Ball So Hard Motherfuckers Wanna Fine Me

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I know how to party, amirite?

( Yes, this is “partying” by my standards. Welcome to Boringville. 😄 )

055: Pure Heart

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★彡  Yuna is such an eye-opening character. There is not a single playthrough of Final Fantasy X where Yuna does not remind me that it takes a lot to make sacrifices and even more to smile through them. When it comes to everything in life, from love to loss, I hope to approach it with the same elegance and purity that she possesses.

☆彡 I’m listening to “Dayvd” from Pogo, and the entire song is incredible, but everything after 2:20 is just…*brain explodes*

★彡 New Berserk! I’m trying not to be sad about the ‘Until Next Time’ thing though. I know that more than likely means that I won’t see another update until the summertime or something.

☆彡 It’s tough writing stories in chronological order these days. As long as I’ve been working on Mythos, I’ve just gotten around to writing the first part of the story. It’s only been a few days, and I already want to return to some other section of the story that doesn’t feel like it’s dragging to some type of purpose.

★彡 The one cosplay I’ve been wanting to do for ages is Link in his Zora armor.

☆彡 I really want to play Tales of Symphonia again, but I can’t find the second disc. *sigh* This sucks. I miss Zelos…and Regal…and thinking about what a great couple the two would be even though very few do. Okay, after this I am going on a hunt for it. I really want to play. And, no, I’m not driven by my shipping Zelos and Regal. I just can’t stop thinking about how much I love the plot, and how great the music is. It’s been too long.

★彡 Mori fashion is right up my alley. I don’t know why, but I love clothing that is really loose and has pastel colors. I’m not saying I never like tight clothing or bold colors. Actually, I’m more drawn to black clothing than anything. But fashion styles like mori and boho always fascinate me. At the risk of sounding cliche, it reflects who I am. Most of the time. Anyway, discussing fashion is pointless…at the moment. One, cannot afford all the clothes I want. Two, unless I lose a few pounds I will never feel “okay” in the clothes I want. So, it’s back to jeans and superhero shirts for me. No complaints there…but I’d like to venture outside of that at some point in my life. Even for a few days.

☆彡 I have days when I don’t want to eat anything, but I’m perfectly fine with drinking the drink of my choice all day. Actually, I remember when I was younger I had this sprite obsession and I told myself that when I was an adult, I would fill my entire refrigerator with nothing but sprite cans and put some hot pockets in the freezer just in case I do get hungry. It’s funny when I think about it at first, but it gradually becomes sad. Not having a fridge of sprite. That’s not sad at all. It’s just sad how many outrageous things I said I would do as an adult that I haven’t done at all. Maybe I’ll do some of those things, you know? I’ll build my fort and spend the entire day drawing inside of it, or I’ll make a throne of books where I will sit to read more books.

★彡 Tumblr always makes me realize that when no one gets me, there are 80,000 people around the world who do. That’s comforting in a strange way. Yet, at the same time, it’s sad to know that the last person who understood me lived in England and the other lives in some random city in North Dakota. It’s a double-edged sword I guess.

☆彡 At the risk of sounding like a complete pervert, I always feel like I am being rewarded for sitting patiently through a movie when I see a guy’s butt on screen. But it has to be a certain kind of butt. Some butts do nothing for me, and it feels like getting socks for Christmas. It’s a thanks-but-that’s-not-what-I-wanted type of thing.

★彡 While I was eating yesterday, I left my character standing somewhere in Whiterun and just enjoyed the music. Then, out of nowhere, this guy showed up and kept saying: “Spare a coin for a beggar? Spare a coin for a beggar?” It then dawned on me that even in a fictional world where there is tons of space and tons of adventures, there are still people who will stand six inches from you and annoy the crap out of you while you’re trying to enjoy yourself. There is no escape.

☆彡 I’d love to have a marathon of a series, but I have no idea which one I’d love to have a marathon of. *sigh* Decisions

…Nothing more to add. For now anyway.

051: Wounds That Heal

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(Whoever owns this CD collection knows how to party.)

☆彡 Every time I see the attic scene in Kill Bill, I remember all those frantic days spent searching for the origin of that song (By the way, it is called “Kaifuku Suru Kizu/Wounds That Heal”. It was performed by Salyu for the film All About Lily Chou-Chou–a soul-crushing movie). It is beautiful. Listen.

★彡 I am sick again. Yay! My annual sinus infection torture fest started in full swing on Christmas Eve, and hasn’t stopped tormenting me since. As Mark said, 2012 isn’t done shitting on us yet. Not until we both meet the new year worse than how we started. Fuck you, 2012.

☆彡 Oh, yeah. Christmas. It was great. We received a lot of wonderful gifts. Of course, there is the 360 that we both saved up money for, and agreed to share ownership of as a Christmas gift. No regrets at all there. We also received a buttload of giftcards, shirts (for Mark), Bath and Body Works stuff (for me), a wok, a blanket that we keep wrasslin’ eachother for, candy, DVDs, art supplies (for me), writing supplies (for me), action figures (for Mark), and…I believe that was it. My brain is scrambled right now. I’m sorry if I forgot anything. Overall, I’m incredibly grateful. Thanks! >_<

★彡 Speaking of gifts, Mark bought Minecraft with one of his gift cards, and he has been inseparable from that game ever since. On the first day, he played for literally 12 hours. I haven’t really had the energy to play until last night. I won’t lie. It is incredibly enjoyable. Since I was pretty much out of it when I started, Mark told me to just join him in co-op, and mess with things until I get a feel of the game. A few hours later, I’m making chests full of weapons, and reconstructing our entire house and exploring underground caverns. It’s so awesome.

☆彡 This entire time, Mark and I thought that the XBox was already set to HD. So, when we first started playing it we kept gasping at how amazing HD game play is. As it turns out, our XBox wasn’t even set up for HD yet. Yesterday, we got the proper cord, set up HD, and both yelled: “WHOOOOAAA!” for what was probably an entire minute. I mean, the standard definition already looked very beautiful. I didn’t think it could get anymore beautiful than that! This means that we now have to replay all types of games that we thought looked lovely, and see how lovely they really look. Thank you, technology. ~_~

★彡Aziz Ansari is funny as hell. I probably mentioned that already.

☆彡 I bade farewell to Hulu…because it never works. It doesn’t work on either of the consoles or the computer. Whenever we contact Hulu about it, they tell Mark and me that it is our fault somehow. First, it was our internet connection. So, we tested Hulu at someone else’s house with their internet. Then they basically tell us that our laptop and Wii sucks (oh hell no). So, we try it on the XBox 360. They tell us our XBox is old (hell…no….). We put it on hold for a few weeks. During those few weeks, we get a different internet company and this new XBox. Not for Hulu, but for ghastly customer service on the internet side, and broken XBox on the XBox side. Now they tell us that our new XBox and internet sucks. So, Hulu can suck my balls. I’m going to test crunchyroll as a source of anime, and see how that goes. Everything else I can watch on Netflix pretty much. *shrug*

★彡 We finally finished Sword Art Online. I really love it! I’m thinking of watching it again whenever I get the time. ^_^

☆彡 Link always finds a random box to dwell in. This time, an approximately 7″ x 6″ box that came from…I don’t even remember. This is pretty much all the gift he needs. If we buy him a toy, he’ll ignore it. If we buy him a cat playground, he’ll ignore it. If we put a random box aside, he’ll become obsessed with it.

★彡 The concept of cool and uncool is idiotic. What is strange now will be considered the norm in a few years, and what is the norm now will be strange in a couple of years. It keeps repeating like this over and over. Only a few people ever notice this cycle and say to themselves: “Well, that’s pointless. I’m just going to do what I feel like doing.” Actually, it’s that small group of individualistic people who actually set the so-called “trends” in society because only they are capable of new ideas and new approaches to life. This is why some people are genuinely passive to terms like “weird”, “strange”, “unpopular”, “uncool”, and etc. To be like everyone else and never think for one’s self is the ultimate insult in their minds.

☆彡 I really want to see After Earth. Maybe it will restore M. Night Shymalan’s credibility as a director after the monstrosity that was The Last Airbender.

★彡 The english translation of Hyrule Historia is almost here! *tosses confetti everywhere* I miss purchasing artbooks. It’s one of those things I never get tired of looking at. To this day, I still spend hours skimming through my Clamp, Escaflowne, and Nier artbooks. I would love to add an artbook from Shigeki Maeshima to my collection.

Ugh, I don’t feel like writing anymore. Going to take a power nap or something. Before I go, I’ll post some Shigeki Maeshima stuff. >_>

 

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049: *hyperventilates*

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A LOT OF THINGS TO BE EXCITED ABOUT.

☆彡 THE HOBBIT WAS AMAZING!!! No, it wasn’t an exact replica of the book or The Lord of the Rings trilogy (which seems to be the biggest complaint amongst the haters next to ‘OMG THE 48FPS RUINED MAH LIFE’ foolishness), but overall it was great. I do plan to see it again. Probably on Christmas. Also, can we take a second to acknowledge that Thranduil is the fiercest bitch in all of Tolkien’s legendarium? I could not even when he flipped his hair and walked away on that luxurious moose. Ugh. Fabulous.

★彡 WE FINALLY GOT A NEW XBOX 360!!! (I’m killing these caps and exclamation marks tonight) 250 GB of ebony perfection. *embraces* It also came with a copy of Skyrim…which is currently downloading and has been at 2% for the past 30 minutes…so, it’s going to be a while. But, once it’s done, it will be known with more caps and exclamation marks, of course. *sigh* I can’t wait. The bundle also came with a racing game, but I’m not interested in that.

☆彡 Mark and I got the Alien quadrilogy boxset and the ultimate edition of Legend for $20.00. Brand new. Not even kidding. This week is going to be…I don’t even know. I am not even going to leave the house. It’s not like I ever do, but now it’s going to be twice as bad.

★彡 I found this beautiful copy of The Hobbit novel for $5.00. I really love the cover art. I’ve been staring at it ever since I got it. I’m telling you, Book Nooks is the place to go.

☆彡 Mark and I enjoyed the hibachi dinner at our job. It was fucking delicious. And the hibachi chef “served” me as he put it. LOL. Basically, he told me to lift my plate for vegetables, and then put the vegetables in Mark’s plate instead. I won’t lie. I was dying! Oh yeah. We also won a raffle, and got this bluetooth phone set. It’s really neat. Too bad I don’t talk much. D:

 

 

…Lamest entry ever, but it might explain any prolonged absences that occur.

Almost Reviews: Silent Hill – Revelations and The Man With The Iron Fists

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Mad spoilers.

Silent Hill: Revelation – 4/10

  • I’ve come to the conclusion that any movie title that reads “Movie Title: ______-tion” will immediately suck.
  • Smh at Pyramid basically becoming an esper. I guess when shit gets real, he’s the one to summon. On a serious note, I am still trying to figure out how an executioner turned into a babysitter. It’s like watching Freddy Kruegar become a hairdresser…or Arnold Schwarzenegger become a pregnant man.
  • Heather Mason was the only decent thing in that entire movie which crushes my soul.
  • Carrie-Anne Moss is a great actress who I know would have done an exceptional job in portraying the tragedy of Claudia Wolf. Instead, (a)she is barely shown in the movie, and (b)she is used in a horrible way to force an unnecessary final battle sequence. I sighed so hard during the last 10-15 minutes of the movie.
  • I’m still laughing at Pyramid Head operating the carousel. So, he’s a babysitter and an amusement park worker. Must be making some side cash for the holidays.
  • The music was amazing, of course. Akira Yamaoka always makes amazing music. Jeff Danna is not bad either.
  • Visually, the movie was stunning. The only scene that looked like crap to me was the mannequin scene. That monster was overly ‘shopped and not even remotely disturbing.
  • OT: I really wanted to chokeslam the girl behind me who kept calling Heather a ‘dumb bitch’. Considering the amount of times she screamed (and the movie wasn’t even scary), I am going to take a wild guess and say that she wouldn’t last two seconds in Silent Hill. So, yeah…have a seat. Or, in that case, stand up and sit back down again.
  • I hope the ending was just an easter egg/cameo, and not a way of saying that the next movie will be about Downpour.
  • Overall, I am not shitting on the movie. It is okay as a horror movie, but disappointing as a SH movie. From what I read, the guy who was involved in the first movie is in jail or something, and this current guy worked on Solomon Kane. So…yeah…that actually explains a lot.
  • I wouldn’t buy the DVD or anything. It’s one of those “once is enough” type of movies.

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The Man With The Iron Fists – 7/10

  • This comes as no surprise, but the soundtrack was nice.
  • The plot was kind of WTF, but it is a movie about a black man in ancient China who eventually gets iron fists. Then again, I heard that the movie was supposed to be 4 hours long, yet it was truncated to 90 minutes. So, that also explains why the story felt so choppy and off-balance.
  • As much as I like the RZA, I really think he was a poor choice for the protagonist.
  • The fight scenes were fun, which is why they should have had more.
  • Me, as soon as Brass Body showed up on screen: “OH SHIT IT’S BATISTA!”
  • Madame Blossom’s death was so unnecessary. I really hate that crap in movies. “Oh, look at me kicking ass for five minutes. Now I’m going to turn my back for one second, and UGH DEAD.”
  • Visually, it was very pleasant.
  • I’d buy the DVD…mostly to “brush up” on the dialogue. I missed out on some of the things said because the music was way louder than the dialogues for some reason.
  • All I could think during the battle scene with the Geminis vs Lions was Bayonetta. Dem guns in random locations.
  • Not a bad movie. It did what it was trying to do: pay homage to old school karate/kung-fu flicks. It had some flaws here and there, but it wasn’t so overbearing that I disliked it.

As always, everything on this blog is my opinion, and it is not meant to be an agree-with-me-or-you’re-a-(random insult) type of thing.

With that said, I shall continue with more almost reviews in the future. More than likely, my next one will be “The Hobbit: An Unexpected Journey”

*crosses fingers*

047: Dawn Breaks Like A Bull Through The Hall

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★彡 I SAW AND HEARD DARK SOULS II THINGS AND WTF I AM SHAKING AND CRYING TEARS OF HAPPINESS AND MY BODY WASN’T READY FOR THIS YET FUUUUUUUCK.

☆彡 Tomorrow, I see Silent Hill: Revelations and The Man With The Iron Fists. Yet another thing to be excited about. 😀

★彡 Somehow, one sick day turned into a four-day weekend. I’m not happy about that at all. Thursday was understandable. I had a 100 degree fever, back-to-back migraines, and nausea so bad that I don’t know how in the world I didn’t throw up that day. Friday though…Okay, I’ll admit, I wasn’t 100%. I still had a fever, but it was only 99. I was fine enough to do work. I resent being sent home to just sit in bed, and wallow over the money I’m not making. I’m not angry at my boss at all. She was only looking out for me and everyone else (which is what I like about her) but I’m just…frustrated. Christmas is right around the corner. I can’t afford to have  two days off like that. I don’t know what I’m rambling about. I should be grateful. I did have a great day with Mark since he was off on Friday. Hell, he’s even going to be off on Sunday too. So, I can smile about that, right? 🙂

☆彡 Thanks to the two days off mentioned, I finally finished Deep Space Nine. The last moment of the show where Jake is watching the wormhole with Kira beside him–UGH RIGHT IN THE FEELS. I’ve already moved on to Voyager, and I must say that I really like Captain Kathryn Janeway. Actually, there isn’t a ST captain that I don’t adore. They’re all so wonderful. ❤

★彡 Getting this Dark Knight trilogy was a flawless choice. I’ve been watching the movies on loop since I got them. It’s so much better watching the entire thing from start to finish in one sitting. It leaves the details nice and crisp.

☆彡 I thought my obsession with Morning Glory stationery ended in my adolescence. It didn’t.

★彡 Netflix has all these Disney movies now thanks to a deal they made. I’m starting with The Fox and The Hound (which I’ve never seen) before I move on to The Aristocats (never finished it, but saw most of it), Alice in Wonderland, and then Pocahontas. The Nightmare Before Christmas is another possibility too. It’s all going to be very nostalgic indeed.

☆彡 If everyone has a purpose in life, I believe mine is storytelling. Whether it’s drawing or writing stories, I enjoy telling them. There is a feeling I can’t quite explain when I create a story, and someone tells me: “What happens next? Please work on it! I need to know the rest!” It’s not really pride. It’s…I don’t know. The closest feeling to it is when someone gives you an important task to complete, and you not only complete it, you go beyond their expectations. It’s that happiness with yourself and your abilities. There really is nothing like it.

★彡 I don’t have a New Year’s resolution list to share this year. Instead, I have a “Shit You Should Have Done Like Five Years Ago and It’s Really Pathetic That It’s Taking This Long” list. I don’t feel like posting it.

☆彡 Random Conversation:

Mark: “Doesn’t my character look like Geralt?”

Me: “Yes. Now I want to touch his butt.”

Mark: “What?”

Me: “What?”

(On a serious note, Geralt has a nice butt and everything else. Permission to post Geralt? For me? Why, you shouldn’t have! )

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★彡 Tina Turner singing “Goldeneye”. Perfection.

*sigh* Six hours away from Mark getting home, enjoying dinner, and watching Sword Art Online. I’m so impatient right now. -__-

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☆彡 Sword Art Online is amazing. I thought the entire series was already complete when I started it, but it turns out that it is still going.  In other words, I have to wait every week for new updates. *falls to the floor slowly*

★彡 I managed to get Mark hooked on Star Trek: Deep Space Nine. Fufufu~! With no influence from me, though, he decided that Odo was his favorite character too. It’s understandable. Odo is extremely likable  I love that “getting really tired of your bullshit” look he constantly wears. Then again, Odo is always tired of everyone’s bullshit–especially Quark. Quark is probably going to get choked out at some point in the series.

☆彡 Yes, I know about Halo 4. No, I’m not playing it. My 360 is still out of commission. It was just a matter of time, really. I got the system in 2008, and it ran without any type of issue until this year. So…it’s time for me to consider a replacement instead of constantly repairing it, having it work for a few days/weeks, and then breaking again. Of course, I will be on Halo 4 like white on rice the moment I get a new 360 though. I just need to find a way to get $400 extra dollars. Good luck with that, right? 😄

★彡 Congrats to President Obama on his second term. I was legit concerned about Romney taking the White House. I don’t trust anyone who believes that certain individuals should not have rights because their belief says so. It’s like me saying: “I don’t believe in eating ice cream because my religion says so. So, I’m banning ice cream for everyone.” It’s just a dick move…and anyone who cannot understand how that is dick move has no business running a country. I don’t agree with everything Obama has done, but Romney is no remedy to Obama’s mistakes. That’s for sure.

☆彡 Nanowrimo is not going well so far. I have maybe…3,000 words so far, and I’m already thinking about deleting all of them. I already know what my issue is. I make things too complex. The moment I start a new story, I try to create new worlds and universes rather than start in the one that I live in. I did find this plot generator website, and some of the suggestions are not bad at all. There is nothing like finding a good writing prompt. In the past, one good writing prompt gave me hundreds of pages to write. I just have to stop focusing on nitpicking at every error. I just have to write freely and edit later. *sigh* Well…seven days in, 0 words–if I restart. I better get my ass in gear.

★彡 Movies I Want To See Before 2013: The Man With the Iron Fists, Silent Hill: Revelations, Skyfall, The Hobbit, Wreck-it Ralph, Cloud Atlas, Life of Pi, Django Unchained, and…I think that’s it.

☆彡 Programming is…soothing. I don’t know what it is. It’s just a never-ending puzzle for me. When things go smoothly, I feel accomplished. When they don’t, I feel challenged. I do enough programming crap on my free time to just get a degree in it. Probably make some ridiculous cash in the process. *sigh* I don’t know. The moment I start to associate my past times with money, I feel pressure. I just don’t want something I love to become another thing to be stressed about. I don’t need anyone telling me that how I approach a hobby of mine isn’t “up to their standards”. I don’t want assholes in my sanctuary in other words. But I guess it isn’t about me. I’ll just…leave that alone for now.

★彡 There is no secret to relationships. The same way there is no secret to wealth, fitness, or success. It’s all a matter of sacrifice, or giving up something good for something better. That’s the “secret”…as anticlimactic as it may be. No product in the world will replace poor self-control, and there are companies out there just waiting to drain your wallet dry until you realize that. Mind you, I speak from experience. I know how it feels to be so desperate for change that you’ll listen to anyone; however, you can’t rely on other people to handle your problems. You have to learn to work with what you have. Everything you need is already within you…as cliche and cheesy as that may sound. So…yeah. I can’t sit here and write you a manual on what Mark and I do 24/7. It’s not going to help you to imitate our lives or any other couple’s lives. The lives that couples live are unique to their own personalities and circumstances. You just have to give up the quest for a magical relationship tip. It doesn’t exist. And I’m not even charging you $16.00 a book to tell you this. Yay! *tosses confetti*

Yep…I don’t have anything else to contribute. Got to handle crap. >_>

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☆彡 Bucket List: Part One

  • Own a motorcycle (and ride it daily)
  • Watch the entire Sailor Moon series from beginning to end in one sitting
  • Have $5,000 in my savings account
  • Finish a sketchbook
  • Meet the Dalai Lama
  • Meet Nobuo Uematsu
  • Travel to Canada
  • More cats
  • Not live in Georgia anymore (fuck I hate this place)
  • Learn Japanese or Esperanto
  • Attend E3 or Comic-Con at some point in my life
  • Go to bed before midnight every night (yeah right…)
  • Road trip to Seattle
  • Get a black belt in some form of martial arts
  • Buy a house
  • Get paid to draw
  • Finish a Pathfinder or D&D campaign
  • Write a book

☆彡 I promised not to speak lowly of myself or say untrue things to make others feel better. The way I see it, any person that expects me to bash myself so they can feel better is not a good person to be around. A good person to be around would support me. So…no thanks. Exchanging my confidence for a person I don’t really care about is a terrible trade.

☆彡 It is already April, yet Mark and I haven’t started a ‘The Matrix’ or ‘The Lord of the Rings’ marathon yet. I don’t know. I guess I’m more focused on The Legend of Korra, Game of Thrones, The Walking Dead, and a bunch of other shows I am missing because I lack cable. No excuses, right? I just need to lurk moar.

☆彡 Metric. Black Sheep. Help, I’m Alive. That is all.

☆彡 Finished Catching Fire today. I can’t believe the book just ended right there. *falls in a slow circle and dies* Oh well. I’m going to visit the library tomorrow and cross my fingers for a copy of Mockingjay.

☆彡 My sleep schedule is so stupid right now. I’d do just about anything to get to bed and wake up at decent hours. -.-

☆彡 I like speaking to people who succeed at losing a lot of weight (50 pounds or more) because they’re real. They’re not celebrities who secretly hire trainers or hire chefs to cook for them. They’re everyday men and women on limited budgets and time. I’ve picked up a lot of tips over the years, but in the end it really comes down to motivation…or, in my case, finding out why I am so intimidated by weight loss. I guess I already know the answer. I just don’t know how to face it properly. Long story short, I dealt with a lot of stalking, sexual harassment, and unpleasant things like that when I was thin. I didn’t intentionally put on weight to protect myself from that, but I did find that food was comforting and that being fat stopped a lot of harassment I faced. But, as someone told me, food is not my friend. It is not therapy. It is not filling any voids I have. It is just fuel. And she is extremely right. Eating junk is not going to make me happy in the end. I just have to take advantage of the thick skin I obtained over the years, and do what I have to do against people like that. I can keep practicing karate, and not only use that to get fit, but to also protect myself. I am not trying to come out of this as thin as I used to be. Being skinny is not a priority to me. More than anything, I want to be strong. That is why I am so obsessed with weight lifting, I guess. If I can train myself to bench press 150+ lbs. then I can probably grab someone by the neck and toss them aside. That’s more of an inspiration to me than bikinis and skinny jeans. I guess that’s weird, but what else is new, right? ^u^

☆彡 All of the unexpected bills Mark and I have been dealing with lately have been both a blessing and a curse. A curse because having more bills than money is never a good thing. But it’s a blessing because it forces us to lead a more humble life. The truth is that Mark and I do not enjoy indulgence. We’re always talking about moving to an isolated village, growing our own food, and living off our land. That’s the type of thing we consider paradise. But we fall into the same trap that a lot of people fall into. The I-need-it-now-or-never trap. It really makes us spoiled. Sometimes I think back to how we used to be when we were first going out, and what little we had between each other, and it makes me realize how much we’ve changed. I don’t want to become a slave to money, trinkets, and first-world luxuries, you know? Even if I win the lottery, I want to pursue that life we dream about where I work hard for the things I have.

☆彡 Spectrum Nexus had a prank for April Fools’ Day. They released a Berserk manga update, but when you go to read the manga the image won’t load. It’s just blurry and it says: “Loading error. Please try again later.” Of course, my first instinct on April Fools’ Day is to trust no one and nothing. So, I already went into the Berserk manga thinking: “Let’s see how this turns out,” but a lot of people were FURIOUS about it. The site owner even had to apologize for it. This only reaffirms what I already know: Do not fuck with Berserk fans. They are not playing around. If you say you have something Berserk related and you’re lying about it…prepare yourself. LOL. Seriously, I can imagine ‘Sign’ playing in the background the moment someone lies about a Berserk update. Then I can imagine the furious Berserk fan pulling out Guts’ sword out of nowhere and cleaving people in half. Yep. That may actually happen someday. Once more, do not fuck with Berserk fans. 😄

☆彡 Going through Dark Souls withdrawal. *weeps phantom tears* Why do I love you, Dark Souls, when you’re such a dick? ;-;

☆彡 For some reason, my eyebrows are growing very thick after I shaped them up last time. I was going to shape them up again, but I realized that I am better off with thick eyebrows. Neat eyebrows are great for people who are very meticulous about how they dress…but I’m fairly tomboyish. I don’t think a tomboy with neat eyebrows is a great combination. At least not for me. LOL. Besides, I’ve been introduced to the whole ‘ulzzang’ culture and most of those girls do nothing to their eyebrows. And they still look incredibly pretty! Here’s an example:

Of course, I’ll have to pluck stray eyebrow hairs that like to grow in random locations. Like, seriously, right above my eyelids? What are you smoking, eyebrows -_-? Otherwise, I’ll leave it as is.

☆彡 Since I’m on the topic of beauty, I would really like to learn makeup one day. No time soon, but in the future. If I am going to attempt makeup then it has to be subtle. No neon green eye shadow with purple lipstick and bright red blush. I…I can’t do things like that. It has to look as natural as possible. The only thing I’ll use generously is maybe mascara and eyeliner. Even then it won’t be like…raccoon generous. Just enough to know it’s there. Once more, in the future. Far future. When I am confident with doing things like that. Right now, though, I have to focus on one thing at a time. Beauty will get my time when I’m ready.

☆彡 I keep thinking about how great it will be to finally attend art school. It’ll be expensive, yes, but leaving art school with the ability to do things like 3D renditions, animation, and character design…it’s really exciting! It’s one of those things that will help me career wise, and hobby wise. I guess the only thing to do now is wait. Have patience. See how things turn out. Then, once it all begins, put my best effort and do not slack off. Not even for a second. I’m sure that if I keep this mentality from start to finish I will graduate with impressive skills. Maybe impressive enough to work for big companies like Blizzard, Bioware, Square-Enix, Nintendo, Gearbox, LucasArts and Bungie. Who knows? I may be able to branch off into movie, cartoon, and comic books. An artist is an artist is an artist. Well, I’m not going to wait around until I graduate to make an impression. I’m going to draw everyday — all day — until my fingers fall off. Then I have to reattach them, of course, because I need them. But in the end I’ll be better! *pose*

Okay. That’s it. I’m going to go to bed. Not even remotely tired but…I’ll attempt to straighten this sleep schedule of mine out the best I can.

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☆彡 It’s semi-official. I’m attending Full Sail University to get my Bachelor’s in Game Design. It’s an online 32-month course where I take one class per month. So, it’s pretty fast-paced. As soon as I complete the admissions process, I’ll get my launch box (mac book and a bunch of software for classes). I already did my 2012-2013 FAFSA, so I am set there. I want to tackle my admissions before May rolls around in order to start classes this fall. So…that’s my goal! Honestly, I am very excited. I’ve been researching my favorite game companies, and many of them are hiring game programmers/designers. I really want to work for Gearbox because they are AWESOME. Holy shit, they are awesome. Benefits for me and my family as soon as I walk through the door? Free Gearbox games? Free lunch everyday? Getting paid more money than I can spend to make video games? WHAAAAT? Yeah, I’m excited. LOL. I do expect the worst, but thinking about the bad constantly is not some type of foolproof method of handling life. It’s just…disheartening, you know? So, I’d rather think of positive things…like getting my dream career in the gaming industry. I can think about that all day.

☆彡Mark, Daniel, Brandon, and I have been going out to the movies recently. So far, we’ve seen Chronicles and Ghost Rider: Spirit of Vengeance, and it’s been a blast. The discussions we have after each movie are hilarious. I go home with a headache every time from laughing so much. We’re already talking about seeing The Avengers and The Dark Knight Rises together…and dressing in Batman clothing to watch The Dark Knight Rises…so it’s going to be fun. And we’ve been playing some Phantasy Star Zero using the multiplayer mode, so I better start leveling up my character.

☆彡 I’m drawing with charcoal again. Messy, but fun. For some odd reason, I draw more realistic drawings with such a messy medium as opposed to a neat medium like pencils. I’m also following tutorials here and there to learn perspective drawings. So, it’s kind of safe to say that I am slowly but surely stepping away from my current habits (drawing anime-esque flat characters), and trying different things. Or, better yet, returning to different things…things I pretty much abandoned after HS art classes. Either way, it’s nice to try different things. Especially since I am growing so tired of my art style. I seriously hate it. I can’t even look at my own drawings anymore because I hate it that much.

☆彡 Not much progress in video games to be honest. As much as I adore the games in my current playlist (Skyward Sword, Dark Souls, Dynasty Warriors: Gundam 3, and Lost Odyssey), I’m just not in the mood to play them as of late. I am currently playing Mass Effect on and off to prepare myself for the third one…which I won’t get a hold of until months from now…and the girl at Gamestop (who had the most amazing yellow-green eyes I’ve ever seen in my life) pretty much had a meltdown with Mark and me over the fact that a prothean may join your party in a DLC. We also discussed which party member would be better: a hanar or an elcor. I vote elcor. Can you imagine one in your party? “Worried observation: Shit is about to hit the fan.”

☆彡 The car situation is still going. It is being repaired and bought to ‘like new’ condition by the insurance company, which is great, but we have to pay the deductible…and it is not cheap. LOL. I guess I’m not surprised. Insurances companies are businesses at the end of the day, and I didn’t see them towing, storing, and repairing our vehicle for free. And our deductible is far cheaper than the cost of everything, so, yeah. Nonetheless, IT NEVER ENDS. *flips desk*

☆彡 I tried this elbow pasta with laughing cow cheese recipe, and it is amazing! Look it up and try it! I left out the peas though…because Mark hates everything that is green minus asparagus and lettuce. LOL

☆彡 I have a lot of website-related things to do. Basically, I have to change my website from a personal domain to an online portfolio, revamp my domain blog for art-related updates only, create a logo/mascot, and…I believe that is it. The goal is to have something to put on my resume that I can show to future employers in the gaming industry. Eventually, all of my character designs, concept arts, renditions, and videos of game projects will be up there. Until that is all done, I have to do my best to master photoshop since I’ll be working with it soon enough. I have a 30-day trial from Adobe to play around with, and a program called GIMP that is supposed to be a free imitation of Photoshop. So play I shall!

☆彡 I love the whole concept of Biophilia. For one, it’s an entire album about physics. Sure, I suck at physics (LOL), but I still love it. Space, gravity, how matter interacts with matter — it’s super fascinating. It’s really neat that Bjork would make an entire album about it. Even more, she found a way to make her listeners interact with music. You not only listen, but you touch it and see it. I really wish I had an iPhone or iPad so I could download her app. I’d love to play along with the moon phases.

☆彡 I can’t believe my seven year old nephew beat Smash Brothers Brawl in less than a month. It took me like three months to get all of the characters. LOL! Then I was playing with him yesterday and I could not beat Wolf for the life of me. He beat Wolf in less than five minutes. I said damn! Mark and I think that he could probably beat Dark Souls in less than a week…where we are taking months. I know he can. He’s really good!

☆彡 I haven’t watched the new Super Sentai because I’m still sad about Gokaiger being gone.  Like…Super Sentai should have just ended after Gokaiger. *sigh* …I’ll give Gobusters a chance eventually, but I’m just skeptical.

☆彡It’s now $25 to adopt a neutered/spayed, vaccinated, FHIV tested, and microchipped cat from PetSmart. I’m so tempted! I seriously go every week to spend time with the cats there. I wish I could become an official crazy cat lady, and adopt them all. We did bring Link two weeks ago to see how he would react to the other cats, and was hissing and growling at them. Did not expect that at all because he’s very silent and friendly around the strays and the people who come over our place. The lady at PetSmart taught us how to make cats become used to one another though, so it should be fine. Link is just a little territorial right now. He’ll get over it in time.

☆彡 Random Conversation:

Me: “Liara haters don’t exist. You have people who love Liara, and people who choose to fight the fact that they love Liara.”
Mark: “I don’t really care for Liara–”
Me: “YOU DON’T EXIST.”
Mark: “:(”

Later. ♥

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