080: Hand to Hand

Same.

☆彡 Everything is nice and creepy in time for Halloween. Fufufu~ I love me some Gravelord Nito. Actually, all of the major bosses of Dark Souls are beautiful to me–especially Nito, Quelaag, and Ornstein. I cannot understand why I love a game I am so terrible at…but it happens. While on the topic of Halloween, my plan is to pretty much watch horror movies while wearing something lame and eating candy. I’ll try to leave some for the trick-or-treaters. I could always turn off all the lights and pretend no one is home so I can keep all the candy for myself. I know, I know. I am a terrible.

★彡 Mark showed me something really cool the other day. Sega remade the Sega Genesis and stored 80 games in it. But that’s not the coolest part. That part that made us both scream is its ability to play Sega Genesis cartridges. We have some SG games in storage right now that we would love to play, so that is extremely awesome. I am pretty sure if they remake the Super Nintendo I will freak out. Naturally, I will embarrass myself here when that day comes. Capslock, gifs, bold lettering, and all.

☆彡 It’s ironic to me that females get shit for being “fake geeks” when the biggest impersonators I have ever met in my life were males. Here is the thing about females who love things considered “geeky”. They are willing to endure a lot of harassment for the sake of those things. That’s not to say that guys do not love their fandoms as much as girls or that some girls do not lie about their interests to get praise, but I believe that a person who braves negative feedback in order to do something they have a strong passion for are in it for the right reasons.

★彡 I still haven’t read “The Witcher: Time of Contempt”. It has nothing to do with my lacking an urgency to read it. It’s more about funds and my willing to delay buying it in order to acquire more important things. My poor cat has been scratching at the same demolished scratching board for weeks. I would love to at least get him a new one. Especially now that he has turned our carpet into his new scratching board…which I loathe. So, all I can say is soon. I do miss Geralt terribly. With The Witcher 3 being so far away and the grim possibility of not having a PS4 to play it on for eons after its release, “Time of Contempt” is pretty much all the exposure I will have of him for a good while. That sucks. I miss my beautiful white wolf. D:

☆彡My fascination with Wales has gone from admiration to shameless adoration. Seriously, have you seen their flag? Bad. Ass. I will not say they are a flawless country. I am sure both their past and present has its deal of controversy; however, I am still interested in learning more about Welsh history and its culture. I would obviously love to visit one day too. Also, kind of off topic, but I am set on giving my future children a name of Welsh origin. I’M GOING TOO FAR. I KNOW. But on a serious note, Welsh names are the coolest. It’s no wonder that so many fantasy stories rely on Welsh names for their characters. Vaughn has been one of my favorite names since the dawn of time, and I recently learned that it is of Welsh origin. So…that’s awesome. If I ever have a daughter, her name will be Zelda, but that is the only name I am set on. When it comes to daughters beyond Zelda and sons, I will turn to Welsh names. First, though, I have to convince Mark that we should not name our first son Felix. He just won’t budge on that name. It is killing me. LOL. Coming to an agreement on a boy name always turns into a drawn out debate, but the girl names come easy for us. We love Zelda. We love Elsa. We loved Meredith for ages (which happens to be Welsh for “sea lord”. How cool is that? OwO). Let’s hope we have plenty of girls then. Honestly, we are still going back and forth about reproduction being a good idea in the first place. It’s just a lot of stress we know we cannot handle right now. I am sure if we were living under better circumstances we would jump at the opportunity to raise a little human being, but the time is not right. It rarely is. Anyway, where was I? Ah, yes. Wales. I must go there. Good names, cool flag, nice food, castles aplenty, etc, blah blah blah.

★彡 It’s a bit ridiculous that I have soundtracks for games and animes I’ve never seen before. For example, I am obsessed with my Earth Girl Arjuna and Dream Drop Distance CDs yet I haven’t had the pleasure of enjoying either. I guess it doesn’t matter. Good music is good music. Also, I’ve been a fan of Yoko Shimomura and Yoko Kanno long enough to snatch up anything they release without giving a damn about the projects they belong to. The same goes with anything Masashi Hamauzu, Nobuo Uematsu, Yasanori Mitsuda, Go Shiina, and Keiichi Okabe touches. They could sneeze on an album at this point and I will snatch it up like it was going out of style.

☆彡 Writing about Odin makes me uncomfortable at times because I spent so much time writing about him as a child. To have to turn around now and write about him as an adult who often indulges in “adult” things…I can’t describe how it makes me feel. It’s probably the way many people felt when they saw Miley Cyrus twerking. Like, that’s Hannah Montana. There is just no forgetting that. LOL. Anyway, authors have written about more awkward things, so I shouldn’t complain. It’s fine. At least no one is twerking. Not yet. Okay, no one is ever going to twerk. It would be kind of funny though to have all the dragons come together and form a twerk team. Their twerking would just destroy cities and no one would care.

★彡 OH MY FUCKING GOODNESS THIS SONG THO

YOU THINK THIS A MOTHERFUCKING GAME???!!
(Well, Dream Drop Distance is a game, but you know what I mean.)

☆彡 If someone is going through a really shitty ordeal, you are not being a precious pure knight by telling him/her to get over it and be happy. All you’re doing is trivializing whatever (s)he is going through by telling him/her that it can be magically erased by smiling and pretending it didn’t happen. Sure, it’s not healthy to be angry for all of your life but if you go through something terrible and you just want scream or punch a wall then what’s the problem? Seriously, congrats on being a special snowflake who never copes with anger. You can go shit rainbows somewhere else without pestering us lowly mortals who have the nerves to experience wrath from time to time.

★彡 I don’t really know how I feel about John Cena coming back. I mean…he’s coming back to face Alberto Del Rio of all wrestlers. Alberto is a terrific athlete, but him in a feud with Cena just seems boring. He was just in a feud with Van Dam like two seconds ago. Then again, who else is John Cena going to fight? The biggest superstars aside from him are pretty much Daniel Bryan and Randy Orton, and they’re still in their neverending battle for WWE championship. So…I don’t know. Maybe he came back at the wrong time. I’m sure a couple of months down the line a more reasonable rival would have been waiting. *sigh* Oh well. I know Cena gets a lot of hate but I like him. It’s always good to see him back in the ring, being dorky and cheesy. LOL. If anyone should headline in the near future it should be HHH. I know it’s unlikely with his whole best-for-business-man thing but…man…HHH against Big Show would be an interesting rivalry to witness.

By the way, I haven’t seen Princess AJ around recently. I hope she’s all right. 😦

☆彡 I cannot handle anyone who does the prison pose in pictures. I always end up laughing.

★彡 5,000 years later I am still in disbelief that I have an autographed action figure of Odo. I really love Odo. There are countless Star Trek characters out there I consider loveable but I love him most. Flawless shapeshifter~ The only ones that really rival Odo in terms of my adoration for them are Tuvok, Spock, Worf, Kira, and Paris. Yeah…that’s about it. I pretty much have no fondness for anyone on Enterprise. I didn’t mind the show. There was just…no connection there. D:

☆彡 I was told that I had an evil laugh recently. I can’t even disagree. It gets to 90’s anime villain  levels at times.

★彡 Okay, I am pretty much set on getting Erick Rowan’s mask for Halloween. Honestly, I’ll find any excuse to get that mask. It is awesome.

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Alright, I’m gonna work on writing. That’s pretty much taking up all of my time since ideas come constantly these days. Let’s see how far this goes…before I wind up staring at a blank word document and crying into bowls of ramen. LOL

Happy 19 Days ‘Til Halloween! (( ^ w ^ ))

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078: Guardian of Wood

Me.

This is what living with my cat is like.

★彡 Skyrim is such a time-consuming game that I actually find myself afraid to play it. For example, I told myself I would play the game for one hour just to complete a quest, and it somehow turned into four hours…and I ended up adopting a daughter…and I caught a serial killer…and I think I held a conversation with a dragon. Everything happened so quickly. All of that aside, this game is amazing. I don’t care how bad my day is, the moment that menu screen loads and “Dragonborn” plays, I am not even on this planet anymore.

☆彡 I am more of a listener than a talker. I don’t mind listening to a person talk for hours if they are saying insightful things. Pretty much anything I can draw useful information from is insightful to me.

★彡No, I am not playing GTA V because I’m poor and I probably won’t be able to play it for months. Parenthesis, crying face.

☆彡 Korean pastries are life-changing. And I’m not just talking about the first time. Pretty much every time is life-changing.

★彡 Me: *watching Sleepy Hollow* “Got us a cool-looking headless horseman, alright alright. WOC as the leading lady? Awesome, awesome. Something about the four horsemen of the apocalypse. I don’t mind that trope at all, looking good, looking good. Wow, this show is–” *headless horseman takes out a shotgun and automatic rifle*

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That’s not going to stop me or anything, but still….

☆彡 If you find yourself saying “____ thinks (s)he is ______”, just kick yourself in the fucking mouth. You will look stupid for doing it, but not as stupid as you look pretending that you can read minds and jumping to conclusions with no evidence whatsoever to back it up.

★彡 I haven’t made an Animal Crossing post in a while, huh? Really, nothing is happening in Arni Village. I added a garden to hold my triforce and master sword, but that’s about it. My 3DS is mostly used to play Oracle of Seasons and Pokemon Black 2 these days. I’ll likely make a post if I get the entire varia suit. Right now, I only have the pants though…like three of them. I also have four of Link’s tunics, three boots, two Majora’s masks, and two Midna masks. You really can have too much of a good thing, I guess.

☆彡 Pet Peeve #509: Being told that I should use my drawings to gain money or recognition. I understand that those suggestions are coming from a good place, but why can’t I just enjoy things without it being a job or a contest? The same goes for my writing. A manager once suggested I submit writings to magazines…and then proceeded to lecture me on the “importance” of not “wasting talent” when I said no. Stahp.

★彡 Heyman kissing Ryback on the cheek was so bizarre that it became hilarious. I am still laughing at Ryback’s face when it happened. He looked like the happiest person in the world. LOL. Of course, I knew HHH would come up with some way to screw Daniel Bryan out of his championship. The moment he won I said: “Let’s see how long this lasts”. It wasn’t even 24 hours before it got taken away. Damn shame. Anyway, I know the locker room is going to pay for helping Daniel Bryan on Raw. Smackdown is going to be very interesting this week. The whole company versus employees arc itself  is interesting. I wonder how it will end. I have a feeling either HHH, Stephanie, or Vince is going to start backing Daniel Bryan, and it will create this McMahon-Hemsley civil war. Then different wrestlers will take side and it’ll be a WWE civil war. Maybe that is more of a hope than a prediction.

☆彡 Link’s favorite place to lay down is on top of my Hyrule Historia. I think he is trying to tell me something.

★彡 Speaking of The Legend of Zelda, the more popular a favorite series of mine gets, the happier I get. One, more fans to discuss it with. Two, a bigger fanbase means more products in the future. Three, knowing how happy a series makes me, I am happier to know that others are experiencing that too. For example, I hear so many stories about The Legend of Zelda getting people through hard times the way it always did for me, and it is tear-jerking. You don’t even have to explain yourself to people like that. You both hear about the series and it’s just…a surge of positive feelings. That is amazing to me. Sure, it is probably sad to get emotional over video games while having little to no emotions about “relevant” things, but that’s the way it is for me and many. I think that’s cool.

 

Bah, next week is jury duty week. Let’s see how that goes…

077: Pleasure Is All Mine

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[ AJ’s reaction to meeting Lita when she was a kid. Q__Q ]

★彡 Every time I progress in a game, a new game winds up on my lap. HOW. I’m not complaining. Whether a game is free or 50+% off, it is still a good deal at the end of the day. Right now, this is my current playlist:

  • The Witcher 2 – Almost done
  • Magic: The Gathering – Duel of the Planeswalkers – It’s free with an XBox Gold membership right now, and it is great.
  • Assassin’s Creed 2 – …Was also free, but like two months ago.  Haven’t really touched it since.
  • Scott Pilgrim vs The World – My nephew managed to beat it all the way to the final boss…then it froze on him. I felt so bad for him because no child should have to live the agony of a game locking up. Still, he got a lot farther than I ever did. 😛
  • Pokemon Black 2 – I just got past the first gym leader, so there is still a long way to go.

Of course, I have other games to worry about, but they’re not really on my radar right now. I would like to perfect NieR some time this weekend since that’s probably the only game I am capable of perfecting in one weekend. Everything else will take a while.

☆彡 Every person has a different level of comfort with sexuality, and there is nothing wrong with any of those variations. How much or how little a person wears does not have anything to do with their level of self-confidence. Fashion is a personal choice. It is not a president. You don’t get to vote on it. I don’t know why this is so difficult to understand.

★彡 NaNoWriMo is right around the corner. I have been writing like crazy for Mythos, but I still have no intention of submitting that story to anything or anyone. Not even my dA. So, I’ll have to start from scratch. Right now I am playing with the idea of a huntress/detective, and have this fantasy mystery thing. I’ll see how it goes.

☆彡 I wish I had the ability to shut off certain senses. For example, if I don’t want to listen to something I can just turn my ears off, or if I don’t want to smell something I can just shut off my nose. That would be awesome. Let’s get on top of that, science.

★彡 “WWE is not real,” you say after I express the slightest emotion towards it. After smiling smugly, you turn on your favorite fictional TV show and display IRL reactions to it.

(Seriously, people who say things like: “[Obviously fake thing] is not real” make me want to punch them in the throat. First off all, no shit, Sherlock. Secondly, just because something isn’t real doesn’t mean you can’t react to it. If you think everyone should only react to real things then turn off your TV, put down your game controller, close your books, and just stare at people all day.)

☆彡  Speaking of WWE, I miss my past athleticism. I miss climbing, jumping, running, cartwheeling, backflipping, walking on my hands, etc. It kind of sucks now that I get exhausted from the simplest things. I am still fighting hard to get to that point. I don’t sit around keeping count of how many times I slip up. What’s the point? Even the best athletes mention how often they lose compared to how often they win. They end up winning because they never give up. I am the same way. I may not have much to show for it right now, but I am proud of myself for getting up every morning and saying: “Let’s go!” even if the last day sucked immensely. I am never giving up on being strong again. Until I can return to doing 50 push-ups without breaking a sweat, my work is never done. That is my mentality.

★彡 Mark and I got into a show called Whodunnit, and it’s really interesting. The core of it is your run-of-the-mill elimination-based reality show, but it involves solving murder mysteries. Long explanation short, there are 13 guests and one of them is a killer. Every week, the killer murders a guest in the house, and the other guests must gather clues to find out how the murder happened. The two people with the crappiest theories on how the murder occurred end up “scared” rather than “spared”, and one of them ends up being murdered. Sometimes multiple murders happen. Blah blah blah, the guests must solve that murder, etcetera, etcetera. To be honest, the season finale was pretty anticlimactic, but the build up itself was very good. We were hooked. We’re crossing our fingers for a Season 2. The show really reminds me of Dangan Ronpa with adults in a mansion rather than kids in a school, so I am definitely interested in more.

☆彡 I feel like I’m the only person who hates having their hair touched. I don’t even like salons because the thought of someone touching my hair for hours at a time really bothers me. Then again, I don’t like being touched anywhere so…that makes sense.

★彡 My first reaction to Ben Affleck being announced as Batman was “let’s see how this goes”, and I haven’t budged since then. I was not happy with his performance as Daredevil (I LOVE DAREDEVIL AND HIS MOVIE WAS NOT EVEN RIGHT), but that could be blamed on the writer and/or director. So, I repeat, let’s see how this goes. Honestly, the first time I heard that Heath Ledger would play The Joker I got really nervous. I pretty much stayed nervous until I saw The Dark Knight and came to the conclusion that he did the best rendition of The Joker. Yes, I even liked him more than Jack Nicholson. I digress. The same may happen with Ben Affleck. It is not a physical thing at all. Ben Affleck, like Bruce Wayne, is dark-haired and handsome. It really isn’t that hard to find someone who looks like Bruce. What matters is the acting. Ben Affleck is a great actor outside of his one superhero role (that I know of), so…it could have just been bad luck. Time will tell. I’m not losing hope, and I’m definitely not signing any petitions to boot him from the film. Those are just sad.

☆彡 There are some foods that sound delicious in theory but taste horrible in actuality. “Stuffed” foods are a major one for me. Eating stuffed foods comes with a 50% chance of me enjoying it and a 50% chance of me throwing up all over the place. Risky, risky.

★彡 Requiem For a Dream made me go from avoiding drugs to wanting to curl into a ball the moment drugs are mentioned.

☆彡 I found a program for making visual novels, and I’m pretty sure I’m going to use it to make inappropriate dating sims.

★彡 MY LIFE IS COMPLETE. THANK YOU BASED TOEI.

There isn’t much else to add. Currently, all of my free time is spent on a steady Hulu, Netflix, writing, drawing, and video game rotation. So, that’s all I’m really up to. Fun, fun, fun.

That’s about it. >_>

Kerri & Harmony

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All right, let me get this off my chest.

It is always my mission to be on good terms with everyone. And good terms, to me, does not mean: “Yeah! Let’s be best buddies!” Often times it means: “You don’t give me any bullshit. I don’t give you any bullshit. Let’s continue this bullshit-free relationship. ”

However, before being on good terms with everyone I must respect myself. A part of my definition of self-respect is not allowing anyone to mistreat me. I cannot be on good terms with someone who treats me poorly. My cutting ties is never about your race, your gender, your beliefs, your sexual orientation, your body, your genetics, your interests, your hobbies, etc. It always comes down to how much trouble you cause.

TL;DR I seek harmony with people who seek harmony with me.

If the intention of your relationship with me is to maintain harmony then we are likely to have a very long and strong relationship. But if your intention is to belittle me, insult me, degrade me, change me, criticize me, compete with me, use me, lie to me, steal from me, abuse me, betray me, etc. then…yeah…what are you expecting me to do? Celebrate?

I am patient and tolerant beyond reasoning at times, but  I will not allow anyone to infringe on my rights as a human being. I don’t care who you are and I don’t care how long I have known you. The moment I observe you and realize that you are the type of person who enjoys starting shit then I will burn every bridge between us. If you are not willing to pursue a peaceful relationship then you can continue your two-faced, drama-filled, shit-slinging, back-talking, shamelessly-using relationships with those who care to have them.

I don’t. I never did. I never will.

That’s all I have to say about that.

Well…one more thing.

I will never say that I am impossible to dislike because I know that I have many flaws. If you find my flaws impossible to tolerate then leave. I don’t need fake friends or “frenemies”. That’s just such a fucking dumb concept to me. You have a limited amount of time on this planet. Don’t waste them hanging out with someone you hate when there are billions of other people you can spend time with. You are doing the both of us zero favors by doing something so pointless.

If you do like me then accept that a part of being in a relationship with me is learning to not make a big deal about my flaws. The only thing that comes from you constantly ridiculing me is that I’ll grow tired of you and wish to find someone who accepts me. There are people who already accept me. I am not going to waste my time and energy on those who don’t.

Okay, now that’s all I have to say.

Time to catch up on Raw and start on dinner. ◕‿◕

074: I Thought I Could Organize Freedom

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☆彡 First thing first, the 26th birthday. It was a blast. Despite having to spend the start of it dealing with emission and car tags, Mark and I managed to make it enjoyable. Afterwards, we saw Pacific Rim. I really liked it. It was like a 2-hour live action anime about mechs and giant monsters. If that is right up your alley then you should definitely see it . Um…where was I? Ah, yes. After the movie we had lunch. After lunch we did some browsing in various stores. After browsing we had tres leche cake, watched movies, and made Japanese-style curry for dinner. Overall, it was exactly how I like my birthdays: peaceful, fun, private, and filled with my favorite things. I hope all of my birthdays are like this. As Mark said, my birthday is technically the start of the year for me, so I hope to see more good things until this time around in 2014.

★彡 I am loving the free Assassin’s Creed 2 DL from XBL along with all the recent updates from Animal Crossing: New Leaf. Nookling Junction upgraded to a bigger 24-hour store, Sabel (such a cutie ;.;) gave me permission to use QR codes–I am now dressed as Bioshock Infinite‘s Elizabeth thanks to that, and a new shoe store opened. Let’s just say that I’m glad I’m not even half the fashionista IRL that I am in ACNL. I spent roughly $1,000 bells on shoes alone. That does not translate well in reality.

☆彡 Speaking of Bioshock Infinite, I finally finished the game. That ending was insane! At least to me. I was not expecting that at all. Veeeeeery good ending. And also a very, very, very good game. This game is worthy of all the praise it receives. It is amazing! /fangirling I can’t wait to get my own copy so I can avoid the headache of rushing and returning it promptly. 1999 mode without any Dollar Bill vending machines is most likely my next step in BI. Let’s see how that goes.

★彡 Interracial relationships are not for thin-skinned people. I cannot press that enough. You have to accept early on that racist comments will come, and they will not stop coming. Furthermore, these comments will come from people of all races, ages, genders, backgrounds, etc. They will even come from your family and friends. These individuals may even be multiracial themselves (this has happened to us), or in their own interracial relationship (this has also happened to us). That is why it is so important for both parties in an interracial relationship to be tough. More than tough, you have to train yourself to not become angry about it. You’ll only damage your sanity on behalf of some ignorant lowlife. It’s an awful trade to make. One thing Mark and I learned over the years is to just laugh at people like that. They’re clowns if they honestly believe their 1913 mentality will translate well in 2013.

Spoiler alert: it doesn’t.

☆彡 I am entirely obsessed with the Dangan Ronpa series right now. I found the LP archive for both DR1 and DR2, and I pretty much went on a nonstop reading spree soon after. Of course, I am following the anime as well. Even though I know what’s going to happen, it’s neat to see it in animation. I heard the games were getting localized, too, but I’ll have to see if that’s true. I’m excited either way. On a side note, I really want Monobear’s ability to push a button and punish people. Where can I buy that? Home Depot?

★彡 That Superman/Batman movie announcement. *falls down* But also that lack of Wonder Woman announcements. *stands up and walks away*

☆彡 If you didn’t know, Adobe is giving out free copies of Photoshop and other programs. It’s straight from the company as opposed to some seedy background website. So, get it while you can! Also, the ASOIAF boxset is on sale on Amazon. Get that too! (I promise I’m not a saleswoman for Adobe or GRRM or something)

★彡 Being held back by own skill level makes me want to ram my head into a brick wall until there is nothing left for my neck to hold. Yeah, yeah, I know. Practice makes perfect. I’m working on it…

☆彡 I am beginning to hate sleep. On some days, I welcome a little nap here and there, but on most days I feel like sleep is just wasting time. Being tired feels like being nagged. I only go to bed when I find that my mind can’t do anything else but think about going to bed. My better days are the days when I don’t sleep at all. I am trying to train myself to live off of naps scattered throughout the day. A little four hours at nights. An hour around lunchtime (since I never seem to be hungry around lunch hour). An hour or two around evening. Before I know it, I’d have accumulated 6-8 hours of sleep. It’s a tricky experiment…but an experiment I’ll try nonetheless.

★彡 After reading Equus, I am 100% sure that I have to see the play now. Another thing to add on my “I Should Do This But I Probably Won’t Because My Day-To-Day Habits Are More Comfortable” list. I will say this though. If the message of Equus is what Dr. Dysart spoke about when he said he envied Alan (basically, he believes it is better to have psychotic levels of passion over monotony), I will have to politely disagree with that message. Perhaps it is the fact that “moderation, modesty, and mercy” is my most important mantra for life, but I strongly believe that everything needs a balance. You can be religious without being a zealot. You can like horses without sexualizing them. Conversely, in the case of Dysart, you can be a part of a marriage that isn’t infuriatingly dull. This is why I do not like extremes in the first place. In some cases, yes, extremes are necessary, but choosing a harmful choice when the middleground is harmless seems…unnecessary.  Then again, it is possible that I’m completely overlooking something obvious due to my bad habit of over-analyzing the littlest things. For example, it is likely that Dysart is insane himself; therefore, questioning his logic would be illogical. His dream may be an indicator of that. It is not the violent aspect of it that hints at his possible insanity, but the obvious connection it has to his profession as a child psychologist. He feels (and clearly stated this) as if every time he cures patients like Alan of their madness, he is ridding them of their passion–that same passion he yearns for in his marriage and life in general. Eh…once more, I’m probably over-analyzing. So, I will just end this by saying that I enjoyed the book/play, and I look forward to other interpretations of it. Yes…let’s end this. It’s dragging on. LOL

☆彡 I am annoyed by individuals who know that a relationship is either never going to happen or is already over, yet continue to force it. Even if I am not a part of an ordeal like that, I still want to scream: “Move on already!” Maybe this is why my pity towards Jorah Mormont went from existent to non-existent so quickly. It is clear that he has strong feelings for Dany, but the fact that he just won’t leave her alone is starting to get on my nerves.  I suppose the main reason why this is a pet peeve of mine is the arrogance. It does take a lot of nerve to listen to someone say “This relationship isn’t going to happen” or “This relationship is done”, and reply with: “Yes, it is! You’ll see! I’ll show you! You just don’t know any better! You’ll change your mind because I’m good for you and you know it!” It just completely disrespects someone who has the right to say “no”. I have a strong feeling that Jorah is going to drive himself over the edge in the end (because sleeping with prostitutes that look like Dany and kidnapping Tyrion to “please” Dany isn’t over-the-edge enough?). I hope GRRM doesn’t end up romanticizing this type of behavior the way romance stories do. The whole following-someone-across-the-globe-to-publicly-declare-your-love bullshit really needs to stop. It just gives men, especially, the horrible idea of stalking women who aren’t interested in them because they believe women always say the opposite of what they really want. Some women may meet that description, but most of them do not. When a woman is done with you, she is done. Stalking isn’t cute. It’ll just end up getting you tossed in jail. Or, since Jorah is a part of the ASOIAF series, he’ll likely end up dead for it.

Death by dragon.

Drogon (and/or Viserion and/or Rhaegal): “Stay away from my mom, nerd.” *barbeques*

….Something like that…

★彡 Oh, yeah. I found out today that some commenter complained to Neil Gaiman that GRRM won’t write his book faster, and Neil Gaiman told that commenter that GRRM isn’t his bitch. Yes, Mr. Gaiman. Yes. Seriously, though. If you want quality stories/art, you need to give creators all the time they need. Otherwise, you end up with trite crap that you’ll surely end up nagging about later. Which is essentially what Neil Gaiman pointed out. I just think some fans have a hard time accepting that they do not own the creator or the fandom itself. That world was created by someone else, it belongs to someone else, and the opportunity to share it is just that…an opportunity. It is not a right. Then again, commenters like that remind me of those kids who came to your house and threw a tantrum because they couldn’t control your toys. Brats. They’re just brats.

☆彡 As much as I hate throwing my drawings away, I really have nowhere else to put them. I know that the greatest benefit of digital drawings is not having to deal with that crap. However, I love traditional drawing. It’s like…comparing reading a physical book to reading it on kindle or something. There is nothing wrong with kindle. I am just the type of person who likes to use every sense possible when it comes to my hobbies. I absolutely love to feel different tools and blend with my fingers and smell certain art supplies (the ones that give off pleasant smells anyway). I don’t hate making digital art at all. It just feels…incomplete. That’s the same reason why I prefer physical books over digital ones. They do take up a lot of room, and thank everything good in this world that I am living with someone who doesn’t mind that, but books are something I need to feel. The smell, the texture of the cover, the page-flipping sound–those things can’t really be replicated with digital versions. Anyway, I am just “old school” when it comes to things like drawing and reading. Maybe even video games. The idea of playing games without controllers bothers me a little. Don’t get me wrong. I enjoy things like kinect for certain games, but all games being motion and/or voice controlled? Nah, son.

★彡 You ever had a meal so delicious that you envied the chef because (s)he can make it every night without paying $8 for one plate? Yeah, that’s how I feel every time I have Japanese food. I could easily grab a Japanese cookbook, but I don’t know if I’ll like the foods made by the chefs who write them. Risky, risky. Despite this, though, I still want Christine Ha’s cookbook. I am confident that her food will be delicious AND I’m incredibly curious. *sigh* Food is great. Food will be the end of me. Actually…that’s not a bad end. I can just eat until I fall into a food coma, sleep, and die.

☆彡 VERONICA MARS MOVIE IS REALLY HAPPENING. NOTHING ELSE TO SAY.

Yes…I have volumes.

With that said, I am bringing an extra set of headphones with me this week because it is “royal baby” week, and the only thing worse than listening to pointless chatter is listening to everyone chatting about the same pointless topic.

Later.

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073: Vespertine

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☆彡 I forgot how creepy the forest temple was in Ocarina of Time.

★彡 To all of my non-black friends, relatives, acquaintances, and so on: If you ever say something racist about black people and you’re on the verge of getting your ass chewed out for it, do not use your relationship with me to get out of that. Because I am not going to defend you. Furthermore, the thought of our relationship–however close or distant–being used as some type of I-can-say-all-the-racist-shit-I-want access card is nauseating to me and I’ll definitely disown you for that. Yep…that’s it. That’s all I had to say about that.

☆彡 Kainé introduced me to the term “shithog”, and for that I will always treasure her.

★彡 For me, being fat is 50% okay and 50% not okay. It’s awesome to not be hit on and groped and dragged into one-sided fights anymore, but it’s not awesome having zero stamina and staring diabetes in the face. As for being fit, that’s 50% okay and 50% not okay too. I will be stronger and healthier and more confident when I’m fit, but I’ll also return to being harassed by perverted men and mean-spirited women. So…I don’t know. On some days weight loss is going from good to better, and other days it’s going from the frying pan to the freezer.

☆彡I’d just like to congratulate Guts on his face, and the fact that losing an eye and an arm and pigmentation in his hair and getting covered in scars and aging added about 500 points to his general attractiveness. *tosses confetti*

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Yes.

Good.

★彡 My Perfect Day: Wake up whenever I want to, eat breakfast while watching movie or TV, shower, play video games, have lunch while watching movie or TV, go back to video games, prep dinner, cook dinner, eat dinner while watching movie or TV, work on story, work on drawings, drink tea, read book until I fall asleep. Aw yes~

☆彡 The Atlas Shrugged movies are terrible, but I keep watching them. Come to think of it, watching terrible things whilst wondering why the entire time perfectly sums up my experience with Netflix.

★彡 Welcome To The NHK…I don’t think I’ve ever watched an anime that was so hilarious and so depressing at the same time. Still, I wish that I watched it years ago when it first came out. There are so many lessons to take from it. It actually gets a little uncomfortable seeing how much Welcome To The NHK echoes with my life sometimes. Oh, well. On to the next anime.

☆彡 When I think of the millions of things I can do, I realize that I am not even living 1% of my life. In a metaphor (Yes, I love my metaphors), life is a giant mansion and I’ve been living in the same room my entire life. How can I realistically judge the entire mansion from that tiny little room alone? Or, what I mean to say, how can I determine that life is absolutely pointless when I’ve barely even lived it.

★彡 I can’t imagine getting to a point in my life where an expired coupon makes me start screaming and throwing things at cashiers. Thankfully. I never want to see something like that and think: “Yeah, that’s reasonable. I could see myself doing that.”

☆彡 Even when Haley Joel Osment is 90 years old, he is the only voice actor I will accept as Sora.

★彡 Please explain to me the purpose of giving the silent treatment to someone who enjoys silence? I’m still trying to grasp that.

☆彡 Mark’s reaction to playing NiGHTS into Dreams for the first time: “Were you on drugs as a child?”

Yes, Mark. Yes.

★彡 Liking two characters that hate each other can get really overwhelming at times.

☆彡 What is this bullshit about Drag-on Dragoon 3 not coming to the US? Stop playing, Square-Enix.

★彡 Looking back on your past self and feeling shame isn’t pleasant, but it is definitely something to be grateful for. I mean…look at yourself 10 years ago and imagine being that person 10 years from now. Even more cringeworthy, isn’t it? Improvement is difficult, and it may bring embarrassment, but living a life where you never improve is a very, very, very, very unfortunate life.

☆彡 If I open up to you about something and you act like a judgmental prick, I will never open up to you again. I won’t even tell you what I had for lunch. That’s how much faith I lack in your ability to treat the information I give you with tolerance and understanding.

★彡 I hope when I learn a second language that its native speakers will be honest with me and tell me when I am saying something wrong. Or if it is just an outdated way of saying something. Anything constructive is good.

☆彡 The time I put aside to play video games consists of going through my pile of shame, recalling why I temporarily abandoned a game, and abandoning the game again. And this goes on and on until I just grab a random game. It’s also likely that after abandoning a game for a long time I will overcome a hump that frustrated me. It always happens.

★彡 The true challenge with sketchbooks is remembering to take my time, leave mistakes alone, and stop trying to tell a story. I still treat every drawing I make like some type of art project for school. I’m still not used to the idea of just….drawing a cup because I feel like it, you know? That is something I am teaching myself slowly but surely. Or re-teaching myself. There was a time when I could just draw a pokemon and be content. Nowadays, though, I am likely to spend the entire day trying to portray some type of story behind the pokemon I’m drawing and just become frustrated. In the end, it is always me against myself.

☆彡 Life without Toonami Aftermath is not a good life. I know this because life after Toonami was not a good life.

★彡 LIGHTNING IN CLOUD’S UNIFORM WITH A BUSTER SWORD.

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…I can’t handle.

I have to go.

I’m going to tackle some video games. I’m also considering a Bulma layout but Daenerys. Yeah, let’s Daenerys.

Tonight is also curry night! Yessss~

And thunderstorms! Yessss~

072: I Go Humble

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☆彡 It’s always fun being told by others what I prioritize in my own life. You know, because someone who wears the same $20 beat up sneakers for years is really bothered by the idea of not having $500 high-fashion shoes. I think what I’m going to do with people like that is find some random thing they’re not even interested in, and shame them for not being interested in it. Just to show them how moronic their mentality is. Then when they look really confused and point out that they’re not even interested in the thing I’m shaming them for not being interested in, I’ll hand them a card that says: “Congrats! You finally get it! It only took 500 years!”

★彡 Quick reviews of movies I saw recently: Mama was a disappointment, Cloud Atlas was as interesting as it was complex, Teddy Bear is everything I hope to find in an independent film, and Dancer in the Dark was depressing. I’m also getting into Welcome to the NHK and Revolutionary Girl Utena. Not movies, I know, but I still love them both. I will start on Steins;Gate soon. I saw the last Berserk movie and I am officially done with the eclipse and even everything pre-eclipse. So…yeah…if it’s Berserk and it’s not related to the Millennium Falcon arc and beyond then I don’t want to watch or read it. Now if you’ll excuse me, I’m going to think about that third film and weep.

☆彡 Shoutout to Daniel for letting me know that Fable 3 was free with XBox Live Gold. I know for a fact that I would have missed out on that because I always do.

★彡 I burned water today. I should get a sticker or something for that.

☆彡 I wish I had a dollar for everytime someone played on the fact that I don’t speak much by telling me that I talk too much. 

★彡 So, my 3DS is now a portable game system, camera, sketchbook, diary, pedometer, and mp3 player. It’s basically my life. Oh, and I watch Netflix on it if I’m stuck somewhere lame that happens to have wifi. So…it’s safe to say that I’m attached to it. Still deciding what to name it though. I’m slightly set on Utena.

☆彡 The same people who pressure me to “come out of my shell” are the same ones who judge me relentlessly when I do. It really sickens me that some individuals are so eager to be hateful that they will drag individuals out of whatever environment they enjoy just to hurt them. I will never understand why some humans are so amazing that it fills me with happiness for days, and others are such absolute shit that it makes me wish I didn’t have to live on this planet with them. There never seems to be an in-between.

★彡 I really have nothing to say about the Paula Deen ordeal. Racists are foolish and they’re never saying shit.

☆彡 *casually puts “Giant”, “Black Ocean”, and “Leave Me Alone” by Imeruat on repeat until the end of time*

★彡 Thursday, before Mark left for his trip, I cried nonstop. It was a mess. Seriously, we were eating dinner and then out of the blue I started sobbing and eating at the same time. Not cute. I promise. Then when he was actually gone, I had a meltdown–just crying and crying and crying all of Friday. Then around Friday night, I stopped crying and I’ve been pretty calm since then. Actually, on Saturday he kept sending me messages to see if I was okay and I had to tell him: “YES. I’M FINE. PLEASE GO ENJOY YOUR TRIP AND LET ME WATCH ANIME.” LOL

…But I really miss him. I’m sure I shut off my emotions because I didn’t want to spend this entire time crying, but the moment I see him again, I’ll probably cry again. He’s the Guts to my Caska. We are just…nauseatingly inseparable. Even on the phone, we both talked about how strange it feels. It’s that feeling I get when I leave the house and I left something important behind. I’m likely to spend the entire day dwelling on it not being there with me. It just feels really unsettling…and it kind of makes everything less enjoyable as a result. Bah, getting teary eyed. I’m going to move on to something else…

☆彡 I can watch this video for hours. It’s so perfect:

★彡 On one hand, I believe everyone has the right to be angry and frustrated sometimes. On the other hand, I don’t believe I have the right to be angry and frustrated at all.

☆彡 It disturbs me that bullying a person can become such a cultural norm that those who don’t bully them are encouraged to. After I told someone that I don’t think it’s right to body shame Kim Kardashian (not that she needs a reason to gain weight but…you imbeciles making fun of her do understand how pregnancy works, right?), she told me: “Kim Kardashian is a piece of shit. You shouldn’t feel bad about making fun of her.” …Really? And what are you for making fun of a pregnant woman? Not a piece of shit?

★彡 The Sonic The Hedgehog 2 OST gives me life.

☆彡 Bjork’s best album, for me, was definitely Homogenic…actually…Debut. No. Vespertine. FUCK.

★彡 The following video game characters are ruining my life:

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In other news, Emilia Clarke is still ruining my life. Every time I see a picture of her, my reaction is pretty much: “Can you not?”

☆彡 Don’t embarrass yourself by threatening to terminate your relationship with me if I don’t do what you want. If you’re the type of person who constantly tries to control me, there is a 100% chance that I’ve been waiting for you to get lost long before you considered the thought.

★彡 I like having clean hair, but I hate washing my hair and conditioning my hair and letting it sit for so many minutes and then washing it again and then drying it and then straightening it. It’s like…two damn hours just to get my hair clean and manageable. That shit gets me heated. Don’t even tell me to go to the salon because I cannot put into words how much I hate other people touching me. So, I don’t do salons and massage parlors or wherever else I have to pay someone to make me uncomfortable. *sigh*

☆彡 “Santi-U” scares me, yet I listen to it constantly. Why?

Well, I can bitch and moan all I want but I have to wash my hair. Stat. So, I’m going to go do that. Perhaps two hours is enough time to come to a decision about getting Nights: Into Dreams on XBox Live. Because I’ve been thinking about it for such a long time. Perhaps I’ll spend my other 400 points on Fable 3 shit like new hairstyles and dog breeds. OR I can get another game. Hmm…okay, sure. Why not.

069: The Feminine Abyss

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☆彡 I was going to say something perverted in honor of this 69th entry, but I’m just going to leave this gif of Nami twerking while Batman watches instead.

★彡 I love that scene in Tron: Legacy when programs are being derezzed left and right, and Daft Punk just casually changes the music to match the chaos going on. I think the next time I am forced to witness a fight, I’m going to pull out a turntable, put a Daft Punk helmet on, and start playing “Derezzed”. I’m adding this to my bucket list right now to be honest.

☆彡 Since maybe late middle school, I wanted to join the military. I gave up on the dream around high school when I received a lot of negative feedback about that decision, but I never stopped thinking about it. I still wouldn’t mind joining the Air Force or National Guard. I know the age limit for the National Guard is 35, but I’m not sure about the Air Force. I’ll look into it and, of course, start training if it becomes something I absolutely want to do.

★彡 Mark and I got through the Justice League and Justice League Unlimited series pretty quickly. No surprise there. We’re on season 2 of The Walter Bishop Show Fringe right now and definitely enjoying itmostly because of Walter Bishop. He is precious.

☆彡 You know what’s fun? Slow internet connection! I never get tired of that!

★彡 I always wanted to buy an RV and just drive around with someone for a year. Perhaps I’ll do that with Mark when we retire someday. Or we’ll hit the jackpot and do that before we get old.

☆彡 There should be a time limit on illnesses. After a week, the body should just say: “Okay, you had your fun, flu. Now get the fuck out.” If only.

★彡 My favorite thing to do after a crappy day is take a long shower. As silly as it sounds, I imagine that the water is washing away the negative aspects of my day and giving me a chance to start fresh again.

☆彡 Had a Minecraft scare. The recent update effed up my file something fierce, and for some reason it kept loading as a brand new game. So, I had to delete the game before re-downloading a new copy. That scared the crap out of me. I’m almost done with this fortress I’m working on AND I got a lot of diamond, so…yeah…glad everything is working out.

★彡 Wrongdoers who cannot live with the evils they commit will often belittle their victims for not “letting it go”. It’s easier that way. By blaming the victims, wrongdoers don’t have to focus on the fact that they are capable of doing the same evils their community and morals consider unacceptable. Furthermore, they can remove the burden of guilt out of this paradoxical excuse that the victim deserves the harm (s)he received because (s)he will not “let go” of the harm (s)he received.

☆彡 Two more weeks until Star Trek: Into Darkness! I really can’t wait anymore. I feel like I’m going to just spontaneously combust from excitement. ;_;

★彡 If there is a holiday coming up and it’s not Halloween, I don’t care.

☆彡 I am not responsible for feelings hurt because of how I look. It’s my fucking face. What do you want me to do? Tear it off so you can rest easy at nights? Get the fuck out of here.

★彡 Another scene I love before I go: that scene in Scott Pilgrim VS The World when Matthew Patel starts singing and Stacy Pilgrim goes: “What?” always kills me. I watch this movie almost everyday. It’s a little sad at this point. XD

 

Okay, going to upload some drawings I did. I’m practicing but I’m still not happy enough with my drawings to do things like commissions and whatnot. I’m getting there though. With each new picture, I am happier with my skills.

 

066: Proton

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★彡 Okay, Tuvok, stop being perfect.

☆彡 I know I already made a big deal about this, but DRAKENGARD 3. Also going back to a previous entry, if Drakengard is full of sick fucks and NieR is full of dying people and the team of both games will be working on Drakengard 3 then will I run into sick fucks who all die? Huh… Something to prepare myself for. Also, how in the fresh hell am I going to get a Playstation 3 to play it?

★彡 I discovered Paint Tool Sai, but my drawing tablet is still kaput and coloring with my mouse is not happening. Yay! I’ll just study some more tutorials for now. Also, the marker tool in Paint Tool Sai is perfect! I really want to color my stuff with it…

☆彡 Wow, Data is playing this game and it is three layers of The Legend of Zelda juxtaposed on this grid. I see what you did there, Star Trek. Also, “USS Yamato” and a group of people called “Nausicaans”? Do I sense possible anime fans on the Star Trek team? That is actually really cool–sharing mutual interests with the creators behind one of my interests.

★彡 The truth is that I have zero patience for redundancy, and if something more interesting comes along I will likely move towards it. This is true for everything from school to relationships. Of course, I should define what redundancy means to me since it can vary from person to person. I am fine with doing the same thing repeatedly so long as I am given the freedom to use my own “system” of handling it. For example, writing. Writing is very redundant. You press some buttons or write some words, move to the page, repeat. However, the fact that I can write about anything I want and in any fashion I want makes me enjoy writing. If someone told me that I had to write about a piece of gum every single day–and nothing more than this piece of gum–then I will move on to something else. Socially, I carry this same attitude. I enjoy socializing with people who can discuss a large variety of subjects without bringing them back to the same point (“Let’s talk about TV followed by trucks” “Let’s talk about TV followed by trucks” “Let’s talk about trucks followed by trucks”). If I am stuck with a person who is incapable of expanding beyond a tiny range of topics, I will instantly become uninterested. In short, I bore easily. I don’t really have the patience to deal with anything/anyone that I cannot extract information or inspiration from. This topic reminds me of J.R.R. Tolkien’s quote: “I warn you, if you bore meI shall take my revenge.” Just replace “revenge” with “leave” and this quote becomes extremely true for me…because I will literally leave anything that is too tiresome for me. (Let us classify this one under both ADD and INTJ problems)

☆彡 I am determined to tackle two recipes this week: Che Chuoi (sweet soup composed of banana, tapioca pearls, and coconut milk) and Goi Cuon (Vietnamese cold spring rolls) with peanut sauce. I am a complete klutz when it comes to Asian recipes, though, so I really have to do my best to not screw this up. I still have moments of silence for the sushi I tried to make last year.

★彡 Our ten year anniversary is in exactly one week, and Mark’s birthday is three days after….and I have no idea what to do.

Yikes

Well, I know I’m taking Mark to see G.I. Joe: Retaliation. That’s a definite. Other than that, I don’t know. I guess we can chill and eat steak and watch movies or something. LOL. It worries me how indifferent we are sometimes…but then we become indifferent about being indifferent, so…

☆彡 (1)Atlas Shrugged is a fictional book. Any person using it as some type of tool to solve real world problems is silly. (2)Ayn Rand was not perfect and neither was Atlas Shrugged. Being a fan of Ayn Rand and/or Atlas Shrugged is not a declaration of their perfection. (3)Many Atlas Shrugged fans were fans of the book before it became some type of right-wing manifesto or before they knew it became some type of right-wing manifesto. Basically, enjoying Atlas Shrugged =/= conservative right-wing affiliation. (4)Believe it or not, it is possible to read a book and not agree with the actions or mentality of the characters. If one reads Darkly Dreaming Dexter, is (s)he supporting murder to rid society of dangerous individuals? If one reads A Game of Thrones, is (s)he supporting the use of deception, sex, and violence to gain power? I don’t agree with many of the characters in this book, and I didn’t finish the book with a: “Wow, I must use this book to shape my own life” mentality. It’s just a story. It’s about people I don’t relate to in a society that doesn’t exist with conflicts I may never have to face. It’s very different from my world. That is what makes it interesting. What I mean to say is that I like books that make me think, and Atlas Shrugged makes me think. I have learned that digging into the personal life of an author/artist is not always a good idea. It adds filters that should not be used when viewing a story for what it is–just as story.

★彡 I’m either going to replay Twilight Princess or Tales of Symphonia this weekend. More than likely, Tales of Symphonia. I have yet to play the sequel, so maybe this replay will be a good way to segue into it.

☆彡 Costco is selling that Samsung Galaxy Note for $100 less than other places. Now I just need to pull $400 out of nowhere to get it!

★彡 Link and I have a mutual need to annoy the hell out of one another. I don’t expect anyone to understand our relationship, but after a long day of provoking we get as affectionate as a detached person like me can get with a detached animal like a cat, and that means a lot to me. I love my furry buddy. TT____TT

☆彡 Mark and I found a book on how to be a pimp in the self-help section of Barnes and Noble. That was great.

Alright, I’m out of things to add.

I can’t wait until tomorrow. I get to finish the second season of Game of Thrones, finally! There are some other good things happening tomorrow, too, so I am pretty excited. I should probably calm my tits though. Getting overly excited about things makes me way to antsy before the actual exciting event happens. XD

I’ll end this entry with more Tuvok because I never get tired of his sassy expressions.

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058: Norwegian Wood

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☆彡 I don’t have a singular thing that I chase nonstop. I prefer to be a Renaissance woman, learning one thing after another whilst improving the abilities I already have. This is also known as jack of all trades yet master of none. Don’t get me wrong. There are some things I would love to master, particularly drawing and the piano, but I see myself feeling regret over not doing something as opposed to not perfecting something.

★彡 I am finally getting into Being Human (UK). I didn’t think it would be campy or upbeat, but I didn’t see it getting so…dark. It probably has a lot to do with the fact that the characters are sublime. The moment I met Annie, George, and Mitchell, I instantly found myself attached to them. I should really stop doing that: getting attached to fictional characters who have a 100% chance of dying.

☆彡 I’m reading Kafka on the Shore again. I absolutely love everything Haruki Murakami writes. If I could be half the author that he is, I’d write all of the time. But I’m not. 😦

★彡 I could eat fettuccine alfredo topped with parmesan forever. But I shouldn’t. But I want to. ; ____ ;

☆彡 Final Fantasy XIII-2 has reminded me of my fascination with theories about time and different dimensions. It is probably why I attached to works like Ocarina of Time, Chrono Trigger, Chrono Cross, Donnie Darko, and Doctor Who so quickly. *_*

★彡 Most people I come across loathe rain, snow, and pretty much any weather condition that isn’t sunny. I don’t get it. I like sunny days too, but each weather condition has something cool about it. Even foggy days have this…mysterious aspect to it. I like it. It’s the closest I can come to an adventure while drinking tea under a blanket.

☆彡 It’s comical that we live in an age where not giving away every detail of your life equals you hiding some type of dark secret. This is the curse of living in a time of social networks. People have forgotten how to filter themselves. People used to be like Christmas morning. You used to have to wait and unwrap layers of them before you saw the surprise underneath. Now, people just toss everything they are into a digital box and dump it on your feed. It’s…unsettling. It’s exactly why I stopped using my real name on social networks. I really didn’t want to know that the girl I used to talk to about Yu Yu Hakusho in art class had to take a shit, or that she bought new panties that she just had to pose for her friends list…family members included *shudders*. That is too personal for comfort. The only person I know IRL that I am comfortable seeing naked (or might-as-well-be naked) is Mark, and even then I am not comfortable with knowing anything related to his wastes. Excuse me for being uptight and not wanting to see everyone’s genitals and excrement. Really, I’d rather not be around others, but when I do find someone interesting I want to know him/her in an “old-school” fashion. We talk. We hang out. We get close enough to go beyond chit-chat. We become very good friends. THEN we maybe talk about things like bodily functions and undergarments. Otherwise, hide, delete, or (if they become whiny after being hidden or deleted) block.

★彡 SNESbox.com is amazing. I’ve not only played games from my childhood, but I’ve also played games that I wanted to play in my childhood but couldn’t because they were never released in the US. Oh, yeah. And games that weren’t released in the US, but I played them once I learned about emulators in my adolescence but then that computer crashed with all of my saved files…and the RPG maker game I worked on for years…and all of my stories….*teardrop* Nostalgia is a strange thing though. It starts off with a tinge of sadness but flourishes into so many other pleasant recollections. I am happy to have things like these. They are fail-proof methods of having a good day…or turning a bad day better.

☆彡 Speaking of awesome websites, StumbleUpon is awesome. It’s like going to school for free minus all the bullshit you already know or don’t want to know. Learning is fun. 🙂

★彡 I don’t own a single Beatles, Daft Punk, NieR, Maxwell, Wu-Tang or Radiohead album. Plenty of MP3s, but no albums. I really have to fix this. The thing is that I own exactly zero CD players. I could just use a game console…but it’s not the same. Oh, well. I’ll probably invest in a stereo one day, and start building a CD collection again. It’s all very old school in the age of iPods, I am sure, but…it’s nice to just pop in a CD and let it all play.

☆彡 No, I’m not offended by that Volkswagen commercial. Non-Jamaicans speak patois all the time, and say random things that they think Jamaicans say all the time. It’s not something most Jamaicans are infuriated over. It’s just typical “Yankee” antics, and most will laugh at it or consider it flattery. That’s about it. In my opinion, we were portrayed in a good light. Most shows and sketches portray Jamaicans as really relaxed and easygoing individuals. What are we going to say? “Stop making us look happy!” I promise that all that anger is coming from politically correct Americans. As usual.

★彡 Mark and I approaching ten years together, and we have no idea what to do. We’ve been throwing around the idea of a proper wedding ceremony, but the moment we take out a pen and paper to start planning we feel…bleh. We don’t even plan parties, better yet attend any. How are we supposed to plan a wedding? Honestly, I’m leaning more towards a proper honeymoon — one overseas, if possible at all. Yeah, that would be sweet. Seeing how things look now, though, we’ll have to push that to our wedding anniversary rather than our first-day-of-being-in-an-official-relationship anniversary. For that one, I think we’ll just stay home and do fun things. Butt things. I’m joking about the butt things. We don’t do butt things.

☆彡 A moment of silence for the people who have known me since time immemorial, yet they still try to change the aspects of me that have not changed since they first met me. May whatever god(s) you pray to bless you with brain cells.

★彡 If you ask a dumb question, I have to give a sarcastic answer. It’s automatic. I can’t stop it. And by dumb question I don’t mean: “I don’t know how to do this. Can you help?” No question like that is ever dumb. If you don’t understand something and I do, please ask me. I’ll be happy to help. But questions like “Would it hurt you to smile more?” or “Are you too good to sit with us?” will always get a response along the lines of: “Yes, if I smile my face will split in half and I’ll die,” or “Well, I’ll have to check my meter. Chances are my goodness will be off the charts, and I won’t be able to sit with you now or ever.” Things like that.

☆彡 I found out today that it is okay to lie in Buddhism. As long as the lie is to keep peace or prevent someone from facing harm, it is considered an honorable lie.  For example, people who lied during World War II to keep Jewish families safe. Those are definitely good and honorable lies. So…I can understand that. Obviously, though, doing terrible things to a person and lying is never okay. Even if people will say things like “I lied about deceiving you to spare you pain” or “I stole because I needed it badly”. Not okay.

I’m off!

I’m working on a project that is probably too ambitious for someone as inconsistent as I am, but it’s fun. It revolves around anachronism. Just thinking about it makes me extremely excited. I haven’t started a project this large since…high school, maybe? It’s just been Mythos and me for a very long time. And random short stories for writing contests. But that’s about it.

I hope to post some things related to that project soon.

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