090: Nornir

FFXV looks amazing.

Trying to reorganize my blog entries again. Bear with me.

✪ Personal Life ✪

  • Whenever I get sick I sometimes remember that the purpose of the “bug” is to kill me, not to inconvenience me, and it brings home that death is always right around the corner. Also, I am fun at parties.
  • I kind of want to give myself a high five right now because I had this long list of shit I wanted to clean and organize (as I try to do every change of season), and I tackled it today. While I am still semi-sick. But at the same time I kind of want to kick myself in the face because when I’m healthy I never do shit, yet when I’m sick I suddenly find a bunch of energy and invest 4-5 hours into chores. I am too backwards for my own good. D:
  • Halloween is almost here~ That’s the day that I dump a bunch of candy into my pumpkin bowl, turn off all the lights so trick-or-treaters won’t ask me for any, and watch scary movies until I pass out. It’s gonna be NICE. Hopefully. But I never know.
  • 99% of the time when I refer to someone as “my baby” or “my boo” IRL I am talking about either Link or Levi(athan). The cat and the car respectively.

✪ Art & Writing ✪

  • Titles are a headache. I know that “Mythos” is not good enough anymore, yet nothing else seems to be good enough either. Mark suggested having a name for the series (ex: GRRM’s “A Song of Fire and Ice”) and then naming each book based individually (ex: “A Game of Thrones”, “A Feast for Crows”, “A Storm of Swords”, etc.). That’s not a bad idea. In fact, his advice led me to a series name (“The Millennium Sorceress”). The issue though is that I am not even set on the idea of books. I’ll bring that to the next bullet.
  • The more I work on “Mythos” (let’s just stick with the usual title until I am set on “TMS” or anything else), the more it feels like an RPG. And it makes sense. I began this project because I was inspired by RPGs like Final Fantasy and Chrono Cross. I like the whole travelling around the world, meeting party members, and telling stories through dialog and battles. Actually, I’m waiting for RPG Maker VX Ace to go back on sale again so I can start working with it. It’s about $60 on Steam right now, but it was $15 once. So I’ll wait. Until then I’ll try “Mythos” as an RPG instead. Let’s see if that helps this horrible writer’s block I am dealing with.
  • Nanowrimo is around the corner, but I don’t think I will participate this year. My creative juices are flowing more towards the technical side (drawing, creating maps, making skill trees, etc.) than the writing side. I really am a shit writer. I can’t explain things as beautifully and poetically as the writers I admire. *pouts* Oh well…
  • Drawing comics about the things that are bothering me can be really therapeutic. Oddly enough, it is not revisiting unpleasant things and making them comical that makes me feel relaxed. It is more the freedom to be meticulous. Whipping that ruler out, drawing perfect lines, being uber-cautious with inking–that is the part that makes me feel…in control. I just like the feeling of taking something as chaotic as something I cannot avoid, like misfortune, and making it all neat. Manageable, even. It’s comforting.

✪ Anime & Manga ✪

I tried out the Funimation and Crunchyroll apps for two weeks, and I managed to catch up on a bunch of animes.

  • Monthly Girls’ Nozaki-Kun – I really love this anime. It’s lighthearted. It’s funny. The main character is really easy to relate to while the supporting characters remind me of so many people I know. It’s just a feel-good anime that I can see myself rewatching the moment the series is done. Also, that ending song. It’s so cute and it’s stuck in my head. D:
  • Gintama – I will get the Crunchyroll app just to finish this anime. Seriously. Within the first minute or so I was dying of laughter.
  • Tonari no Seki-kun – Another funny anime. Seki reminds me so much of Mark. He just has an endless supply of tiny toys that he does distracting stuff with. Seriously, we have been living in this apartment for a while and I am still discovering random toys in random places doing random things, and whenever I ask him to explain it he has some elaborate story for why they are there. So, it’s no surprise that he loved the hell out of this anime. It is a pretty cute anime. I just wish it was longer. 😦
  • Naruto Shippuden – Dude, I have not watched this anime in years. I came back to it to see what happened and found out Team 7/Team Kakashi is back together. What the fuck? Wasn’t Sasuke evil? Yeah… hella behind. I found out that Naruto is coming to an end really soon too, so that’s kind of bittersweet. I know Naruto gets shit on a lot (as anything remotely popular does), but…that’s fucking Naruto man. It’s going to be sad to see it go. I never got into One Piece, but I might start checking that anime out so I’m not without a staple shounen series to fall back on. Well…I have Toriko. That counts as shounen, right? Sometimes I forget because Toriko is an adult who is very, extremely manly. But so is Goku and DBZ is shonen anime/manga legend. It’s all good.
  • Dramatical Murder – Eh… Compared to the game it was very tame. I like the music though. I never skipped the opening and closing because I liked the songs a lot. The animation was also nice. I didn’t get to see much of my bb Mink, but it was still OK.
  • Sword Art Online II – Didn’t like it as much as I liked the first. Mark was really into it though.
  • Akame ga Kill! – Started off interesting. Got bored around episode 3 or 4. I might try again another time.
  • High School DxD – …What the fuck did I watch…? Pretty sure it was hentai.
  • The Idol Master – a.k.a. the anime based on the game that made Kentaro Miura stop working on Berserk. LOL. I saw the first episode, and it seemed adorable. I would not mind seeing how the rest goes.

Speaking of Berserk, that manga update. YES. I have been waiting for someone to slap the shit out of Griffith ever since the Eclipse, and I am so glad it was Rickert.  That blatant disrespect at the graveyard of swords too was just… Yeah. He needed the taste slapped out of his mouth. Well, I think he deserves much more than that–MUCH MUCH MORE–but to get pimp slapped at his own tea party by a kid in front of all of his friends was pretty nice. 10/10. Not okay with that ‘Til’ Next Time’ though.

✪ Video Games ✪

  • I doomed my FFVII replay by going to that fucking Northern Cave. Now that I completed the game I just have no motivation to do anything else. It kind of sucks. There are still weapons to beat and special items to get, but I have this sense of closure from completing the game. Maybe I’ll play tomorrow or something. IDK.
  • Alien: Isolation was amazing. Please don’t listen to IGN’s review. The person who reviewed it was bitter about constantly dying and tried to blame the game for it. The thing is… he started the game on hard mode. Of course you will die a lot if you choose to play a game in hard mode. What were you expecting? Additionally, he mentioned his tactic of hiding in the vents to avoid confronting a xenomorph, but xenomorphs travel through the vents. That’s like trying to avoid getting hit by a car by standing in the middle of the street. I’m sorry, but it irks the hell out of me when companies give poor reviews to games because they suck at it. A lot of people who worked hard to make a superior game can lose money and their jobs because of shit reviews like that. It’s just really irresponsible journalism. No one should never blame the quality of a product on their inability to handle it. I hate seeing reviews like that on sites like Amazon (“This product clearly says to do this but I’m going to do the opposite and bitch about it online.”), and I especially hate seeing reviews like that when it comes to games. /rant
  • My gaming life is still being consumed by Borderlands 2. This weekend was free gold weekend, so I took the opportunity to input a fuckton of shift codes. I have 100+ keys, new skins, new heads. It’s really nice. Lately, I’ve been grinding/farming with Maya in hopes of catching her up to Gaige, and I’m getting kind of close. Maya is level 13. Gaige is level 19. I just have to take my time around Tundra Express, and hope that I don’t run into any badass anythings. If I stick with the varkids and a few basic bandits I can level up pretty fast. It’s not a big deal though. Gaige is still my main character. I’m just curious about Maya’s phaselocking potential. 😛
  • Don’t talk to me about Hyrule Warriors, Super Smash Bros Wii U or Bayonetta 2 because I don’t have a Wii U and I don’t know when I’ll get one tbh (Yes, I know SSB is on the 3DS but I can’t afford that one either).
  • I played the Theatrhythm: Curtain Call demo, and it was so fun! I really want to play the full version. 200 Final Fantasy songs? Are you kidding me? I need that right now. ;_;
  • LET’S TALK ABOUT DRAGON AGE: INQUISITION THO.
  • Praying to the video game gods rn so I save up $400 and get a PlayStation 4.  I don’t want to imagine my life without Final Fantasy XV, Final Fantasy Type-0, The Witcher 3, Kingdom Hearts 3. What else am I missing? A bunch of games, I am sure. PLUS all the PSX classics. Just thinking about playing Xenogears in the immediate future makes me want to dance around. *sigh* Just gotta work hard. Keep tackling bills, taking care of home, and saving. I’ll get there soon enough.

✪ Books ✪

Nothing to really add here. I haven’t ventured beyond the same books I piled at my bedside last time. I’ve just been caught up in other hobbies. I am really looking forward to The World of Ice and Fire though. Like, REALLY looking forward to it. I’ve been annoying Mark with my excitement for it. Whoops. LOL. The same goes for the Chrono Cross Ultimania. I have my eyes on that too. It’s been out forever, but I’m deciding now to say “fuck it” and add it to my collection. Soon.

✪ Music ✪

  •  Is it safe to say that the Super Smash Bros. soundtracks are like the Lollapaloozas for game composers? Seriously, Nobuo Uematsu, Masashi Hamauzu, Yoko Shimomura, Yasunori Mitsuda,  Koji Kondo, Motoi Sakuraba, Keiichi Okabe, Mahito Yokota–LEGENDS. So, it’s safe to say that I am listening to a lot of SSB songs lately. The greatest thing is hearing my favorite composers revamp songs I have been listening to since I was a kid. I never get tired of it. I can hear 1,000 renditions of the Super Mario theme and still get an overwhelming urge to whip out my old school consoles.
  •  Kingdom Hearts 2.5 OST. EVERYTHING HAS BEEN REMADE WITH MORE VIOLINS. If this is a sample of what Yoko Shimomura is going to do with Final Fantasy XV then I am hyped as fuck. There are so many game soundtracks that I need in my life right now. It’s not even funny anymore. -_-

✪ TV & Movies ✪

Man, I don’t even know where to start.

  • South Park – The biggest premiere for me. Of course, SP is as funny and controversial as ever. The thing I am loving most, though, is the continuity. It’s neat that they’re carrying clues from episode to episode until the inevitable conclusion at the season finale. This is SP though. They might string the audience along just to come to an anticlimactic conclusion. Yeah, I can definitely see that happening. LOL
  • The Legend of Korra – Hilarious as always until something destroys my soul.
  • Grey’s Anatomy – …Why am I still watching this show? Seriously, Yang is gone. There is no point for me anymore.
  • Sons of Anarchy – JAAAAX!!! *kicks table over* GEMMAAAA!!! *kicks over all of the chairs* CHARMING IN GENERAL!!!! *flying kick to the window*
  • Gotham –  Not a bad show at all. I hate that I keep missing episodes though. I would be so far behind in everything were it not for Hulu.
  • American Horror Story – Never fails to creep me out. I love it.
  • SNL – Can we just have an entire hour about the nightclubs that Stefon goes to?
  • ANTM – Two words: beard weave. Please stop, Tyra. XDD
  • Forever – Interesting.
  • Agents of Shield – So far so good. If anything happens to Simmons and/or Fitz I am going to…do nothing. Just be really sad. :/
  • The Flash – !!!
  • Gracepoint– I LOVE THIS SHOW. Mark makes fun of me for taking it so seriously, but it is not a joke to me, and he knows there will be trouble if he changes the channel while Gracepoint in on. So much trouble.
  • Total Divas – Never really sat down and watched this show until recently. It’s…eye-opening, I guess? I honestly don’t feel like I’m learning anything about the wrestlers because everything feels scripted. It’s nice to see more of Naomi though. She needs that Divas championship like yesterday. I adore AJ, yes, but Naomi is more athletic to me. I need her to own it at some point.
  • Drunk History – I never get tired of this show. I think I watched a few episodes like three times already because they’re so funny and insightful. Watch it. Even if you’re like me and you rarely drink (or don’t drink at all) just watch it. It’s hilarious.
  • WWE – Last but not least this trash (LOL). Okay, I’ll admit. I was marking the fuck out when The Rock showed up. And he was in Brooklyn?! Yeah, I was happy about that. I’m bummed about Roman Reigns STILL being gone though. Dean Ambrose is filling the void he left, but with John Cena being forced into the Dean and Seth feud it just makes everything kind of…ugh. I don’t hate John Cena. I’m just tired of him. Yes, we get it. Hustle, you can’t see me, never give up. Whatever. Then again, I know he is mainly there for the little kids who never get tired of him, and not so much the adult fans who want  more interesting characters. That is where Dean comes in. He pretty much doesn’t give a shit and does whatever he wants, so I think that is why older fans adore him. Anyway, what’s next? Hell in the Cell? I’m rooting for Dean Ambrose to win. Still, I kind of want Brock Lesnar to show up and chew through the cell or something just to fuck everything up. That would be great.

I haven’t seen any new movies lately. I REALLY want to see Gone Girl.

✪ Whatever Else/Closing ✪

*phew* That was a lot!

Well, this week is going to be a long one for me. There is so much to get done. I only hope that with the spare time I find in between all of the annoying stuff that I can work on an RPG. If not “Mythos” then at least a brand new idea. I’d rather not start a new one though. Yeah…I have nothing else to add. Gonna tackle some crap and then start working on some stuff. I *might* upload some drawings soon too. At last, I have some sketches that I consider decent enough to share. So I will share them soon. Hopefully.

Take care, everyone. ♥

Saint Young Men (Saint Oniisan)

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I’m finally starting on the manga for this, and it’s just as hilarious as the OVAs I saw.

I cannot recommend this series enough.

If you like the slice of life genre, Saint Young Men will definitely be worth your while.

Oyasumi Punpun

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This manga has been on my to-read list for way too long, so I started on it.

It’s very interesting so far.

Officially Obsessed With Toriko

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I have very strong feelings about this series.

048: She Had Angry Pixels

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☆彡 I’ve been stuck in that stage between just waking up and reconsidering sleeping for another hour all day long. Nothing is working. I could just say to hell with it and go to bed four hours earlier than usual…but I won’t.

★彡 If all goes according to plan, Mark and I will get a new 250GB XBox 360 on Monday. In exchange, we agreed to not buy one another gifts this year. We’re both completely okay with that. The first thing I want to do is purchase and download Nights HD. I was literally hours away from doing that before my 360 broke again. Balderdash!

Anyway, since I’m on the topic of Nights, I’m going to post Nights-related music. Someone introduced me to this a while ago, and I am still incredibly thankful about it. My ears are weeping happy tears:

☆彡 NotTildaSwinton is the funniest twitter I’ve ever encountered in my entire life.

★彡 I really want to read Saint Young Men. It’s basically a manga about Buddha and Jesus as roommates. I read over some reviews and summaries, and it sounds extremely interesting.

☆彡 That Superman trailer was fantastic. So was the Star Trek trailer. Fuck, man. Fuck.

★彡 My favorite thing about Meredith Grey and Cristina Yang’s friendship is that neither of them feel obligated to be sweet, gentle, or kind. In fact, all the traits typically associated with friendship and even women in general mean absolutely nothing to them. They are perfectly content with having this borderline emotionless relationship that revolves around having fun, ridiculing pointless social rituals, and being extremely sarcastic about everything. The interesting thing is that despite sharing the reputation of being somewhat ice queens, they both know they have a lot of buried emotions underneath, and they only feel okay with openly exposing them to each other. It’s definitely one of my favorite fictional friendships. I hate having to wait until Jan. 10th to see them again. ;_;

☆彡 While I’m on the topic of season finales:

Season Finale Commercial Dialogue: “I’m dying.”
Actual Season Finale Dialogue: “I’m dying…for some ice cream!”

Lesson: Don’t believe the hype.

★彡 I should really slow down with the language lessons. So far, I am delving in Esperanto, Japanese, Elvish, Sign, and Latin. Well, I’m technically just touching up on Latin. Either way…it’s a lot. I’m just going to focus on Japanese and Sign for right now. Both will serve more use to me than the others in the long run.

☆彡 There is something terribly wrong with men telling women how to behave like women, and women telling men how to behave like men. It’s bad enough putting restrictions and laws on members of your own sex, but telling someone of the opposite sex how to behave like their own sex when you have zero experience being that sex is…stupid. It’s downright stupid. You don’t know what it’s like to be a woman if you’re a man, and you don’t know what it’s like to be a man if you’re a woman. So, stahp.

★彡 Stealing is bad enough, but when you steal from people who don’t have anything to begin with it’s more than deserving of getting choked out.

Well, off I go. Dinner, shower, and bed. *sigh* So boring. I can’t wait to spend all of my days and nights in front of a game again. >_<

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★彡 I wish I could update this thing on a daily basis, but I’ll just try to updates as frequently as possible.

★彡 I am starting my yearly Sailor Moon marathon…by completely skipping the other seasons, and going straight to Sailor Stars. I’m dangerous, guys. Watch out. Skipping seasons over here. On a semi-serious note, this marathon is long overdue. Sailor Moon always erases all the feels I don’t want to feel…except for the times when Usagi starts crying. The Japanese VA for Usagi makes the saddest weeping sounds ever. Then they add that sad violin version of the Sailor Stars theme, and then my heart shatters into a million pieces. Otherwise, this anime continuously purifies my soul every time I watch it. It’s true.

★彡 Then there is Berserk…which tends to do the complete opposite of purifying my soul…but not this week! The gang is finally getting close to Elfhelm! They even saw branches! Branches, son! *throws confetti around* I probably shouldn’t get too excited though. Once more, The Skull Knight’s warning to Guts that Casca may not want what he wants has popped up. It’s definitely foreshadowing…and anyone who thinks for a second that Casca will become herself again and have this big romantic reunion with Guts is immediately pimp slapped by that premonition. It’s the truth. I don’t know why we Berserk fans do this to ourselves. *sigh* Oh, well. October 28th is the next release date, and that’s something to be excited about. Anything is better than seeing ‘Until Next Time’ on the final page of a chapter. The worst feeling in the world.

★彡 Mark and I finally finished season 2 of The Walking Dead. One word: Michonne. Well, yes, there are many other words I have about this series…but mostly Michonne…and “I can’t believe I’m missing the third season”…and more things along those lines.

★彡 There is something that I am really excited about, but I am also super nervous about it. If everything does not go right on Monday, when said event will occur, I will…probably cry. There is a good chance I will cry. I will definitely, 100%, cry. As Mark said, though, I just have to do my best. As long I put my best foot forward, I have the right to be proud of myself. So, I’m going to start preparing now. Even though it’s Friday, I am going to get everything ready. Nothing will go wrong unless some force of nature works against me. I can do this! >_<

★彡 Hulu, please stop being a dick. I want to watch Serial Experiments Lain. Thanks.

★彡 I have to learn to make Moo Goo Gai Pan.

★彡 “Zelda is overrated.” — Peasants

★彡 Halloween is right around the corner. Aw yeaaaah~ Do I know what I want to be? Nope. I don’t know if I’ll even be anything this year. If I had to be something, though, it would be the Cat in the Hat. Actually, I’ve been wanting to be the Cat in the Hat for a long time. And not the disturbing sexy versions of the Cat in the Hat. Just the regular kind. That would be fun.

★彡 As much as I adore Link, he drives me crazy sometimes. He is basically a two year old that never grows up. On one hand, he can be really adorable when he’s off in his own world being curious and clumsy. On the other hand, he has so much energy that he wants to just…attack everything. And, no, you can’t tell a cat to stop. Cats will pause, but they don’t stop. Link will often pause, meow at us, and then continue. It can be tough. Taking care of anything or anyone can be tough.

★彡 As funny as these Big Bird jokes are at times, I am far from laughing at the idea of PBS being gone. It is a very valuable channel. It has raised generations of children and enlightened millions of adults. It’s the type of thing I would like to pass on to my children someday. In many ways, PBS has become a part of our society. I can’t imagine why, of all the of issues in this country, PBS is even in the top 100 things to handle for Mitt Romney. I understand you need to save money…but PBS? *sigh*

★彡 How did I become obsessed with coffee? I used to be completely nonchalant about, and would have a cup every now and again, but now I can’t imagine a day without it. Especially the coffees they sell at the Asian farmer’s markets. It’s so delicious. Fuck…

★彡RANT ALERT. I should do that more often…warn people about that shit. I digress. I am already reluctant to make new friends, but nothing makes me want to say “oh hell no” like being used as some type of token in a person’s weird friend-collecting hobby. In other words, I don’t want to be anyone’s “this is my nerd friend” or “this is my friend who can draw” or “this is my black friend from my collection of black friends”. I’m just Kerri. Take the good in me and the bad in me, or don’t take anything at all. I really don’t want to stand around trying to fit anyone’s stereotype of me. That has to be the most aggravating thing, you know? I never said that because I was shy that I was desperate for friends. I never said that because I preferred not to talk that I had nothing to do but listen to others talk. I definitely didn’t tell anyone that I was pure, innocent, or immune to emotions like anger and sadness. I don’t want to be dragged into anyone’s bullshit. I just want to have a pleasant time wherever I am. That is pretty much my rant.

★彡 I have come to see bad situations as steps rather than walls. I can never ascend this metaphorical staircase called life unless I am willing to trip on a few steps along the way. It happens. What is the point in stopping, or going back to the bottom again? Really, when I look at everything in a staircase mentality, I visualize the importance of the saying ‘keep going’. Whether you’re a logical or emotional person, the only thing that will satisfy you in life is to keep rising.  No matter what.

★彡 I haven’t done a weekly challenge in a LONG time. Wow. I should definitely fix that this weekend…especially considering the fact that I’ve yet to completely pass any challenge. Then again, I set really high goals that I know I will not be able to reach. I should do things more attainable next time — even if they seem to lack challenge at first.

…I really don’t know what else to add…because I’m lazy…and it’s the weekend.

Maybe I will add something tomorrow. For now, I’m just going to do some tumblr then some gaming and then some writing and then I’ll probably end up sleeping when the sun is coming up and hating myself. Yay~

That is it. Good night.

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I’m a bit cranky today. Sorry.

☆彡 Rellik was my brother’s dog, and he passed away on the 10th. He was like family. I really wanted to see him again someday. Please R.I.P. Relly. 😦

☆彡 The luckiest day I had all year fell on a Friday the 13th. Seriously, I dodged a metaphorical bullet, I got the day off from work because our system went down, and I got to spend most of the day with my best friend because of it. It was even topped with fireworks. I don’t get my life. Nothing goes right when it should, but it goes amazingly when it shouldn’t. Sense. My life makes none. LOL

☆彡 Most social nuances go over my head. I don’t understand things like timing, loopholes, hidden meanings, and unspoken rules. I don’t understand things like: ‘If someone poses in a certain way then they want a hug,” or “If someone says one thing then they mean the opposite.” I work best when I am approached upfront with plain facts and honest statements. I’m not interested in mind games. Not with people anyway. I prefer my puzzles to be inanimate. -_-

☆彡 Most stereotypes annoy me. People are far too complex to be lumped into a category based on their appearance. It just…fucking boggles my mind that such a flawed method of analyzing people is actually okay with some people.

☆彡 I’m watching this new Korean drama called The Coffee Prince. It’s pretty great, but the first episode had no subtitles…so I’m not really sure how everything began. LOL. I’ll just have to wing it.

☆彡 I am realizing more and more each day that living in an apartment is a crappy living arrangement.

☆彡 I need a vacation. Big time. For some reason, I am thinking about the times when my aunt brought me and my sisters apple picking in New York. I loved it. I’d love to do that again. Research time! Knowing Georgia, I’ll probably end up picking peaches…but I’m okay with that. Peach salad, peach marmalade, peach pie, peaches with cream, peach everything. Fufufu~ I’ll find a way. >:3

☆彡 Everyone is a hypocrite. The only way to avoid being a hypocrite is to never change, never learn, never explore, and never question your own boundaries. You would have to be the same exact person for years/decades of your life to avoid contradicting yourself. So, basically, you’re either a hypocrite at some point in your life, or you’re in a coma.

☆彡 I miss drawing mangas. I don’t know why I stopped. Maybe I was getting a bit frustrated with my habit of changing stories mid-creation. It was annoying how I made like three books worth of mangas and then changed the entire plot one day. I don’t know…maybe I should make the most simple plot on the planet, stick with it, and make a manga series for it. Yeah, that would be a good idea! I’ll think of something later.

☆彡 Prison Break has become addictive. I’m already on season three…although I don’t like the third season that much. The first two seasons were brilliant though. It’s funny. My karate teacher told me to watch it because I was just like the TV show’s main character (Michael Scofield), and my first reaction was “…Eh’. But he’s right. We do have a lot in common, especially our having low latent inhibition. He’s a very interesting character in a very interesting show. I hate that it is going to end soon.

That’s about it.

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☆彡 Bucket List: Part One

  • Own a motorcycle (and ride it daily)
  • Watch the entire Sailor Moon series from beginning to end in one sitting
  • Have $5,000 in my savings account
  • Finish a sketchbook
  • Meet the Dalai Lama
  • Meet Nobuo Uematsu
  • Travel to Canada
  • More cats
  • Not live in Georgia anymore (fuck I hate this place)
  • Learn Japanese or Esperanto
  • Attend E3 or Comic-Con at some point in my life
  • Go to bed before midnight every night (yeah right…)
  • Road trip to Seattle
  • Get a black belt in some form of martial arts
  • Buy a house
  • Get paid to draw
  • Finish a Pathfinder or D&D campaign
  • Write a book

☆彡 I promised not to speak lowly of myself or say untrue things to make others feel better. The way I see it, any person that expects me to bash myself so they can feel better is not a good person to be around. A good person to be around would support me. So…no thanks. Exchanging my confidence for a person I don’t really care about is a terrible trade.

☆彡 It is already April, yet Mark and I haven’t started a ‘The Matrix’ or ‘The Lord of the Rings’ marathon yet. I don’t know. I guess I’m more focused on The Legend of Korra, Game of Thrones, The Walking Dead, and a bunch of other shows I am missing because I lack cable. No excuses, right? I just need to lurk moar.

☆彡 Metric. Black Sheep. Help, I’m Alive. That is all.

☆彡 Finished Catching Fire today. I can’t believe the book just ended right there. *falls in a slow circle and dies* Oh well. I’m going to visit the library tomorrow and cross my fingers for a copy of Mockingjay.

☆彡 My sleep schedule is so stupid right now. I’d do just about anything to get to bed and wake up at decent hours. -.-

☆彡 I like speaking to people who succeed at losing a lot of weight (50 pounds or more) because they’re real. They’re not celebrities who secretly hire trainers or hire chefs to cook for them. They’re everyday men and women on limited budgets and time. I’ve picked up a lot of tips over the years, but in the end it really comes down to motivation…or, in my case, finding out why I am so intimidated by weight loss. I guess I already know the answer. I just don’t know how to face it properly. Long story short, I dealt with a lot of stalking, sexual harassment, and unpleasant things like that when I was thin. I didn’t intentionally put on weight to protect myself from that, but I did find that food was comforting and that being fat stopped a lot of harassment I faced. But, as someone told me, food is not my friend. It is not therapy. It is not filling any voids I have. It is just fuel. And she is extremely right. Eating junk is not going to make me happy in the end. I just have to take advantage of the thick skin I obtained over the years, and do what I have to do against people like that. I can keep practicing karate, and not only use that to get fit, but to also protect myself. I am not trying to come out of this as thin as I used to be. Being skinny is not a priority to me. More than anything, I want to be strong. That is why I am so obsessed with weight lifting, I guess. If I can train myself to bench press 150+ lbs. then I can probably grab someone by the neck and toss them aside. That’s more of an inspiration to me than bikinis and skinny jeans. I guess that’s weird, but what else is new, right? ^u^

☆彡 All of the unexpected bills Mark and I have been dealing with lately have been both a blessing and a curse. A curse because having more bills than money is never a good thing. But it’s a blessing because it forces us to lead a more humble life. The truth is that Mark and I do not enjoy indulgence. We’re always talking about moving to an isolated village, growing our own food, and living off our land. That’s the type of thing we consider paradise. But we fall into the same trap that a lot of people fall into. The I-need-it-now-or-never trap. It really makes us spoiled. Sometimes I think back to how we used to be when we were first going out, and what little we had between each other, and it makes me realize how much we’ve changed. I don’t want to become a slave to money, trinkets, and first-world luxuries, you know? Even if I win the lottery, I want to pursue that life we dream about where I work hard for the things I have.

☆彡 Spectrum Nexus had a prank for April Fools’ Day. They released a Berserk manga update, but when you go to read the manga the image won’t load. It’s just blurry and it says: “Loading error. Please try again later.” Of course, my first instinct on April Fools’ Day is to trust no one and nothing. So, I already went into the Berserk manga thinking: “Let’s see how this turns out,” but a lot of people were FURIOUS about it. The site owner even had to apologize for it. This only reaffirms what I already know: Do not fuck with Berserk fans. They are not playing around. If you say you have something Berserk related and you’re lying about it…prepare yourself. LOL. Seriously, I can imagine ‘Sign’ playing in the background the moment someone lies about a Berserk update. Then I can imagine the furious Berserk fan pulling out Guts’ sword out of nowhere and cleaving people in half. Yep. That may actually happen someday. Once more, do not fuck with Berserk fans. 😄

☆彡 Going through Dark Souls withdrawal. *weeps phantom tears* Why do I love you, Dark Souls, when you’re such a dick? ;-;

☆彡 For some reason, my eyebrows are growing very thick after I shaped them up last time. I was going to shape them up again, but I realized that I am better off with thick eyebrows. Neat eyebrows are great for people who are very meticulous about how they dress…but I’m fairly tomboyish. I don’t think a tomboy with neat eyebrows is a great combination. At least not for me. LOL. Besides, I’ve been introduced to the whole ‘ulzzang’ culture and most of those girls do nothing to their eyebrows. And they still look incredibly pretty! Here’s an example:

Of course, I’ll have to pluck stray eyebrow hairs that like to grow in random locations. Like, seriously, right above my eyelids? What are you smoking, eyebrows -_-? Otherwise, I’ll leave it as is.

☆彡 Since I’m on the topic of beauty, I would really like to learn makeup one day. No time soon, but in the future. If I am going to attempt makeup then it has to be subtle. No neon green eye shadow with purple lipstick and bright red blush. I…I can’t do things like that. It has to look as natural as possible. The only thing I’ll use generously is maybe mascara and eyeliner. Even then it won’t be like…raccoon generous. Just enough to know it’s there. Once more, in the future. Far future. When I am confident with doing things like that. Right now, though, I have to focus on one thing at a time. Beauty will get my time when I’m ready.

☆彡 I keep thinking about how great it will be to finally attend art school. It’ll be expensive, yes, but leaving art school with the ability to do things like 3D renditions, animation, and character design…it’s really exciting! It’s one of those things that will help me career wise, and hobby wise. I guess the only thing to do now is wait. Have patience. See how things turn out. Then, once it all begins, put my best effort and do not slack off. Not even for a second. I’m sure that if I keep this mentality from start to finish I will graduate with impressive skills. Maybe impressive enough to work for big companies like Blizzard, Bioware, Square-Enix, Nintendo, Gearbox, LucasArts and Bungie. Who knows? I may be able to branch off into movie, cartoon, and comic books. An artist is an artist is an artist. Well, I’m not going to wait around until I graduate to make an impression. I’m going to draw everyday — all day — until my fingers fall off. Then I have to reattach them, of course, because I need them. But in the end I’ll be better! *pose*

Okay. That’s it. I’m going to go to bed. Not even remotely tired but…I’ll attempt to straighten this sleep schedule of mine out the best I can.

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