Entries, I Make That.

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I’m back~

And, no, your eyes aren’t foolin’ you. It is still May. I told you I’m a failure. *flips hair sassily*

I have (semi) good reasons though. One, we switched IPs and the internet is 100 times faster. So…I had to try it out. HOW COULD I NOT. Before this challenge, it took me a good 10 minutes to download one song. Yes, it was that terrible. But now it takes less than a minute. That’s just…crazy awesome. Two, I just found out like…yesterday…that we were going to have a three-day weekend. So, it’s better to tackle this TL;DR entry now while I have plenty of time than to wait until the first of the month when I’ve have at least one million errands to run. At least. Also, I have a strong feeling they’re going to make me work that Saturday.

Okay, excuses aside, I’ll provide some quick updates on what I’ve been doing for the last…er, 25 days…I think. Prepare for a fuckload of pictures. If your internet is as sad as mine was…I’m sorry, son.

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Iron Man 3 was great! Outside of my butthurting about the route they took with The Mandarin and lack of Fin Fang Foom, I enjoyed it. I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again: Robert Downey Jr. was born to play Tony Stark. Like…if anyone played him I’d probably lose interest in the movies. I can’t wait to see him in the second Avengers movie (He is coming back, right?). I especially loved the end of the credits with Tony and Bruce. Gotta love the science bros!

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It’s always a pleasure to see my bb Benedict Cumberbatch (or Benadryl Cabbagepatch as Mark called him). I still think choosing him as Khan was a poor casting choice, but that is not a comment on his acting skills or general magnificence at all. And that voice. *melts* I’m probably a Cumberbitch as this point but only because he really is a great actor who should definitely consider voice acting too. I’m still thinking about that voice right now. Wow. Back to the movie. I enjoyed it. It was fun…which I guess was the point of it.

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Ignore the obnoxious time stamps for now. I don’t really know how to remove them from Mark’s digital camera and I’m too lazy to research it or crop it out.  Back on point~ made my first Gundam model. I tried some before but Mark helped me with it. So, it didn’t really “count” to me. This model, on the other hand, I did entirely on my own. It. Is. The. Greatest. Shit. Ever. I want to move on to the super huge ones that can actually fit a pilot figure inside AND requires painting. *rolls up sleeve* Aw yes~

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Save for the plushie (I got that for Christmas from my big sis) and the cross-leg posing Sailor Moon (got that like…yeesh…3-4 years ago?), I went a little Sailor Moon crazy when I got my model kit. It was RIGHT there in the same store. I couldn’t say no. I was so close to buying the Sailor Moon tote…but I behaved myself. The first two pictures belongs to the same folder–the first is the front, the second the back. When I’m going to someone’s house or work, I like to slide a few blank papers in there so I have something to draw/write on when I’m bored. As for the keychain, it came with the lanyard, circular keychain thing (what is that shit called?), and an ID badge. I praise that ID badge everyday because I always leave my work badge behind or I rummage through my wallet and purse constantly to find it. Massive pain in the ass, but not anymore of course.

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Speaking of work, I managed to get my hours changed. So, no more 9-5 for me. I now work 11-8…which is awesome because I get an extra hour of work a week that I didn’t get before. Now I can stay up all night and even shop late at Wal-Mart without 90% of Atlanta in my way. Yay!

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Nail polish has always been one of those “pretty to look at but I’ll never wear that shit” type of things until recently when I found some galaxy nail polish. It looks very familiar to the type in this picture. It’s not bad at all. I might actually stop trimming my nails now and let them grow so I can put more starry polish on it. >_>

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I ran across Kelly Osborne’s issue of Self, and she looks amazing! Look at her rocking that purple hair. GURL. Okay, I’m sorry. LOL. Anyway, I’m not writing to state the obvious to anyone. I’m writing because she talked about Hoopnotica in her magazine, I decided to try it out, and I’m hooked. I can’t put into words how much I hate exercising, but any exercise that is fun and takes my mind off of counting time is considered a plus in my book. Try it out if you haven’t already. It’s more fun than running on a trendmill for 45 minutes. I promise! Speaking of exercise:

I dance to this song at least three times a day. It is FUN. I am not kidding when I say I have this entire routine memorized from dancing to it so often. Just Dance, in general, is extremely enjoyable and I can’t wait to get the kinect version. For now, I’m using the Wii version. It is no joke. Wii Mote or Kinect, you can work up a sweat with this game. No complaint there. I got some work to do. *pats gut*

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And since I’m on the topic of weight loss, I discovered A Black Girl’s Guide To Weight Loss and I’ve been going there religiously. She is amazing! More than amazing, she is sensible, intelligent, and brilliant. The best thing about her site, aside from her insightful view on black culture–something most WL sites never discuss–is the fact that she is completely against fat shaming. While I’m all for a good get-your-shit-together pep talk every now and then, it’s annoying having to hear constantly that I’m supposed to hate myself because I’m fat. How about no. My belief on fitness coordinates with Erika’s: it should be about rewarding yourself with a body that runs efficiently and keeps you strong, not punishing or shaming yourself. I am glad to find someone who motivates everyone to find their own positive motivation rather than excuse the prejudiced actions and words of fat-phobic individuals. It’s rare, unfortunately, but to find such a rare source of assistance is fantastic. So, gotta share that! 😀

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I took up a short assignment with Millstone Coffee to make some extra cash (GETTIN DAT CHEEDUH) and they gave me unlimited coffee to drink while I was helping them and, wow, that shit is amazing. I am hooked on their coffee now. I am never going back to any other brand again…except for those 3-in-1 Vietnamese coffees at H-Mart and Assi. I live for those, son.

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I tried agave nectar once and…yeah…my bag of sugar went in the trash after that. LOL. The next thing for me to try is Stevia. I hear amazing things about it but I haven’t tried it yet. Still killin’ that agave nectar.

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The in-laws gave Mark and me a Ninja blender a while ago, and it’s been in storage the entire time…until this month. I decided to put it together a few weeks ago. Boy, am I putting it to work! I love making smoothies. In the mornings, especially, I am hungry, in the mood for something sweet, and not in the mood for anything hot thanks to this weather. So, I just toss some spinach, apples, strawberries, banana, and whatnot in the Ninja. It keeps me full and energetic until lunch. Speaking of lunch…I have a problem.

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FUCKING FETA CHEESE. I’ll probably eat dirt if you sprinkle some feta cheese with it at this point. LOL. This addiction has actually worked to my advantage. I am more motivated to eat things like spinach and salads with a little bit of feta sprinkled into it. I’ve yet to make sandwiches out of it (I hear it’s amazing), but I’m planning to this weekend. I got my boneless chicken, my wheat bread, my spinach…gonna make me a ghetto panini. Just gonna grill that shit on a frying pan. XD

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I’ve been drawing a lot. Some I scanned, but most are still in my sketchbook. Whatever I scanned is on my deviant art right now…and I’m too lazy to upload them all here. Sorry. I am really getting back into the swing of drawing. It feels natural again. That’s the only way that I can put it. I’ve been putting more emphasis on noses and lips when it comes to my drawings, and I don’t mind that at all. I love anime eyes so I really have no intention of changing that. Nose and mouth, on the other hand, I’d like to be more detailed. I’ll probably upload some drawings over the weekend. I’ll probably also start on an art-only blog at some point too.

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I am so obsessed with my color pens. My goodness.  You can probably see some of that in the above artwork. Luckily, you can’t see it in my diary and doodles. It’s pretty bad. I’ll probably wear them out before long. I should probably stock up on them in bundles!

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I weep for my drawing tablet. Look it. It was broken for so long that we started using it as a coaster. Now it’s working again post-duct taping and the cup stain won’t come off. LMAO. Mark is right. I really need to invest in a new drawing tablet at this point. So, that Note fund has turned into a Wacom fund now. It makes sense. I am an artist before I am a techie, and an artist without decent tools is like a mechanic without decent tools — still skillful but frustrated as hell from doing everything the hard way. Anyway, I’m saving up for that and Paint Tool Sai. My trial ran out so it’s time for the real thing. I don’t mind GIMP but it isn’t PTS. D:

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…Do I really need to say anything? I mean:

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He’s also shy IRL. And he also plays World of Warcraft. *melts* I feel like Mako-chan at this point because every other second I’m ogling at some random celebrity or fictional character and going: “He’s so dreamy~”. Sometimes, I’ll even say: “He kind of looks like Mark~” the way she thinks everyone looks like her ex-boyfriend. LMAO. Yeah…that’s gold.

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I can’t finish DX:HR because I don’t want to hurt Yelena. My mute goddess. *embraces creepily* Also, I’m pathetic when it comes to espionage games so…yeah. My tactic to sneaking in is to go wherever the fuck I have to go and shoot anyone who sees me…which is pretty much Yelena’s tactic too. HIGH FIVE.

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My phone situation was very Cloud Strife before (rarely answer calls or texts, just listen to voicemails/read messages) but now it’s very Vincent Valentine (phone is always missing or broken). So, I’m pretty much done with the phone situation. I gave my phone to Mark to use as mini-tablet thing and my number is gone. So, it’s not even Vincent anymore. It’s very Red XIII, I guess. Or possibly Sephiroth because you have to do some odd summoning ritual to get in contact with me at this point.

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WHO MADE UPDATES WHILE I WAS GONE.

That was my exact reaction to finding updates on this game a few days ago. It’s going to be amazing. Also, yes, I have heard about the whole XBox One fiasco and I’m not amused. I don’t know what the hell Microsoft is thinking but, then again, Windows 8 should be a fine indicator that someone isn’t thinking at all. If you’re in a business and you don’t listen to your consumers then you might as well kiss them goodbye…which seems to be happening. I can’t say anything much about the PS4 or even the Wii U because I have very little hands-on experience with either. The PS4 for obvious reasons, the Wii U because I just haven’t gotten around to it. If I do buy another console within the next year it will more than likely be a PS4 tbh. One, Drakengard 3. Two, The Witcher 3. Three, Final Fantasy Versus XIII. Four, download PSX games. We’ll just have to see how things play out in terms of gaming news but, once more, not amused with the XBox One. Sorry.

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 Finally sat down and watched every single NGE episode and movie in existence. Yeah, it’s awesome. Of all the disturbing scenes, though, I am still creeped out by Shinji masturbating to Asuka while she was in the hospital. Seriously, Shinji, what the fuck?

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After doing some serious cleaning, I found PS1 and PS2 memory cards that are completely empty. So, I’m replaying the fuck out of everything! The gif of Nikki rocking the fuck out is completely relevant because Chrono Cross is on that list of replays. I abandoned a replay I made maybe a year ago, so I’m working on that again. I’m also working on some Gamecube games. I lost the memory card for the GC, but I found that too while doing some said serious cleaning. METROID PRIME ALL FUCKING DAY.

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Literally me (LOL), but buying Wii Fit Plus was a great choice. Of course, it made my original copy of Wii Fit obsolete but no matter. I really enjoy the new activities. Yoga, as always, is super helpful and the strength training routines do exactly what they’re supposed to do. I can feel dem abs beneath my gut. I’m probably going to lose weight and looked ripped as fucked. Wow, that will be awesome. Sorry. Off topic. I love this game. The one feature I’m thankful for is the comparing food to calories burned feature. It’s both sucky and eye-opening to learn that almost 30 minutes of slaving through an obstacle course burned one chocolate bar. ONE. That alone made me toss out like half the shit in my cabinet, so Wii Fit Plus is doing its job. XD

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This movie…wow. That’s a good wow, but also a that’s-pretty-fucked-up wow. The lesson I took from this movie is that you should always be yourself, regardless of the characters who will attack you and everyone around you for your decisions. Some might argue that Mima’s “real self” is who she was during her pop idol days, but I have to disagree there. Our society tends to exalt the “pure” aspects of individuals while simultaneously punishing them for their “dirty” aspects. But humans are both perfect and imperfect in many ways. Mima can play an innocent pop idol, but she can also play sexually-charged roles as an actress. The immoral individuals in this movie, as far as I am concerned, were the ones who focused too much on keeping her “pure” (Rumi, Uchida/Me-Mania) or making her “dirty” (Murano). It’s always empowering to see a character go through half a movie screaming and crying, and then make a complete 180 to become confident in the end. Overall, Satoshi Kon’s genius showed itself in this movie, as it does all of his works. He is still missed immensely.

Man…I don’t know what else. Lately, it’s just been a lot of IRL responsibilities, Gaki no Tsukai marathons, replays, drawing, working on stories, a bunch of health-related progress, movie and dinner nights, anime and dinner nights, book collecting, wishlist making, and stuff. That’s about it. I’ll probably touch on those and whatever else I forgot in my typical shooting star entries.

That’s about it! Now to get back in the swing of things…

‘Til next time.

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063: Paradise Circus

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★彡 THE HYRULE HISTORIA IS PERFECT.

It’s as if someone handpicked every pleasant memory I shared with this series, and placed it into a 300-paged  hardcover book. Going through the Hyrule Historia for the first time was definitely a moving experience for me. To this day when I am faced with something that is too painful for me to handle, I play a game from The Legend of Zelda series and I find my center again. It is a fairy tale that grows with me, reminding me that the most unexpected people–even an orphan who constantly oversleeps–can change the world if he finds the courage to. Moreover, each version of Link and Zelda is a reminder that no matter how intimidating the villain or the sadness you face, you can best it with intelligence and bravery. I love that message. I love this series. I love the Hyrule Historia for putting everything amazing about The Legend of Zelda into this nifty textbook, and allowing fans to carry it wherever they go. It goes without saying that I am inseparable from my book. I plan to re-read it several more times. I swear, each time I read it I come across something new that I didn’t notice before. It’s incredible! If you’re a fan of the series, I cannot recommend this book enough. It is just as important as any The Legend of Zelda game you have in your collection. The moment you can get it, GET IT AND DON’T LOOK BACK. I promise you will have no reason to look back. It is flawless! Okay, I’m done with my effusive adoration for the Hyrule Historia…for now.

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★彡 I sometimes get an overwhelming urge to drop hundreds of dollars on random hobbies of mine, but I don’t. Anything over $20 is always carefully planned. Perhaps that makes me a penny-pincher. Then again, cheap is really my only option. I am practically penniless. If I spend even $50 carelessly, I will pay for it in the weeks to come. It doesn’t bother me to live this way. I believe this type of life trains a person to handle money better, and I’d rather learn this lesson while I am young.

☆彡 Jansen (about Kaim): “He probably wasn’t breastfed.” LOL. He is such an ass sometimes….most of the time. I love the cast of this game. I love this game even more. Mistwalker did a fantastic job with it! If only Square-Enix would take a page from their book, and let go of this self-indulgent “let’s try to be hip” path they are taking Final Fantasy down. I am doing my best to remain a loyal fan, but it’s sad that I am beginning to like Square-Enix games for a few characters and songs rather than the stories and worlds like I used to. It really is heartbreaking. I would do anything to go back to those Squaresoft days when Final Fantasy was just as major to me as say Zelda. I’m just not feeling it these days…

★彡 It still fucks my mind that there is a new Sailor Moon anime coming this summer. My mind is equally fucked by the re-release of Wind Waker too. This is too much. TT__TT

☆彡 I am so drawn to mori (forest) fashion.

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As odd as it is to say, this type of fashion reminds me of the person I truly am. Yeah, that is definitely odd to say…

★彡 Of all the logical fallacies out there, argumentum ad populum has to be the most irritating. You cannot speak for an entire group of people without speaking to every individual within that group. Majority opinion is not synonymous with unanimous opinion. Most does not mean all. Why is this so difficult to understand?

☆彡 Weight loss is more about need than want. I don’t want to lose weight, but I need to lose weight. I need to be self-sufficient when I am older. I need to avoid as many illnesses and setbacks as possible. So, if it is true that being overweight is setting me on a one-way trip towards dependency then I need to change. It’s the only logical path to take at this point.

★彡 My old TV is completely shot. Instead of images, I just see a black screen. The audio works fine though. At this point I should just get rid of it but I really want to break it open and start exploring the insides. I might as well. It’s not like the TV can get any worse.

☆彡 If and when I do return to school, I am going to study either science, programming, or art. It’s what I should have done in the first place, but I was so caught up in the illusion of “career” to realize that it’s better to work towards a position in a limited field than to work in a field with plenty of positions that you have zero interest in. Ah, the joys of being young and reckless then paying for it in the future.

★彡 When people ask me why I am quiet, I am tempted to give them a long drawn out story that involves fantasy creatures because it really is a stupid question. Do I ask you why you talk? No. Because you have the right to talk, the same way I have the right not to. It’s as simple as that.

☆彡 I’m usually passive about layout changes on websites (especially since I change mine every millisecond), but live/hotmail changing to outlook has just been a nightmare for me. I don’t like it at all. I’ve been doing my best to show patience with the format and technicalities, but it has just been one headache after another. *sigh* Gmail it is.

★彡 Pet Peeve #220: Finding a crack or tear in something, and having no idea where the hell it came from. It’s one thing if I drop a cup and it chips because I know why the chip is there, but if I am pouring tea into a cup and then I notice a chip there, I’ll become very annoyed. I don’t mind if things are imperfect so long as I understand why.

Honestly, outside of the Hyrule Historia, I really don’t have much to talk about. Hopefully, more interesting things will happen in the near future. By interesting, of course, I mean interesting enough to talk about. My gaming and movie marathons are extremely interesting to me, but that doesn’t translate well in a blog.

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046: Pagan Poetry

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Oh shit! I’m actually naming my entries now! *explosion*

I’m sure it’ll be 90% song titles. Relative-to-my-life song titles…but song titles nonetheless. Yep. Time for updates:

☆彡 My first update entry with a title would be Bjork. I’m so obsessed with her. I was legit terrified of her during my younger years, and Pagan Poetry was the video that made me afraid to watch any more videos from her. I was a spineless child. LOL. Now, I find so many fragments of myself in her lyrics and videos. I’m still emotionally shattered because I haven’t tried her Biophilia app. It’s only on iTunes, and I don’t own anything Apple at the moment. This is so traumatic, guys. I can’t continue on that topic any longer.

★彡This is seriously how I see The Big Bang Theory:

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☆彡 When I listen to “Heaven” by Annabel, I think of this final-episode-of-CowboyBebop type scenario where this person is running through this building, just taking out motherfuckers…but it’s a melancholy version of taking out motherfuckers. Basically, the protagonist knows that (s)he is either going to die, or the person (s)he is about to kill is someone (s)he truly cares for, but the person is a motherfucker and has to die. A~nd this is why people should stop asking me what I’m thinking when I gaze off into the distance.

★彡 I saw a TV commercial for “The Hobbit“, and it was too much.
Random fact: Watson and Sherlock will be in The Hobbit movies. Martin Freeman (Watson) is Bilbo Baggins while Benedict Cumberbatch (Sherlock) will play both The Necromancer and Smaugh. Also, did you know that Benedict Cumberbatch fangirls call themselves ‘Cumberbitches’. I cannot even with that fandom name. I’m gone. *buys a plane ticket and takes a long flight somewhere else*

☆彡 When I find myself in a workplace where two or more people are trying to form a social bond with me, and I am not even remotely interested, I will try to set those two or more people up with one another. Usually, I start by telling person A that person B is great in some fashion. Then, once I pry a compliment from person A about person B, I will tell person B the compliment. When it comes to more people, I basically rinse and repeat until everyone is a part of the circle wank of flattery and friendship.

Of course, there are two downsides:

  1. If anyone in that circle begins to hate another person in that circle, I get dragged into it because I’m the neutral/side-not-yet-determined person who also brought them together in the first place.
  2. If anyone in that circle starts to dislike me and wishes to waste my time because of it, I have a group of people willing to waste my time since the circle wank of flattery and friendship leads to collective thinking when done for too long.

Being calculating is hard. When done without complications, though, it is pretty nice.

★彡 Mark and I are debating if we should just not buy each other gifts, and put all the money towards a new XBox 360. Considering the pile of shame we were successfully tackling before the system broke, it would seriously be a gift that continues to give. Also, if we have extra cash, we can pick up Portal 2 or something for $20, and enjoy it even more.

☆彡 Wal-Mart had these Halle Berry perfume samples, and I accidentally sprayed one right in my face. Then Mark sprayed me in the chest with the other one like ten seconds after. So, for an entire day, I smelled like Halle Berry. If the world ends, I can say that I have lived my life without regrets or unaccomplished dreams.

★彡 This song. Fuck…

☆彡I don’t know what to contribute to the endless chit-chit I hear about actors and actresses starving themselves for movies except that it puts me to shame. It really does. There are human beings out there with so much self-control that they will live on one meal a day for a movie role, and I can’t even eat three healthy meals a day for my own health. *sigh*

★彡 If I picked up a copy of DDR tomorrow and jumped around this place like a fucking trampoline, I would not even feel remotely bad because both of my neighbors obviously enjoy tap dancing with brick shoes on their free time. So, what’s a little skip and hop on my end? I doubt they’d hear it between the cacophony of jumping and screaming that goes in within their madhouses.

☆彡 I created my own “language” by basically putting three fictional languages together. It’s hardly a language. It’s just a lot of ciphering, and non-existent grammar rules that don’t exist in actual languages. It’s great for writing things you don’t want other people to read. When it comes to speaking the so-called language though…it sounds terrible. 😦

★彡 The Hawkeye initiative is the best thing that happened to the internet.

☆彡 My grammatical weakness, of all things, are homophones. How silly is that?

I feel so ‘bleh’ today. I think a flu is coming on. I wish I had some orange juice. I’m not talking about that $1.49 orange juice. I’m talking about the good shit. That $5.99 Simply Orange that will change your life.

That type of orange juice.

For now, I will settle for Lemon Ginger tea. -.-

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As happy as I am to finally have a full-time job, it is tiring. Or maybe it is tiring because I am taking in so much information and new changes in one week. Either way, I am exhausted! It’s only 10:30 p.m. but I am already ready to sleep. This is good. It’s far better than my usual 2-3 a.m. time.

Well, I’m going to head out. But, before I go, some pictures! This has been a fairly cool week. >_<

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Sorry about the sideways pictures, BUT CHECK THIS SHIT OUT! After months and months and months of searching, I finally find a Barriss Offee action figure. I am not opening this. Fuck that. But I will leave it on my wall so I can admire her forever.

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Creeper Khajit. It tickled me, so I had to take a picture of it.

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My goal is to have enough Buddha-related things to fill many rows of empty shelves. So, if you see anything Buddha- related please let me know. It will bring me a ridiculous amount of happiness.

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Last but not least, my LARP (Live Action Role Playing) Diet center. If it’s LARP Diet related, I tack it on the wall or I put it in the box on the ground below the picture. Didn’t take a picture of that…since it’s just a box full of crap. LOL. In RPG fashion, it does involve a lot of guidelines, and a lot of math, but it is fun. You can probably see Barriss hiding between my board, and the jellyfish poster XD. The board has the “30 Things To Stop Doing” on it since I believe that physical health is damn near impossible without mental and emotional health. I read this aloud every morning and every night. It…”centers” me. I don’t know how to explain it. It’s like the day pushes me over, and this poster turns me back to my proper position. I’m very happy that I did this.

What else…? Oh, there is that chart with my measurements. Luckily, you can’t see my measurements there because the quality is so bad. Fufufufufu~ I’ll end up posting all of that crap at some point anyway. The way I see it, if I am too ashamed to say my measurements out loud then maybe it’s time to change my measurements, you know? -_- Either way, working on that. You may see that my deadline is Halloween, and you may also see the random video game ladies scattered around the board. These are the women I want to dress up as for Halloween. So, that’s my motivation. I also need a picture of Korra at some point, but I’ve yet to print one. I will soon.

Okay. That’s about it. I’ll post more pictures and updates later. Especially E3 updates. I’ve been keeping up, but it’ll take HOURS to sum up how I feel about everything. So…this weekend, I hope.

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☆彡 Bucket List: Part One

  • Own a motorcycle (and ride it daily)
  • Watch the entire Sailor Moon series from beginning to end in one sitting
  • Have $5,000 in my savings account
  • Finish a sketchbook
  • Meet the Dalai Lama
  • Meet Nobuo Uematsu
  • Travel to Canada
  • More cats
  • Not live in Georgia anymore (fuck I hate this place)
  • Learn Japanese or Esperanto
  • Attend E3 or Comic-Con at some point in my life
  • Go to bed before midnight every night (yeah right…)
  • Road trip to Seattle
  • Get a black belt in some form of martial arts
  • Buy a house
  • Get paid to draw
  • Finish a Pathfinder or D&D campaign
  • Write a book

☆彡 I promised not to speak lowly of myself or say untrue things to make others feel better. The way I see it, any person that expects me to bash myself so they can feel better is not a good person to be around. A good person to be around would support me. So…no thanks. Exchanging my confidence for a person I don’t really care about is a terrible trade.

☆彡 It is already April, yet Mark and I haven’t started a ‘The Matrix’ or ‘The Lord of the Rings’ marathon yet. I don’t know. I guess I’m more focused on The Legend of Korra, Game of Thrones, The Walking Dead, and a bunch of other shows I am missing because I lack cable. No excuses, right? I just need to lurk moar.

☆彡 Metric. Black Sheep. Help, I’m Alive. That is all.

☆彡 Finished Catching Fire today. I can’t believe the book just ended right there. *falls in a slow circle and dies* Oh well. I’m going to visit the library tomorrow and cross my fingers for a copy of Mockingjay.

☆彡 My sleep schedule is so stupid right now. I’d do just about anything to get to bed and wake up at decent hours. -.-

☆彡 I like speaking to people who succeed at losing a lot of weight (50 pounds or more) because they’re real. They’re not celebrities who secretly hire trainers or hire chefs to cook for them. They’re everyday men and women on limited budgets and time. I’ve picked up a lot of tips over the years, but in the end it really comes down to motivation…or, in my case, finding out why I am so intimidated by weight loss. I guess I already know the answer. I just don’t know how to face it properly. Long story short, I dealt with a lot of stalking, sexual harassment, and unpleasant things like that when I was thin. I didn’t intentionally put on weight to protect myself from that, but I did find that food was comforting and that being fat stopped a lot of harassment I faced. But, as someone told me, food is not my friend. It is not therapy. It is not filling any voids I have. It is just fuel. And she is extremely right. Eating junk is not going to make me happy in the end. I just have to take advantage of the thick skin I obtained over the years, and do what I have to do against people like that. I can keep practicing karate, and not only use that to get fit, but to also protect myself. I am not trying to come out of this as thin as I used to be. Being skinny is not a priority to me. More than anything, I want to be strong. That is why I am so obsessed with weight lifting, I guess. If I can train myself to bench press 150+ lbs. then I can probably grab someone by the neck and toss them aside. That’s more of an inspiration to me than bikinis and skinny jeans. I guess that’s weird, but what else is new, right? ^u^

☆彡 All of the unexpected bills Mark and I have been dealing with lately have been both a blessing and a curse. A curse because having more bills than money is never a good thing. But it’s a blessing because it forces us to lead a more humble life. The truth is that Mark and I do not enjoy indulgence. We’re always talking about moving to an isolated village, growing our own food, and living off our land. That’s the type of thing we consider paradise. But we fall into the same trap that a lot of people fall into. The I-need-it-now-or-never trap. It really makes us spoiled. Sometimes I think back to how we used to be when we were first going out, and what little we had between each other, and it makes me realize how much we’ve changed. I don’t want to become a slave to money, trinkets, and first-world luxuries, you know? Even if I win the lottery, I want to pursue that life we dream about where I work hard for the things I have.

☆彡 Spectrum Nexus had a prank for April Fools’ Day. They released a Berserk manga update, but when you go to read the manga the image won’t load. It’s just blurry and it says: “Loading error. Please try again later.” Of course, my first instinct on April Fools’ Day is to trust no one and nothing. So, I already went into the Berserk manga thinking: “Let’s see how this turns out,” but a lot of people were FURIOUS about it. The site owner even had to apologize for it. This only reaffirms what I already know: Do not fuck with Berserk fans. They are not playing around. If you say you have something Berserk related and you’re lying about it…prepare yourself. LOL. Seriously, I can imagine ‘Sign’ playing in the background the moment someone lies about a Berserk update. Then I can imagine the furious Berserk fan pulling out Guts’ sword out of nowhere and cleaving people in half. Yep. That may actually happen someday. Once more, do not fuck with Berserk fans. XD

☆彡 Going through Dark Souls withdrawal. *weeps phantom tears* Why do I love you, Dark Souls, when you’re such a dick? ;-;

☆彡 For some reason, my eyebrows are growing very thick after I shaped them up last time. I was going to shape them up again, but I realized that I am better off with thick eyebrows. Neat eyebrows are great for people who are very meticulous about how they dress…but I’m fairly tomboyish. I don’t think a tomboy with neat eyebrows is a great combination. At least not for me. LOL. Besides, I’ve been introduced to the whole ‘ulzzang’ culture and most of those girls do nothing to their eyebrows. And they still look incredibly pretty! Here’s an example:

Of course, I’ll have to pluck stray eyebrow hairs that like to grow in random locations. Like, seriously, right above my eyelids? What are you smoking, eyebrows -_-? Otherwise, I’ll leave it as is.

☆彡 Since I’m on the topic of beauty, I would really like to learn makeup one day. No time soon, but in the future. If I am going to attempt makeup then it has to be subtle. No neon green eye shadow with purple lipstick and bright red blush. I…I can’t do things like that. It has to look as natural as possible. The only thing I’ll use generously is maybe mascara and eyeliner. Even then it won’t be like…raccoon generous. Just enough to know it’s there. Once more, in the future. Far future. When I am confident with doing things like that. Right now, though, I have to focus on one thing at a time. Beauty will get my time when I’m ready.

☆彡 I keep thinking about how great it will be to finally attend art school. It’ll be expensive, yes, but leaving art school with the ability to do things like 3D renditions, animation, and character design…it’s really exciting! It’s one of those things that will help me career wise, and hobby wise. I guess the only thing to do now is wait. Have patience. See how things turn out. Then, once it all begins, put my best effort and do not slack off. Not even for a second. I’m sure that if I keep this mentality from start to finish I will graduate with impressive skills. Maybe impressive enough to work for big companies like Blizzard, Bioware, Square-Enix, Nintendo, Gearbox, LucasArts and Bungie. Who knows? I may be able to branch off into movie, cartoon, and comic books. An artist is an artist is an artist. Well, I’m not going to wait around until I graduate to make an impression. I’m going to draw everyday — all day — until my fingers fall off. Then I have to reattach them, of course, because I need them. But in the end I’ll be better! *pose*

Okay. That’s it. I’m going to go to bed. Not even remotely tired but…I’ll attempt to straighten this sleep schedule of mine out the best I can.

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☆彡 I finally started on Turn A Gundam. So far, it’s very good. I can’t stop laughing at the Turn A Gundam though. A Gundam with a mustache? Yeah, that’s going to take time to get used to.

☆彡 I am taking a break from drawing people. I want to focus on things like landscapes, inanimate objects, coloring techniques, buildings, weapons, armor, mechs, vehicles, and whatever else comes to mind. I’ve been trying so hard to separate from this anime style that I have, but my hand instantly does what my mind is used to. So, I’m going to draw things that my mind is not used to. Easy enough, eh?

☆彡 I have an everlasting pile of books I need to finish reading…and three more on the way from Amazon. They were great deals! $0.02 each! But…yeah…it is probably safe to say that I have a book problem.

☆彡 Lately I’ve been thinking about returning to college for art-related reasons. I’d like to take up a course that will get me up to date with the most trusted graphic design softwares, and also teach me other useful skills. Mark told me that most web design courses will teach me how to use art softwares for website graphics, so I might just get into that. It’ll also help me with designing my online portfolio, you know? I’ll see. I’m checking out several places right now, but I’m really liking Full Sail University.

☆彡 Three people I’ve known for a long time (two my entire life) are getting married. I’m so happy! Everyone is growing up so fast ;___;! But this means that I really have to get in shape, and do something about my terrible…everything. I don’t want any of the brides to get asked: “Who is that creature in row five?” LOL. So, as of now, I plan to do four things religiously: drink water, lift weights, wear masques, and take vitamins. Mostly weightlifting. It’s good to know that I won’t bulk up unless I take hormone-manipulating drugs, so I am lifting weights and strength training like a motherfucker. It’s one of my favorite things to do.

☆彡 I’ve decided to become a monk in Pathfinder. It took me centuries to decide…but I’ll be a monk. Now, on to the stat sheets and I’ll be set.

☆彡 Japanese is going along well, but I really don’t like kanji. SERIOUSLY WHY ARE THERE SO MANY OF THEM. I read somewhere that it is also difficult for Japan natives to learn kanji too, so I guess I shouldn’t beat myself up too much about not catching on quickly. It’s funny. Every time Mark and I come across a manga or anime that isn’t translated, he turns to me and shouts: “WHAT ARE THEY SAYING?” Keep in mind that I’ve only been studying for a month, and I just barely understand spoken Japanese, hiragana, and katakana. LOL. Glad to know I’ll be of use to someone once I am fluent in Japanese though. Actually, I’d like to translate animes and mangas when I learn everything, so maybe I’ll help others too. 🙂

Later. ♥

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