Kerri & Loot

Not Bad

Things I Got That I Don’t Deserve:

  • MOTHERFUCKING THE LEGEND OF ZELDA: A LINK BETWEEN WORLDS (*pterodactyl screech*)
  • Clover manga (I still have too many feelings about Clover)
  • Magic Knight Rayearth omnibus manga (CLAMP IS RUINING MY LIFE)
  • Pretty jacket (I’m too fat for it so my mother-in-law has to exchange it. LOL)
  • Big-ass basket of like 10 flavors of popcorn (Unfortunately, I dislike sweet popcorn, so that leaves me like two flavors)
  • Gift cards (YAASSS)
  • Candles (That set my scented candles obsession into overdrive)
  • Clothes (Much needed)
  • Towels (Much, much needed)
  • Money (Much, much, much needed)
  • And some other cool stuff (Danke)
  • Also, while I got Dishonored for Mark, I’m still going to be playing that shit like it’s mine. (#shameless)

BTW: ALBW is awesome!!! I love the idea of renting different items. It seemed a little intimidating at first, but it makes the game even more fun than it already is. My favorite character so far is Ravio. I’m still laughing about the fact that Link and Ravio are roommates, and Link comes home after a hard day of world-saving to find Ravio setting up shop in his house. His response is pretty much along the lines of “you’re not really home anyway”. LOL. Yeah, this game is truly a gem. I can’t wait to see what other cool things I can do with this ability to turn into a walking painting. It’s really fantastic. I love you, Nintendo. ;__;

I’m going to use one of my giftcards to get Dream Drop Distance…if all goes according to plan. I should probably wait though. I already have Enslaved, LA Noire, and ALBW on my plate. I don’t know though. I’ve been wanting to play a Kingdom Hearts title for a long time. I’m on the verge of replaying KH1 or KH2 just to get my fix. *sigh* Fuck it. It’s practically free amirite.

Okay, I’m done being lame.

Happy New Year! 

083: Christmas in the Silent Forest

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( Dinnertime at my house. )

☆彡 I cannot stop writing. Mythos has completely screwed up my sleeping schedule…whenever I actually get sleep…but I honestly don’t mind. It feels fantastic to be obsessed with a project again, especially a project that I’ve been working on since middle school. You would think I would just stop by now but nope. I love my characters too much. I love Telluria too much. The plot can change all it wants, but I’m not letting those two things go. Blah blah blah, I’m making good progress.

★彡Finally, I am playing Enslaved: Odyssey to the West, and it is a gem. It’s funny. I was picking the game up at Gamestop (It’s $7-8! Buy it! Play it! Listen to the soundtrack, mainly for “Cloud Surfing”!) and the guy at the counter immediately shouted: “THIS GAME IS AWESOME. IT IS SO UNDERRATED. I LOVE THIS GAME.” I feel you, Gamestop guy.

☆彡 Link found some new hobbies that include knocking the trash bin over in the middle of the night, chewing on my books, and gnawing his way into every food packet we hide from him. It’s like living with a 10-lb rat. Joy…

★彡 My favorite part of L.A. Noire is interrogating the fuck out of people. Don’t lie to me, nerd. I’m a video game protagonist. I always win. And if I lose I can restart and make myself win.

☆彡 Don’t talk to me about the season finale of Sons of Anarchy.

★彡 This has been a month of nonstop eargasm. Beyonce, the Drag-on Dragoon 3 soundtrack, and the Lightning Returns soundtrack. *somersaults into the sun*

☆彡 Mark got an early Christmas present: an all-black Nintendo 3DS XL and Fire Emblem: Awakening. He’s pretty much attached to it…which is the only reasonable reaction to have to a new game console tbh. LOL. I’m waiting for him to get Animal Crossing though. We are going to pretty much wage war on each other’s towns.  First, I spam his town bulletin with Spice Girls lyrics. >:D

★彡 Dude, I was watching Nutcracker (1986) and Drosselmeyer reminded me of Papa!Nier. A very creepy version of Nier, yes, but still.

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Edit: found a better picture of Nutcracker Nier.

Edit: Found a better picture of Nutcracker Nier.

☆彡 You can tell a lot about a person by how they treat those who serve them. Actually, put someone in a room with a person or animal who cannot defend himself/herself (whatever the cause of the limitation), and you will learn all you need to know about that person’s character.

★彡 I really, really, really want to replay Final Fantasy VIII, but I don’t feel like going through totes for my Playstation 2 and setting up the PS2 wires by tugging away the 360 and Wii wires that are already connected. First world problems. I know. I recently remembered that Steam existed, so I’m probably going to go through Steam and just play it online. Why not? I’d pay $10 bucks to play FFVIII whilst avoiding the wiring bullshit.

☆彡 I love buying someone an awesome gift and getting excited over their excitement. Aside from the decorations, that’s the only reason I give a shit about the holidays.

★彡 Princess AJ Lee said that she hit Brie Bella so hard that Brie forgot math. I am crying.

☆彡 “You must unlearn what you have been ‘programmed’ to believe from birth. That software no longer serves you if you want to live in a world where all things are possible.” — Jacqueline E. Purcell (IMPORTANT!!!)

★彡 South Park‘s parody of A Game of Thrones is hilarious. I lost my ability to breathe when the CEO of Sony gave Kenny Sailor Moon’s locket and he became an anime princess, J-pop theme song and all. Excuse me, I’m going to die of laughter again.

I’m gonna kick this winter vacation off right with some 80’s action flicks and writing marathons. Happy holidays, ya’ll. *_*

082: Não Chora Menina

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“Close my shark , human.”

★彡 I beat Dragon Age 2 a few days ago. I was a warrior the first time around, so I am going to replay as a mage. That should make the plot a lot more interesting. Not that replaying really matters. Anders is still going to ruin my life again…with his anger-induced possessions and love of cats and unshaven pony-tailed face. Ugh, fuck off, Anders.

☆彡 *slowly teaches Mark to stop asking my permission for everything* (LOL)

Seriously, nothing gives me joy like Mark buying things and going places without seeking my approval first. Yes, I understand that his heart is in the right place, but…he’s 28 years old. It’s kind of depressing for a 28 year old to have to get permission from a 26 year old to do shit, you know? I don’t even let 60 year olds tell me what to do better yet people younger than me. Then again, I am the type of person who hates being ordered around (unless I’m getting paid to or I have immense respect for the person giving orders), so I value independence and personal space a lot. I never want to be in a position where I am forced to strip someone of independence and space every human being deserves. Oh well. He will learn. He is learning. That’s good enough for now.

★彡 Glad to see that Rey Mysterio is back. Sadly, that’s pretty much all I care about in WWE right now.

☆彡 I don’t know why I wait until December to hang up lights. I’m just going to string them around my bedroom and leave them there all year. Also, I have yet to own a tree that wasn’t green, so I’m going to get a blue or white tree this year.

★彡 Man, the ASOIAF fans who haven’t read the books yet are in for several headfucks next season. The purple wedding alone is going to be *in Zack Ryder’s voice* siiiiiiiick (…wait….what am I doing? I hate Zack Ryder). Anyway, just a few more months, ASOIAF fandom. Almost there.

☆彡 My blowdryer decided to explode on me and then make a Silent Hill-esque siren noise afterwards. That wasn’t terrifying at all. Luckily, there was no fire. It was just loud and smoky. 

★彡 I plan to get A Link Between Worlds very soon. I haven’t gotten around to it because I have a pile of books on my desk, and I’ve been going through them at breakneck speed. Finally. I should be all caught up within the next week or so…book-wise anyway. My gaming pile is still pretty pathetic.

☆彡 The worst feeling in the world is when you catch yourself doing something despicable and suddenly you question everything about yourself. I am by no means a goody-two shoes. My need to constantly explore new things is to blame for most of that. But there are definitely some lines I never cross, particularly lines that involve hurting others. I can live with hurting myself but not others. The truth is that I am a completely different person when I am in the middle of a panic attack. While I am in that mode, self-preservation is my only priority. Everything and everyone else stops mattering. That doesn’t change the fact that selfish is selfish. I don’t believe for a second that this part of me is impossible change. I just…need to put myself in panic-inducing situations until I learn to have complete control of myself during them. Until then, I am a dumb loser during 50% of my life. Whomp-whomp.

★彡 The things I am hearing about the XBox One are…tragic. The XBox 360 has been so pleasant for me that I hoped that the XBox One would be a worthy upgrade of it. Meh. I guess it is high time I got back to Sony anyway. The last time I owned a Sony console was back in 2004 or so when my PS2 broke. I have nothing against Sony. XBox just had a better selection of games these past few years, and games that were once Sony exclusives became multiplatform. This time around there are important-ass exclusives like Drakengard 3, Final Fantasy XV, and Kingdom Hearts 3 that I have to look out for. Also, there are some old Sony exclusive titles like Chrono Cross and a few Final Fantasy titles that I would love to download. So, a Playstation 4 is a definite for me. It’s just a matter of when I save up $400.

☆彡 The thing I hate most about my stories is that my characters have so much potential, yet they always end up the same one-dimensional carbon copy of the last character. I don’t spend enough time really fleshing them out. It’s easy to say: “this one is laid-back” or “this one is energetic”, but actually putting details into a character like pet peeves, addictions, allergies, fruitless dreams, poignant memories–that takes real effort. Effort I seldom give. For now, I am going to stop working on plots and drawings, and start working on those little things. I also need to work on more characters outside the main characters. Supporting characters don’t get enough credit for the life they give to stories. They are just that: support. I need to remember this! Well, I’m not going to worry too much about NaNoWriMo at this point. It is damn near impossible to meet the word count goal so late in the game, and my head isn’t really into it this year. I just want to crack open my Mythos binder and contribute more to it than fancy costumes. LOL

★彡 It’s Always Sunny in Philadelphia gives me life. I have never laughed so hard in my life.

☆彡 I am currently working on a way to modify my bo staff. I’m in the sketching and tossing crumpled paper across the room phase right now. Not fun…but turning my bo staff into a Final Fantasy like weapon is going to be sweeeet. I thought about turning it into a lance, but as often as that thing topples over I don’t think it’s a good idea to add a blade to the end of it. LOL. I’m just going to stick with a basic staff. Right now I am set on something between Yuna’s starting staff and her Nirvana staff. I want to name my staff “Phantasmagoria”…because it’s my favorite word. Yes, I know I’m a colossal loser. Leave me alone. 😐

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★彡 I’m glad that Nier is finally getting the respect it deserves. Thanks Game Informer for pointing out what a masterpiece it is.

Also, fuck what the Nier haters said.

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Happy Thanksgiving everyone, and please be careful if you participate in Black Friday.

066: Proton

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★彡 Okay, Tuvok, stop being perfect.

☆彡 I know I already made a big deal about this, but DRAKENGARD 3. Also going back to a previous entry, if Drakengard is full of sick fucks and NieR is full of dying people and the team of both games will be working on Drakengard 3 then will I run into sick fucks who all die? Huh… Something to prepare myself for. Also, how in the fresh hell am I going to get a Playstation 3 to play it?

★彡 I discovered Paint Tool Sai, but my drawing tablet is still kaput and coloring with my mouse is not happening. Yay! I’ll just study some more tutorials for now. Also, the marker tool in Paint Tool Sai is perfect! I really want to color my stuff with it…

☆彡 Wow, Data is playing this game and it is three layers of The Legend of Zelda juxtaposed on this grid. I see what you did there, Star Trek. Also, “USS Yamato” and a group of people called “Nausicaans”? Do I sense possible anime fans on the Star Trek team? That is actually really cool–sharing mutual interests with the creators behind one of my interests.

★彡 The truth is that I have zero patience for redundancy, and if something more interesting comes along I will likely move towards it. This is true for everything from school to relationships. Of course, I should define what redundancy means to me since it can vary from person to person. I am fine with doing the same thing repeatedly so long as I am given the freedom to use my own “system” of handling it. For example, writing. Writing is very redundant. You press some buttons or write some words, move to the page, repeat. However, the fact that I can write about anything I want and in any fashion I want makes me enjoy writing. If someone told me that I had to write about a piece of gum every single day–and nothing more than this piece of gum–then I will move on to something else. Socially, I carry this same attitude. I enjoy socializing with people who can discuss a large variety of subjects without bringing them back to the same point (“Let’s talk about TV followed by trucks” “Let’s talk about TV followed by trucks” “Let’s talk about trucks followed by trucks”). If I am stuck with a person who is incapable of expanding beyond a tiny range of topics, I will instantly become uninterested. In short, I bore easily. I don’t really have the patience to deal with anything/anyone that I cannot extract information or inspiration from. This topic reminds me of J.R.R. Tolkien’s quote: “I warn you, if you bore meI shall take my revenge.” Just replace “revenge” with “leave” and this quote becomes extremely true for me…because I will literally leave anything that is too tiresome for me. (Let us classify this one under both ADD and INTJ problems)

☆彡 I am determined to tackle two recipes this week: Che Chuoi (sweet soup composed of banana, tapioca pearls, and coconut milk) and Goi Cuon (Vietnamese cold spring rolls) with peanut sauce. I am a complete klutz when it comes to Asian recipes, though, so I really have to do my best to not screw this up. I still have moments of silence for the sushi I tried to make last year.

★彡 Our ten year anniversary is in exactly one week, and Mark’s birthday is three days after….and I have no idea what to do.

Yikes

Well, I know I’m taking Mark to see G.I. Joe: Retaliation. That’s a definite. Other than that, I don’t know. I guess we can chill and eat steak and watch movies or something. LOL. It worries me how indifferent we are sometimes…but then we become indifferent about being indifferent, so…

☆彡 (1)Atlas Shrugged is a fictional book. Any person using it as some type of tool to solve real world problems is silly. (2)Ayn Rand was not perfect and neither was Atlas Shrugged. Being a fan of Ayn Rand and/or Atlas Shrugged is not a declaration of their perfection. (3)Many Atlas Shrugged fans were fans of the book before it became some type of right-wing manifesto or before they knew it became some type of right-wing manifesto. Basically, enjoying Atlas Shrugged =/= conservative right-wing affiliation. (4)Believe it or not, it is possible to read a book and not agree with the actions or mentality of the characters. If one reads Darkly Dreaming Dexter, is (s)he supporting murder to rid society of dangerous individuals? If one reads A Game of Thrones, is (s)he supporting the use of deception, sex, and violence to gain power? I don’t agree with many of the characters in this book, and I didn’t finish the book with a: “Wow, I must use this book to shape my own life” mentality. It’s just a story. It’s about people I don’t relate to in a society that doesn’t exist with conflicts I may never have to face. It’s very different from my world. That is what makes it interesting. What I mean to say is that I like books that make me think, and Atlas Shrugged makes me think. I have learned that digging into the personal life of an author/artist is not always a good idea. It adds filters that should not be used when viewing a story for what it is–just as story.

★彡 I’m either going to replay Twilight Princess or Tales of Symphonia this weekend. More than likely, Tales of Symphonia. I have yet to play the sequel, so maybe this replay will be a good way to segue into it.

☆彡 Costco is selling that Samsung Galaxy Note for $100 less than other places. Now I just need to pull $400 out of nowhere to get it!

★彡 Link and I have a mutual need to annoy the hell out of one another. I don’t expect anyone to understand our relationship, but after a long day of provoking we get as affectionate as a detached person like me can get with a detached animal like a cat, and that means a lot to me. I love my furry buddy. TT____TT

☆彡 Mark and I found a book on how to be a pimp in the self-help section of Barnes and Noble. That was great.

Alright, I’m out of things to add.

I can’t wait until tomorrow. I get to finish the second season of Game of Thrones, finally! There are some other good things happening tomorrow, too, so I am pretty excited. I should probably calm my tits though. Getting overly excited about things makes me way to antsy before the actual exciting event happens. 😄

I’ll end this entry with more Tuvok because I never get tired of his sassy expressions.

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061: Dragon God

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☆彡 Damn, Stein.

★彡 I began playing Radical Dreamers yesterday. It is definitely an interesting game, and I was more than happy to run into some Chrono Cross characters. Everyone was pretty much the same except for Serge. Then again, Chrono Cross never really delved into what Serge’s personality and thoughts were like. For all I know he could be just like the Serge in Radical Dreamers. Probably not as clumsy though. Nonetheless, I am really liking this game. Thanks again, SNESbox.com!

☆彡 Pet Peeve #902: Sycophancy/brown-nosing/flattery.

★彡 I did some updates to both my domain and the Mythos website yesterday. Actually, I updated them a few days prior but freehostia was going through some technical issues and those updates I made just vanished. So, I had to do them all over again yesterday. LOL. Anyway, I’m kind of working on other website plans including a website for my anachronism story (now under the working title of “Temporal”) and then another website dedicated to time travelers. Right now, these are the time travelers that I want to include in the shrine: Link, The Doctor, Captain Kirk, Captain Picard, Captain Sisko, Captain Janeway, Spock, Chrono, Serge, Donnie Darko, Akemi Homura, Serah Farron, Mokoto Konno, Trunks, Bill & Ted (yes), Philip J. Fry, Dr. Emmett Brown, Ash (Army of Darkness not Pokemon…unless Pokemon!Ash time traveled then sure), the Mirai Sentai Timeranger team, Sailor Pluto, Dr. Sam Beckett,  and a few more.

☆彡 Yay, thunderstorm! (I’m not being sarcastic. I love thunderstorms. Even if it screws up my internet connection.)

★彡 I’ve been drawing with pens and markers a lot lately. I am getting tired of pencils, I guess. If my tablet worked, I definitely would work on some digital art right now. *sigh* So is the way of things. When I am interested, they are not there. When I am not interested, I can’t get them out of my sight.

☆彡 This is a week of meetings. I hate meetings, but if it leads to more income and an easier life for us then I can’t say no.  One major thing I am hoping to get out of this meeting is a chance to work second shift. It will be 3 p.m. to midnight. Do you know how awesome that is? I will only have to wake up early on Saturday to do a typical 9-5 shit, but I would get Sunday and Monday off. I don’t care too much for Sunday, but Monday off would be great. I always wanted a job that (a)didn’t involve waking up early, and (b)allowed me to have at least one weekday off so I can shop when everyone is at work or school. In short, if I say the right things to the right people then things will be much better for me.

★彡 In honor of this year being the year of snake, I am watching Conan the Barbarian. It’s the best I can do because I don’t fuck with snakes (the reptiles, not the people born under that year). Also, let’s not forget Thulsa Doom’s luxurious hair and “Gurl bye” look.

Ugh. Fierce as hale.

☆彡 Geralt going through a The Hangover type situation was hilarious. Spoiler: He got wasted, had a naked lady with a sword tattooed on the side of his neck (as a means of joining a guild he didn’t want to join when he was sober), hired some prostitutes with members of said guild, and tried to turn them into rafts so they could cross a river on them. It was hilarious. Especially when Triss couldn’t even make it through an explanation of the herbs needed to remove the tattoo because she was laughing so hard at him.

★彡 I don’t get the appeal of naked infants in costumes. Seriously, walking into a room and seeing a giant poster of a naked baby in a cowboy hat makes me uncomfortable.

☆彡 You dislike me. The sky splits open, and sucks up everything that is dear to me. “Why?” I weep as I fall to my knees. “Why must you take away my only purpose of living–being liked by you and others? Now I am nothing.” Slowly, I begin to evaporate. Once I disappear, millions of puppies and kittens rain from the sky. Everyone rejoices. A stranger pats you on the back and says, “Way to go. You saved the world because you disliked her. Good job.” You smile triumphantly. You are going places.

★彡 I found a way to work on a comic book without starting a new project or straying away from current projects. I am going to (1)write a side story about each character in Mythos–from the point of view of that character–before (2)turning those side stories into comic. I am teaching myself to stop jumping into comics without finishing the plot because I always end up working on a comic for days, running out of ideas, and then trashing all of that hard work. It sucks.

☆彡 I’d like to master at least one instrument in my lifetime…preferably the oboe, violin, piano, or ocarina.

★彡 Random Conversation:

Mark: “Oh, shit. Tomorrow’s Valentine’s Day.”
Me: “Yeah, you’re right. Oh, well. I didn’t get you shit.”
Mark: “I didn’t get you shit either.”
Me: “Awesome.”

If it isn’t obvious enough, Mark and I don’t care about Valentine’s Day. It’s not Halloween, so it’s not important.

☆彡 I am indifferent to the announcement of new XBox and PlayStation consoles. My sentiments may change when E3 rolls around, but all I’m hearing right now are rumors and seeing badly photoshopped pictures. I can’t do anything with that. Also, I don’t become interested in consoles for their features. Not too much anyway. I gravitate towards a console based on their game selection. What’s the point in paying almost $500 for a console that I can’t do anything with. Furthermore, consoles are always riddled with bugs when they come out. I’d rather wait until they fix them and start shipping them in neat bundles. Patience, patience, patience.

Kind of blah today. My stomach hurts. *sigh* I’ll get some tea and see how that goes.

060: Mice on Venus

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☆彡 Wait… Geralt is on the cover of Game Informer? And he has a beard?

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Geralt, you’re ruining my life. Stahp.

★彡 Speaking of The Witcher, I am slowly but surely sucking less in The Witcher 2: Assassins of Kings. My problem is that I have fallen in that trap of constantly rushing through things out of some false notion that I am busy. I am not busy. Constantly occupied, maybe, but not busy. There is no reason why I can’t sit through a game like The Witcher 2, and thoroughly enjoy it. I just started to take advantage of alchemy and traps after all this time that I’ve been playing. I really need to chill when it comes to this game. You know, take my time and not try to rush through it. The approach I take in other RPGs will not fly in this game. That’s for sure. I’ve had my ass handed to me so many times, I can’t even bother to count.

☆彡 I haven’t played Final Fantasy XIII-2 lately. I want to, but…those damn gravitons cores. I hate searching missions. It feels like busy work.

★彡 I did finally manage to get Javik to join my party in Mass Effect 3. He’s…interesting. By the way, he doesn’t sound Jamaican to me. His accent actually sounds very similar to Nigerians that I have spoken to. Either way, it’s cool. He made me laugh really hard when Liara said that she wrote about Protheans in several journals and he responded with something along the lines of, “Asaris can write now?”. Then there is the scene when he called Salerians lizards and she corrected him with the term ‘amphibians’ before he told her in the calmest tone, “They used to eat flies”. Then she just stares at him for a long time and exits the rooms. LOL. Poor bb. I know she was so excited to meet him, but Javik is having exactly none of anyone’s shit today. Not even mine. We’ll just have to see how he settles in as the game progresses.

☆彡 Please don’t look at or poke or mention my cheekbones.

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★彡 I can’t watch The Jerk just once. As soon as the movie is over, I have to play it again. My record is four times. Yes, I watched this movie for almost eight hours. Think about that, and think about how great it is to not live with me. Also, I do the same thing with Garden State…and Amadeus…and Donnie Darko.

☆彡 Speaking of Amadeus, Mozart wrote his first opera when he was twelve–TWELVE. I am 25, and I can’t even finish one comic book. Like…how do I even? I don’t know anymore. *evaporates* I guess it is just like a quote I saw: perfectionist = procrastinator. What is the point in making an effort with anything if I can’t do it perfectly or even almost perfectly? That is my mentality sometimes…too many times.

★彡 Link does not get along with his tail. It’s both strange and funny. The thing that usually causes a fight to break out is his tail slapping him in the face while he’s sleeping. He likes to sleep in a ‘C’ shape sometimes, and that is when the tail-slapping session almost always starts. Then he bites his tail. Then he chases it. Then he falls off the bed while chasing it–which pisses him off. Then he jumps around in this sideways motion trying to grab it. Once more, strange and funny. Definitely amusing.

☆彡 I only want three things this month: Hyrule Historia, the complete box set of Kaizoku Sentai Gokaiger, and strawberry cheesecake. Please.

★彡 The main character of a story I am writing is basically a serial killer. Well…not basically. He is a serial killer by definition, yet he is not the villain in the story. Therefore, I have to do a lot to make him likable and even relatable. It’s not easy. Of course, Dexter is pretty likable and relatable, but that’s Dexter. He’s not so much an assassin, but a vigilante gone wrong. *sigh* Definitely tough…

☆彡 I hate break-ups. I think one of the worst moments I’ve had in the past few months was when I found out Danny DeVito and Rhea Perlman broke up. It just left a bad feeling at the pit of my stomach. All break-ups do that.

★彡 I wonder if character developers ever think about how crazy it is to create a person. It’s a person! No, (s)he may not be there right in front of you, but you gave someone a name, a purpose, friends, family, enemies, and even a collection of personal issues to solve. It’s amazing! Someone once said to me: “I don’t get how authors like J.K. Rowling get emotional over characters she created and decided to kill,” and my first response was:

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Is this a serious question or…? Really, if you kill a character of yours and you don’t feel anything at all, even some type of sadistic satisfaction, then you are doing it wrong.

☆彡 I don’t get people who call me and ask: “Who is this?” Shouldn’t I be asking you that? LOL

★彡 Pet Peeve #22:  “Can I sit with you?” …Why? There’s like 100 other seats. I’d understand if the seat next to me was one of the last seats left, but I don’t understand wanting to sit next to a complete stranger when you have countless other places to sit.

☆彡 I still haven’t seen Go-Busters yet. It’s not some anti-Go-Busters thing…which seems to be happening a lot…I just never never really got around to it.

★彡 I’m dreading that last Berserk movie because most of the reviews I’ve read said that it was great but extremely brutal and disturbing. I believe it. The movies compared to the anime are…wow. If a child ever walked in during one of those movies, I would freak the hell out and ban them from whatever room the movie is playing it. It can get that bad at times. The scene with Griffith and Charlotte alone was more like a porn than an actual “love scene” in a movie. It was pretty graphic. I can’t imagine watching the Eclipse knowing just how far this movie can go in terms of details and content. It even received the Japanese equivalent of the NC-17 rating. I…just wow. I definitely can’t watch this movie with Mark now. I know for a fact I will cry, and he makes a big deal every time I do. So, I’d rather not. I will be watching that shit alone…then handling the definite depression that will follow alone. The things I do for my fandoms. *sigh*

I have nothing witty to add, so I’m just going to fly away. *flys away*

052: Wet Hands

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[ I will go down with this ship. ]

☆彡 This is the first post of 2013…because that matters.

★彡 Mark and I celebrated New Year’s Eve with pasta, keg-style root beer, and an It’s Always Sunny in Philadelphia marathon. Then we counted down before playing Minecraft until stupid hours. Good start!

☆彡 In 2013, the only thing I want to do is enjoy myself. After all, every resolution I worked hard for in the past ended up stolen, destroyed, broken, or ruined in 2012. So, I am done with building happiness on temporary foundations like money, careers, materials, etc. From now on, I will be entirely opportunistic when it comes to my happiness. Even if I must watch paint dry for ten hours, I will use that as an opportunity to let my imagination run wild and really enjoy myself. Another good start! *high fives self*

★彡 I’m currently in a competition with Mark to get to 10,000 gamer points. Never mind the fact that he has an almost 2,000 point lead. I have more games to play. We’ll see how this goes. 😄

☆彡 How I survived today on one hour of sleep is beyond me, but I’m not even tired right now and I’m doing things better than usual. Someone explain this to me in scientifics. I need to completely grasp this phenomenon.

★彡 This kitten followed Mark today, and we were THIS close to keeping it. He was so cute, small, friendly, and warm. We ended up not keeping him because (a)there is a chip in him that says he belongs to someone else (his name is Yoda BTW), and (b)Link is a dick. He kept hissing at him…as he does at anything that is remotely feline. Humans? No problem. Dogs? No problem. Other cats? Never. He’s such an ass sometimes.

☆彡 Debt sucks. I don’t like debt. I need debt to be completely removed from my life so my money is actually my money…and not “oh wait can’t touch that it belongs to debt” money. Curse the choices made during my reckless youth as well as the choices that weren’t careless but terribly expensive! Gotta get that worked out, son!

★彡 “Kiss From A Rose” is a perfect song though.

☆彡 Two animes I need to complete: Neon Genesis Evangelion and Nadia: Secret of Blue Water.

★彡 I am not against people having their own opinions, but why do you have to express at me or near me? I really don’t care how much you disagree with this thing I agree with or how much you dislike this thing that I like. Go bitch about it to your blog, diary, or people who give a shit. You’re not going to change my mind. I’m not going to change yours. So, why the fuck are you bitching about it? Shit, people get on fucking nerves sometimes. Most of the time. All of the damn time.

☆彡 In the past, I was pretty indifferent to XBox Live, but after this free trial ends I’m not entirely sure how I’ll feel. Mostly sad.

…That went from upbeat to crappy really fast. I’m probably just tired. I should sleep. 😐

P.S. Edited that script I wrote for Nanowrimo. It still needs more work. Less rambling in the dialogue, more plot-relative things.

Happy Holidays!

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* F A B U L O U S *

… Happy holidays and all that good shit.

 

050: Some Nights

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☆彡 I love Frodo’s “I don’t?” reaction. In other news, Elijah Wood never ages. I call sorcery.

★彡 50th entry! *tosses confetti all around* Actually, it’s not really my 50th entry. Thanks to all the unnumbered and private entries, I have around 70-80 entries altogether. Still, it’s a random blog-related landmark. I’ll probably post something special…which, on the internet, usually means I’ll finally post a drawing.

☆彡 As happy as I am to finally learn SQL, I was hoping to learn it at my own pace, and with less pressure. I guess we can’t always get what we want, can we?

★彡 I’ve been trying to download Skyrim since Monday. It is now Wednesday night, and Skyrim is at exactly 50%. I will be lucky if I can get it to 60% by midnight. *sigh* I’m not liking this at all. One, the 360 won’t allow me to play games or watch movies while the download is happening…which sucks. I haven’t played or watched much because of it. Two, I was hoping to spend the entire weekend under a blanket, playing Skyrim, and not sitting around for the game to download. WHY?!

☆彡 My biggest gripe with winter: dryness. My skin is always ashy, and my scalp is as dry as sand regardless of what I do. So, that means I am constantly putting on lotion, and constantly washing my hair. Pain in the ass. I know six months from now I’ll be begging for winter again, but I’m not pleased with it right now.

★彡 It doesn’t matter how bad my day is, “Temple of the Drifting Sands” will change that.

☆彡 Throwing a tantrum is not a sign of strength. If a newborn baby can exit the womb, and immediately scream out of anger/fear then what makes you think an adult who screams whenever (s)he is angry or afraid is strong? It takes nothing to act that way. To consider that type of behavior “courageous” is an insult to the term. True strength will always come from mastering yourself. When you learn to master your own weaknesses, and use that ability to help yourself and others through difficult challenges, then you have the right to call yourself strong or courageous. Otherwise, you can continue yelling at people every ten seconds because you have the emotional intelligence of a toddler. I need no lessons on emotions from you.

★彡 I want Versus XIII just as badly as the next FF fan, but it is annoying having to listen to the “Oh, you can make an update for (random Square Enix game) but not Versus” rant with each SE-related news. I haven’t given up or anything, but all three Mass Effect games came out during the time I was waiting for Versus. That says a lot. It’s time to just…leave it alone, and let SE handle it.

Also, can we take a moment to acknowledge that Lightning is fantabulous in this picture? Wow, she is pretty much replacing every FF heroine I like at this point. I don’t even know why. I just adore her. *____*

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☆彡 Dennou Coil has been in the top ten range of my “animes to watch” list for a very long time. Why haven’t I watched it yet? I’ve listened to the soundtrack…tirelessly…yet I haven’t watched the anime. Typical. -_-

★彡 When I don’t draw for a long time, drawing again becomes really unfamiliar to me. Eventually, I do pick up on old patterns again, but it is still a strange feeling. More disheartening than strange. I sometimes think if I go without drawing long enough, it is possible for me to forget completely.

☆彡 I have a neighbor who just has the WORST timing. When I’m on time, she is nowhere to be seen. When I’m running late, she will pop out of nowhere to start talking about random things. She’s nice, and I feel bad for always being in a rush when we speak, but come on. *sigh* I guess I should stop being antisocial, and maybe offer an opportunity where she can talk to me as much as she wants to. Wait…what am I saying? What’s happening to me? D:

★彡 With each passing day, I ponder the purpose in pursuing beauty. It looks less and less like something that is relative to me, and more and more like a obsolete step in the human mating ritual. Well, not universally obsolete. Of course not. But for someone who has no desire to mate and has already found a mate, beauty looks more like a hobby and less like a necessity. It’s…something I’ll do when I’m bored enough, or when money is so abundant that I can’t think of anything else to put it towards. Otherwise, no. Not really. Maybe in the future I’ll be more drawn to it.

☆彡 Eva Amurri looks like a clone of her mother (Susan Sarandon). It scares me sometimes when I see her in movies.

★彡 I miss having an entire week and a half off around this time of year. Now I only have one day off next week, and another one day off the week after. The upside is money. Money is nice. The downside is being at work…mostly doing nothing because all of our clients have like a week and a half off. Balderdash!

…I don’t know what else to add. I need to go wash my hair. -.-

 

EDIT:

Skyrim finished downloading~!

Yes~!

Of course, it finished right at my bed time, but yeah…it’s done…and I’ll have to enjoy it tomorrow. :’)

047: Dawn Breaks Like A Bull Through The Hall

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★彡 I SAW AND HEARD DARK SOULS II THINGS AND WTF I AM SHAKING AND CRYING TEARS OF HAPPINESS AND MY BODY WASN’T READY FOR THIS YET FUUUUUUUCK.

☆彡 Tomorrow, I see Silent Hill: Revelations and The Man With The Iron Fists. Yet another thing to be excited about. 😀

★彡 Somehow, one sick day turned into a four-day weekend. I’m not happy about that at all. Thursday was understandable. I had a 100 degree fever, back-to-back migraines, and nausea so bad that I don’t know how in the world I didn’t throw up that day. Friday though…Okay, I’ll admit, I wasn’t 100%. I still had a fever, but it was only 99. I was fine enough to do work. I resent being sent home to just sit in bed, and wallow over the money I’m not making. I’m not angry at my boss at all. She was only looking out for me and everyone else (which is what I like about her) but I’m just…frustrated. Christmas is right around the corner. I can’t afford to have  two days off like that. I don’t know what I’m rambling about. I should be grateful. I did have a great day with Mark since he was off on Friday. Hell, he’s even going to be off on Sunday too. So, I can smile about that, right? 🙂

☆彡 Thanks to the two days off mentioned, I finally finished Deep Space Nine. The last moment of the show where Jake is watching the wormhole with Kira beside him–UGH RIGHT IN THE FEELS. I’ve already moved on to Voyager, and I must say that I really like Captain Kathryn Janeway. Actually, there isn’t a ST captain that I don’t adore. They’re all so wonderful. ❤

★彡 Getting this Dark Knight trilogy was a flawless choice. I’ve been watching the movies on loop since I got them. It’s so much better watching the entire thing from start to finish in one sitting. It leaves the details nice and crisp.

☆彡 I thought my obsession with Morning Glory stationery ended in my adolescence. It didn’t.

★彡 Netflix has all these Disney movies now thanks to a deal they made. I’m starting with The Fox and The Hound (which I’ve never seen) before I move on to The Aristocats (never finished it, but saw most of it), Alice in Wonderland, and then Pocahontas. The Nightmare Before Christmas is another possibility too. It’s all going to be very nostalgic indeed.

☆彡 If everyone has a purpose in life, I believe mine is storytelling. Whether it’s drawing or writing stories, I enjoy telling them. There is a feeling I can’t quite explain when I create a story, and someone tells me: “What happens next? Please work on it! I need to know the rest!” It’s not really pride. It’s…I don’t know. The closest feeling to it is when someone gives you an important task to complete, and you not only complete it, you go beyond their expectations. It’s that happiness with yourself and your abilities. There really is nothing like it.

★彡 I don’t have a New Year’s resolution list to share this year. Instead, I have a “Shit You Should Have Done Like Five Years Ago and It’s Really Pathetic That It’s Taking This Long” list. I don’t feel like posting it.

☆彡 Random Conversation:

Mark: “Doesn’t my character look like Geralt?”

Me: “Yes. Now I want to touch his butt.”

Mark: “What?”

Me: “What?”

(On a serious note, Geralt has a nice butt and everything else. Permission to post Geralt? For me? Why, you shouldn’t have! )

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★彡 Tina Turner singing “Goldeneye”. Perfection.

*sigh* Six hours away from Mark getting home, enjoying dinner, and watching Sword Art Online. I’m so impatient right now. -__-

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