097: Stand By Me

Just Frank Castle things.

✪ Personal Life ✪

  • Geez… Where the fuck do I begin?
  • Everything is Lunafreya right now and you’re damn right I’m going to fangirl about FFXV in a minute.
  • February was definitely a great month. I got to meet my new nephew Jaden, hang out with Ash, Tiffa, and Mark, and finally get my hands on a Wii U!
    • Jaden – He’s such a cutie pie ♥♥♥! Why are my nephews and niece so precious? I don’t deserve them. 😥
    • Hangout – So, Ash came down from NC to visit a bunch of her ATL friends, including me, Tiffa, and Mark, and we had a blast with her. I can’t remember the last time I laughed as much as I did that day. We were just being a bunch of goofs together. LOL. All in all, it was great–great friends, great conversations, great places, great food. I can’t wait to do it again. This time we will actually put some effort into planning because Mark almost led us to our deaths. Bad Mark.
    • Wii U – This belongs in the gaming section. Still, it is probably the best Valentine’s Day gifts I ever received.
  • Mark and I found a new hobby that is guaranteed to concern the people we know. There is a shooting range right down the street from our place, and we’ve become obsessed with… well… shooting shit. My only complaint is that it’s loud as hell. And the kickback will knock your fucking teeth out if you don’t keep control. Otherwise, it’s a blast (no pun intended). The great thing is that I’m surprisingly decent at it. I mean, my eyesight is garbage so I was sure I would miss my target, but I ended up getting mostly headshots at 50 feet distance. According to Mark that is good. At least I know I’ll survive somewhat in the zombie apocalypse, right? LOL. I don’t know. He’s the military kid, so he’s been my mentor on all things gun related. Anyway, it’s fun. GREAT stress relief. That is a definite!
  • I got a chance to work remote and it was like winning the lottery for a day. LOL. I don’t even care about raises or promotions anymore. I just want to eventually get permission to work from home everyday. That is my dream job right there. And since I love the work I do my career will be 100% enjoyable for me. No more waking up at 3am, no more driving in traffic, no more spending my lunch playing taxi–none of that shit there. Just me, my music, my laptop, and my pajamas. Fuck. Yes. I want it now. ლ(╹◡╹ლ)
  • I’m ashamed of some of the things I find hysterical. For example, every time I hear/read, “Swiggity swooty, I’m coming for that booty,” I giggle like an idiot. Then the other day Mark and I were trying to decide on dinner and he googled “good food”. Dude, I was crying. Like… what was he hoping to accomplish with that vague-ass search? I’m done (╥ □ ╥)! Now I’m giggling because while watching Daredevil Mark said that since Matt is blind he probably hits on girls by saying, “Hey, girl, let me hear them titties,” and… *siiiigh* My sense of humor is in ruins. Don’t look at me.
  • I got new glasses after seven years or so, and it is so fucking weird. I didn’t know real life was this crisp.
  • Link is temporarily annoyed with me because a cat outside was following Mark and me and climbing our shoulders, and he watched all of this from the window with a pissed expression. So… Yeah… We feel like two-timing whores now. Sorry, Link. 😦
  • I don’t know what else to add in this section. I’m feeling OK. I’m working on improving certain areas of my life. I guess that is it then. Moving onwards~

 

✪ Art & Writing ✪

  • I can always tell when I’m in a good place art-wise because my art supplies will move from my desk to everywhere else. It also doesn’t help at all that every time I get a little extra cash I just add to that shit like I have all the space in the world. In my defense, I always said as a child that when I become an adult and have money I would buy all the art supplies I want. So, I’m sure the young Kerri in me is cartwheeling around in excitement. Anyway, I’m not complaining. I do need to be more organized, yes, but I’m as happy as pig in shit over here. I want to draw forever. ♥
  • Writing is now working out smoothly because I decided to put all my writing-related things in one book. Brainstorm? One book. Drabbles? One book. Charts? One book. At times I’ll think, “Yadda-yadda would be a good idea”, and then I’ll just write in my book “Yadda-yadda is a good idea”. Often times right in the middle of doing something else, like shopping. LOL. I’m pretty much inseparable from that book. It’s like my brainstorm encyclopedia, and it makes things infinitely better. If you’re a writer you have to get a brainstorm book. It’s extremely awesome. Stick it in your purse with some pen(cil)s and never worry about forgetting a good idea again. 😀
  • By the way, if you order a sketchbook online and it says “MASSIVE, HUGE” then believe it… because I ordered one thinking, “please no sketchbook is too big for me” and this one is ridiculous. In terms of length  and width it’s not bad. Maybe 11 x 12-ish. But it has like 600 pages, its the size of an encyclopedia, and there is no way I’m carrying that almost 20 lb. tome of a sketchbook outside of this place. So. Yeah. I have so many pages that at this point I’m just sketching any random shit that comes to mind. LOL

✪ Anime & Manga ✪

  • It only took me an eternity, but I finally managed to watch all of Fushigi Yuugi including that horrible sequel. Yay! At first I was disappointed that Miaka was gravitating towards Tamahome instead of Hotohori, but eventually I stopped fighting it and accepted the obvious reality that they are one of the most adorable couples ever created. I also wanted nothing but the best for Yui too because even though she was so pigheaded at times she was never a bad person. Ah… I love it. I’ll always have a soft spot for shoujo anything. They make me feel so warm and fluffy inside. (。´ ‿`♡)
  • Completely in love with Kabaneri of the Iron Fortress and JoJo’s Bizarre Adventure: Diamond is Unbreakable.
  • Of course I caught the FFXV: Brotherhood anime. It’s decent so far. I just wonder how long it’s going to take to release all of the episodes. ARGH IMPATIENCE.
  • I am completely in love with Hunter x Hunter. I’m so glad that I finally finished it. Now I feel kinda hollow because I was immersed in this world for weeks and now it’s just… done. I hate when that happens. LOL. I’m already looking into collecting the mangas so maybe that will help.
  • New Berserk anime! *backflips through a wall* Yaaas, I need more! I’m already hyped as shit because they finally made it to Elfheim, so… yeah. Let’s get this series done in my lifetime please. >_<
  • The new Sailor Moon Crystal looks so much better. Also, Michiru! My queen!
  • Broke down and purchased the Oyasumi Punpun and Gunslinger Girl omnibuses. Totally worth it. Now my heart can break all over again. Yay!
  • What the hell is even Sekkou Boys? (╥ □ ╥)
  • I guess Turn-A-Gundam is no longer in copyright jail because they’re actually selling the DVDs in stores now. I damn near screamed when I saw the first part of the set at MovieStop. Silly gundam moustache and all, I absolutely love this series. Loran is definitely my favorite Gundam pilot of all times. He is so adorable. I can’t stand it. Also, Yoko Kanno doing the music is just… *deep breath*… Get away from me if you hate this series. I don’t need that negativity in my life.
  • Geez, what else? The Lost Village is creepy as fuck and I have no idea what is going on. Finished Ace of Diamond and I really want Chris Yuu’s eyebrows. Slam Dunk is my shit now. Sakamoto is funny as hell. My Hero Academia is so nice! Ah, so much anime to talk about. Maybe another time.

I know I’m forgetting something but it’s been a few months. I’m trying. -_-

✪ Video Games ✪

  • Ah, yes. The Wii U. It kind of came to me unexpectedly. Sure, I was planning to get it eventually, but one day Mark was just like “surprise,” and then I had a Wii U. He already got me Hyrule Warriors before I got it, so I had that to play (ADDICTIVE). It came with Mario Kart 8 (FUN). The moment Twilight Princess came out I got that (GLORIOUS). Eventually, I did get Xenoblade Chronicles, even after the whole Amazon crap I had to deal with to get it (LONG STORY BUT WHATEVER THIS GAME IS RPG ROYALTY), and that was well worth all the headache. I have zero complaints. I love it. The gamepad is ridiculously nifty and feels more like another handheld console at times. I don’t know what else to say. I’m completely in love with it. I am beyond fortunate. Thank you, life, for not always shitting on me! \(^O^)/
  • GET READY FOR SOME FFXV FANGIRLING.
  • First of all, I watched that FFXV Uncovered video from start to finish, and even though it was cheesy at times I was hyped as fuck. I’ve accepted my badge as a Square-Enix bitch ages ago. I can’t help it anymore. Needless to say, they are going above and beyond with this one. And they better. They’ve been working on this game for over a decade now. I was still in high school when they announced it, and back then it was FF Versus XIII or whatever. The wait is finally over, guys. I can’t believe it. Come September 30th FFXV will actually be here! Well… it might come a little later for me. I preordered the deluxe edition (the ultimate edition practically vanished) with overnight shipping, so if I’m lucky I’ll get on the first of October. If not, then it will probably show up the following Monday. Tuesday the absolute latest before I lose my shit. LOL. Either way, I’m ecstatic. I love the idea of an anime, a movie, another demo, and even all the other ridiculous things like an actual car that no one can buy. I’m indifferent to the mobile game, but I’ll try it out once I get a phone that doesn’t give me an insufficient storage warning every time I try to download something. I mean… Fuck. I don’t know what else to say. The moment I heard Florence and the Machine singing her version of “Stand By Me” (Yes!) FOR this game my eyes started to water. I couldn’t help it. It’s like someone just took all of my favorite things, put them in a box, dumped it in front of me, and said, “Enjoy it in six months, bitch”. It’s like… that feeling you get as a kid when someone told you that you were going to Disneyworld. When I realize this thing I’ve been waiting over ten years to experience is only months away I just want to celebrate, regardless of the possibility that it might be straight up dick. I don’t even know what I’m saying. I’m just excited and sappy and relieved and hopeful. That’s about it. I can’t wait!!!  ʘ‿ʘ
  • Oh, and you can bet your ass that I played that demo. The gameplay felt a lot like Kingdom Hearts tbh. Which is not a complaint at all. It’s so enjoyable that I’m already thinking of playing it again. Plus Carbuncle and bb Noctis are so adorable! I want an esper/eidolon/GF/summon/etc. to talk to me via text messages. 😮 And of course I’m so uncreative that when I was asked to name Carbuncle I just named him Carbuncle. LOL. I don’t start giving people and things dumb names until the second playthrough at least. Dems the rules.
  • Can I talk about Sakaguchi showing up to the conference? I miss him. ;_;
  • New updates for Nier Automata too! Yes, I need moar!
  • Finally tackling that Hearts of Stone DLC for The Witcher 3. I’m loving it. I never get tired of Geralt. There could be an entire DLC with him watching paint dry and I’ll probably write a review saying, “A work of art. Fantastic gameplay. 10/10.”
  • I can’t sign on Steam anymore because the instant I login this person keeps IMing me to talk about Sailor Moon and its connection to the occult and I don’t know how to say “go away” without hurting his/her feelings. Why did I end up in this situation? Why is it the more antisocial I become, the more people keep talking me? Why? Why?

✪ Books ✪

  • Do comic books count? Because I’ve been reading through a lot of omnibuses lately, mostly Daredevil.
  • I did get the first eight books of The Wheel of Time series for like $10 and was set on reading it… but then I got distracted… and then Mark took that honor for me. LOL. He got through three books in like a week, so I have to hear nonstop about how awesome it is while simultaneously loathing myself for not getting past the second chapter of the first book. I just need one good week to focus 100% on my hobbies. (◞‸◟;)

✪ Music ✪

  • The Legend of Legacy OST is everything. Pianoschlacht Live is also pretty important to me. Bless Masashi Hamauzu. Kinda OT, but I found out recently that Masashi Hamauzu got his daughter to sing the vocals in “The Vestige” from the FFXIII OST. I just had to mention that because it is really neat and adorable at the same time.
  • BEYONCE DID IT AGAIN! >:U
  • My music life has been mostly Pandora. I really need to do something about my stations because I swear I have like twenty of them. It’s not really my fault though. How do you put instrumentals, trip hop, classic rock, alternative rock, hip hop, r&b, and several other genres in one station? Then there are some artists/bands that need their own station because I have a lot of moments where I only want to hear their music or music that sounds similar to theirs. I did put my movie, game, and anime soundtrack stations into one station called “writing & drawing*, but even now I’m thinking of breaking them into separate stations again because video game music is not like movie music, you know? *sigh* I’m hopeless.

✪ TV & Movies ✪

  • THIS NEW SEASON OF GAME OF THRONES IS REALLY GOOD SO FAR. WOW.
  • I don’t think I discussed The Force Awakens yet. I loved it! My biggest complaint is that there was not enough Captain Phasma, but I heard she was supposed to get more screen time in later episodes. GOOD. You can’t hire fierce queen Gwendoline Christie aka Brienne of Tarth to play a stormtrooper and not make her kick ass. Not allowed, JJ Abrams. e_e
  • Season two of Daredevil… Wow. Just wow. I loved every second of it. Sure, it has its flaws, but none were so troubling that I couldn’t enjoy it. Frank/The Punisher is amazing. Elektra is amazing. I still love Matt/Daredevil, Karen, and Foggy. I love that some of the characters from season one came back. It’s just so good. I can’t wait for Luke Cage and Iron First and The Defenders!
  • I think I mentioned watching The Sopranos before. That is all done, so now I just have to start The Wire. I know it is considered quite possibly the best show ever made, but every time I get the chance to watch it I end up falling asleep. Not because it’s boring but because I’m almost always tired. Then I spend my weekends playing games or watching weeb shit, so… yeah. It’s at the top of my watchlist. Finish The Wire before 2017 or kick myself in the chest. >_<
  • Spotlight is such a good movie, but it is so fucked up. So, so, so, so fucked up. It is disgusting how many suspected pedophiles are amongst priests alone. When you think about the population as a whole… It’s like this whole shit with Jared. It makes me legit irate. I’m just going to stop because this is going to turn into a long rant. I already feel it. Anyway, Spotlight it is wonderfully done in terms of acting and production, but the subject matter is definitely unsettling. There is my review.
  • The same kind of goes for Room. It is such a good movie, but the subject matter is saddening. I really love characters like Brie Larson’s “Ma” because she is the epitome of what a hero(ine) is. I cannot imagine the amount of courage and strength it takes to endure a situation like that, and still keep your child completely oblivious to how screwed up things actually are. It is definitely a tearjerker. I highly recommend it.
  • Saw Deadpool. Funny as hell, as expected. Not a perfect movie, but it is the perfect Deadpool movie. That is all that matters, right?
  • Saw Batman v Superman… and I don’t even know what to say. Outside of Ben Affleck playing a good Batman and Gal Gadot slaying as Wonder Woman the movie was balls. It was just plot holes galore, Jesse Eisenberg doing who knows what drug to play Lex Luthor (or supposedly Lex Luthor Jr. which is even dumber), disappointing character development, flop villains all around… I don’t even know. And they didn’t even have the decency to reward the audience for sitting through that with some after credits scenes. The disrespect. LOL. I mean, it wasn’t the worst movie ever made. It was just tolerable at best.

✪ Whatever Else/Closing ✪

I have so much to cover that I just kinda typed without worrying about typos or curbing my potty mouth… fingers. Anyway, sorry about all of that. I think it’s been like five months since my last entry. D:

Take care, ya’ll, especially with the ridiculous amount of pollen out there these days. If you’re going through the whole itchy eyes, stuffy nose, coughing mess I’m there with you. Be strong, sistrens and brethrens.

Sending everyone good vibrations. (っ- ‸ -)っ ~♥

 

“If You’re Reading This It’s Too Late”

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  • Look at this peaceful cat. He has zero stress, all of his bills are paid, he’s eating and drinking right, he found the meaning of life, he got a bonus at his cat job, etc. He also kind of reminds me of Jeff Bridges. I don’t know why.
  • Bioshock Infinite is free on Xbox 360 if you have gold. Spread the word ASAP.
  • I’m usually resistant to massive overhauls on websites (because I have the soul of a grumpy old lady when it comes to unexpected changes), but I love Grooveshark’s new layout a lot. I like the new Youtube app on XBox Live a lot too. It’s really clean~ I can’t wait for more clean updates on other websites~
  • I haven’t been in the loop of things lately, so I just found out today that Mirjana from ANTM was murdered. This is terrible news. She was a beautiful girl that was more than capable of achieving her dream to be a model. I hope her killers get punished thousands of times over for this. RIP Mirjana.
  • I decided to check out Birdman and Whiplash because the plots sounded interesting, and I’m glad that I did. Of the two I would have the say that Whiplash blew my mind the most. It really puts into perspective the importance of resilience. And even though I’m not gushing as much about Birdman that does not take away from it’s brilliance. I always love stories where the protagonist’s enemy is his/her own self. That’s probably why Amadeus and Donnie Darko ended up being my favorite movies. 😛
  • Honestly, if I had $400 right now to buy any console I wanted I would not know which one to get. Here are some things I am putting into consideration:
    • Playstation 4: I haven’t had a Sony console in many, many years, so I don’t want to keep dragging my foot until a PS5 comes along; however, it is the most expensive console out there, and I’m not sure it is 100% worth it (maybe 95%) when I look at the current game selection it has. I see myself playing Type-0, playing tons of PS classic games (XENOGEARS THO), but… that’s about it. The Witcher 3 will not come around ’til May or so. No one knows when FFXV will get here. No one knows when KH3 will get here. I’m not really interested in most of the FPS out right now (though Mark is). There is FFXIV but MMOs are a huge commitment to me. Also, those monthly fees? NOPE. I’m thinking I should get a cheaper console first then get a PS4 later in the year. I don’t know.
    • Wii U: Nintendo games are always fun… but outside of Zelda and Metroid games that is all that they are. A lot of fun. Little else. Still, they always have the best multiplayer games. I played Hyrule Warriors and that one was difficult to part with. The same goes for Mario Kart 8. I haven’t heard anything about recent Mario Party games, but I never get tired of those. I can see Mark and me having a shitload of fun times with those, especially now that he has left BAM. These are things I should definitely consider. I should also consider that new Zelda and Starfox games are coming out soon. So, a Wii U is not even optional anymore, is it? LOL. I refuse to be late when it comes to this new Zelda game. REFUSE.
    • New Nintendo 3DS x2: For $400 Mark and I can get two of the new Nintendo 3Ds consoles. That would provide us with a console that is both strong in the single and multiplayer department. Additionally, I did trade in my 3DS for Dragon Age: Inquisition a while ago (no regrets), and it’s about time to replace it. I have no handheld consoles right now. I also have my 3DS XL games still… so it’s kind of lame that I have no means of playing them outside of Mark’s 3DS. Then there’s Majora’s Mask. Then there’s Xenoblade Chronicles. Then there’s Alpha Sapphire. A lot of games to play without even mentioning all of the items in their shop.
    • Final Decision: None. I’m about to kick myself in the ass because in a matter of months I’ll have the funds to get one of these things, and yet I have no idea which one because I’m so indecisive. But it is better to dwell on it for weeks instead of buying a console (or consoles) that I will regret purchasing. Not regret as in a “this console sucks” way. It is more of a timing issue. If I have to wait another year or so to get another one then I should really choose a console that will have the most to offer. Either way, poor XBox 360. It’s likely going to end up in the living room, collecting dust with my Wii. LOL
  • Added three new books to my pile: “One Hundred Years of Solitude”, “Never Let me Go”, and “Murder on the Orient Express.” When I talk to other bookworms they’re always shocked that I haven’t read those books yet, so I’m going to start. Eventually :I. BTW, it’s time for another bookshelf. Looking forward to it. I’m going to organize the shit out of this apartment just in time for the whole Spring cleaning thing.

I’m going to end this with two of my favorite things: bibimbap and Link in a shirt. :OOOOOO

 

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Counterclockwise: bibimbap (this is the cold version compared to the hot pot version–or dolsot bibimbap, I believe), rice, kimchi, that red bottle is the sweet/spicy sauce you add to the dish, then miso soup, and then some vitamin water. All for around$7-8. If you’re not eating at Assi every once in a while then you are missing out. They always have great, authentic Asian meals with a lot of items to enjoy for half of what you would pay at other restaurants. If Assi is in your area you should give ’em a try. 🙂

 

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We never put clothes on Link, but when we saw this shirt at the thrift store for $2 we thought about how cute it would look on Link and we were right. It’s the cutest thing ever. The only downside is that he gets so angry about it that he’ll keep randomly biting us until we remove it. XDD

 

 

093: The Beast Is Back

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If we don’t greet each other like this then what’s the point.

I’m going to start using ‘Read More’ cuts on these entries because they can get pretty long at times. Like now.

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085: Deshi Basara

SEA GODDESS OF MY LIFE

FIERCE AND BEAUTIFUL SEA GODDESS OF MY LIFE

☆彡 I’m really excited about the new Sailor Moon anime. Sometimes I think about the fact that it’s four months away, and I get revved up with energy. I told Mark that if the anime is released on my birthday that we are not going out at all. I’m going to just countdown to the worldwide live stream, and then spend the rest of the day rewatching the same episode repeatedly until he despises anything Sailor Moon related. The thing I love most about this reboot is all the merchandise that it is bringing. If it is ever dubbed and released in America I can imagine seeing plenty of items in local stores, and that’s practically a guarantee that I will be poorer than I already am. I’m not even remotely sad about that. This is going to be great! I can’t wait to see how it all unfolds.

★彡 Wardrobe Goal: everything April Ludgate wears in Parks & Recreation. I would also like to adopt that intense yet lovely glare. Aubrey Plaza is precious.

☆彡 I beat Stick of Truth…in two days (*weeps*). I want to replay already. Oh well. Now I’m going through my pile of shame again. It has been more rewarding than I expected. Assassin’s Creed II is so fun that I spent most of my snow days playing it. I only stopped because I decided to tackle Fable 3. Now I am pretty much incapable of leaving it alone even after saving Albion. Again. I will likely move back to Assassin’s Creed II and then continue on to Gears of War. I’m not sure what happens after that. One day at a time, right? It’s not like going through my pile of shame is unpleasant. The only downside is picking up in places I left off months–sometimes years–ago and having no idea what the fuck is going on. I’m afraid to even return to Lost Odyssey because I don’t know where I was, where I’m supposed to go, who is suppose to learn what skill from which character, etc. Yeah, don’t end up like me. Please finish your games before moving on to others. Especially your RPGs. Those side quests will fuck you up.

★彡 I found some old stories that I was working on in 2010. It’s pretty exciting…by my standards. I’m already reviving one of them because I became obsessed with it again after reading the first page. I also found a sketchbook from 2008 that I did not tear any pages out of. It was extremely rewarding. I wish I left more sketchbooks untampered. Ah, well. I plan to revive this sketchbook too. Mark bought me some new colored pencils, markers, and this awesome Hello Kitty pencil case that comes with a built-in sharpener and eraser holder. INFINITE SHOUT OUTS TO MARK. I’m drawing a bunch of shit right now. They look ridiculous at times, but it’s fun.

☆彡 My favorite thing about Attack on Titan was Levi. And Levi. That is it. Just Levi.

★彡 It’s hard to leave Link alone because I know he still struggles with abandonment issues. There is not a day when I leave the house that I do not come home to find him waiting by the window. Although it is  tearful to think about, I often wonder how many of his past owners just left him waiting somewhere and never returned for him. I know the woman who helped us to adopt him was in tears when she begged us to never leave him or return him because he had a rough past. My baby… He tries so hard to be tough and hides away from us sometimes to be alone, but the moment we come home he just jumps around all over the place. I know there is a part of him that is always relieved to know that we actually returned to him. Ah, I love him so much! As much as it pains me to imagine his death, it pains me even more to imagine something unfortunate happening to us and knowing that he will sit by the window waiting for us only to learn that his waiting is fruitless. I hate the idea of that happening. Until the end of his days, I want to be there for him. That is my only goal as his caretaker. Whether he’s bored, hungry, in need of affection, or prepared to pass away I want him to feel that he can depend on me to be there for him. I really love my cat, okay?  TT___TT

☆彡 The new Game of Thrones season is a month away! I’m pretty excited. Did you see how big Drogon, Viserion, and Rhaegal were? And don’t even get me started on Dany. PERFECT KHALEESI OF MY SOUL. I got chills when she said, “They can live in my new world or they can die in their old one.” WIGS BEING SNATCHED! Okay, I’m done. LOL. Naturally, I am expecting some more changes from the book…some changes probably not for the best…but I have no complaints about the cast whatsoever. They do magic with whatever scripts they receive, so I am looking forward to that. Also, I’m relieved that they are adding Coldhands this season. At least I believe that was Coldhands in the trailer. Anyway, good year for TV, video games, music, and fandoms as a whole. …Except for The Witcher 3 being delayed. That pretty much blows. I’ll just have to get my silver-haired hero(ine) fix elsewhere. There is Daenerys, of course. There is Zero. Yeah, that sounds good.

★彡 To me, time and money spent doing something that makes you genuinely happy is not a waste at all. There are too many people on this planet who believe they know what is best for everyone they encounter when they have little to no credentials to make that decision. No one can know a person 100%. You can know someone for 20 years and still be unqualified in terms of making choices for him/her, so a few hours a day is definitely not enough. Some people don’t even have a few hours a day to observe someone–just a few minutes or seconds–and they still believe they have complete understanding of a person. You just have to accept that almost all the people who know you are ignorant to what you truly want out of life, and you also have to accept that as someone who is an expert on your own wants and needs you should should make your own choices. So, give yourself some credit. Do not allow others to tell you that you are not doing things properly in your own life. As long as you are not intentionally harming others, you are doing a good job at managing yourself. That is how I feel about that. Of course, you can completely disregard everything I said in this bullet because I do not know what is best for you. It is that easy. 😛

TL;DR Fuck the haters. Do your best, and take pride in your efforts.

☆彡 Beyonce’s new album is great, but to say that it is the best R&B album ever made is…a stretch. It was, to me, the best R&B album of 2013. Overall, though, I would have to say Michael Jackson’s “Thriller” followed by Lauryn Hill’s “The Miseducation of Lauryn Hill” and then Toni Braxton’s self-titled album. One of my personal favorites (though it’s probably not one of the bests to many people) is “Never Say Never” by Brandy. I didn’t even touch on Whitney House, Marvin Gaye, En Vogue, Mariah Carey, Aaliyah, and D’Angelo yet. So…yeah… I have infinite love for Beyonce’s album–and I was incredibly excited when it was suddenly release–but it’s just not “the best” or even in the Top 20 for the best R&B albums of all time. That’s kind of pushing it, brah. XD

★彡 I’m suspending my lessons in Japanese to work on German. I’m still practicing ASL though. If I had to break language lessons down by difficulty, it would be ASL, German, and then Japanese. ASL is easiest because it’s just learning to replace words with hand motions. No new vocabulary or grammar lessons needed. German is very much like English save for a brand new lexicon to memorize, and some random grammar changes here and there. Japanese is like…learning to speak from scratch. Everything is so different. So, it’s a little hasty to jump from English to Japanese. I know enough bright people who can pull it off (and some who have pulled it off), but I am nowhere near their level of skill. So…baby steps. My goal is to be fluent in those three languages by my 30th birthday. So, that’s a good four years to master that goal. We’ll see if my memory retention disappoints me. Again. LOL

☆彡 If I hear you playing Radiohead, Bjork, or The Smashing Pumpkins I will probably somersault through your window and ask you to tell me everything about your favorite albums. I’m sorry in advance. D:

★彡 I feel bad for anyone who labels me as sweet because they have no idea that I turn into Kainé on my bad days. Whoops. I’m sorry. The good thing is that I don’t go into violent potty mouth mode unless I am faced with the person who intentionally provoked me (OR if I’m dealing with someone who is so insignificant that they are not even worth a single word or second of eye contact from me then I will just ignore them until they finally catch a hint and fuck off). Everyone else will just get a stoic face, one-word replies, and an apology for my mood every other minute.

☆彡 This is my prediction of Wrestlemania XXX. Daniel Bryan is going to defeat Triple H. Naturally, it will not be easy. If Triple H does not cheat then he will just kick ass. Because he’s the goddamn Triple H. Either way, the main event will turn into Daniel Bryan VS Batista VS Randy Orton. I believe Batista will win that. Daniel Bryan will likely beat Randy Orton like it’s his job–again–but Triple H will be pissed about losing and take it out on Daniel Bryan. Batista will take advantage of that in order to win. Yep, I’m going to stick with that theory. I hope that WWE will surprise me with a different plot twist, but that seems to be the general flow of Daniel Bryan pay-per-view matches. As for Brock VS Undertaker…yeah, come on. The Undertaker is going to win. Brock Lesner is not popular enough with the WWE fanbase to do something like break 21-win streak, and not cause a giant rift between fan and company. So, he’s going to lose. Then there’s The Shield and The Wyatt Family. Hmm…that one is tough to predict. Both teams are strong, both teams are headliners, and both teams do not mind cheating in order to win. LOL. So, who knows? If The Wyatt Family happens to win then it could lead to The Shield being brainwashed in the same fashion that Kane and Daniel Bryan were (though it was temporary in Daniel’s case); however, Mark strongly disagrees with that prediction. And he has a point. We believe that The Wyatt Family, like The Shield, is a tool of the authority. We came to this conclusion when Bray Wyatt said “the devil made him do it” after jumping all of those people who pissed of Triple H and Stephanie McMahon. So, there really is no purpose in the authority pitting half of their attack dogs against the other half. Still, let’s not forget that The Shield did turn against Kane who is a loyal member of the authority now. Alright. Let’s just do this, I’m going to choose The Wyatt Family because (a) it will be more interesting and cause more controversy, and (b) as much as I love The Shield I love The Wyatt Family even more. I’m drawn to creepy things like crab-walking cult leaders with crazy awesome beards. LOL. We will see how wrong or right I am in April. I will likely ramble on againt about the results as I always do. I cannot help it. This soap opera-esque battle royale realness that WWE has is addicting for some reason. Save me. D:

Okay, I’m going to spend the rest of my weekend not thinking about Dark Souls 2 because I am poor, and probably will not play it for another couple of months. Parenthesis, crying face. There is still quality time I need to spend with my art supplies, Ezio, and this Pokemon marathon I am going through on Netflix thanks to Mark (Kind of OT: Remember when Sabrina’s father showed Ash a family photo that belong to Sabrina in order to hint that he was Sabrina’s father and Ash guessed that he was her photographer and Sabrina’s father was so alarmed by Ash’s stupidity that he literally flew off the bench they were sitting on? Yeah, I’ve been laughing about that for the last hour). He bought Pokemon Y a few days ago, so I never stop hearing about Pokemon. LOL. Now he’s harassing me every day to get Pokemon X. I’m not even kidding when I say he literally wakes up and asks me about getting Pokemon X. So, it’s not even a matter of if anymore but when. *sigh* I’ll do anything for my darling. It will be done. Plus, it’s not like I was not planning to get the game at some point. Why not now?

LET’S DO THIS. [ 3DS PLAYING INTENSIFIES ]

083: Christmas in the Silent Forest

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( Dinnertime at my house. )

☆彡 I cannot stop writing. Mythos has completely screwed up my sleeping schedule…whenever I actually get sleep…but I honestly don’t mind. It feels fantastic to be obsessed with a project again, especially a project that I’ve been working on since middle school. You would think I would just stop by now but nope. I love my characters too much. I love Telluria too much. The plot can change all it wants, but I’m not letting those two things go. Blah blah blah, I’m making good progress.

★彡Finally, I am playing Enslaved: Odyssey to the West, and it is a gem. It’s funny. I was picking the game up at Gamestop (It’s $7-8! Buy it! Play it! Listen to the soundtrack, mainly for “Cloud Surfing”!) and the guy at the counter immediately shouted: “THIS GAME IS AWESOME. IT IS SO UNDERRATED. I LOVE THIS GAME.” I feel you, Gamestop guy.

☆彡 Link found some new hobbies that include knocking the trash bin over in the middle of the night, chewing on my books, and gnawing his way into every food packet we hide from him. It’s like living with a 10-lb rat. Joy…

★彡 My favorite part of L.A. Noire is interrogating the fuck out of people. Don’t lie to me, nerd. I’m a video game protagonist. I always win. And if I lose I can restart and make myself win.

☆彡 Don’t talk to me about the season finale of Sons of Anarchy.

★彡 This has been a month of nonstop eargasm. Beyonce, the Drag-on Dragoon 3 soundtrack, and the Lightning Returns soundtrack. *somersaults into the sun*

☆彡 Mark got an early Christmas present: an all-black Nintendo 3DS XL and Fire Emblem: Awakening. He’s pretty much attached to it…which is the only reasonable reaction to have to a new game console tbh. LOL. I’m waiting for him to get Animal Crossing though. We are going to pretty much wage war on each other’s towns.  First, I spam his town bulletin with Spice Girls lyrics. >:D

★彡 Dude, I was watching Nutcracker (1986) and Drosselmeyer reminded me of Papa!Nier. A very creepy version of Nier, yes, but still.

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Edit: found a better picture of Nutcracker Nier.

Edit: Found a better picture of Nutcracker Nier.

☆彡 You can tell a lot about a person by how they treat those who serve them. Actually, put someone in a room with a person or animal who cannot defend himself/herself (whatever the cause of the limitation), and you will learn all you need to know about that person’s character.

★彡 I really, really, really want to replay Final Fantasy VIII, but I don’t feel like going through totes for my Playstation 2 and setting up the PS2 wires by tugging away the 360 and Wii wires that are already connected. First world problems. I know. I recently remembered that Steam existed, so I’m probably going to go through Steam and just play it online. Why not? I’d pay $10 bucks to play FFVIII whilst avoiding the wiring bullshit.

☆彡 I love buying someone an awesome gift and getting excited over their excitement. Aside from the decorations, that’s the only reason I give a shit about the holidays.

★彡 Princess AJ Lee said that she hit Brie Bella so hard that Brie forgot math. I am crying.

☆彡 “You must unlearn what you have been ‘programmed’ to believe from birth. That software no longer serves you if you want to live in a world where all things are possible.” — Jacqueline E. Purcell (IMPORTANT!!!)

★彡 South Park‘s parody of A Game of Thrones is hilarious. I lost my ability to breathe when the CEO of Sony gave Kenny Sailor Moon’s locket and he became an anime princess, J-pop theme song and all. Excuse me, I’m going to die of laughter again.

I’m gonna kick this winter vacation off right with some 80’s action flicks and writing marathons. Happy holidays, ya’ll. *_*

081: Have You Ever Licked A Lamp Post In Winter?

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[ I’m gonna make this quick. I’m tired. ]

★彡 Finished Dragon Age: Origins a few days ago. I am queen of Ferelden, Alistair is king, and my DA:O BFF Morrigan disappeared with the baby she made with Alistair. By Bioware standards, this ending is happy. LOL. I’m pretty bummed about Morrigan leaving though. I think she had a great bond with my Grey Warden, and she did tell her that they were like sisters. This came from a character who generally hates other humans, so it is infinitely more meaningful. I can’t wait until Inquisition. Now I understand why everyone was so excited during E3 when she showed up in the trailer. Well, on to the next one. I am running around Kirkwall in DA2 at this moment. Let’s see where Hawke’s story goes.

☆彡 Mark’s job at Books-A-Million allows him to borrow books for two weeks, so he borrowed Time of Contempt for me. Yay! Glad to see Geralt and Yennefer reunited again.

★彡 Everything is Fang and nothing hurts.

☆彡 I used to get angry at myself for being calm towards people who were aggressive to me, but I am learning to accept it as one of my few redeeming qualities and stop punishing myself for it.

★彡 Shoutout to Hulu Plus for making an app for the 3DS. Now I can catch up on animes during lunch breaks. Yeah, I know. I’m a giant loser. In other news, this giant loser finally started on Mawaru Penguindrum. Pretty good so far.

☆彡 Things I Don’t Appreciate: being yelled at by a cat because I stopped petting him for 0.05 seconds.

★彡 As always, I write nonstop every month of the year except November. I’m not necessarily calling it quits for NaNoWriMo. I’m just stumped.

☆彡 My nephews were playing Ocarina of Time last weekend, and it’s just mind-boggling to think that I was around their age when I first played it. They had to experience the headache called the Water Temple…and then gave up to play Minecraft. LOL. The greatest aspect of that moment was when my sister started humming “The Lost Woods” and Jonny asked her: “How do you know Zelda?” Her response was: “Excuse me?!” I was dying! She is right though. We lived and breathed Ocarina of Time when it first came out. Jonny and Josh have no idea. Yeah, getting nostalgia just thinking about it. :’)

★彡 OYASUMI PUNPUN IS A TRAP. DON’T READ IT. (No, go ahead and read it. It’s just depressing.)

☆彡  My next splurge will be on blankets. I’m just going to buy ten different types of blankets and bury myself under those shits.

★彡 The Big Show’s return to WWE was so anticlimactic. He spent all these weeks getting bullied and then getting revenge only to come back and get bullied again for the sake of a shot at championship. I…don’t even want to talk about the route they’re taking with Kane either. Kane is one of my favorite wrestlers. He is definitely in my top 10…if not 5. So, I always get really touchy about the decisions they make with him. It’s sad. I know. I was fine with Team Hell No because it was hilarious most of the time, but I guess we’ll just have to see where this goes. I’m not even going to pay too much attention to this Big Show thing because it will likely be a rerun of the “Big Show, go do something degrading to keep your job!” type thing again. Blah, blah, blah, John Cena is a still a big dork and that’s about everything happening in WWE right now.

☆彡 I hope when Mark and I see Desolation of Smaug the theatre is empty again. The last time we went we were the only ones in the theatre and it was awesome. We made all the stupid jokes we wanted because we didn’t have to worry about disrupting anyone else. Actually, we spent a good 5-10 minutes laughing like hyenas when Thranduil pulled that dick move in the beginning. Let’s hope we can do it again this year. *crosses fingers*

Eventful month so far. Let’s see how the next few weeks go~

078: Guardian of Wood

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This is what living with my cat is like.

★彡 Skyrim is such a time-consuming game that I actually find myself afraid to play it. For example, I told myself I would play the game for one hour just to complete a quest, and it somehow turned into four hours…and I ended up adopting a daughter…and I caught a serial killer…and I think I held a conversation with a dragon. Everything happened so quickly. All of that aside, this game is amazing. I don’t care how bad my day is, the moment that menu screen loads and “Dragonborn” plays, I am not even on this planet anymore.

☆彡 I am more of a listener than a talker. I don’t mind listening to a person talk for hours if they are saying insightful things. Pretty much anything I can draw useful information from is insightful to me.

★彡No, I am not playing GTA V because I’m poor and I probably won’t be able to play it for months. Parenthesis, crying face.

☆彡 Korean pastries are life-changing. And I’m not just talking about the first time. Pretty much every time is life-changing.

★彡 Me: *watching Sleepy Hollow* “Got us a cool-looking headless horseman, alright alright. WOC as the leading lady? Awesome, awesome. Something about the four horsemen of the apocalypse. I don’t mind that trope at all, looking good, looking good. Wow, this show is–” *headless horseman takes out a shotgun and automatic rifle*

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That’s not going to stop me or anything, but still….

☆彡 If you find yourself saying “____ thinks (s)he is ______”, just kick yourself in the fucking mouth. You will look stupid for doing it, but not as stupid as you look pretending that you can read minds and jumping to conclusions with no evidence whatsoever to back it up.

★彡 I haven’t made an Animal Crossing post in a while, huh? Really, nothing is happening in Arni Village. I added a garden to hold my triforce and master sword, but that’s about it. My 3DS is mostly used to play Oracle of Seasons and Pokemon Black 2 these days. I’ll likely make a post if I get the entire varia suit. Right now, I only have the pants though…like three of them. I also have four of Link’s tunics, three boots, two Majora’s masks, and two Midna masks. You really can have too much of a good thing, I guess.

☆彡 Pet Peeve #509: Being told that I should use my drawings to gain money or recognition. I understand that those suggestions are coming from a good place, but why can’t I just enjoy things without it being a job or a contest? The same goes for my writing. A manager once suggested I submit writings to magazines…and then proceeded to lecture me on the “importance” of not “wasting talent” when I said no. Stahp.

★彡 Heyman kissing Ryback on the cheek was so bizarre that it became hilarious. I am still laughing at Ryback’s face when it happened. He looked like the happiest person in the world. LOL. Of course, I knew HHH would come up with some way to screw Daniel Bryan out of his championship. The moment he won I said: “Let’s see how long this lasts”. It wasn’t even 24 hours before it got taken away. Damn shame. Anyway, I know the locker room is going to pay for helping Daniel Bryan on Raw. Smackdown is going to be very interesting this week. The whole company versus employees arc itself  is interesting. I wonder how it will end. I have a feeling either HHH, Stephanie, or Vince is going to start backing Daniel Bryan, and it will create this McMahon-Hemsley civil war. Then different wrestlers will take side and it’ll be a WWE civil war. Maybe that is more of a hope than a prediction.

☆彡 Link’s favorite place to lay down is on top of my Hyrule Historia. I think he is trying to tell me something.

★彡 Speaking of The Legend of Zelda, the more popular a favorite series of mine gets, the happier I get. One, more fans to discuss it with. Two, a bigger fanbase means more products in the future. Three, knowing how happy a series makes me, I am happier to know that others are experiencing that too. For example, I hear so many stories about The Legend of Zelda getting people through hard times the way it always did for me, and it is tear-jerking. You don’t even have to explain yourself to people like that. You both hear about the series and it’s just…a surge of positive feelings. That is amazing to me. Sure, it is probably sad to get emotional over video games while having little to no emotions about “relevant” things, but that’s the way it is for me and many. I think that’s cool.

 

Bah, next week is jury duty week. Let’s see how that goes…

075: Standing Still Is Hard

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75th blog entry ! *victory fanfare* In honor of this, I want to try this
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☆彡 = Personal life and rants

★彡 = Hobbies and interests

Let’s see how long it lasts. Okay. Let’s go!

★彡 Complicated shit first.

In regards to the Lightning Returns controversy, my opinion is this: the fact that Toriyama decided to increase Lightning’s breast size to, and I quote, “defeat Skyrim” is pathetic. It’s even more pathetic when you put into consideration that Skyrim and western RPGs in general don’t rely on breasts to sell their products. They are successful because they market innovative gameplay and interesting stories. In short, my qualm is not the fact they’re pitching Lightning as a sexy character (because she was a sexy and flawless heroine from the jump amirite). My qualm is that Square, a company once renowned for their memorable stories and characters, has to stoop to the selling tactics of hentai games and dating sims to be successful. So, I’m not mad. I’m just really disappointed. Then again, this is Toriyama…the same guy behind Final Fantasy X-2. Let me act surprised. Really, all of this only makes me want to play Skyrim even more. So, I’ll likely invest in Skyrim DLCs and add-ons before I even touch Lightning Returns. Sorry, Lightning. I still love you.

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☆彡  I recently rolled my eyes so hard that they pained me for a few minutes afterwards. Time for me to stay away from aggravating things. 

★彡 I am back to spending 80% of my free time writing Mythos chapters, and I officially passed 100 pages as a result. *confetti* I also did some major updating on charahub. It’s a neat little site. There is even a survey to take that asks things like the character’s favorite color, favorite place, etc. Progress with Mythos is actually what I wanted for a very long time, so I’m incredibly pleased.

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☆彡 I have a theory that everything in this apartment conspires to break on us at the same time. Rude.

★彡 Boys Over Flowers was such a rollercoaster. I was so sure I would despise Gu Jun Pyo for the entire series. Then I was sure that I adored him. Then I despised him again. Then I adored him again. He is just such a pain but he’s also so adorable. Poor Geum Jan Di. I understand her frustration. I even found myself saying: “Ugh, stupid Gu Jun Pyo and his stupid curls” too. Well, I still believe that Geum Jan Di deserves the absolute best. She is such a sweetheart. I don’t know why, but the leading girl in Korean dramas are always so likeable. My favorite is still Eun-chan from The 1st Shop of Coffee Prince though. The cutest of cuties! Anywho, time to find a new Korean drama to get into. I’m going to miss the characters of Boys Over Flowers though. 

☆彡 Seriously, there is no tragic backstory for why I am not on facebook, twitter, instagram, or whatever newfangled websites people are on. I am just bored of them or not interested enough to sign up. That is all there is to it. The same goes for my phone. I got it to try out a smartphone, but once I wore out my apps I just got bored and gave it to Mark. Why bother holding on to it and spending $50 a month if I’m not even interested in it, you know? I just don’t see why some people need to have an aneurysm when I respond with “I don’t use that” or “I don’t own one”. It’s not a big deal. 

★彡 Nintendo is close to giving news on the new Zelda Wii U game. I have to make sure my schedule is cleared on that day so I can slip in and out on consciousness freely. If they announce that Zelda will be the protagonist in the new game, I will likely die though. 

☆彡 The pervert life is hard. Only the strong can endure. It is known.

★彡 Some of my villagers are already asking to leave. NOT ALLOWED. Well…there are 2-3 of them that I won’t miss, but everyone else is not allowed to leave. It’s in the contract. Whomp-whomp.

☆彡 Clutter puts me in such a bad mood. I really should just buy like five bookshelves and call it a day. No more piles. No more packing things in totes only to end up with a pile of totes. Just thinking about it gives me a headache.

★彡 I miss Space Ghost: Coast to Coast so much. I would love Netflix for the rest of my life if they would just add it on instant. Speaking of Netflix, I don’t know who added Digimon, new Breaking Bad episodes, and re-added all of the 007 movies but they just tossed all of my plans for this weekend. I hope they’re happy. 

☆彡  When I compare my present-day drawings to the ones I did back in elementary school, I actually prefer my elementary school ones. Back then, I didn’t worry about perfect anatomy or perfect folds or perfect shading. So all of my drawings were fun. I actually did a goofy Sailor Moon and Final Fantasy VII crossover in the 6 or 7th grade, and until this day I still die of laughter because of it. My drawings now…they can’t even get a smile out of me. I forgot how to enjoy myself, you know? That is the worst part. I want to get to that point again. More than becoming like the artists I admire, I want to be that girl who used to draw in her composition notebooks and not care if it was imperfect. It’s all really cheesy. I know. I really do want to improve, but at the same time I don’t want to get so focused on perfection that I forget that art is supposed to be imperfect. Take abstract art. It is often a bunch of random lines and shapes, yet it is still so perfect. I want that feeling when I look at my own art. I am not going to say someday. Very soon. *in Geum Jan Di’s voice* FIGHTING!

★彡 I have come to terms with the possibility that Dany, Drogon, Rhaeghal, and/or Viserion will die. I can deal with Rhaegal or Viserion if given an hour or two to collect myself. Drogon…a day. Dany…several months. Actually, I will definitely cry if Dany dies. For a long time. At this point, I am REALLY sure that Dany is going to die. I have a feeling that GRRM monitors who the most liked characters are, and starts picking them off based on that. Dany is fairly popular with ASOIAF fans, so…yeah…she’s dead. *mourns in advance*

☆彡 Link is really letting me down right now. I had to kill three centipedes in the past two days. Not acceptable. Killing bugs is his job. The only reason he can’t do it is because he picked up a new hobby: sitting on top of the living room TV and yelling at us whenever we leave to go to the bathroom. Thanks a lot, cat. >:|

★彡 I miss WWE, but I don’t have cable so it’s no use crying about it. I’ll just have to jump back into it ever other year like I always do. -.-

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With that said, I’m really into my games, writings, and drawings right now, so updates may become scarce…save for those “This Is A ______ Post” entries. Which is a good thing, right? When I look back, I am more interested in those types of entries then these topic-hopping entries. Anyway, I may not do one of these for a while. Just a little insignificant heads up.

That’s about it. Off to finish up Breaking Bad and eat curry. After that, some quality time with Geralt, Commander Shepard, and Kaim.

Later. 

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066: Proton

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★彡 Okay, Tuvok, stop being perfect.

☆彡 I know I already made a big deal about this, but DRAKENGARD 3. Also going back to a previous entry, if Drakengard is full of sick fucks and NieR is full of dying people and the team of both games will be working on Drakengard 3 then will I run into sick fucks who all die? Huh… Something to prepare myself for. Also, how in the fresh hell am I going to get a Playstation 3 to play it?

★彡 I discovered Paint Tool Sai, but my drawing tablet is still kaput and coloring with my mouse is not happening. Yay! I’ll just study some more tutorials for now. Also, the marker tool in Paint Tool Sai is perfect! I really want to color my stuff with it…

☆彡 Wow, Data is playing this game and it is three layers of The Legend of Zelda juxtaposed on this grid. I see what you did there, Star Trek. Also, “USS Yamato” and a group of people called “Nausicaans”? Do I sense possible anime fans on the Star Trek team? That is actually really cool–sharing mutual interests with the creators behind one of my interests.

★彡 The truth is that I have zero patience for redundancy, and if something more interesting comes along I will likely move towards it. This is true for everything from school to relationships. Of course, I should define what redundancy means to me since it can vary from person to person. I am fine with doing the same thing repeatedly so long as I am given the freedom to use my own “system” of handling it. For example, writing. Writing is very redundant. You press some buttons or write some words, move to the page, repeat. However, the fact that I can write about anything I want and in any fashion I want makes me enjoy writing. If someone told me that I had to write about a piece of gum every single day–and nothing more than this piece of gum–then I will move on to something else. Socially, I carry this same attitude. I enjoy socializing with people who can discuss a large variety of subjects without bringing them back to the same point (“Let’s talk about TV followed by trucks” “Let’s talk about TV followed by trucks” “Let’s talk about trucks followed by trucks”). If I am stuck with a person who is incapable of expanding beyond a tiny range of topics, I will instantly become uninterested. In short, I bore easily. I don’t really have the patience to deal with anything/anyone that I cannot extract information or inspiration from. This topic reminds me of J.R.R. Tolkien’s quote: “I warn you, if you bore meI shall take my revenge.” Just replace “revenge” with “leave” and this quote becomes extremely true for me…because I will literally leave anything that is too tiresome for me. (Let us classify this one under both ADD and INTJ problems)

☆彡 I am determined to tackle two recipes this week: Che Chuoi (sweet soup composed of banana, tapioca pearls, and coconut milk) and Goi Cuon (Vietnamese cold spring rolls) with peanut sauce. I am a complete klutz when it comes to Asian recipes, though, so I really have to do my best to not screw this up. I still have moments of silence for the sushi I tried to make last year.

★彡 Our ten year anniversary is in exactly one week, and Mark’s birthday is three days after….and I have no idea what to do.

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Well, I know I’m taking Mark to see G.I. Joe: Retaliation. That’s a definite. Other than that, I don’t know. I guess we can chill and eat steak and watch movies or something. LOL. It worries me how indifferent we are sometimes…but then we become indifferent about being indifferent, so…

☆彡 (1)Atlas Shrugged is a fictional book. Any person using it as some type of tool to solve real world problems is silly. (2)Ayn Rand was not perfect and neither was Atlas Shrugged. Being a fan of Ayn Rand and/or Atlas Shrugged is not a declaration of their perfection. (3)Many Atlas Shrugged fans were fans of the book before it became some type of right-wing manifesto or before they knew it became some type of right-wing manifesto. Basically, enjoying Atlas Shrugged =/= conservative right-wing affiliation. (4)Believe it or not, it is possible to read a book and not agree with the actions or mentality of the characters. If one reads Darkly Dreaming Dexter, is (s)he supporting murder to rid society of dangerous individuals? If one reads A Game of Thrones, is (s)he supporting the use of deception, sex, and violence to gain power? I don’t agree with many of the characters in this book, and I didn’t finish the book with a: “Wow, I must use this book to shape my own life” mentality. It’s just a story. It’s about people I don’t relate to in a society that doesn’t exist with conflicts I may never have to face. It’s very different from my world. That is what makes it interesting. What I mean to say is that I like books that make me think, and Atlas Shrugged makes me think. I have learned that digging into the personal life of an author/artist is not always a good idea. It adds filters that should not be used when viewing a story for what it is–just as story.

★彡 I’m either going to replay Twilight Princess or Tales of Symphonia this weekend. More than likely, Tales of Symphonia. I have yet to play the sequel, so maybe this replay will be a good way to segue into it.

☆彡 Costco is selling that Samsung Galaxy Note for $100 less than other places. Now I just need to pull $400 out of nowhere to get it!

★彡 Link and I have a mutual need to annoy the hell out of one another. I don’t expect anyone to understand our relationship, but after a long day of provoking we get as affectionate as a detached person like me can get with a detached animal like a cat, and that means a lot to me. I love my furry buddy. TT____TT

☆彡 Mark and I found a book on how to be a pimp in the self-help section of Barnes and Noble. That was great.

Alright, I’m out of things to add.

I can’t wait until tomorrow. I get to finish the second season of Game of Thrones, finally! There are some other good things happening tomorrow, too, so I am pretty excited. I should probably calm my tits though. Getting overly excited about things makes me way to antsy before the actual exciting event happens. XD

I’ll end this entry with more Tuvok because I never get tired of his sassy expressions.

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065: The Starlight’s Flower

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★彡 GEEEENNOOOO !  Geno gives me life (and Vivi too…BUT GENO THO)! I adore him so much, and I am so heated with Nintendo right now because they did not put him in Super Smash Brothers Brawl and I do not appreciate that shit one bit. Speaking of Super Mario RPG, I was working on another replay last week when I ran into that boss battle with Valentina. In all my years playing this game, last week was the first time I noticed that attacking her makes her chest jiggle. Trust Square to slip inappropriate things in a children’s game and hope that no one notices. XD

☆彡 Added some new pages whilst possibly abusing my privilege to add new pages. Fufufu~ Anyway, if a page suddenly becomes password protected it is because I am working on it. The draft section definitely needs a lot of work, but hopefully it will be done soon.

★彡 One does not simply listen to “L.E.S” by Childish Gambino once.

☆彡 I finally bought a new scanner! *dansu* I am going to do mostly lineart from now on. I’ll color it later when I (a)have a working tablet and (b)study up on digital coloring. This is an opportunity in disguise, really. I do need the practice, and lots of it!

★彡 Link’s favorite thing to do now: follow Mark and me into the bathroom, and attack us when we try to remove him. One we decide to leave him alone, he just sits there and watches us while we use the toilet…thus living up to his new title of hentai cat.

☆彡 Jamieson Price is the voice of Duke in Tales of Vesperia, and I almost forgot how amazing his voice was until he spoke. He could read me the dictionary. That would not bother me at all.

★彡 If all goes correctly, Mark and I will return to Joelanta this weekend. I really can’t wait to go! Last year, I passed up on some really great toys and action figures because I was strapped for cash. This year…still strapped for cash (LOL), but it’s nowhere near as bad last year. Then again, this will probably be the time when my tires go flat or something. I really should stop jinxing myself. Okay, let’s start again. We are going to Joelanta again, we are going to get some cool things again, we are going to smile until our face hurts again, Mark is going to fanboy over Larry Hama again, and I’m just going to continue laughing at him about it again…as if I wouldn’t fangirl if I met someone who I admired. Yes, that sounds better.

☆彡 All of this reading seems counterproductive at first, but then I always remember what constant reading did for me in the past. I had a terrible speech impediment (still kind of do) and I struggled with basic writing as a kid until I started reading a lot. I’m talking like one book every two days. My librarians knew me on a first name basis. Let’s just put it that way! Anyway, I quickly realized that reading helped me more than tutoring sessions or intense scolding because it made learning fun. It was through books that I realized that learning can be fun, and not another method of torture for adults to inflict on children. So…there is no such thing as too much reading. With each book I complete, I see improvement in my writing, speech, and comprehension. I also pick up valuable lessons that make me wish I read half of these books ten years ago. *sigh* C’est la vie.

★彡 I am slowly but surely getting over the idea that realistic art = “good art”. What is “good art” anyway? Some of my favorite art pieces had no people, no buildings, and no landscapes. Yet, it was enough to fill me with happiness. Even character and fashion designs fill me with happiness. In the end, it is not about meeting a certain standard. Art is not a math test. There is not a wrong or right answer. That is something I have to accept. I also have to accept that art is not a movie. It is not there to entertain others. It does not matter who likes it or who dislikes it. What matters most is that I like it. Who in this entire world has the right to take my happiness away from me?  Perhaps I am still that girl stuck in art class, getting told by my art teacher that my style is “too commercial” and “difficult to relate to”. Meanwhile, my classmate does an artwork about 9/11, and receives a round of applause. Isn’t this just like every other field of art? Playing on popular emotions like love and hate get the round of applause, but eclectic things are often regarded as too “out there” for “normal” people. Why should my entire life revolve around what other people think and what other people feel and what other people want? I am ranting, I know. It is just one of those things that I bottled up for years. Looking back, I passed up on so many opportunities because I didn’t believe my art would wow a crowd, yet I never questioned why wowing a crowd is important in the first place. This isn’t about money for me. It isn’t about popularity either. I am just a woman who likes to draw, and that should be good enough. So, to hell with the “it’s not realistic enough” and “it’s not touching enough” bullshit. It’s a damn picture of a damn elf with some damn pretty clothes on, and you can just fucking deal with it. *AGGRESSIVELY OPENS SKETCHBOOK*

☆彡 I promise that I am not faded or drunk when I ask this, but am I the only one who looks at the things around me and feels overwhelmed by how amazing it is? For example, look at a shower. I am turning rain and off while adjusting its temperature. I cannot believe how awesome that is! Don’t even get me started on the internet. I don’t even know where to start. I bet if we brought someone from the 1800s to our century they would just fall on the floor and cry or something. Like…I don’t even know how I sit here sometimes, and tell myself that I am bored. How the fuck is this life even remotely boring? The fact that I can get in a big metal wagon and go to a place where thousands of inventors from all around the world display their things is…damn. My mind is being blown by shit I see on a daily basis. I don’t even know what I’m feeling right now.

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★彡 The saddest part about you believing that Star Trek is “for white people” is the fact that Star Trek opened more doors in the entertainment industry for black people than all of your favorite shows combined. Gene Roddenberry created Lt. Uhura — an African woman — during a time when the idea of both blacks and women in a leadership position was unheard of. Even more, when Nichelle Nichols (the actress who played Uhura) wanted to leave Star Trek it was Martin Luther King Jr. himself who begged her to stay because her role was important to blacks. I could continue to go down the list of doors Star Trek opened and point out the fact that its fanbase is very diverse, but I forgot that people like you are stuck in this white versus black mentality as opposed to the more sensible tolerant people versus intolerant people mentality. Exit my life, please.

☆彡 I want to give a shoutout to Otaku Cam for not only being really addictive, but also for being so awesome that Mark allowed me to take his picture just to use it…and now his face is on the background of my phone and I have been begging for this ever since I got my phone even though he called me treacherous for using it (LMAO). So, thanks Otaku Cam. Also, the Hentai Kamen frames are great.

★彡 I do have a long list of problems and imperfections, but they are my responsibility. I do not blame anyone for them. Even if someone came up to me right now and pushed me into the dirt, cleaning myself off is my responsibility. Dealing with the anger of being attacked is my responsibility. And while I would call the police to protect others from being pushed too, it is my responsibility to accept that sometimes my efforts to see justice done and to protect others is not enough. On this very day, at this very moment, I have two simple choices: progress or regress. And every solution I have to every problem I own falls into two categories: progression or regression. It is like this every second of my life until I am out of time. Planning is comforting, yes, but even I can admit that planning is no guarantee of my future. I just have to live in the moment, constantly choosing to go forward or stay behind. That is the type of black-and-white mentality I have towards my own life.

☆彡 If you like someone in Drakengard there is a 90% chance that (s)he is a sick fuck. If you like someone in Nier there is a 90% chance that (s)he will die. Yay! (Please remind me why I keep playing your games, Cavia?)

★彡 Note to self: Do not listen to “Gravelord Nito” when I am alone or in the dark. That shit is scary as fuck under those circumstances. Additional note, Nito is metal as fuck.

☆彡 *plans to watch a few episodes of The Misadventures of Awkward Black Girl* *watches the entire show in one sitting* Whoops. Also, I really need to stop responding to everything I do with “bitches be _____” because it’s getting on Mark’s nerves and children might hear me if I say it in public. Bitches be forgetting.

★彡 Wow, if I ever win the lottery I am just going to disappear. The response I often get is: “Me too! I’m going to travel around the world!” Yes, but you plan to eventually come home and return to your identity. I am not doing that. I am paying off everything I owe, changing my name, and becoming an IRL Waldo. It is not a motherfucking game. Of course, I’ll let like five people know my new name and location, but after that I am pretty much a ghost. Bitches be vanishing. (Okay, I’m stopping!)

Alright. I’m going to get some stuff done, and attempt to put this scanner to use. I know that printer works! …Since I’ve been printing shit nonstop. 😐

EDIT:

I FORGOT TO POST THIS SONG IT’S AN ALTERNATE VERSION OF HISTORIA CRUX.

Still prefer the Origa version though.

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