091: Did You Know My Head Is At Your Crotch Level? I’m Trying Not To Think About It.

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✪ Personal Life ✪

Honestly, my personal life is just waiting for Dragon Age: Inquisition. I have not been “here” since I preordered that game, so…there is that.

 

✪ Art & Writing ✪

Not much writing or drawing. I did start on a story for NaNoWriMo, but I doubt I will get it done in time. Especially with DA:I coming out in less than ten days. More than likely, I’ll keep working on the story because I am really enjoying it. It’s about a girl who is desperate for a job, and ends up accepting an assistant position for a supervillain. She knows that the supervillain is a horrible person, but the pay is amazing and she gets a lot of cool yet weird perks…like minions to clean her house and stuff. I have never really tackled a comedy story before, so it’s fun. TBH it feels more like a manga. I think I will start drawing it pretty soon. Of course, I am always working on Mythos The Millennium Sorceress, so that’s all good. All is good in the creative world~

 

✪ Anime & Manga ✪

  • …What the fuck is Terraformars? Mark and I were in tears over the jacked cockroaches, but we eventually decided to just overlook the overabundance of muscles in this anime and get into the story. Then came the censorship. It might be Crunchyroll, but every time a gruesome death happens this black bar blocks out everything. So that pissed us off. We are interested in the story. That is the aggravating thing. We just cannot stop laughing at the things we consider ridiculous, and then the fucking black bars on everything. *sigh* The shit I put up with to follow a plot. It really makes no sense sometimes.
  • I’m really getting into Wolf Girl and Black Prince. I know Erika and Sata are going to inevitably end up together, but Kusakabe is so adorable. If given the option between someone mean like Sata, and a sweetheart like Kusakabe then I would choose the latter. That might make me “boring” but oh well.
  • I finished the Aku no Hana anime and decided to move on the manga to see what happened after that ending. Yeah…I thought Takao and Sawa were messed up, but nope. Saeki is slowly taking that cake.
  • Because Mark won’t stop bugging me about it I am reading All You Need Is Kill. It better be as flawless and amazing as he claims. -_-

 

✪ Video Games ✪

  • After I trade in my 3DS they announce the Majora’s Mask 3D game. *internal screaming* I’m kidding. It’s cool since (a) Mark still has his 3DS, (b) Majora’s Mask won’t get here until Spring 2015, (c) I got Mark a copy of Fantasy Life with the trade-in credit (He is 1000% in love with that game BTW. I never stop hearing about it. LOL), and (d) I got to preorder the ultimate Dragon Age: Inquisition with the rest. Speaking of DA:I…
  • HOLY FUCK I’M EXCITED. I honestly did not think I would be able to play it until next year because…well…I just rarely have the funds to buy games on the first day. Or I do have the funds but my frugality makes it impossible for me to enjoy the game without guilt because it is over $20. Either way, I did not foresee myself getting DA:I on the first day, better yet the ultimate edition with all the preorder goodies. Sometimes I see the 18th on the calender and I have to remind myself that there is a copy at Gamestop actually waiting there for me. Maybe to play at midnight. I don’t know. The last time I went to a midnight release was for Final Fantasy XIII, so it has been a while. Man…less than ten days. If I could just fast forward time that would be great.

 

✪ Books ✪

  • What I love about Haruki Murakami is how gradually he includes supernatural elements into his stories, as if they have always been there and the reader is just learning about it through someone else’s story. In other words he has a talent for seamlessly including the supernatural into everyday normal life without it coming off as an obvious fantasy story. That is something I can kind of relate to. Growing up, I believed a bunch of weird things like aliens living amongst us and turning into their true forms the moment I turned my back. Because of that I used to carry around compact mirrors as a kid in hopes of catching one of them mid-transformation. I also used to believe what Aomame believes about crossing dimensions unknowingly, and like her that assumption was triggered when I did not know something that everyone else around me considered common knowledge. I…was a weird kid. Scratch that, I am still weird. Knowing all of that, it is nice to find the works of authors who use their weirdness to create beautiful stories. It has a purpose outside of constant ostracization and being badgered with questions about my thinking process! LOL
  • The World of Ice and Fire is greaaaat~ I am only borrowing it right now, but I would love to buy it, take my time examining all the beautiful art, and reading every little detail about GRRM’s world. It is inspiring. My imagination has been a little lifeless lately, but it grows vivid the moment I am introduced to someone else’s imagination. The mind is a beautiful thing. I must never let it go to waste. That is something I am learning each time I experience the joy of reading another person’s story.

 

✪ Music ✪

  • Find Drag-on Dragoon 3 DLC OST. Add “Chaotic Song”, “Better End”, “Tsukiru/Exhausted”, “This Silence is Mine”, and “Kuroi Uta/Black Song” to my queue. Put that shit on repeat for the rest of my life. That has pretty much been my  music activity. The originals are great on their own (Well, Chaotic Song was originally Thirteenth Chapter Final in Drag-on Dragoon 1, and it was just a bunch of bells…but it is unique. I don’t mind listening to it), but to hear them reprised into battle themes is just god tier shit.
  • I really love Pogo’s remixes. “Psycho Soup” is great, and gives me hope that he will remix more video games in the future. Maybe anime too. Who knows? He always surprises me with his songs. My favorite remix is still “Hundred Acre Rain” though. Instant picker upper.

 

✪ TV & Movies ✪

  •  Maleficent – Eh… It was okay. I am liking this new Disney trend of princesses being rescued by someone other than a prince though. I love princesses like Mulan and Tiana who save themselves, but a princess being rescued by a family member or villain is a fresh angle too.
  • The Edge of Tomorrow – Not bad at all. Since Mark insists the story/manga is better I will read that.
  • WWE – I’m playing catch up right now. I’m also crossing my fingers and hoping that the authority crumbles.
  • South Park – I’m not sure what is happening, but I barely laughed in recent episodes. This happens sometimes. The creators of SP try so hard to express their opinion on political issues that they kind of overlook the comedy aspect. Oh well…
  • ANTM – It’s getting to a point where I don’t want anyone to get eliminated because I like them all. Raelia leaving just sucked, man. She should definitely keep modeling no matter what.

I’m sure I watched other things, but I can’t remember them all right now.

 

✪ Whatever Else/Closing ✪

Before I go, I’d like to remind all the people who like to command strangers to watch their shit while they use the bathroom to beware of individuals like me. Because we will laugh, walk away, and leave your shit sitting there. Or if you meet someone like my past co-worker, he will straight up toss your shit in the trash. Lesson: pretend that your parents raised you properly. It takes a few seconds to say, “Hey, I’m sorry to bother you, but can you watch my drink while I take a piss?” Most of the time, someone will say: “Sure,” and be glad to help someone out. But if you just go to a stranger and bark: “Watch my drink!” (which happened to me) then…yeah. Your drink is going to get abandoned, and if someone cleaning up asks me if the drink is mine I’m just going to say nope. Then you can spend another $3 at Burger King getting a large drink because you had to be a dick and order around people who have no obligation to obey you. Whomp whomp.

Aaand I’m off. I got some mangas to catch up on.

 

090: Nornir

FFXV looks amazing.

Trying to reorganize my blog entries again. Bear with me.

✪ Personal Life ✪

  • Whenever I get sick I sometimes remember that the purpose of the “bug” is to kill me, not to inconvenience me, and it brings home that death is always right around the corner. Also, I am fun at parties.
  • I kind of want to give myself a high five right now because I had this long list of shit I wanted to clean and organize (as I try to do every change of season), and I tackled it today. While I am still semi-sick. But at the same time I kind of want to kick myself in the face because when I’m healthy I never do shit, yet when I’m sick I suddenly find a bunch of energy and invest 4-5 hours into chores. I am too backwards for my own good. D:
  • Halloween is almost here~ That’s the day that I dump a bunch of candy into my pumpkin bowl, turn off all the lights so trick-or-treaters won’t ask me for any, and watch scary movies until I pass out. It’s gonna be NICE. Hopefully. But I never know.
  • 99% of the time when I refer to someone as “my baby” or “my boo” IRL I am talking about either Link or Levi(athan). The cat and the car respectively.

✪ Art & Writing ✪

  • Titles are a headache. I know that “Mythos” is not good enough anymore, yet nothing else seems to be good enough either. Mark suggested having a name for the series (ex: GRRM’s “A Song of Fire and Ice”) and then naming each book based individually (ex: “A Game of Thrones”, “A Feast for Crows”, “A Storm of Swords”, etc.). That’s not a bad idea. In fact, his advice led me to a series name (“The Millennium Sorceress”). The issue though is that I am not even set on the idea of books. I’ll bring that to the next bullet.
  • The more I work on “Mythos” (let’s just stick with the usual title until I am set on “TMS” or anything else), the more it feels like an RPG. And it makes sense. I began this project because I was inspired by RPGs like Final Fantasy and Chrono Cross. I like the whole travelling around the world, meeting party members, and telling stories through dialog and battles. Actually, I’m waiting for RPG Maker VX Ace to go back on sale again so I can start working with it. It’s about $60 on Steam right now, but it was $15 once. So I’ll wait. Until then I’ll try “Mythos” as an RPG instead. Let’s see if that helps this horrible writer’s block I am dealing with.
  • Nanowrimo is around the corner, but I don’t think I will participate this year. My creative juices are flowing more towards the technical side (drawing, creating maps, making skill trees, etc.) than the writing side. I really am a shit writer. I can’t explain things as beautifully and poetically as the writers I admire. *pouts* Oh well…
  • Drawing comics about the things that are bothering me can be really therapeutic. Oddly enough, it is not revisiting unpleasant things and making them comical that makes me feel relaxed. It is more the freedom to be meticulous. Whipping that ruler out, drawing perfect lines, being uber-cautious with inking–that is the part that makes me feel…in control. I just like the feeling of taking something as chaotic as something I cannot avoid, like misfortune, and making it all neat. Manageable, even. It’s comforting.

✪ Anime & Manga ✪

I tried out the Funimation and Crunchyroll apps for two weeks, and I managed to catch up on a bunch of animes.

  • Monthly Girls’ Nozaki-Kun – I really love this anime. It’s lighthearted. It’s funny. The main character is really easy to relate to while the supporting characters remind me of so many people I know. It’s just a feel-good anime that I can see myself rewatching the moment the series is done. Also, that ending song. It’s so cute and it’s stuck in my head. D:
  • Gintama – I will get the Crunchyroll app just to finish this anime. Seriously. Within the first minute or so I was dying of laughter.
  • Tonari no Seki-kun – Another funny anime. Seki reminds me so much of Mark. He just has an endless supply of tiny toys that he does distracting stuff with. Seriously, we have been living in this apartment for a while and I am still discovering random toys in random places doing random things, and whenever I ask him to explain it he has some elaborate story for why they are there. So, it’s no surprise that he loved the hell out of this anime. It is a pretty cute anime. I just wish it was longer. 😦
  • Naruto Shippuden – Dude, I have not watched this anime in years. I came back to it to see what happened and found out Team 7/Team Kakashi is back together. What the fuck? Wasn’t Sasuke evil? Yeah… hella behind. I found out that Naruto is coming to an end really soon too, so that’s kind of bittersweet. I know Naruto gets shit on a lot (as anything remotely popular does), but…that’s fucking Naruto man. It’s going to be sad to see it go. I never got into One Piece, but I might start checking that anime out so I’m not without a staple shounen series to fall back on. Well…I have Toriko. That counts as shounen, right? Sometimes I forget because Toriko is an adult who is very, extremely manly. But so is Goku and DBZ is shonen anime/manga legend. It’s all good.
  • Dramatical Murder – Eh… Compared to the game it was very tame. I like the music though. I never skipped the opening and closing because I liked the songs a lot. The animation was also nice. I didn’t get to see much of my bb Mink, but it was still OK.
  • Sword Art Online II – Didn’t like it as much as I liked the first. Mark was really into it though.
  • Akame ga Kill! – Started off interesting. Got bored around episode 3 or 4. I might try again another time.
  • High School DxD – …What the fuck did I watch…? Pretty sure it was hentai.
  • The Idol Master – a.k.a. the anime based on the game that made Kentaro Miura stop working on Berserk. LOL. I saw the first episode, and it seemed adorable. I would not mind seeing how the rest goes.

Speaking of Berserk, that manga update. YES. I have been waiting for someone to slap the shit out of Griffith ever since the Eclipse, and I am so glad it was Rickert.  That blatant disrespect at the graveyard of swords too was just… Yeah. He needed the taste slapped out of his mouth. Well, I think he deserves much more than that–MUCH MUCH MORE–but to get pimp slapped at his own tea party by a kid in front of all of his friends was pretty nice. 10/10. Not okay with that ‘Til’ Next Time’ though.

✪ Video Games ✪

  • I doomed my FFVII replay by going to that fucking Northern Cave. Now that I completed the game I just have no motivation to do anything else. It kind of sucks. There are still weapons to beat and special items to get, but I have this sense of closure from completing the game. Maybe I’ll play tomorrow or something. IDK.
  • Alien: Isolation was amazing. Please don’t listen to IGN’s review. The person who reviewed it was bitter about constantly dying and tried to blame the game for it. The thing is… he started the game on hard mode. Of course you will die a lot if you choose to play a game in hard mode. What were you expecting? Additionally, he mentioned his tactic of hiding in the vents to avoid confronting a xenomorph, but xenomorphs travel through the vents. That’s like trying to avoid getting hit by a car by standing in the middle of the street. I’m sorry, but it irks the hell out of me when companies give poor reviews to games because they suck at it. A lot of people who worked hard to make a superior game can lose money and their jobs because of shit reviews like that. It’s just really irresponsible journalism. No one should never blame the quality of a product on their inability to handle it. I hate seeing reviews like that on sites like Amazon (“This product clearly says to do this but I’m going to do the opposite and bitch about it online.”), and I especially hate seeing reviews like that when it comes to games. /rant
  • My gaming life is still being consumed by Borderlands 2. This weekend was free gold weekend, so I took the opportunity to input a fuckton of shift codes. I have 100+ keys, new skins, new heads. It’s really nice. Lately, I’ve been grinding/farming with Maya in hopes of catching her up to Gaige, and I’m getting kind of close. Maya is level 13. Gaige is level 19. I just have to take my time around Tundra Express, and hope that I don’t run into any badass anythings. If I stick with the varkids and a few basic bandits I can level up pretty fast. It’s not a big deal though. Gaige is still my main character. I’m just curious about Maya’s phaselocking potential. 😛
  • Don’t talk to me about Hyrule Warriors, Super Smash Bros Wii U or Bayonetta 2 because I don’t have a Wii U and I don’t know when I’ll get one tbh (Yes, I know SSB is on the 3DS but I can’t afford that one either).
  • I played the Theatrhythm: Curtain Call demo, and it was so fun! I really want to play the full version. 200 Final Fantasy songs? Are you kidding me? I need that right now. ;_;
  • LET’S TALK ABOUT DRAGON AGE: INQUISITION THO.
  • Praying to the video game gods rn so I save up $400 and get a PlayStation 4.  I don’t want to imagine my life without Final Fantasy XV, Final Fantasy Type-0, The Witcher 3, Kingdom Hearts 3. What else am I missing? A bunch of games, I am sure. PLUS all the PSX classics. Just thinking about playing Xenogears in the immediate future makes me want to dance around. *sigh* Just gotta work hard. Keep tackling bills, taking care of home, and saving. I’ll get there soon enough.

✪ Books ✪

Nothing to really add here. I haven’t ventured beyond the same books I piled at my bedside last time. I’ve just been caught up in other hobbies. I am really looking forward to The World of Ice and Fire though. Like, REALLY looking forward to it. I’ve been annoying Mark with my excitement for it. Whoops. LOL. The same goes for the Chrono Cross Ultimania. I have my eyes on that too. It’s been out forever, but I’m deciding now to say “fuck it” and add it to my collection. Soon.

✪ Music ✪

  •  Is it safe to say that the Super Smash Bros. soundtracks are like the Lollapaloozas for game composers? Seriously, Nobuo Uematsu, Masashi Hamauzu, Yoko Shimomura, Yasunori Mitsuda,  Koji Kondo, Motoi Sakuraba, Keiichi Okabe, Mahito Yokota–LEGENDS. So, it’s safe to say that I am listening to a lot of SSB songs lately. The greatest thing is hearing my favorite composers revamp songs I have been listening to since I was a kid. I never get tired of it. I can hear 1,000 renditions of the Super Mario theme and still get an overwhelming urge to whip out my old school consoles.
  •  Kingdom Hearts 2.5 OST. EVERYTHING HAS BEEN REMADE WITH MORE VIOLINS. If this is a sample of what Yoko Shimomura is going to do with Final Fantasy XV then I am hyped as fuck. There are so many game soundtracks that I need in my life right now. It’s not even funny anymore. -_-

✪ TV & Movies ✪

Man, I don’t even know where to start.

  • South Park – The biggest premiere for me. Of course, SP is as funny and controversial as ever. The thing I am loving most, though, is the continuity. It’s neat that they’re carrying clues from episode to episode until the inevitable conclusion at the season finale. This is SP though. They might string the audience along just to come to an anticlimactic conclusion. Yeah, I can definitely see that happening. LOL
  • The Legend of Korra – Hilarious as always until something destroys my soul.
  • Grey’s Anatomy – …Why am I still watching this show? Seriously, Yang is gone. There is no point for me anymore.
  • Sons of Anarchy – JAAAAX!!! *kicks table over* GEMMAAAA!!! *kicks over all of the chairs* CHARMING IN GENERAL!!!! *flying kick to the window*
  • Gotham –  Not a bad show at all. I hate that I keep missing episodes though. I would be so far behind in everything were it not for Hulu.
  • American Horror Story – Never fails to creep me out. I love it.
  • SNL – Can we just have an entire hour about the nightclubs that Stefon goes to?
  • ANTM – Two words: beard weave. Please stop, Tyra. XDD
  • Forever – Interesting.
  • Agents of Shield – So far so good. If anything happens to Simmons and/or Fitz I am going to…do nothing. Just be really sad. :/
  • The Flash – !!!
  • Gracepoint– I LOVE THIS SHOW. Mark makes fun of me for taking it so seriously, but it is not a joke to me, and he knows there will be trouble if he changes the channel while Gracepoint in on. So much trouble.
  • Total Divas – Never really sat down and watched this show until recently. It’s…eye-opening, I guess? I honestly don’t feel like I’m learning anything about the wrestlers because everything feels scripted. It’s nice to see more of Naomi though. She needs that Divas championship like yesterday. I adore AJ, yes, but Naomi is more athletic to me. I need her to own it at some point.
  • Drunk History – I never get tired of this show. I think I watched a few episodes like three times already because they’re so funny and insightful. Watch it. Even if you’re like me and you rarely drink (or don’t drink at all) just watch it. It’s hilarious.
  • WWE – Last but not least this trash (LOL). Okay, I’ll admit. I was marking the fuck out when The Rock showed up. And he was in Brooklyn?! Yeah, I was happy about that. I’m bummed about Roman Reigns STILL being gone though. Dean Ambrose is filling the void he left, but with John Cena being forced into the Dean and Seth feud it just makes everything kind of…ugh. I don’t hate John Cena. I’m just tired of him. Yes, we get it. Hustle, you can’t see me, never give up. Whatever. Then again, I know he is mainly there for the little kids who never get tired of him, and not so much the adult fans who want  more interesting characters. That is where Dean comes in. He pretty much doesn’t give a shit and does whatever he wants, so I think that is why older fans adore him. Anyway, what’s next? Hell in the Cell? I’m rooting for Dean Ambrose to win. Still, I kind of want Brock Lesnar to show up and chew through the cell or something just to fuck everything up. That would be great.

I haven’t seen any new movies lately. I REALLY want to see Gone Girl.

✪ Whatever Else/Closing ✪

*phew* That was a lot!

Well, this week is going to be a long one for me. There is so much to get done. I only hope that with the spare time I find in between all of the annoying stuff that I can work on an RPG. If not “Mythos” then at least a brand new idea. I’d rather not start a new one though. Yeah…I have nothing else to add. Gonna tackle some crap and then start working on some stuff. I *might* upload some drawings soon too. At last, I have some sketches that I consider decent enough to share. So I will share them soon. Hopefully.

Take care, everyone. ♥

081: Have You Ever Licked A Lamp Post In Winter?

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[ I’m gonna make this quick. I’m tired. ]

★彡 Finished Dragon Age: Origins a few days ago. I am queen of Ferelden, Alistair is king, and my DA:O BFF Morrigan disappeared with the baby she made with Alistair. By Bioware standards, this ending is happy. LOL. I’m pretty bummed about Morrigan leaving though. I think she had a great bond with my Grey Warden, and she did tell her that they were like sisters. This came from a character who generally hates other humans, so it is infinitely more meaningful. I can’t wait until Inquisition. Now I understand why everyone was so excited during E3 when she showed up in the trailer. Well, on to the next one. I am running around Kirkwall in DA2 at this moment. Let’s see where Hawke’s story goes.

☆彡 Mark’s job at Books-A-Million allows him to borrow books for two weeks, so he borrowed Time of Contempt for me. Yay! Glad to see Geralt and Yennefer reunited again.

★彡 Everything is Fang and nothing hurts.

☆彡 I used to get angry at myself for being calm towards people who were aggressive to me, but I am learning to accept it as one of my few redeeming qualities and stop punishing myself for it.

★彡 Shoutout to Hulu Plus for making an app for the 3DS. Now I can catch up on animes during lunch breaks. Yeah, I know. I’m a giant loser. In other news, this giant loser finally started on Mawaru Penguindrum. Pretty good so far.

☆彡 Things I Don’t Appreciate: being yelled at by a cat because I stopped petting him for 0.05 seconds.

★彡 As always, I write nonstop every month of the year except November. I’m not necessarily calling it quits for NaNoWriMo. I’m just stumped.

☆彡 My nephews were playing Ocarina of Time last weekend, and it’s just mind-boggling to think that I was around their age when I first played it. They had to experience the headache called the Water Temple…and then gave up to play Minecraft. LOL. The greatest aspect of that moment was when my sister started humming “The Lost Woods” and Jonny asked her: “How do you know Zelda?” Her response was: “Excuse me?!” I was dying! She is right though. We lived and breathed Ocarina of Time when it first came out. Jonny and Josh have no idea. Yeah, getting nostalgia just thinking about it. :’)

★彡 OYASUMI PUNPUN IS A TRAP. DON’T READ IT. (No, go ahead and read it. It’s just depressing.)

☆彡  My next splurge will be on blankets. I’m just going to buy ten different types of blankets and bury myself under those shits.

★彡 The Big Show’s return to WWE was so anticlimactic. He spent all these weeks getting bullied and then getting revenge only to come back and get bullied again for the sake of a shot at championship. I…don’t even want to talk about the route they’re taking with Kane either. Kane is one of my favorite wrestlers. He is definitely in my top 10…if not 5. So, I always get really touchy about the decisions they make with him. It’s sad. I know. I was fine with Team Hell No because it was hilarious most of the time, but I guess we’ll just have to see where this goes. I’m not even going to pay too much attention to this Big Show thing because it will likely be a rerun of the “Big Show, go do something degrading to keep your job!” type thing again. Blah, blah, blah, John Cena is a still a big dork and that’s about everything happening in WWE right now.

☆彡 I hope when Mark and I see Desolation of Smaug the theatre is empty again. The last time we went we were the only ones in the theatre and it was awesome. We made all the stupid jokes we wanted because we didn’t have to worry about disrupting anyone else. Actually, we spent a good 5-10 minutes laughing like hyenas when Thranduil pulled that dick move in the beginning. Let’s hope we can do it again this year. *crosses fingers*

Eventful month so far. Let’s see how the next few weeks go~

077: Pleasure Is All Mine

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[ AJ’s reaction to meeting Lita when she was a kid. Q__Q ]

★彡 Every time I progress in a game, a new game winds up on my lap. HOW. I’m not complaining. Whether a game is free or 50+% off, it is still a good deal at the end of the day. Right now, this is my current playlist:

  • The Witcher 2 – Almost done
  • Magic: The Gathering – Duel of the Planeswalkers – It’s free with an XBox Gold membership right now, and it is great.
  • Assassin’s Creed 2 – …Was also free, but like two months ago.  Haven’t really touched it since.
  • Scott Pilgrim vs The World – My nephew managed to beat it all the way to the final boss…then it froze on him. I felt so bad for him because no child should have to live the agony of a game locking up. Still, he got a lot farther than I ever did. 😛
  • Pokemon Black 2 – I just got past the first gym leader, so there is still a long way to go.

Of course, I have other games to worry about, but they’re not really on my radar right now. I would like to perfect NieR some time this weekend since that’s probably the only game I am capable of perfecting in one weekend. Everything else will take a while.

☆彡 Every person has a different level of comfort with sexuality, and there is nothing wrong with any of those variations. How much or how little a person wears does not have anything to do with their level of self-confidence. Fashion is a personal choice. It is not a president. You don’t get to vote on it. I don’t know why this is so difficult to understand.

★彡 NaNoWriMo is right around the corner. I have been writing like crazy for Mythos, but I still have no intention of submitting that story to anything or anyone. Not even my dA. So, I’ll have to start from scratch. Right now I am playing with the idea of a huntress/detective, and have this fantasy mystery thing. I’ll see how it goes.

☆彡 I wish I had the ability to shut off certain senses. For example, if I don’t want to listen to something I can just turn my ears off, or if I don’t want to smell something I can just shut off my nose. That would be awesome. Let’s get on top of that, science.

★彡 “WWE is not real,” you say after I express the slightest emotion towards it. After smiling smugly, you turn on your favorite fictional TV show and display IRL reactions to it.

(Seriously, people who say things like: “[Obviously fake thing] is not real” make me want to punch them in the throat. First off all, no shit, Sherlock. Secondly, just because something isn’t real doesn’t mean you can’t react to it. If you think everyone should only react to real things then turn off your TV, put down your game controller, close your books, and just stare at people all day.)

☆彡  Speaking of WWE, I miss my past athleticism. I miss climbing, jumping, running, cartwheeling, backflipping, walking on my hands, etc. It kind of sucks now that I get exhausted from the simplest things. I am still fighting hard to get to that point. I don’t sit around keeping count of how many times I slip up. What’s the point? Even the best athletes mention how often they lose compared to how often they win. They end up winning because they never give up. I am the same way. I may not have much to show for it right now, but I am proud of myself for getting up every morning and saying: “Let’s go!” even if the last day sucked immensely. I am never giving up on being strong again. Until I can return to doing 50 push-ups without breaking a sweat, my work is never done. That is my mentality.

★彡 Mark and I got into a show called Whodunnit, and it’s really interesting. The core of it is your run-of-the-mill elimination-based reality show, but it involves solving murder mysteries. Long explanation short, there are 13 guests and one of them is a killer. Every week, the killer murders a guest in the house, and the other guests must gather clues to find out how the murder happened. The two people with the crappiest theories on how the murder occurred end up “scared” rather than “spared”, and one of them ends up being murdered. Sometimes multiple murders happen. Blah blah blah, the guests must solve that murder, etcetera, etcetera. To be honest, the season finale was pretty anticlimactic, but the build up itself was very good. We were hooked. We’re crossing our fingers for a Season 2. The show really reminds me of Dangan Ronpa with adults in a mansion rather than kids in a school, so I am definitely interested in more.

☆彡 I feel like I’m the only person who hates having their hair touched. I don’t even like salons because the thought of someone touching my hair for hours at a time really bothers me. Then again, I don’t like being touched anywhere so…that makes sense.

★彡 My first reaction to Ben Affleck being announced as Batman was “let’s see how this goes”, and I haven’t budged since then. I was not happy with his performance as Daredevil (I LOVE DAREDEVIL AND HIS MOVIE WAS NOT EVEN RIGHT), but that could be blamed on the writer and/or director. So, I repeat, let’s see how this goes. Honestly, the first time I heard that Heath Ledger would play The Joker I got really nervous. I pretty much stayed nervous until I saw The Dark Knight and came to the conclusion that he did the best rendition of The Joker. Yes, I even liked him more than Jack Nicholson. I digress. The same may happen with Ben Affleck. It is not a physical thing at all. Ben Affleck, like Bruce Wayne, is dark-haired and handsome. It really isn’t that hard to find someone who looks like Bruce. What matters is the acting. Ben Affleck is a great actor outside of his one superhero role (that I know of), so…it could have just been bad luck. Time will tell. I’m not losing hope, and I’m definitely not signing any petitions to boot him from the film. Those are just sad.

☆彡 There are some foods that sound delicious in theory but taste horrible in actuality. “Stuffed” foods are a major one for me. Eating stuffed foods comes with a 50% chance of me enjoying it and a 50% chance of me throwing up all over the place. Risky, risky.

★彡 Requiem For a Dream made me go from avoiding drugs to wanting to curl into a ball the moment drugs are mentioned.

☆彡 I found a program for making visual novels, and I’m pretty sure I’m going to use it to make inappropriate dating sims.

★彡 MY LIFE IS COMPLETE. THANK YOU BASED TOEI.

There isn’t much else to add. Currently, all of my free time is spent on a steady Hulu, Netflix, writing, drawing, and video game rotation. So, that’s all I’m really up to. Fun, fun, fun.

That’s about it. >_>

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☆彡 I say with a heavy heart that I am getting close to the end of Deep Space Nine; however, I still have that Voyager and Enterprise marathon waiting for me. After that, I have to begin again. I can’t just watch Enterprise and not continue on The Original Series. After Archer must come Kirk. After Kirk must come Picard. After Picard must come Sisko. After Sisko must come Janeway. Of course, I could just stop at Janeway…but Voyager is not the last series. Enterprise is. So, I have to continue on to Enterprise/Archer again. I didn’t make the rules. I just live them…and therefore must watch Star Trek in an infinite loop.

…I’m not complaining.

★彡 Something ghastly occurred recently that actually made me scream like a little bitch. As I’ve been nagging about incessantly, my XBox 360 is broken. So, one day I felt like watching Thunderball, and I decided to use my PS2 to watch it. No, I don’t have a DVD player…but after his incident I plan to get one immediately. I digress. In the PS2 was my Final Fantasy VI, and its case was packed up in a box, so I decide to put the game in the Thunderball case, and put Thunderball in the PS2. All seemed well until, as always, my PS2 decided to be an asshole and not play it. It likes to randomly select DVDs it feels like playing. For example, this week it feels like playing The Hangover, Inglorious Basterds, and Terminator: Salvation. Last week, it refused to play Terminatior: Salvation. Next week, it’ll probably refuse to play The Hangover or Inglorious Basterds. Fuckery like that. I digress again. After dealing with my PS2’s fuckery for a good ten minutes, I got annoyed and decide: “Fuck it. I’ll just play Final Fantasy VI.” Remove Thunderball from PS2. No problem. Remove Final Fantasy VI from Thunderball case…and it fucking cracks across the center. Out of fucking nowhere. Thus, the little bitch scream. Then again, it was more like a pterodactyl than a little bitch. Even Mark was both surprised and tickled by the nonhuman noise that came out of me. Naturally, I was not happy about it. I will have to order a new copy of the Final Fantasy Anthology just to replace it. *sigh* Oh well. I will just use this as an excuse to buy another copy of VIII, Chronicles, and Origins too…because I need to have like five copies of every damn Final Fantasy I have. It’s not for fangirl reasons. It’s because I am cursed when it comes to Final Fantasy. Each Final Fantasy game I bought has been replaced at least once…save for Final Fantasy X-2, Final Fantasy XII, and Final Fantasy XIII. Even Tactics needs to be replaced. Then again, I sold my first copy of Final Fantasy XII to a friend because he really wanted the special edition version…so, the copy I have now isn’t the original one I had. Yep…fucking cursed.

☆彡 I’ve been assigned with the task of writing our company’s newsletters. I’m nervous as hell, but I’ll do my best. After all, this is the first time I can recall standing at the helm of a company’s tasks. I should be honored instead of afraid, right? It’s the least I can do. They gave me ham as a Thanksgiving gift. No, not a couple slices. AN ENTIRE HAM. I don’t even want to know what  they’re going to give away for Christmas, but my guess is it’s going to be awesome.

★彡 Most animals are defensive eaters–meaning that they would eat food just to prevent another animal or person from eating it. So, if you have an animal who won’t eat, that is the first thing to try. If that doesn’t work and (s)he won’t eat for more than six hours, (s)he is probably sick. Luckily, Link is not sick. He just refuses to eat whenever he sees human food, and he will immediately change his mind when he thinks we’re trying to eat his food.

☆彡 Yoga is fucking awesome. My lower back has been tormenting me all week, but a couple minutes of the cobra and downward dog pose helped a lot. The rest will have to be slept off, but I’ll be good as new in no time!

★彡 Get this: I am working endlessly on this story I wrote for Nanowrimo, but I have zero intention of submitting it to Nanowrimo. It’s just not the type of story I feel like putting on display. What if, out of the fucking blue, I get recognition for it. Then I’ll have a bunch of people reading something that I’m not even close to being proud of. It’s not even worthy of being considered a rough draft. I…do want to continue it. Definitely. I’m having a blast with it to be honest. I just don’t want to share it. Why do I do this to myself?

☆彡  I’ve had “Blood” by In This Moment on loop for a long ass time. It’s not until recently that I realized this song reminds me so much of Jack from Mass Effect. Posting that shit.

★彡 What is this about Worf getting his own TV series? Holy. Shit. THIS CALLS FOR A WORF PARTY. Here is Worf feeling things. I’m going to start watching some of these movies I got from Redbox. One was free. One was 75 cents. Good deal.

Peace~

 

 

 

 

 

 

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☆彡 Sword Art Online is amazing. I thought the entire series was already complete when I started it, but it turns out that it is still going.  In other words, I have to wait every week for new updates. *falls to the floor slowly*

★彡 I managed to get Mark hooked on Star Trek: Deep Space Nine. Fufufu~! With no influence from me, though, he decided that Odo was his favorite character too. It’s understandable. Odo is extremely likable  I love that “getting really tired of your bullshit” look he constantly wears. Then again, Odo is always tired of everyone’s bullshit–especially Quark. Quark is probably going to get choked out at some point in the series.

☆彡 Yes, I know about Halo 4. No, I’m not playing it. My 360 is still out of commission. It was just a matter of time, really. I got the system in 2008, and it ran without any type of issue until this year. So…it’s time for me to consider a replacement instead of constantly repairing it, having it work for a few days/weeks, and then breaking again. Of course, I will be on Halo 4 like white on rice the moment I get a new 360 though. I just need to find a way to get $400 extra dollars. Good luck with that, right? 😄

★彡 Congrats to President Obama on his second term. I was legit concerned about Romney taking the White House. I don’t trust anyone who believes that certain individuals should not have rights because their belief says so. It’s like me saying: “I don’t believe in eating ice cream because my religion says so. So, I’m banning ice cream for everyone.” It’s just a dick move…and anyone who cannot understand how that is dick move has no business running a country. I don’t agree with everything Obama has done, but Romney is no remedy to Obama’s mistakes. That’s for sure.

☆彡 Nanowrimo is not going well so far. I have maybe…3,000 words so far, and I’m already thinking about deleting all of them. I already know what my issue is. I make things too complex. The moment I start a new story, I try to create new worlds and universes rather than start in the one that I live in. I did find this plot generator website, and some of the suggestions are not bad at all. There is nothing like finding a good writing prompt. In the past, one good writing prompt gave me hundreds of pages to write. I just have to stop focusing on nitpicking at every error. I just have to write freely and edit later. *sigh* Well…seven days in, 0 words–if I restart. I better get my ass in gear.

★彡 Movies I Want To See Before 2013: The Man With the Iron Fists, Silent Hill: Revelations, Skyfall, The Hobbit, Wreck-it Ralph, Cloud Atlas, Life of Pi, Django Unchained, and…I think that’s it.

☆彡 Programming is…soothing. I don’t know what it is. It’s just a never-ending puzzle for me. When things go smoothly, I feel accomplished. When they don’t, I feel challenged. I do enough programming crap on my free time to just get a degree in it. Probably make some ridiculous cash in the process. *sigh* I don’t know. The moment I start to associate my past times with money, I feel pressure. I just don’t want something I love to become another thing to be stressed about. I don’t need anyone telling me that how I approach a hobby of mine isn’t “up to their standards”. I don’t want assholes in my sanctuary in other words. But I guess it isn’t about me. I’ll just…leave that alone for now.

★彡 There is no secret to relationships. The same way there is no secret to wealth, fitness, or success. It’s all a matter of sacrifice, or giving up something good for something better. That’s the “secret”…as anticlimactic as it may be. No product in the world will replace poor self-control, and there are companies out there just waiting to drain your wallet dry until you realize that. Mind you, I speak from experience. I know how it feels to be so desperate for change that you’ll listen to anyone; however, you can’t rely on other people to handle your problems. You have to learn to work with what you have. Everything you need is already within you…as cliche and cheesy as that may sound. So…yeah. I can’t sit here and write you a manual on what Mark and I do 24/7. It’s not going to help you to imitate our lives or any other couple’s lives. The lives that couples live are unique to their own personalities and circumstances. You just have to give up the quest for a magical relationship tip. It doesn’t exist. And I’m not even charging you $16.00 a book to tell you this. Yay! *tosses confetti*

Yep…I don’t have anything else to contribute. Got to handle crap. >_>

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 Time for an entry with shooting star ascii and shit! I am excitement-but-not-really!  Yay!

★彡 If you have no idea what is going on in that gif then you need to Mass Effect and Adventure Time moar. Or don’t. It’s cool.

★彡 Speaking of Mass Effect, I finally finished the entire series. Like many, I was not happy with the ending. I was not expecting it to end with butterflies and rainbows, but I was expecting an ending with more…effort. I don’t really know how else to put it. I just know I got the feeling of robbery that I got from watching The Matrix trilogy. It was just constant amazing-ness until the last ten minutes. Still, I sympathize with Bioware and EA as I sympathized with the Wachowski brothers. I cannot imagine what it is like to watch a humble project of yours turn into this…pop culture phenomena overnight. Suddenly, you have millions of people at your back telling you how to run your own story. It must be stressful. So, I am grateful for them adding things like supplements to better explain their reasoning for making the ending the way it is, and (hopefully) when I download that extended aftermath DLC, I will get a better understanding. Then again, it’s not so much understanding. I understand why it ended the way it did. I just don’t understand what compelled the writers to write such an ending. In other words, I want to come to the “this feels right” conclusion they must have felt when they chose to end the game that way. I…always want to understand the things that baffle or confuse me. That’s just the way I am. Nonetheless, I will never say the game was a waste of time based on a few minutes I didn’t agree with. The series is amazing. I only regret not starting it sooner, but better late than never. I can’t wait to try out some of the DLCs. In fact, when I get the time and funds, I’d like to download every single DLC, and play the game again. I cannot wait.

★彡 Moving is so frustrating, especially when it’s one of those on-a-whim types of moves. Well…no, not whim. We have to move for our own safety. I don’t need anyone to tell me twice about leaving this place. When your car gets stolen and your apartment gets broken into in a one year span, that is all the reminders you need. Then again, it’s more than just leaving. If I could just leave with no repercussions, I would have left the moment my car was taken; however, there is such a thing as a lease. Moreover, the fuckton of fees that come with moving into a new apartment. I have to pay $500-$600 first month’s rent for a one bedroom. Then pay $200 in administrative fees. Then pay $300 deposit for Link. Then pay $100-$600 for a security deposit based on credit. Then…wow…whatever other fees they want to fucking toss in there. I don’t have that kind of money just sitting around. If I just had $1,000 lying around then I wouldn’t even live on this side of town. I’d go to the next city over with the expensive but safe and pretty places to live. So…it’s complicated. It’s always complicated for us. Luckily, this incident occurred a week or so before our lease renewal date, so we dodged a bullet by not signing for another year. Regardless, this is still not something that was planned ahead. We planned to stay here until we could afford better. We weren’t expecting to move out within 30 days. So…yeah..what can I say? It’s just…life, you know? We have to adapt. No matter what happens in the next few days or weeks, we have to adapt. So, we pack. We go where we can, and we do our best. That’s our plan. 🙂

★彡 This is entirely odd for a self-proclaimed tomboy to say, but makeup isn’t so bad. It’s like painting or drawing…except on your face. LOL. Will I wear it everyday? Probably not. But it is still fun.

★彡 I miss the old days when being sprawled on the floor with paper, pencils, and art supplies everywhere was considered a norm. When I look back on my past, those moments were always the highlight. There is really nothing like it. Then again, it’s kind of silly to talk about those moments as if they’ll never happen again. The only thing stopping it is me. That’s something I need to realize: that regaining something from my past is not impossible. Memories are in the past, but not opportunities. One is never too old to restart or continue.

★彡 I finally got around to reading Kick-Ass 2. Wow…just wow. Mark Millar sure knows how write fucked up shit. Fucked up, but good though. I can’t wait until the third one. Or at least I hope there’s a third one. Please don’t end it that way! ;_;

★彡 I’ve been reading “Fluke”. It’s funny as hell. I will always be thankful for this book introducing me to the phrase: “heinous fuckery most foul.”

★彡 I think my TV might be dying. One day while Mark was playing Mass Effect 3, it flashed this red color, and then the colors became REALLY dim. We’ve been messing with the contrast and brightness to make it look decent, but now it has this annoying green tint all of the time. *sigh* One thing after the other. I swear. LOL

★彡 Things to catch up on: The Walking Dead – Season 2, Sherlock Holmes – Season 2, You Only Live Twice, Thunderball, Diamonds are Forever, Game of Thrones – Season 2, Supernatural – Season 8, Stephen Colbert, Parks & Recreation, and…a few others. I can’t recall them all. I just know I’m going to have a busy next few days. >_>

★彡 I’ve been working on a story lately, but I don’t know how it will affect NaNoWriMo. I’m thinking that with all the stuff going on and the general busyness of November, I probably shouldn’t participate at all. I already know that I will have a limited amount of time next month to even breathe. *sigh* That’s fine. It is probably better, creatively, to work freely than to have this 30 day time limit on my back.

★彡 Favorite quote right now – Aziz Ansari: “Better town hall questions: do you fucks with srichacha?”

★彡 Speaking of the town hall debate, these past three debates have been rather interesting. I am really looking forward to the last one. One thing I will definitely do during that debate is read Aisha Tyler and Aziz Ansari’s tweets. They are funny as hell.

★彡 I don’t know what else to say, so I’m going to post Adele’s “Skyfall”. I’ve had it on loop for a while now. It is definitely a worthy Bond theme. Then again, I’m not surprised. It is Adele. No one was expecting her to sing it terribly.

At least I hope not. e_e

Good night. May add more tomorrow.

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