087: Schemata

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Protect Drakengard protagonists at all costs!

✪ Personal Life ✪

Let me begin with this: I fucking hate mosquitos and learning that there is one in my home from all the itchy welts that popped up out of fucking nowhere is irritating as fuck. It’s fine. Link will kill it soon enough. Bye, Felicia.

Outside of mosquit0-loathing, life has been…hot. Every year I tell myself I will not cut my hair in the summer, and every summer I find myself standing outside of barber shops and contemplating it. This year, though, I will hold off. It’s a pain to become dependent on bands, clips, and pins for the next 2-3 months but…anything beats a sweaty neck. I mean, sweating in general grosses me out but when the back of my neck is sweaty it makes me want to scream. Another fine example of me being overemotional about silly things, but completely unemotional about the things I am supposed to express some feeling towards. *shrug* Oh well.

Ah, what else? Debating about getting another cat. Our only concern is Link. He is very territorial. There are many times when he’ll claim something of ours as his own and he’ll bite us if we try to take it. Yep…big ol’ adorable douchelord. LOL.

My microwave and stove decided to die at the same time. Yay!

The final thing. This probably belongs in the art section, but fuck it. My new obsession has become decoden. It started when I was looking for some cute covers for my 3DS, and it ended with me realizing that I could make my own covers for 1/4 of the average price. All you really need is a clear plastic cover for like $2 on Amazon and some decoden with glue. Websites like Sophie & Toffee offer a huge variety of inexpensive decoden. I love all the pearls, rhinestones, diamonds, and bows. Anything pink with leopard-print is cute too. It’s all really fun. I would recommend it to anyone who wants to decorate their phones, handheld consoles, laptops, etc. Of course, practice is necessary. I am a colossal newbie so I am still working hard and refusing to show anything in public until I am happy with it. When I am through, though, I would love to possess the skills to make something like this or this. Ah! Cutesy things will be the death of me! *_*

That is all for now. If I find any other weird hobbies to get into I’ll post about it. XD

 

✪ Art & Writing ✪

Art has been…technical. A lot of maps. A lot of poorly sketched cities/towns. Things like that. The more I work on Mythos, the more I realize that a world that massive needs a bit of planning before I start delving into the story.

Speaking of story, I somehow went from a set title and a set amount of books to pretty much tossing it all in the air. At this point Mythos is just a working title because Odin is no longer the main character. In fact, he does not even exist until the second book. The biggest premise of Mythos now is Elda’s life over her 1,000 years. I would like one book for every 100 years that she lives. Naturally, Telluria changes a great deal over the course of the story. It starts off Westeros-ish, turns Ivalice-ish, and then becomes heyday Zanarkand-ish before it all goes to shit–much like Zanarkand. LOL

Still…I am worried that I am biting off more than I can chew. Writing and reading about immortals or anyone else who lives for a very long time is enjoyable. That is all that matters, right? Enjoy it and write the type of story I would want to read.

✪ Anime & Manga ✪

In terms of anime, It’s been 1990s Sailor Moon, Sailor Moon Crystal, Knights of Sidonia, Sword Art Online II, and season 2 of Free. Oh, and Dirty Pair. I haven’t seen that anime in years, so it is nice to rewatch Kei and Yuri being the adorable failures that they are. LOL. Manga-wise, I am still waiting for another Berserk update. I am trying to find another manga to get into but nothing has really piqued my interest. Oyasumi Punpun kind of wore me out emotionally by the time I was done. This time around I want to read something more upbeat like a shoujo manga. I’ll do my hunting later. -.-

 

✪ Video Games ✪

I downloaded FFVII on Steam for five bucks, and that has pretty much been my video game life ever since. I also managed to get Sonic 2 for $3-4 but that Chemical Plant Zone level pisses me off like nothing else. It has been this way since time immemorial. The first time I played Sonic 2 like 5,000 years ago I zipped through Emerald Hill Zone, got stuck on Chemical Plant Zone for like five days, and zipped through the rest of the game once I managed to beat it. WHY. What messes me up are those blocks that disappear and return, and those moving platforms that I always miss. So my dumbass always end up falling in the ocean and drowning. Fun. *sigh* Oh, well. At least I am still a somewhat natural at FFVII. Really, it is just an RPG at the end of the day. Unless you just suck at forming strategies then RPGs are usually child’s play compared to other types of video games. At least to me.

Um, what else? Portal 2 is on sale too! $6! Of course, it’s great to see that GLaDOS is still a raging asshole.

Yep… Summertime is the best time for poor/cheap gamers. So many price reductions! ♥

The cheapest way to enjoy games though? Youtube. I live on Youtube because of all the game walkthroughs on there. The first one I buckled down and watched was Drakengard 3. Yeah, I couldn’t wait anymore. I am not getting a PS4 any time soon. Anyway, I loved it! Zero is my queen! Every time she said something I just had to sigh and say: “You’re amazing, Zero.” LOL. In type Drakengard-Nier fashion there were different branches to the story. I want to say branch A is the “true” branch because it pretty much explains the start of The Cult of the Watchers in Drakengard, but branch D seems like the best one to me. Besides, the novella pretty much confirms –SPOILER: the existence of One’s brother— so the fact that he does not show up in branch D does not mean that he does not exist. Also, I like any branch where — SPOILER: Zero and Mikhail survives.  Overall, not bad at all. I haven’t watched any of the DLCs yet but I will.

Beyond, DOD3 I watched Burial at Sea and Deadpool as well. I want to watch Lightning Returns but the playlist has like 90 40-minute videos. Fuck it. I’ll watch it then move on to Assassin’s Creed 4 and Tomb Raider. Once I get the funds I’ll actually play some of these games. They look so fun! BTW: I recommend GameOXO. (S)he plays well and there is no annoying commentaries to deal with. I know some people like commentaries but…eh. Only a few people are actually funny. Other ones are just meh. It depends, I guess. I hear a lot about pewdiepie but I haven’t watched any of his videos yet. I’ll try.

Okay, that wraps up gaming. Lots of good games to play/watch, so I’m happy in this department! ^_^

 

✪ Music ✪

I’ve been listening to the same stuff on repeat. As usual. I do like Lana Del Rey’s “Ultraviolence” album a lot, but that’s pretty much been it.

 

✪ TV & Movies ✪

AJ Lee is back. Y2J is back. Roman Reigns is still the fierce king of my soul. Yep, all is good WWE-wise.

As for Game of Thrones, that season was…meh. If it is true that they’re going to wrap up the show without waiting for GRRM to release the last two books then I am really worried. The liberties they took so far have been pretty disappointing. It is not even a stay-true-to-the-book thing because some shows and movies can better then the books they are based on. It is more of a “Okay, so you’re really going to do that?” thing. Maybe it will all piece together. We’ll see.

I’m still into the 2011 Journey to the West TV show from China. The same goes for the JttW movie from Stephen Chow. Yes, this has been a very JttW year though some of it has been disappointing. Oh well. Can never get enough Sun Wukong.

Saw the new Transformers movie. Let’s just say that if anyone ever wants to torture information out of me feel free to play that movie on a neverending loop. 😐

Yeah…that’s about it. Tonight I plan to watch “Extant” because (a) Halle Berry plays the main character, and (b) it’s a sci-fi TV show with an interesting premise. Let’s see how that goes.

 

✪ Whatever Else/Closing ✪

My birthday arrives in nine days. *shudders* Yeah, once I hit 25 birthdays stopped becoming fun. I mean, Mark is 30 next year. My bb is getting old, and I’m always two years behind him. Blah. What can I do, right? All I want is to improve as a human being every single day. I’ve learned that it is pointless to say things like “I want to ____ when I’m 27!” or “I better have _____ when I’m 30!” Life is one of those things you can never plan for. Looking back, I had books upon books of plans that ended up in the trash because life pretty much said “nope” and curb stomped every plan I had without mercy. I am done with destinations and deadlines. I have dreams, I have goals, and I have infinite means of becoming a better person. That is the best I can do.

…By the way, I am already receiving the dreaded: “Oh, you’re turning 27 this year? When are you going to have a baby?” questions, and it makes me want to break my face on a brick wall. Please stop. ;_;

All of that said, I am off! Lame entry–or at least lamer than the usual lameness. I know.

Take care~

058: Norwegian Wood

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☆彡 I don’t have a singular thing that I chase nonstop. I prefer to be a Renaissance woman, learning one thing after another whilst improving the abilities I already have. This is also known as jack of all trades yet master of none. Don’t get me wrong. There are some things I would love to master, particularly drawing and the piano, but I see myself feeling regret over not doing something as opposed to not perfecting something.

★彡 I am finally getting into Being Human (UK). I didn’t think it would be campy or upbeat, but I didn’t see it getting so…dark. It probably has a lot to do with the fact that the characters are sublime. The moment I met Annie, George, and Mitchell, I instantly found myself attached to them. I should really stop doing that: getting attached to fictional characters who have a 100% chance of dying.

☆彡 I’m reading Kafka on the Shore again. I absolutely love everything Haruki Murakami writes. If I could be half the author that he is, I’d write all of the time. But I’m not. 😦

★彡 I could eat fettuccine alfredo topped with parmesan forever. But I shouldn’t. But I want to. ; ____ ;

☆彡 Final Fantasy XIII-2 has reminded me of my fascination with theories about time and different dimensions. It is probably why I attached to works like Ocarina of Time, Chrono Trigger, Chrono Cross, Donnie Darko, and Doctor Who so quickly. *_*

★彡 Most people I come across loathe rain, snow, and pretty much any weather condition that isn’t sunny. I don’t get it. I like sunny days too, but each weather condition has something cool about it. Even foggy days have this…mysterious aspect to it. I like it. It’s the closest I can come to an adventure while drinking tea under a blanket.

☆彡 It’s comical that we live in an age where not giving away every detail of your life equals you hiding some type of dark secret. This is the curse of living in a time of social networks. People have forgotten how to filter themselves. People used to be like Christmas morning. You used to have to wait and unwrap layers of them before you saw the surprise underneath. Now, people just toss everything they are into a digital box and dump it on your feed. It’s…unsettling. It’s exactly why I stopped using my real name on social networks. I really didn’t want to know that the girl I used to talk to about Yu Yu Hakusho in art class had to take a shit, or that she bought new panties that she just had to pose for her friends list…family members included *shudders*. That is too personal for comfort. The only person I know IRL that I am comfortable seeing naked (or might-as-well-be naked) is Mark, and even then I am not comfortable with knowing anything related to his wastes. Excuse me for being uptight and not wanting to see everyone’s genitals and excrement. Really, I’d rather not be around others, but when I do find someone interesting I want to know him/her in an “old-school” fashion. We talk. We hang out. We get close enough to go beyond chit-chat. We become very good friends. THEN we maybe talk about things like bodily functions and undergarments. Otherwise, hide, delete, or (if they become whiny after being hidden or deleted) block.

★彡 SNESbox.com is amazing. I’ve not only played games from my childhood, but I’ve also played games that I wanted to play in my childhood but couldn’t because they were never released in the US. Oh, yeah. And games that weren’t released in the US, but I played them once I learned about emulators in my adolescence but then that computer crashed with all of my saved files…and the RPG maker game I worked on for years…and all of my stories….*teardrop* Nostalgia is a strange thing though. It starts off with a tinge of sadness but flourishes into so many other pleasant recollections. I am happy to have things like these. They are fail-proof methods of having a good day…or turning a bad day better.

☆彡 Speaking of awesome websites, StumbleUpon is awesome. It’s like going to school for free minus all the bullshit you already know or don’t want to know. Learning is fun. 🙂

★彡 I don’t own a single Beatles, Daft Punk, NieR, Maxwell, Wu-Tang or Radiohead album. Plenty of MP3s, but no albums. I really have to fix this. The thing is that I own exactly zero CD players. I could just use a game console…but it’s not the same. Oh, well. I’ll probably invest in a stereo one day, and start building a CD collection again. It’s all very old school in the age of iPods, I am sure, but…it’s nice to just pop in a CD and let it all play.

☆彡 No, I’m not offended by that Volkswagen commercial. Non-Jamaicans speak patois all the time, and say random things that they think Jamaicans say all the time. It’s not something most Jamaicans are infuriated over. It’s just typical “Yankee” antics, and most will laugh at it or consider it flattery. That’s about it. In my opinion, we were portrayed in a good light. Most shows and sketches portray Jamaicans as really relaxed and easygoing individuals. What are we going to say? “Stop making us look happy!” I promise that all that anger is coming from politically correct Americans. As usual.

★彡 Mark and I approaching ten years together, and we have no idea what to do. We’ve been throwing around the idea of a proper wedding ceremony, but the moment we take out a pen and paper to start planning we feel…bleh. We don’t even plan parties, better yet attend any. How are we supposed to plan a wedding? Honestly, I’m leaning more towards a proper honeymoon — one overseas, if possible at all. Yeah, that would be sweet. Seeing how things look now, though, we’ll have to push that to our wedding anniversary rather than our first-day-of-being-in-an-official-relationship anniversary. For that one, I think we’ll just stay home and do fun things. Butt things. I’m joking about the butt things. We don’t do butt things.

☆彡 A moment of silence for the people who have known me since time immemorial, yet they still try to change the aspects of me that have not changed since they first met me. May whatever god(s) you pray to bless you with brain cells.

★彡 If you ask a dumb question, I have to give a sarcastic answer. It’s automatic. I can’t stop it. And by dumb question I don’t mean: “I don’t know how to do this. Can you help?” No question like that is ever dumb. If you don’t understand something and I do, please ask me. I’ll be happy to help. But questions like “Would it hurt you to smile more?” or “Are you too good to sit with us?” will always get a response along the lines of: “Yes, if I smile my face will split in half and I’ll die,” or “Well, I’ll have to check my meter. Chances are my goodness will be off the charts, and I won’t be able to sit with you now or ever.” Things like that.

☆彡 I found out today that it is okay to lie in Buddhism. As long as the lie is to keep peace or prevent someone from facing harm, it is considered an honorable lie.  For example, people who lied during World War II to keep Jewish families safe. Those are definitely good and honorable lies. So…I can understand that. Obviously, though, doing terrible things to a person and lying is never okay. Even if people will say things like “I lied about deceiving you to spare you pain” or “I stole because I needed it badly”. Not okay.

I’m off!

I’m working on a project that is probably too ambitious for someone as inconsistent as I am, but it’s fun. It revolves around anachronism. Just thinking about it makes me extremely excited. I haven’t started a project this large since…high school, maybe? It’s just been Mythos and me for a very long time. And random short stories for writing contests. But that’s about it.

I hope to post some things related to that project soon.

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