I have to do against people like that. I can keep practicing karate, and not only use that to get fit, but to also protect myself. I am not trying to come out of this as thin as I used to be. Being skinny is not a priority to me. More than anything, I want to be strong. That is why I am so obsessed with weight lifting, I guess. If I can train myself to bench press 150+ lbs. then I can probably grab someone by the neck and toss them aside. That’s more of an inspiration to me than bikinis and skinny jeans. I guess that’s weird, but what else is new, right? ^u^

☆彡 All of the unexpected bills Mark and I have been dealing with lately have been both a blessing and a curse. A curse because having more bills than money is never a good thing. But it’s a blessing because it forces us to lead a more humble life. The truth is that Mark and I do not enjoy indulgence. We’re always talking about moving to an isolated village, growing our own food, and living off our land. That’s the type of thing we consider paradise. But we fall into the same trap that a lot of people fall into. The I-need-it-now-or-never trap. It really makes us spoiled. Sometimes I think back to how we used to be when we were first going out, and what little we had between each other, and it makes me realize how much we’ve changed. I don’t want to become a slave to money, trinkets, and first-world luxuries, you know? Even if I win the lottery, I want to pursue that life we dream about where I work hard for the things I have.

☆彡 Spectrum Nexus had a prank for April Fools’ Day. They released a Berserk manga update, but when you go to read the manga the image won’t load. It’s just blurry and it says: “Loading error. Please try again later.” Of course, my first instinct on April Fools’ Day is to trust no one and nothing. So, I already went into the Berserk manga thinking: “Let’s see how this turns out,” but a lot of people were FURIOUS about it. The site owner even had to apologize for it. This only reaffirms what I already know: Do not fuck with Berserk fans. They are not playing around. If you say you have something Berserk related and you’re lying about it…prepare yourself. LOL. Seriously, I can imagine ‘Sign’ playing in the background the moment someone lies about a Berserk update. Then I can imagine the furious Berserk fan pulling out Guts’ sword out of nowhere and cleaving people in half. Yep. That may actually happen someday. Once more, do not fuck with Berserk fans. XD

☆彡 Going through Dark Souls withdrawal. *weeps phantom tears* Why do I love you, Dark Souls, when you’re such a dick? ;-;

☆彡 For some reason, my eyebrows are growing very thick after I shaped them up last time. I was going to shape them up again, but I realized that I am better off with thick eyebrows. Neat eyebrows are great for people who are very meticulous about how they dress…but I’m fairly tomboyish. I don’t think a tomboy with neat eyebrows is a great combination. At least not for me. LOL. Besides, I’ve been introduced to the whole ‘ulzzang’ culture and most of those girls do nothing to their eyebrows. And they still look incredibly pretty! Here’s an example:

Of course, I’ll have to pluck stray eyebrow hairs that like to grow in random locations. Like, seriously, right above my eyelids? What are you smoking, eyebrows -_-? Otherwise, I’ll leave it as is.

☆彡 Since I’m on the topic of beauty, I would really like to learn makeup one day. No time soon, but in the future. If I am going to attempt makeup then it has to be subtle. No neon green eye shadow with purple lipstick and bright red blush. I…I can’t do things like that. It has to look as natural as possible. The only thing I’ll use generously is maybe mascara and eyeliner. Even then it won’t be like…raccoon generous. Just enough to know it’s there. Once more, in the future. Far future. When I am confident with doing things like that. Right now, though, I have to focus on one thing at a time. Beauty will get my time when I’m ready.

☆彡 I keep thinking about how great it will be to finally attend art school. It’ll be expensive, yes, but leaving art school with the ability to do things like 3D renditions, animation, and character design…it’s really exciting! It’s one of those things that will help me career wise, and hobby wise. I guess the only thing to do now is wait. Have patience. See how things turn out. Then, once it all begins, put my best effort and do not slack off. Not even for a second. I’m sure that if I keep this mentality from start to finish I will graduate with impressive skills. Maybe impressive enough to work for big companies like Blizzard, Bioware, Square-Enix, Nintendo, Gearbox, LucasArts and Bungie. Who knows? I may be able to branch off into movie, cartoon, and comic books. An artist is an artist is an artist. Well, I’m not going to wait around until I graduate to make an impression. I’m going to draw everyday — all day — until my fingers fall off. Then I have to reattach them, of course, because I need them. But in the end I’ll be better! *pose*

Okay. That’s it. I’m going to go to bed. Not even remotely tired but…I’ll attempt to straighten this sleep schedule of mine out the best I can.

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